#dbt problems

then once i'm there i have to check in w/ what skills i used and tbh i havent filled out my dbt card this week at all and kinda talk about what's goin on in my life and i just dont want to do that and i dont want to learn new skills and i dont want to do anything 

I’m really getting sick of the mindful animals. I’m not going to lie it stings a little. Here I am more than a year into DBT and I can’t figure out WTF mindfulness is. I’ve not hidden this from my counselor, my DBT coach, my blog readers or myself. I have reached out for clarity of WTF mindfulness is. I have read and read and read. I have listened and written and cried.

I’ll never understand why all these people offer the same bit of bullshit clarification: it’s hard for everyone. No it’s not. Maybe “doing mindfulness” may be tricky for some. But I’m talking about cognitively understanding WTF it is.

So I’m going to assume the multitudes of people (mostly DBT professionals BTW) posting “mindful” sleeping animals (“spot is sooo mindful” “cat is practicing mindfulness”) don’t have learning disorders. That they have never been in a community where everyone gets it but you. Because maybe then they would understand how hurtful it is to see these posts that trivialize how fucking complicated this is for me. And how stupid I feel.