#darksunday

Discodoll fans, I wanna see more of Wilford & Ken having deep existential conversations of life and death. How Wilford’s perception of life and death is conflicted with Ken’s morality as he slowly becomes more and more human. Or how Ken is confronted with Wilford’s past and the unending grief he unknowingly holds towards Damien and Celine & why they both “abandoned him.” Give me that sense of codependency between a broken man who is drowning in loneliness and abandonment & an unwanted, forgotten doll.

Stuntstar fans, I wanna see more of Mark’s deepest insecurities getting to him. Give me Mark becoming slowly corrupted by the Manor and the voices within it making him worse and worse over time. How Celine leaving him only deepened his suicidal depression, his self-hatred. I wanna see Actor Mark & Colt’s rivalry & how it comes down to how Mark becomes envious of Colt. Of how Colt was able to be so happy and content with his career and making people like him in ways that he doesn’t understand why people can admire him like that. He’s a fucking stuntman, for gods sake! What does that messy looking blonde, blue-eyed idiot have that he doesn’t!? I want to see how Mark’s envy turns into a twisted version of admiration and want. A crush that Mark refuses to identify as such, or else that’ll be another reason to despise himself.

Deathflowers/Darkichoir & Realcarnation fans, I wanna see more of Damien and Lars relationship prior to the birth of Darkiplier. While I do love the softness the two of them hard, that doesn’t make Damien’s past & fate any quieter. I wanna see Lars being left heartbroken when Damien vanishes. I wanna see Lars be ridden with an overwhelming amount of emotions when he thought he saw Damien again only to be mistaken (Actor Mark), or worst, rejected.

I wanna see Darkiplier coming to stalk and visit Lars at the dead of night and Lars being terrified of him. I wanna see Dark trying desperately to convince Lars that they are and aren’t who they say they are. I wanna see Dark be deeply conflicted over his affections for Lars (Damien) & needing to push forward towards vengeance (Celine). I wanna see Dark wanting to be soft to Lars but being so supernaturally and more entity than human, they hesitate and struggle to not be angry anymore.

Waktu sudah menunjukkan pukul 13.00 tepat. Dan yang sampai saat ini belum terlihat adalah sang mentari. Awan hitam dan air terus mengucur dan menutupi langit. Menghalangi sinar mentari untuk mencapai bumi yang sudah terlampau basah. Mungkin memang jatah untuk daerah Darmaga sedang mendapat rahmat dari yang maha kuasa. Rahmat yang akan menumbuhkan kembali kegersangan dan kehausan siapapun yang dialiri airnya. Meski masih banyak yang mengeluh akan hal ini. Mengeluh gak bisa keluar rumah untuk sekedar mencari makan penyambung hidup. Mengeluh karena rangkaian hujan yang diikuti mati listrik, padahal semua barang elektronik membutuhkan listrik untuk hidup. Tidak ada salahnya mengeluh, tapi akan lebih baik jika hikmahlah yang dapat kita ambil darinya. Meski hanya sekedar hikmah berlatih untuk sabar dalam melakukan sesuatu. Atau sabar dalam menunggu hujan sekedar menghentikan lajunya dalam sesaat. Yah, mungkin memang sudah kehendak alam dan kehendak yang kuasa untuk warga Darmaga sekedar sehari untuk berdiam diri di rumah dalam keadaan tanpa listrik.