#daviddobrik

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david, of course, was the first one to notice when y/n started to come around less and less. he started to notice that she would blow him off, especially when he made plans with the other members of the vlog squad. he thought maybe one of their friends had made her uncomfortable, but couldn’t come up with a single person that was a common thread, so then he thought that maybe it was just him that was the problem. maybe y/n wanted to break up, david thought, but was quickly proved wrong when carly had asked him why y/n was acting so distant recently.

mariah suggested the thought that maybe she wasn’t feeling the group settings, so she invited her to go get coffee, and y/n accepted after being reassured multiple times that it would only be them.

when mariah and y/n met for said coffee, mariah tried to dance around the subject for a while, but eventually, she found the words tumbling out of her mouth.

“so, david mentioned that he thought you might be wanting to break up with him…” mariah says, but it comes out as more of a question, and truthfully, she was kind of scared of how y/n would react and even more scared that y/n would confirm david’s doubts.

“what?” y/n almost chokes on her coffee. “why would he think that?”

“i don’t know…” mariah says, but quickly continues, “we’ve all noticed that you have been hanging out with all of us less.” y/n nods her head slowly, and moves her gaze from mariah’s face to the window, not wanting her friend to see the water that seemed to quickly form in her eyes. the two girls stayed quiet for a couple minutes, that seemed to drag on for hours, mariah started to wonder if y/n was going to ever answer her.

“i…” y/n starts to explain, but quickly closes her mouth. “if i tell you this, you can’t tell anyone okay? not david, not heath, absolutely no one.” mariah nods her head. “david and i have been together for almost a year and a half now, and we have obviously known each other longer than that, but a couple weeks ago, he mentioned that he wanted me to move in.” y/n takes a sharp breath, the tears in her eyes only collecting more as she talks.

“you don’t want to?” mariah asks softly, grabbing y/n’s hand that rested on the table.

“no, no. i mean, yes, i do. so bad. but i feel like… i feel like david deserves to be with someone so much better than me. he deserves someone who can be one of the stars of his vlog. someone who makes him laugh the way the rest of you can make him laugh. i’m just normal, boring old me. i’m not a youtuber or have a crazy talent, i have a desk job, and…” y/n can’t bear to continue, she lets out a sob, but quickly covers her face, trying not to get the attention of the other coffee drinkers in the cafe.

“oh, honey, you know david doesn’t care about all of that stuff. he loves you, y/n. so much.” mariah squeezes the hand that isn’t covering y/n’s face.

“i know, i know. and i love him more than i have ever loved anyone. i just feel like i don’t belong, riah.”

-

when they left the coffee shop, mariah quickly broke her promise to y/n and called david. it broke david’s heart to hear that the girl he loved with his entire heart was struggling to feel like she fit in with the people he considered family.

david quickly made his way over to her apartment and let himself in. he found her asleep in her bedroom with the tv playing reruns of grey’s anatomy on a low volume in the background. he couldn’t help but smile at her. he slipped off his shoes and crawled in behind her, making sure to hold her as tightly as he could without waking her.

when she woke up, she wasn’t expecting to find herself in the arms of the love of her life, but nonetheless, she snuggled closer to him. she didn’t quite realize how much she missed him until she was in his arms after avoiding him for what felt like weeks.

“baby?” david murmurs, when he feels her move.

“hi.” she whispers, back, suddenly feeling guilty for the ways she’s been acting and feeling.

“i miss you.” he says, softly kissing the crown of her head.

“I’m sorry.” she says, trying not to cry for the second time.

“hey, it’s okay.”

“mariah told you?” y/n asks and david nods.

“don’t be mad at her, she told me you told her not to tell me.”

“i’m not.” y/n says, pulling back to finally look at him.

“if you’re not ready to move in with me, you could have told me, you know? i would never be mad at you for not being ready. we’ll get there eventually, baby.”

“that’s not it, dave. trust me. i would follow you to the end of the world if you asked me to.” she sighs, “i just wonder if you would be better off without me.”

“why would you think that, y/n? i think i might die if you leave me.”

“i’m so normal.” y/n says, and pulls away from david, causing both of them to feel cold. “you deserve to be with someone extraordinary.”

“you are. and just because i don’t put you in the vlog much doesn’t mean that you mean any less to me than the people i do, or that you don’t belong in it. i have so many clips that would have made it into the vlog if it wasn’t you. and as awful as that sounds, i just don’t want to share you. and besides that, the fans love you. they’re always commenting on how pretty you are or funny and how they want you in it more. i’m sorry, i just didn’t want to share you, i never meant to hurt your feelings.”

“david,” y/n turns back to her side to look at him, “you never made me feel like this. it was nothing you did, okay? i’m sorry. and you don’t have to share me, i’m all yours.”

-

a month later, so much had changed. y/n now didn’t distance herself, it didn’t happen overnight, but with david’s constant reasurance and mariah being there for her to talk to, she started to feel like the way she did when she first met david. they were planning on moving y/n in as soon as her lease at her apartment ended. she spent more time at david’s than her own anyway.

one morning, y/n woke up to a post notification from david’s account with the title being “SHE KEEPS TRYING TO MAKEOUT WITH ME” she furrowed her eyebrows as she clicked on the notification.

when she presses the play button, david’s face appears, and he says “hey, guys, it’s david.” with a giggle before it cuts to the intro screen.

“soooo, many of you know that i have been in a relationship with a very pretty girl for about a year in a half. if you didn’t know, this is her.” he says as he points over to a part of the screen and a picture of y/n pops up. “very pretty i know.” he laughs, “anyway, some of you have been demanding that you get to see some more of her.” a bunch of screen grabs come up of fans asking for david to post more of the two of them or just y/n in general. “so, i thought i’d give you an entire vlogs worth of her.”

the screen goes black, and then y/n appears, asleep in david’s bed. david screams and y/n jumps up. when she sees that david is fine, she flops backwards and rubs her eyes. “you’re a fucking asshole david dobrik.” and david laughs.

then it cuts to y/n’s twenty-first, way before they started dating, when they had just met. y/n was gone. she smiles at the camera, posing for the picture, but laughs loudly when david says “it’s a video, do something!” and you can see the panic that goes across the plastered y/n’s face. “david! i don’t know what to do!” she whispers, with a hand halfway over her mouth like the camera could no longer see and hear her.

it then goes to a couple months into their relationship, when david set up a camera in his living room to film a sit down portion of his video, when y/n comes in, and lays across his lap, not even noticing the camera. “i hate you.” she says.

“why?” he asks, with a loud laugh.

“i don’t, i love you.” her first i love you. david glances down at her in shock.

“for real?”

“don’t make me take it back.”

it cuts again, this time to a more recent day. this time, y/n is pretty certain that the clip was filmed by jason, “why won’t you just kiss me!” y/n yells, as she sits on david’s lap, with her hands on either side of his head.

“we need to do the podcast, babe” not budging.

“give me love, and i’ll leave you alone.”

“how about i give you a kiss, and you never leave me alone?” david smiles.

“even better!” she yells, leaning down, before it cuts off, and david appears again.

You shut off your phone, tossing it on the bed next to you. You harshly rubbed at your face, trying to get the tears to stop. You looked around your bedroom, everywhere you looked all you could see was David. His clickbait sweatshirt lay on the floor from when he came over a couple of days ago, a picture of you two sat atop your dresser, both of your smiles wide as you posed at the beach, a velvet box with the ring David gave you for your one year anniversary rested on your desk. Reaching over you grabbed the box and opened, watching as the sunlight hit the ring making it glisten.

You chewed on your lip. a sense of dread filling you the longer you stared at the ring. They were right. David was too good for you. 

You bitterly chuckled to yourself. He was a successful millionaire while you were just a broke college student, struggling to make ends meet. While he got you, Cartier, all you could afford to give him was a shitty Target gift card, and you hated that. David deserved so much better than that, he deserved to be showered in all the luxuries, and unfortunately for you, you couldn’t give him that. 

You felt yourself go numb as you realized what you had to do. 

This wasn’t about how you felt, this was about ensuring that David was happy. If there was one good thing that you wanted to come out of your life it was that at least you made the boy you loved happy. You weren’t going to be selfish anymore. 

Standing up you grabbed your keys and headed out the door towards David’s house, somehow you had gone from sobbing hysterically to feeling oddly calm.

You arrived soon after and let out a sigh of relief when you saw no cars parked in the driveway. You opened the door to his house with your spare key and walked inside, the nostalgia hitting you immediately, Even though you had only been here a couple of days ago it felt different now, it reminded you of the past, not the future. There wasn’t a future here for you anymore

You passed the living room and were reminded of all the times you and David had laid on the cloud couch, him editing while you did your school work, or when you watched horror movies together, David screaming in fear but still pretending to act manly to impress you.

As you opened his bedroom door you were reminded of the sweeter, more private memories, like when you told him you loved him for the first time, hands shaking and heart beating violently against your chest, or when you lay in bed together on rainy nights, the lightning from outside illuminating Davids features with your limbs tangled together as you talked about whatever was on your mind.

You pulled yourself out of your thoughts and started collecting your things from his room, removing all traces of you. Once you were finished you quietly made exited his room taking one last glance before you shut the door. 

You almost dropped your bin of things when someone called out to you, 

“Y/N?”

You spun around and found Joe staring at you quizzingly, “What you got there?”

You roughly swallowed, opening your mouth to say something but no words came out, “I-uh-uh I um didn’t know anyone was going to be here.” 

Joe shrugged, “Ya I just came to grab my laptop, left it here yesterday. What are you doing?”

You nodded your head, shifting your weight from foot to foot, “I-uh uhm nothing.” 

Joe raised your eyebrow at you playfully, “Really? Then what’s in the bin?” he said pulling it from your grasp before you could object. 

His face scrunched together before he looked up at you, a serious look plastered on his face, “What’s going on Y/N? Did you and David have a fight? Why are you taking all your stuff?” 

You suddenly felt like you were two again being yelled at for spilling juice on the carpet. You shrunk into yourself and your voice came out small, “We didn’t have a fight, not yet anyway.” 

“Then why...” Joe started to question you more but you had you didn’t want to answer anymore of his questions, “Bye Joe.” you called out, willing yourself not to cry in front of him. 

You walked past him and got into your car, glancing up at Davids house one last time. This is it. You weren’t going to turn back this time. 

Hours later, and you had gone through multiple cycles of tears, eerie calmness and then nostalgia. You had finally started to drift off to sleep when you heard loud frantic knocks on your door, confused, you got up and swung the door open ready to swear off the person behind the door, however, your words got stuck in your throat as you realized who was standing in front of you, David.

Before you could say anything he pushed past you, running his hands through his disheveled hair, “What’s going on?”

“What do you mean?”

“Goddamnit Y/N,” his voice was wavering now, “Joe called me this morning panicking because he told me he saw you take all your stuff from my house and leave, and then he asked if we had a fight and I didn’t think we did so I-I didn’t know what to do. So I came here.” 

You were still in shock that he was here, “You flew all the way from Chicago to come to talk to me?”

He looked at you, his voice softening as he took you in, “Of course I did, I love you.” 

You sat on your couch, glancing up at him, “Do you though?”

Now it was his turn to look shocked and within a second he was sitting on the couch next to you, pulling you into his arms, “Of course I love you, I love you so much, you mean the world to me.” 

You sighed falling into his embrace, willing yourself not to do what you were about to, but the words spilled out of your mouth before you could stop them, “I think we should break up.” 

You felt his arms loosen around you, and you halfheartedly pulled out of his embrace, “Whaa- Why? Did something happen? Did I do something wrong? I- I thought everything was good.” 

You felt your heartstrings pull as you watched the boy in front of you slowly break, but you needed him to know that it was you not him. “No, you didn’t do anything. It’s all me.”

He huffed, “Oh don’t give me that bullshit Y/N, why are you actually breaking up with me?”

You swallowed, you could always lie so easily but somehow David could always see right through it, “I think you should go.” 

He started shaking his head rapidly no, as you pulled him up and led him towards the door, “please, please, please don’t do this, I love you, I want to be with you, Y/N please, at least tell me why.” 

You felt yourself start to cry as you watched David beg, why did doing the right thing have to hurt so much?

You watched him step into the hallway, head held low, your hands shook as you closed the door after him and at the last second you heard him whisper, “Why wasn’t I good enough for you?”

Your body froze, you couldn’t let him believe that he wasn’t good enough for you when the truth was that he was too good for you. 

Noticing that the door still hadn’t shut fully, David pushed it open slightly to see you sitting on the wood floor near the door, legs pressed to your chest, you looked up at him, “I’m not too good for you, you’re too good for me. You deserve so much more than I can give you, you would just be better off without me.” 

David sunk down on his knees, his hands gently grabbing your face forcing you to look at him, “Hey, I’m not too good for you okay, I don’t want anyone else. Fuck Y/N, I don’t even want somebody like you, I only want you.” 

As you stared into David’s eyes you felt so stupid, the love for you was evident and you couldn’t believe you had let some nasty comment come between you two. 

You felt yourself fall into him, the sobs racking through both your bodies, “I’m so sorry, I love you, I just let some things get to my head,” you hiccuped. 

-

one of the first people david met when he moved to vernon hills was his best friend, y/n. chances are that if you found one of them, the other was close behind. and that was true all the way up to the day that david moved to los angeles in 2015. now, just because david moved halfway across the country does not mean the two fell out of touch with each other, it actually meant the quite opposite.

david made sure to spend as much time as he could with her when he visited home, but when he first moved to los angeles, he didn’t exactly have a bunch of money to come home, so his trips were rare and short. and y/n had no money to spare either, she was a college student afterall. david and y/n texted all day, everyday, and facetimed at least a couple times a week. staying in touch with each other just came naturally to both of them.

when something big happened in y/n’s life, david was the first person she called, no matter what, and same with david. no one really understood the connection the two shared, not his friends in los angeles, nor their friends at home. all of them just kind of assumed that the two were secretly dating and didn’t want anyone to find out due to david’s rising fame. while both of them wished this was true, it wasn’t. both spent years pining after the other, but classically, neither wanted to lose the other if the feelings weren’t returned, so they suffered in silence.

-

now, eventually, y/n graduated college and naturally, she just wanted to be with her best friend. so, for david’s twenty-third birthday, she decided to surprise him by moving to los angeles. so, she called natalie, another one of her best friends, and told her the big news.

“so... as you know, i just graduated.” y/n says into the phone.

“yes, i know. i was there, y/n/n, you know we’re all very proud of you. in fact, i think david has said ‘i’m so proud of her’ more times than I could possibly count.” natalie says, trying to expose the brunette boy.

“well, what would you say if i told you i was considering moving to la?” y/n asks shyly, completely ignoring natalie’s comment.

“what?!” natalie screams into the phone, causing y/n to yank the phone from her ear for a couple seconds. “y/n, oh my god! i’m so excited!” natalie says, with a huge smile.

“really?” y/n asks, “you don’t think david will think it’s weird right? i just don’t want to step on his toes, i know how much he loves it in california.”

“y/n, you don’t know how many conversations i have had about living in california, and how many times he’s almost just jumped on a plane. to see you.” natalie reassures.

“what?” y/n asks softly.

“y/n, david loves you with all of his heart. i really don’t know how you don’t see it. and don’t get me started on how he doesn’t see how much you love him.” natalie adds.

“anyway... i just… miss him… so so so much, natalie. and i have some job offers there, and i’ve been looking at apartments, i think i found a nice one, i’d just need you to go look at it before i got there, if you have time.”

“yes, of course i will, and i know you miss him, because he misses you just as much. i think the hardest part of leaving vernon hills was leaving you, y/n.”

“no, no… he told me already, it was leaving his family.” y/n explained.

“you are his family, y/n. you were his first friend in chicago, and you have stuck through everything with him. you are everything to him, y/n/n.” once natalie finishes, y/n pauses for a long time before she finally answers.

“he is everything to me too, nat.” she says softly, almost scared that natalie will actually hear her.

“i know.” natalie reassures. “anyway! i for one am so excited, i miss having you around, seriously, i need a girls night, away from mr. crybaby.”

“well, i planned on surprising him on his birthday, do you think that would be okay?”

“i think you’ll be his favorite present.”

“okay, okay. i’m actually doing this, huh?”

-

a couple weeks pass before y/n finally arrives in los angeles. she actually arrives in town the day before david’s birthday, but almost all of the group was celebrating in vegas for the night. natalie managed to convince david to have the celebration the night before, that way y/n had the night to settle in and actually be able to surprise him on his actual birthday, natalie had come up with a lie that david had a very important meeting the day after his birthday and would need to be back to his normal one hundred percent for it.

so, now, it was david’s birthday, and the group got back around noon. y/n was to be at the house at one to surprise david. almost everyone knew that y/n was coming to surprise him for his birthday so they made themselves scarce, wanting to allow them to have a moment when she arrived.

at one, y/n pulled up to david’s in an uber. she walked up the drive and texted natalie that she was there. once she sent the text, y/n took a deep breath, suddenly becoming nervous about surprising him, and finally, she knocked on the door.

she moved to the side so that david would have to open the door to see who was at the door, but it didn’t take long for the door to swing open.

“hello?” david asked, not seeing her yet, but she stepped out of her spot and finally into his line of vision. “y/n?” david asked with an excited smile.

“happy birthday, bub.” she said with a smile before practically tackling him in a hug. “oh my god, i missed you.” she says in his ear, burying her face in his neck. she decided that she wanted the moment to last forever. his arms were secured tightly around her, and she was okay if he never let go.

“what are you doing here? oh my god. how long are you staying? never go back.” he rushes, burying his face in her hair.

“okay.” she agrees with a smile, pulling her head out of his shoulder to look at him, with a bright smile.

“what? don’t mess with my heart like that, bug.”

“i’m not. i moved into an apartment last night. i didn’t want- no. i couldn’t be that far from you anymore, bub.” she says shyly, hoping that he was okay with her moving to halfway across the country. “i would have a long time ago if i could have.”