It was a good weekend. So nice to see Polo, Erika and Ralph. All of them really. Polo’s room is really cool. I’m happy it is working out. Tera Melos and Minus the bear were great. There was a Christmas Parade diring the start of the show so it was packed around the Glasshouse! Drive today was good. Ate way too much chicken shack, but it was all I ate so that's good. I did end up drinking last night. A fruit cider at lunch, then an IPA and Jameson and coke at the show, red ale and a stout at Erika’s work, I know I’m okay with talking to people. I definitely would have talked to her more if Polo wasn’t there.

Cont on 12/8

I have my Grandma and Mom, and Mel done, just need to get Dad’s, Zeb’s and Makayla’s. Which should be easy. Tomorrow at lunch. I’ll look for an exercise bike and weights. Possibly have to get the pads at big Five or sometime. Then I can start working out. Do the 5x5 strong something. It’ll be easy to find. Wake up at 5:00am no snooze Plz! I’ll just get a drip coffee black from or maybe just get some. I’ll get some tomorrow with other groceries. Should be good. Get stuff for lunch!

Cont on 10/13

So, for the white elephant party. I have an idea to take pictures in the bath. Could be funny. The test pic I took looked great, but I think I can do better for sure. Probably can figure out how to say hey google, take a picture, and it’ll take one. Probably already has a voice command built into the camera already. I’ll check it out either way. If I don’t do the picture. I’ll get something figured out tomorrow. I wander what I’ll weight tomorrow. Friday I was at 203, and I did eat a lot this weekend so we’ll see. I really have to kick it up a notch If I want to loose the weight. I can do it though. I’ve done it before. I can do it again. No eating out and eating food at home keep it under 1500 calories with working out. Goa of losing 10lbs er month. Under 200 by January 1st, under 190 by February 1st, under 180 by March 1st and stay around 175lbs with working out. I should be looking pretty good. Just in time for summer! how hiking.

Cont on 10/12

I got $2400. The comp. is $900, the monitors will be $300. leaving $1200. Exercise bike will be $100 then like $300 for weights leaving $800. I should get the record player and speakers. That’ll be like $300. Leaving $500. I should get my nylon fixed. I will take it over there next weekend. It’ll be nice to be able to play it again. I’ll probably keep it in here and it’ll be my de time guitar and if I can get a piano. That would be do great. I’ll make the note flash cards tomorrow and go through them every day. Till I have them memorized again. Even draw what key it is on the piano to associate the key with a note. That’ll help a ton! I will then start with easy songs and go from there. I’ll try it out not eating, then I’ll try a week of eating before. Wake up 5 eat exercise 5:30 to 6:30 shower and should have like 15 minutes to chill or get lunch ready. Tomorrow. Two Mar Row I’ll do the core exercises as well as the body weight work out think plus some stretching. I’ll be good. Then after is a clean day. I’ll pick up the spare room and laundry room and get them ready.

Cont on 10/9

I’m going to keep FB to help promote my music and possibly set up an IG and start taking more pictures. The camera on my phone is one of the best cameras out for phones and I hardly ever take pictures again. Just take your camera ever where. For reals this time. No more porn forever. I really need to just give it up completely. I can do it. My toy will be here in a couple days and I’ll use it and get off without porn. I’ll work. I was able to get off quickly in the tub last time, and this should be way better. I’m excited. No jerking off till then except for after I finish this writing. No more skipping day writing and reading as well. I spend too much time watching stupid stuff when I should be doing things more productive. I’m going sober this week till Friday. I did it last week and I felt great! Just not groggy or hungover. Feeling good and looking good. I’m going to wait a little while till I try to pursue any body. Not till I feel good about myself. That’s fair to the person that decides to date me. I’m so ready for a relationship!

Cont on 10/8

I wonder If I will ever read this? or if someone else will read it. I’d probably let my significant other read it if we are serious. I’d be okay with it. I should read it at the end of next year to give me time to forget this stuff. and I can compare 2019 to 2018 and see if there was an improvement or not. I bet I do have a picture from the end of 2017 I can compare myself now. I’ll check the camera tomorrow and see what I can find. It’ll be cool to see the difference of 30lbs will make. Regardless. I am very excited about next year. It’ll be another good one! Hopefully I won’t slip up like I did this year. Even though its’ not really bad. It still shouldn’t of happened. It’s not the end of the world though. I’ll have the changes that need to be made and do my best to stick to the.

Pictures from these days