My Door Is Always Open
Dr Robby x Reader
Find My Pitt Masterlist here This is a little fic for @domaystic Based on day 29: The Next Step Strained and feeling hopeless. Robby's final day in the ED before his sabbatical has everyone on edge. You will yourself to make one final gesture. Taking the next step as you enclose a set of keys into the palm of his hand. Hoping to simply extend just a little bit of peace.
Notes: established relationship. set in season 2. angst. hurt eventual comfort.
Word Count: ~1.9k
This wasnโt how you planned it.ย
In fact this was probably the last way you had wanted to do this.ย
The last thing you shouldโve done.ย
But you couldnโt help it.ย
Couldnโt help the nagging voice murmuring doubts from the back of your mind. How it had slowly built into a screaming match between what felt right and what was logical.ย
But after the day you had hadโฆyou saw no other option.ย
The day had been tense.ย
Teetering on the edge of sanity.ย
Fizzling with an underlying tension, one that everyone could feel.ย
Despite being in an environment where anything could happen, where nothing was expected. Today felt like too many changes all at once. Too many moving parts, to the point your mind was fraying at its edges.ย
The chaos of new staff.ย
A new attending โ a new attending that had to fill the space Robby would leave behind.ย
Jesse being forcefully taken away.ย
The computers, the whole system going down. Trying to make order out of piles of papers that never failed to stack up.ย
And on top of that.ย
On top of all of thatโฆ
This was Robbyโs last day before he left on sabbatical.ย
Leaving for his vague journey of self discovery. Travelling the roads, to feel the wind rush past him while he rides, crossing state lines. Leaving his world to fade behind him.ย ย
Leaving you.ย
Youโd like to believe that you were more than simply a passing fascination of Robbyโs.ย
That you were more than just the person that let him melt into your arms.ย
More than the person who gently dragged your fingers through his hair while he laid with you.ย
More than just the person who made him laugh, that made him smile despite the weight of the world he carried on his shoulders.ย
Going into this.ย
You knew what he was like.ย
You knew what his priorities were. That the ED would always come first. Even before his own needs. Especially before his own needs.ย
And you had accepted that.ย
You had understood that.ย
It would be hypocritical if you didnโt, often putting in the extra effort into your own work in the ED.
It was how you had both bonded in the first place.ย
The first link of understanding.ย
Days turned into weeks, weeks had turned into months.ย
Months of you and him, simply being together. A relationship that had developed into something safe, precious. A feeling home seeped into your heart each time you were together.ย
With each featherlight kiss, which each gentle brush of his hand against you.ย
You had known about his habit โ his seven week itch.
But you had pulled through that.ย
Made it past.ย
But this was different.ย
This was new. How he had been pulling away. How he had become short. Closed off. Clipped.ย
You had been planning this long before today even came.ย
Simply waiting for the right moment.ย
But it had never come. Had never once been able to work up the courage to muster the words, never once able to take that next step.ย
The set of spare keys you had made for him laid buried at the bottom of your bag.ย
Just waiting.ย
Watching as your hopes for broaching the next step crumble whilst Robbyโs resolve weakens.ย
Your window was growing thinner and thinner as the hours ticked by, as Robbyโs time in the Pitt came to a close.ย
Watching as he lingered.ย
Mind hazy, drenched in a thick fog. His last day had a grip on him, iron tight. Though whether it was holding onto him or if he was holding onto it. Wasnโt clear.ย
Dana, Jack even Cassie had all pulled you aside, had all made their comments about his behaviour.ย
The finality behind his words.ย
The concern lacing their tone.ย
The fear in their eyes.ย
โHas Robby said anything to you? Before today? Anything that felt off?โ Dana had asked.
Your brows furrowing. As you lift your eyes to glance across the room.ย
Mouth curling into a small frown.ย
โNothing I can put my finger on,โ you replied, as you carried on with your work. Hiding from what you feared to know.ย
Dana had only hummed in a response.ย
Cassie had placed a hand on your shoulder, eyes filled with a sense of knowing. Like she could see right through you. Right down to the very troubles festering in your mind.ย
Whispering gently, never overstepping, careful with her words, โYou know youโre not alone in thisโ
Biting your lip you reach a hand up to hold hers. Swallowing thickly as you nod.ย
โWhateverโs going on, just know Iโm here for you, weโre all here for you bothโ
โI just donโt know what to doโโ you admitted.ย
Eyes so full of sympathy, you felt you could break beneath the weight of her gaze.ย
โThereโs only so much you can do, just be there for himโย
Taking in a deep breath, you lift her hand from your shoulder before walking away.ย
The final nail in the coffin. The final push you had received. Was Jack.ย
You had watched him try to reach Robby, try to reason with him. To tell him how it didnโt have to be this way. That it seemed as though none of you were to see him again.ย
You donโt know how he had shifted so quickly.ย
How these thoughts could've been built.ย
Simmering beneath the peace you had fostered together.ย
God you had been so blind.
โHow could I have not noticed?โ you asked Jack, gaze distant. Mind tracing back to the past few weeks.ย
His mouth twisted into a small frown, โPeople only ever show what they want you to seeโitโs not your fault if they play the part all too wellโ
โI donโt even know where these will leave usโhow selfish is that, to think of how his absence will leave meโโ
His pats your back gently, โItโs not selfish at allโ
โYou know I was waiting for the right time to give him a set of my keys,โ you said. Somberness seeping into your words. โNow I donโt know if Iโll get the chanceโ
He nods in understanding, โYou know, thereโs never really a right time. Thereโs only ever just time,โ he meets your eye line, trying to let the words sink in, โand what you do with itโ
Your breath catches in your throat.ย
Taking the words to heart.ย
Leading to now.ย
Standing in the summer evening air. The faint whooshing of cars in the distance. Cicadas croaking out from afar.ย
You.ย
And Robby.ย
Mere feet apart.ย
Taking in a deep breath, your hand curls around the keys digging into the palm of your hand.ย
โSo youโre still planning on going huh?โ you tilted your head towards his motorcycle.ย
He nods, shifting side to side, hands unsure of what to do as they fidget mindlessly.ย
โYou know I donโt like goodbyes so Iโll make this quickโโ Step by step you move closer, slow movements, as though approaching a wild animal, afraid of scaring him off.ย
โI donโt know where all of this will leave usโโ
โIโโย
I love you. The words get stuck in his throat.ย
You hold a hand up to him, stopping him short, you knew that if he spoke, it would only make your strength break, make the well in your eyes spill over. โAnd truthfully, I donโt want to knowโย
A thick lump formed in his throat as he listened to you.ย
Of all the things heโd leave behind.ย
Of all the people.ย
It would be you, he would miss the most.ย
Believing it would be easier if he kept that inside. Easier on you. Easier for him.ย
You clasp his hand, so gentle and sweet. โBut, I just wanted you to know thatโthat youโll always have a home with meโย
Pressing the keys into the palm of his hand, as you fold his fingers back over them. Leaning up as you press a slow and delicate kiss on his cheek.ย
His eyes flutter close, imprinting the feeling of your lips into his memory.ย
The sweetness of it all.ย
Your mind flashed with a single word.ย
Love.
It was the closest word that could describe how he made you feel. And yet it still fell short.ย
You had no way of knowing how this would end.ย
How Michael would handle this.ย
What would happen to him on the road.ย
And supposedly that was what this act was, this gesture an act of love.ย
It was giving Michael the power to destroy you, to shatter your heart into a thousand piecesโฆand hopingโtrusting that he wouldnโt use it.
Pulling back from him, squeezing his hand one final time before walking away. Before he can say anything else. Before he can place the key back into the palm of your hand. Before he can reject your offer.ย
So bitter and sweet.ย
Holding back the tears.ย
You were never good at goodbyes.
You just hoped this was simply a, see you later. And not the final goodbye.ย
That all of this wasnโt for nothing.ย
His gaze lingers on you as you walk away. Your footsteps brisk, head ducked down as you turn the corner. The faintest choked out sob reaches his ears.ย
Heart clenching from the sound.ย
Aching for you.ย
But his feet are stuck. As though sinking into quicksand. Unable to move. Unable to follow you.ย
Perhaps it was easier this way.ย
โฆBut the coldness of the key seeps into his hand, hand opening as he gazes upon the metallic little key.ย
But it's the glinting keychain that catches his eye.ย
That makes his eyes misty.ย
โ Wherever you go, Come back to me โฅ๏ธ
You had those words engraved weeks ago. When you had first had the idea of letting him further into your life.ย
Before these doubts had begun to settle at the forefront of your mind.ย
But just as Jack saidโฆnow was as good a time as any. And you needed Michael to know just how much you cared for him.ย
How much he meant to you.ย
More than just a passing fascination.ย
It seems the keychain you had looped with your key strikes a cord within him.
Perhaps.ย
He did matter outside of the hospitalโฆPerhaps his purpose was more than just saving those that came through the doors.ย
Perhaps he mattered.ย
Perhaps he mattered to you.ย
And just perhaps.ย
Instead of chasing the road. Instead of chasing the thrill of leaving it all behind.ย
He instead.ย
Lets himself believe. Things could be better. That things could get better.ย
Key slotting into the front of your door, twisting it to open.ย
You blink in surprise as he stands in your doorway.ย
โHeyโ
โHiโ
The smallest of smiles slips onto your face. He notices the slight redness rimming your eyes, proof of the tears that had fallen.ย
โIs this okay?โ he asks. Tentative and unsure. Ready to leave if you ever asked.ย
Tilting as your resolve softens for him.ย
โMy door is always open for youโ
Your arms wrap around him as he curls into your embrace.ย
This wouldnโt fix anything.ย
Both of you knew there was a lot to work through before things could feel normal. Or as close to normal as possible.ย
But for now you would cherish the feeling of his arms holding you close.ย
Feeling a sense of home whenever he was within reach.ย
A calm overcoming him.
Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed this little story. Just a little hope for them. As you extend some support while Robby spirals. As soon as I saw the key chain on Pinterest I just had to write this for him - Robby literally popped into my mind when I saw it. Let me know what you thought of this little piece of fluff! โจ Comments, Reblogs and Likes are welcomed and appreciated ๐ Feel free to find my Dr Robby x Wayne!Reader Rinse & Repeat Series Masterlist here ๐ฉบ Or check out my main Masterlist here
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