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Pilipinas..... 

Wow, grabeh yung excitemen na na feel ko now..I’m just gonna share my experience this whole election campaign. 

When the election campaign started, i was so excited especially when it was confirmed that BBM is running for President and his running mate for VP is Inday Sarah Duterte. You see eversince i was young, I’ve always been proud to be Pinoy, pero mas lalo akong naging proud nung naging Presidente c PRRD. Nagsimula ang pagmamahal ko sa bayan when i met Jesus. Naintindihan ko ang compassion para sa bayan nung maintindihan ko ang gospel. I’ve learned to pray for the country and for our leaders when God made me understand His Word in the bible. Kaya ako excited mag vote. 

I make sure makaka vote ako sa 2022 and so i transferred my voter registration from Alburqueque to Tagbilaran city. 

Never expected that the whole campaign would be a hit this year. Feeling ko ako lng boboto kay BBM! lol I don’t know but kahit nung bata ako despite the history na sinasabi nila and all the books na sinulat feel ko di totoo yun. Or baka di lang talaga ako matalino kaya di ako affected! lol Pero buti nalang di ako matalino para hinde ako makapag judge ng tao. 

So eto na, naka pag decide na ako matagal na 2016 pa na if tatakbo si BBM I’d vote for him, and sa nung pag start ng campaign lahat ng nakikita ko sa socmed is for VP Leni, even sa ibang mga friends ko VP Leni sila, so i was just silent about my candidate. Hindi sa nahiya ako but because, hindi na kases magbabago desisyon ko kahit ano pa sabihin nila. hahaha hindi ko na sila papahirapan. Pero may time na na question ko sarili ko na “normal pa kaya ako?” halos lahat sa socmed and some friends are for VP pero gang dun lang naman but it bothered me. So i confronted some of my friends and i was relieved because the people whom i shared my thoughts are also for BBM and they asked that same question din!Parang feel namin alien kame in a world  full of Leni. 

Socmed was so loud and kame ng ibang friends ko na BBM are keeping our cool. I tried posting my candidate on my facebook wall, i got a laugh react from a Leni supporter so i tried to have a revenge by giving a laugh react as well on her Leni posts. Pero, what I did convicts me. I’m reminded that this is just politics and my relationship to that person is important than anything else, so i deleted my posts and decided not to post anything until the President will be declared. win or lose, magpopost pa din ako. Pero may mga times talaga na makapag my day ako! hahaha and sa mga last days before the actual election i posted some stuff sa tiktok ko venting out lang about what happened like nung son disowning a mother ( Loren Legarda and son) then i also vent out my frustration sa isang student who committed suicide because he was bullied. Sakit sa ulo. So many issues but all the other dramas done, i choose to ignore those kase di naman need and prio yung ibang issues nila. 

Bashing was normalized the whole election campaign. I even have some mentors who was saying a lot of things about PRRD and BBM pero cge go lang, i will still respect you kase naman ibat-iba tayo ng opinion. But this make me sad ha. I’ve unfollowed some influencers who are so loud a nd toxic. Pero i never unfollowed or blocked friends . House-to-house campaign with black propagandas are done. Sarap na mag react pero chill pa din. Mall-to-mall campaign and saw some of my lodi na artista na namimilit ng tao para i vote c VP Leni. Na shock ako kase i looked up to them pero nagawa nila sumayaw in market and mocked BBM. 

Ang gulo ng election that there was this one time na i told myself, mag change nalang ako ng ibang kandidato. I prayed about it pero wala akong makita e. I am not saying that BBM is perfect. Im not ignoring what happened in the past, but my decision as to why i chose him as my President is based on what he did for the country.I never based my decision on how i feel. That would be selfish of me. I looked at everything he does.. those times when he helped people and didn’t  reached socmed or never natrending. Those moments when he remained kind despite the bash, despite the mocking. Inintindi ko yung mga estate tax and even have to go through the history again. On the other hand, i also watched and observed VP Leni. I tried myself to look at her for who she is as a person and my heart cried kase nakikita ko yung pagod niya. Something is not right. There was too much hate. I dont know where this is all coming from. It is as if she was doing this things for some people. I don’t hate her. I never hated her. I love woman empowerment pero this...something is wrong and I’m sorry kase i cannot cast my vote to someone who shows too much hate. Fighting for one person and not for the country..There are also some candidates that I’m looking at and believe it or not i prayed a lot for my decision. I prayed na wrong motives will be exposed along the way. Sabi ko kay Lord, if you will tell me to change my vote i will kase i want my decisions to be based sa decision mo. There are so many things being exposed na along the way thats why i choose to chill kase anytime pag sabihin ni Lord, eto i vote mo at least wala akong sinabi na bad...pero wala e, my decision gives me peace of mind.Walang pag aalinlangan na po to.I know He will be that person that fits this position and if ever worst scenarios happen, then for sure God will allow it to happen. 

May 9, 2022, i started my day with a prayer. Lord, if you want me to change last minute i will,obey. Isaiah 45 yung binigay na word saken that day. yung sa Isaiah 45:5 - I am the Lord, and there is no other, besides me there is no God; I equip you, though you do not know me. The whole Isaiah 45 gives me so much comfort. Knowing that He is a sovereign God makes me bow down to my knees and just let go of my doubts and trust Him in everything. Thank you for reminding me that you are the King of everything. 

Today, as i was writing this, almost lahat ng binoto ko pasok kahit sa local votes. Kahit tapos na ang election, super gulo pa din sa socmed and i just prayed for healing for everyone who grieves and praying for the nation and our new leaders. 

Relationship over politics po tayo. Socmed can be very toxic at times kaya we need to balance and control ourselves from saying bad things kase babalik saten un e. Sana lahat tayo may natutunan sa season na to and we can forgive each other sa mga pagbabash naten sa isa’t isa. 

For you created my inmost being ,

You knit me together in my mother s womb.

I praise You for l fearfully and wonderfully made ,

Your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from You

When l was made in the secret place,

When l was woven together in the depths of the earth.