#deep meaning

(Vent post)

I Wish I Could

By : Jamie

I wish I could tell you

Tell you how much I miss times like those

The lump of coal in my throat

Sat stubbornly there.

Waiting.

Waiting to do its job

For the times I stand there

At the edge of a frozen lake

Finding the best time

To block my vocal cords

I wish I could tell you

How I sat there oblivious

Unaware of the knot I had to untangle

The knot only getting tighter

And tighter

And tighter

Until it completely snapped

And nothing could be done

I tried tape

Couldn’t hold well

I tried glue

Didn’t dry good enough

I wish I could tell you

How it was like being there

With you

Sitting there

Being the compass in the fog

The fireplace in the winter

But eventually

The fog became thick

And i lost the compass

But eventually

The fire went out

in just one cold gust of wind

I wish I could.

TW! TW! ‼️ descriptive self sacrificing through self harm (I DO NOT CONDONE)

I just want to shed light on the hidden pain, shame, guilt, & internal conflict we carry within ourself.

I desire to touch the sky,

but my wings aren't strong enough

for me to fly.

I have the best feathers,

Strings for the feathers to tie,

but I'm too lazy to make them

and too coward to try.

Sometimes I fail to make them.

They remain incomplete, torn,

not perfect to be worn.

Sometimes there's a hole in the wings

And when I fly,

I fall, becoming wingless,

Again on my bed I lie.

I believe, I hope,

A day will come, when I'll have the biggest

and the strongest wings,

For me to fly high.

For that day to come, I must keep working on my wings.

Every second counts,

I must accept every tear,

Every single wound.

All I need is patience,

And a little strength,

Along with some dedication,