#december thoughts

I asked her if that was fine to which she said "of course"

"Not everyone can have everything...and that's alright by me"

But then her lip made a small tremble

That I pretended not to see

-jm

Deal with the anger.

Meditate.

Talk about you less.

Stop blaming myself.

Not let others talk about you

Take care of my OWN issues first.

Stop believing what You think and start looking at the different picture.

Cleansing out the negative thoughts.

Be patient, let time heal you before the next move.

Don’t fall into other people’s states of minds.

Don’t put anyone out of your heart, even yourself.

Forgive, for your sake.

Let alone last year, which was lived by another, a hazy apparition, a few passages in an unwritten book.

I do not know who will look at me when I look in the mirror, who will look back, will I recognize them? Will they recognize me?

I fear I'll wake to a stranger in my bed, who is so familiar and unknown.

I fear for the friend who I've forgotten, who became so estranged. What was the sound of her laugh? What lessons did she teach me?

And what does it mean when I feel as if I've lost all sense of self?

Like watercolor I've bled out into my surroundings, people, places and jobs. Now there's nothing left

When I look in the mirror.

december two

yet still thinking of you

and hoping to get through

with this torture of loving you

december two

Bring your softness with you.Bring what you’ve learned.Come home to yourself,  that’s enough. 💜