Just wanted to hop on real quick to show some love!!

This little corner has always been my little escape from real life and I don’t even have the words to express how full my heart feels with how crazy this year has been here.

Thank you for letting me share my stories, for reading, sharing and showing unbelievable amounts of love and appreciation for them. For wanting to know more beyond what I post, for your theories, your what-ifs, your comments that make me laugh and smile and feel giddy for days. For telling me how a line lived in your head or how I broke your heart (lovingly).

Telling stories was just a silly hobby of mine that has turned into a passion and I’m looking forward to share more with you this next year 🤍

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for making 2025 so damn special!! Here’s to all the boys I’ve ever loved and I will love, making me write so much haha 🥂 and to all the beautiful people that brightened my days this year 🤍

i want to make a post specifically to my readers and the people who have commented, reblogged, dm'd, sent asks, or otherwise supported me while navigating such severe, manipulative harassment the past week: thank you!

by far, the worst part of this experience has been the victim-blaming. it's so specifically evil and cruel, and traps you. there is no right way to be a victim—no matter how you move, respond, or behave, it will always be wrong. it is so powerful and healing to be believed, which is why being blamed for your own suffering is so insidious. it compounds it. not only do you have to endure harassment and abuse, that's hard enough, but now everyone is insisting it's your fault/you did it to yourself/you're faking it, for all to see. tracking you, trying to poke holes in any way you advocate for yourself: effectively silencing you, intimidating you.

if you keep track of it all? calculated. you don't? it didn't happen. you stand up for yourself? attention-seeking. you keep quiet? you're lying. respond tactfully? saving face. respond with righteous anger, frustration and hurt at being abused? overly emotional and unhinged, therefore unreliable and lying. continue this logic down every last path, because there is no right way to be a victim. it's so fucking isolating and painful. being discredited in every feasible way left me trapped, and needing to rely on people believing me and seeing the pattern in this. which is so fucking vulnerable and scary when facing a smear campaign.

so i want to thank you all for believing me, and standing by me. it means more than any words can express. it is life-saving, life-giving, and so, so needed. and all of that is an understatement. i want to thank you over and over, profusely. it has meant the absolute entire world.

the harassment and victim-blaming has been incessant and traumatic, and for a few days i was worried i wouldn't be able to get back into writing, that it had become too tainted, that these stalkers would constantly monitor me and not let me breathe. i'm literally getting choked up writing this right now, ahhhh !! this entire experience has been so triggering. but seeing and receiving all of your kindness and trust has been the salve i needed. it helped me remember that it's okay and so healing for me to advocate for myself, and taking back the power of my own voice; not limiting my expression and walking on eggshells because of some loser trolls and what they might do. i'm allowed to exist, i'm allowed to speak out, i'm allowed to be hurt by this, and i'm allowed to express that hurt as i feel it. i don't need to be a perfect victim because that's an impossible standard that only aims to oppress. i hope this is a reminder to y'all too if you have ever been in this situation where you've been harassed and abused and not believed, and silenced. you're allowed to have feelings and express them in whichever way is cathartic. you're not overdramatic or 'giving them more ammo'. you're existing in and navigating an impossible circumstance. it's disgusting that people don't believe you, but it's not your job to change their minds. if they're the type of people who want to victim-blame, you won't be able to change their minds, and shouldn't have to bear that weight.

i love you all dearly. i know all of your usernames and every time i get a notif that you liked a post, or commented, or asked, or messaged, i'm so excited. it's been devastating the way many of you have been dragged into this and threatened, just for being here, just for supporting me. so i want to fully acknowledge that, and thank you for persevering with me. let me know if there's anything you need from me, and feel free to dm me if you want to talk about it/how it impacted you! i'm here! and as much as is in my power, i want to create safety here for all of us.