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lisa was a yoga instructor / in 9x13 sam goes undercover as a yoga instructor.

their clothing preferences!

they have moles on their necks, almost in the exact same spot!

!! these scenes from "swan song" !!

also lisa exhibits a strong maternal instinct and dean calls sam 'mom' multiple times.

Every Episode of Supernatural: 54/327

3x10 Dream A Little Dream Of Me, Dean Winchester pt5

summary. when you see Dean for the first time after Sam came back from the cage and you are consumed by anger at the fact that he went back to some fling rather than who was right in front of him (you).

pairing. dean winchester x reader genre. angst, slowburn

word count. 1.7k

warnings. violence, cussing, yelling, mentions of sex, emotional cheating if you squint, break ups and shit, soulless!sam, grammatical errors, lmk what I missed

authors note. mama listened to you oughta know by alanis morrissette a few too many times and thought "mmm season 6 dean x reader..." but anyway its gonna have to have multiple parts,,,, no hate to Lisa or Ben

Currently reading. . . part one — next part. . .

It's like your body freezes when you see him. The memories flooding back to you...

You met dean when you were 21 and he was 26. your dads were hunters and worked together often. but hadn't ran into each other before that. Shit fell apart after you'd graduated college and you ended back in the shithole that was hunting... but you soon ran into Sam and Dean who let you run around with them.

You and Dean got close, naturally... maybe a little too close. Dean held you at arms length, you'd fuck have fun laugh but if you asked about relationships or got mad he was talking to other girls. You weren't his girlfriend by label but you were still his in a way. You two would fool around in unconventional ways, fight, cuddle, make out, fight again. sometimes you'd talk about the future and tell each other the truth but then it went back to lying to yourselves and each other.

When Sam got trapped in the cage, everything just happened. You remember fighting prior, making fun of Cas with Dean. When everything happened Dean and you went to the hospital after lying bloodied and bruised in the field and you never saw him again. You were devastated, wandering around the hospital freaked out. You didn't want to be alone not after this. You were devastated, you both were.

You packed up your life; got an apartment, got a job and hunted on the side, and kept your mind off of Dean.

You didn't know Sam was back. In fact you didn't know until. Him and Dean showed up at your doorstep . . . with a baby? "What the fuck?" you said. You didn't know whether to be mad at sam or dean, maybe just slam the door on them and never talk to them again. You let them in, Dean looked at Sam with a sense of trepidation when he saw your reaction. They walked in and sat on the couch. Some guy you'd been seeing came down giving you a kiss before he left for work "who are they, babe?" he asked with a smile. you introduced them as old friends and your kind-of-boyfriend finally left.

"what a boring guy. . ." dean mumbled to himself. you gave him a nasty look and sam spoke up "he is kind of boring"

"it doesn't matter what he is, its none of your fucking business." you fumed "what do you two even want."

"so what, you're not even going to ask how sam is back?" dean asked you shocked "I really dont care why or how he back, I dont really want either of you here" you said

Dean sighed and then they filled you in on the whole shifter going after baby thing and that they needed your help. you huffed looking at the little guy too log and you agreed. they barely knew how to take care of themselves how would they take care of a baby?

"fine." you sighed and got up to go pack a bag; Mumbling to yourself about how stupid you were, how you never wanted to see Dean again after the way he left you. How embarrassed you felt remembering how he left you in the hospital. how you called him begging him to ask where he was. how he told you to stop calling, or maybe how you'd drink yourself to sleep or fuck someone so you could sleep most nights.

You grabbed your duffle bag from the closet throwing some clothes in there and hunting stuff. once you made sure you had everything you got dressed and came ou. "c'mon. let's go."

why the fuck were you helping them? they've done nothing but cause you pain and heartache. you had turned into the worst version of yourself and now when you were just starting to get better, they are right back at your door step.

Sam got up offering to take your bag and you ignored him motioning for them to get out so you can lock up your apartment. Dean got up and brought the baby out having an internal dilemma. seeing that guy made him. . . angry? why was he so pissed off? He loved Lisa.. or did he? he ran a hand down his face and followed them down stairs to sams car

"well we have to get supplies for it." when you got to the store you and dean were shopping for baby supplies. people kept complimenting you three and told you that the baby looked JUST like the two of you. . . right . . .

dean just said thank you but after the fifth person passed to compliment you blurted out "I'm just baby sitting. I don't even know this guy." You told the woman before walking off with the cart and the baby to the register. it hurt dean to hear you act like that but it hurt you even more that he was accepting compliments from people acting like the two of you were a couple, like you settled down like the two of you always talked about, like nothing changed, it hurt more than that time bella shot you.

as you waited in line, some shifter posing as an old lady, wanted to hold the baby. you and sam were shocked when dean told it he was going to slit her throat not realizing it was a shifter. it tries stealing the baby and dean chased it down. you got the baby back, and sam grabbed the stuff running out to the car. Dean tried to stab the thing, but the security guard pulled him off. so you all ran off to a motel to reconvene. 

"what the hell does a shifter want with a baby anyway??" dean aske. you guys pondered over what the hell a shifter would want with a random baby. until you found out that the baby itself was a shifter. okay weird. Sam needed to run back out and now you and dean were left alone with the baby.

you watched dean take care of a baby and wondering what could've been, he was just so gentle and sweet. unbeknownst to you. . . he was thinking the same thing when he saw you pick up the crying baby. how gorgeous you looked holding a baby. how he wished that the two of you settled down and got married and that baby was yours... stop— no he cannot think like that. he had Lisa and ben and he wasn't going to be this mendacious cheater.

"so James? that your boyfriend or something?" dean asked trying not to seem bitter, like he was trying to make light of the situation. "uh yeah, or something?" You said filled with bitterness. he nodded "and you like that guy?" he huffed when you replied with an "I guess"

"you're better than that, you deserve better" he insisted. "what like you? you fucking left me in a hospital and ran off to play house with Lisa and ben! and now you think you get to tell me what I deserve? cause it sure as hell isn't you." his jaw tightened, and he swallowed. "Lisas helped me a lot, more than you did.

"I watched sam get dragged to hell! I watched Castiel DIE. I watched you get beat the shit out of and I couldn't fucking do anything because I was close to dying myself! so I'm sorry that I was too fucked up to stay with." you yelled.

dean opened his mouth when the baby started to cry. you huffed and picked him up singing to him and bouncing him gently. rubbing the babies back wanting to cry.

"Am I supposed to be happy? What do you want from me, Dean? you want me to be happy for you?" you questioned him angrily "fine then Im fucking happy you left me. and i'm happy you got a well educated, girl that you can father her child" you were so consumed by anger; you knew criticizing her wasn't right. She was a wonderful woman, you've met her, she liked you. This wasn't right.

he opened his mouth there was a knock about yelling and the baby crying but this felt fishy. . . a shifter broke down the door trying to take the baby talking about a "father" which was weird. . . you guys killed it and Sam came back just at the right time. he was acting even weirder.

After the attack the four of you drove to where their grandfather and cousins were staying, just to be safe. you wanted to figure out what the hell was going on and go home already. you didn't want to be here anymore. You sat, holding the baby avoiding dean. then Samuel asked you something.

"how'd you get into hunting?" their grandfather asked. "Our dads were hunting buddies." You told him as you held the baby. He laughed just a bit and you decided then, that you didn't like him, not one bit. "whatsoever with you and D—"

Just then there was a crash and the "alpha" shifter came looking for the baby. You gave him to dean to take him. Then everything was a blur. It had punched you and threw you into a wall, leaving you all bruised and banged up. You woke up to the baby gone and Dean taking care of you in a room alone. "what. . . the baby. . . ?" you looked around "shh its okay, hes uh. . . hes gone. . ." dean tried to sooth you so you'd lay back down

"I'm just trying to help" he said when you pushed his hand away.

"I don't want your fucking help, Dean." you bit back getting up "this was fucking stupid, I don't know why I helped you." you were nearly in tears walking out of there leaving Dean standing quietly looking at you as you left the room.

As you drove back you looked at the cuts and bruises of your face in the side mirror. "you alright?" dean asked touching your shoulder from the drivers seat. "I'm fine" you glanced over to him before pulling away from his touch. he pulled up to your apartment complex, "we're here, so go be with your family." you avoided looking at him and reached for the handle to get out

he stopped you grabbing your wrist gently "you're my family too. . . " he said said your name softly. you teared up feeling your lip quiver, "no— don't you dare I'm n— I'm not yer fucking family. I'm some girl you screwed a few times" you choked pulling your wrist away and getting out grabbing your duffle from the trunk.

he got out of the car, "don't say that," he pleaded "please just listen to me—"

"why? cause you didn't want me enough to stay?" your voice broke "you're a real dick y'know that, dean?" you shook your head, gaving him a nasty look before you walked away.

"FUCK!" he screamed once you went inside. you flinched able to hear him from inside. you felt a lump in your throat and once your reached your unit you broke down into tears

That night after everything happened. . . he felt uneasy. he couldn't sleep, he tossed and turned. he was questioning everything. was that a set up? did Sam used the baby as bait? and what the hell was wrong with him anyway?

Lisa comforted him. she only knew as much as he told her but she knew there was more. then he talked with her about leaving and what the safest option for them would be. she told him to go hunting and come back if he could. they went to sleep that night but. . .

he just couldn't stop thinking about you. . .

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