Johnnie Guilbert Warnings: -suicide talk -Death of someone loved -Sh

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|Y/N's pov|

I woke up at 4am, i had a nightmare or a dream that i wish it came true. i saw him again, i was little, like 8 years old. i still remember the day i knew he died, i was 10, everything went black and never gained colors again. it was like i started to see what the world actually is, like he was protecting me from the world and after he was gone i didn't had a shield.

i looked around looking for Johnnie, he was sleeping next to me, tears started rolling down my cheeks and it was hard to breathe. i was in a battle with myself to wake him up. i didn't want to wake him up for some stupid reason like this, but i needed a hug right now.

i got out of bed and made my way into the bathroom, i grabbed my straightener and turned it on. i started looking for something sharp, i need to relieve myself somehow. that's when i heard a knock on the door.

|Johnnie's pov|

i woke up with Y/n getting out of bed and going to the bathroom, i could hear her breathing kinda messed up but i thought it would be because she was thirsty. i waited for her to come back but she was taking too long and i started to hear some sobs.

i knew exactly what was happening, she was thinking about her granfather again. i felt so bad for her, it hurts to see her like this, i stood out of bed and knocked her door

|Y/N's pov|

"Y/n, i know what you're there for, cmon we talked about this before" Johnnie opened the door not giving me time to answer or act. he turned off the straightener and pulled me in a hug. his hands went to my cheeks cleaning up my tears.

"Johnnie.. I can't... it hurts so much..." of course i knew he had the same feeling and he has experienced everything i am now, but i still felt like no one could feel my pain, like i was not supposed to be understood.

"i know it hurts, i know that exact feeling but hey, take your meds and lets go to bed, well talk better there kay love?" he said and gave a kiss on my forehead. he pulled away from me and turned around to gran my medicine. he gave it to me and i took them. he could feel my hands shaking and me trying to catch air.

he grabbed my hand and brought me back to our bedroom, he helped me lay down the bed and layed with me. "Johnnie i... i want him back... why? why him? he was the only one i could trust, the one that made me happy... why him of everyone? why?"

Johnnie pulled me close and we started to cuddle, i was crying my life out and he was trying to make me feel better, which appreciate a lot. "look, i know you miss him, but he's somewhere better now, look do you think he would be happy to see you like this? no he would be worried about you like i am, i know its hard but you have me just how i have you, right?"

i curled up and burried my face on his chest, his arms still around me. "i know but i want him back!! i need him back! Johnnie bring him back please! i need my grandfather he... he was my everything, he was like my actual father, my father never cared about me as much as he did.. no one did but you! Johnnie please I can't to this anymore!"

"of course you can! you have me to help you get through that, you have jake, tara your best friends, alright? we'll always be here to help you. I can't bring him back, but i can help you okay? so breathe slowly" he was advising me again, i knew what to do, but my mind was  so messed up at the moment that i needed his help.

"Johnnie... dont leave me too please i wouldn't stand it..." i said when i was finally able to catch my breath, still shaking a bit though. he wiped away my tears again but this time i actually stopped crying. he was there when i needed, even if i didn't want to wake him up and disturb him, he was there and that's something that i loved about him.

"i wouldn't ever do that, i may be helping you now, but you're also the one that helps me, so were on the same team baby." he started to play with my hair to calme down, i stopped shaking and started to get sleepy again.

"i love you Johnnie... im so sorry.." i said before falling asleep. "its okay baby, you're okay... i love you too..." that's all i could hear before shutting my eyes.

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A/N: so this one was actually based on my life last night i had a attacks because i started to remember my grandfather and it is such a big deal for me, i felt like writing about it would help so i did. anyways there will probably be more imagines with this topic because ill make it with the others and maybe with Johnnie again, i hope not cuz that would mean im not better and yeah that's it, feel free to request anything! love you guys!

Questions: -did you like this little imagine? tell me what to get better! -whats your favourite YouTuber? -when did you start watching Johnnie Guilbert?

God forbids talking to the dead. The Bible says that Satan transforms himself into an angel of light, to deceive. Demons can morph themselves to imitate deceased family members.

Dead Relatives

Thank you so much for this ask, I appreciate writing angst because I know what can make hearts wrench and faces drench. Comedy is he’d because not everyone has the same sense of humor, but it’s a preference thing.

So, Lilith visits the brothers in their dreams, huh? You know what, I might just add MC in this cause ancestors are wonderful to see in your dreams, except if they were Hernan Cortez, f*ck that guy.

(Sorry for going out of order, I made the last headcanon 22, when it should have been 21, so this is gonna be 21 instead.)

Lucifer: Lucifer would probably be having one of his desk knockouts when he has his dream about seeing Lilith. He would feel a gentle tap on his back, and he would jerk awake, cause there was only one person who used to do that. He turns to see Lilith giving her sweet smile. It was like a dam cracked, but for Lucifer, a few tears welled up in his eyes and a few streaks left when Lilith embraced him. They proceeded to talk about the life she lived, how good it felt to contribute to a human legacy that ended up connecting back to her brothers even after a fall from grace. She says she is proud of Lucifer for keeping her in his heart, and for being so kind and protective to her and her descendant. And after leaving Lucifer with a kiss in his cheek, Lucifer wakes up to his eyes and cheeks wet, and his heart warm. He wipes his face and goes back to work with a relieved smile. He didn’t let her down.

Mammon: He had “woken up” in his room to someone sitting down next to him while he lay on the couch. He turned the lights on and he almost whimper-sobbed when he saw it was Lilith. He shot up and gave her a hug and she returned it, lightly stroking the back of his head, to which he made a sound between a purr and a somber growl. She proceeded to let him talk, get out his feelings and what’s been going on with him, he almost talked for the whole dream. But he suddenly stopped when Lilith began to gently pat his back, and began to thank him for protecting MC, and for doing his best to be there them. She also felt good that she could be there to help him vent, she was a very patient listener. And after one last kiss on the nose, Mammon jerked awake for real, tears still streaming, feeling sad that he didn’t get to ask how she was...

Leviathan: He fell asleep at his desk again, but this time, he was dreaming he woke up in his bathtub , and saw a familiar head of hair silhouetted by the light of his huge fish tank. He jumped up and went over to Lilith and she greeted him with a beautiful smile. It seemed MC definitely had Lilith’s smile. She began to ask him about how he’s doing and he went in on how much gaming, watching, and reading he has done, and proceeded to talk on and on about Rurichan and his anime passion. She listened to every single second of his speech, happy that Levi finally found something to live for after peace time was announced. He woke up asking her if she wanted to play a game, and found himself alone. He wanted to hang a bit longer and was sad that he woke up so suddenly... the first time that he actually wanted to voluntarily sleeping longer.

Satan: He is wondering who the person next to his usual reading spot is, but deep down, he feels it. Lilith smiles and says that it’s a pleasure to meet him. She asks questions about him, what does he like to do, what does he like to read, just questions about him, and Satan is more than happy to answer these questions. When she mentions she likes cats, they click, and talk everything about cats. Lilith describes a cat that her human family had, and Satan remembers seeing a cat like that in the Devildom, she was a very good girl. Soon, when it was time for her to go, she said that she had fun getting to know him, and that Satan had come a long way, and that his journey is his own path, no one else’s. She said that she’s excited to see the person he becomes. He wakes up, feeling validated, happy that Lilith didn’t see him as another Lucifer.

Asmodeus: Asmo had pretty beautiful dreams, but there was one where Asmo walked into his room and saw Lilith checking out his vanity where he had his make up, and his huge mirror. She turned and smiled at Asmo, “Just as beautiful as I remembered.” Was what she said and Asmo went over to her and hugged her close. “Lilith, you’re gonna make my mascara run!” “Well then we can fix that.” Asmo proceeded to sit at the vanity and had Lilith do his make up, applying eyeliner, mascara, eyeshadow, foundation, not necessarily in that order, and talking about how Asmo had been. Asmo was happy talking about himself and reminiscing about memories with Lilith. When she was done with him, she showed Asmo his face, and he was in love with his beautiful face. But then, suddenly, the tears started coming. “I... miss you, Lili... so much.” She kissed his cheek and smiled. “I miss you too, Asmo, when you wake up, strut like you have never strut before, and be fierce for the both of us. I love you so much.” “I love you too, Lili.” Asmo said as he woke up, in complete darkness, but his eyes felt wet. He lifted his sleep mask and realized he had been crying behind it while he was asleep. He felt mixed, happy because Lilith came to him and glad to see her, but sad because Lilith wasn’t on this plane of existence anymore... and he knew the face she put on him wasn’t there anymore.

Beelzebub: Beel was dreaming about going to the fridge for a midnight snack, and he found someone already in the fridge. He gasped as Lilith revealed herself from behind the open fridge, Beel suddenly lost his appetite and just hugged her, apologizing for not saving her, for not being strong enough to save her. But she just held him and stopped him apologizing. “I wouldn’t have wanted Belphie to die, you two are twins, and no one else could ever replace the other if one of you were gone... It wasn’t your fault.” She said as she held him close. After a good cry, Beel spent the rest of the dream being fed by Lilith. But when Beel woke up, Beel realized he was sleep eating again, and MC was the one who was feeding him. “Are you awake, Beel? You began crying and hugging me tightly... are you okay?” Beel blushed and gave a small smile, “I am now...”

Belphegor: He “wakes up” frantically because he feels someone that he never thought he would feel again, and he was fully prepared to kill whomever was playing such a cruel prank. But there she was, Lilith, just as he remembered her, except no halo over her head. He is overcome with emotions for the first time in a while. He went over to her, but as he went to embrace her, he fell apart, knees gave out as he almost felt her arms wrap around him. He just started sobbing into her shoulder. Lilith held him close and just rubbed his back tenderly, letting him get his emotions out. Eventually, he began to lightly whimper and mumble, “I’m sorry,” repeatedly as he held her back. She just held onto him and stroked his head, comforting him. She proceeds to say that she’s sorry for putting him through such pain, and that she wished that she could have came to him sooner. Belphie felt his embrace to her, and never wanted it to end. But when it did, he felt a bit happier, he was glad that she came to him, and hopes for another dream to see Lilith.