a dark!a/b/o universe where omegas are kept mostly in breeding/selling facilities for alphas.
they donât even see the light of day â every omega is kept underground.
so how does one get bought, you say?
candles.
goddamn candles.
each facility will get the scent of their omegas to make candles as a âselling pointâ for each one, in order to keep them as âpureâ as possible. the only time these omegas interact with an alpha is when theyâve finally been bought.
a cruel design to send them into heat as soon as they come within the scent field of the alpha whoâs just bought them.
so, of course, ghost goes down to these facilities quite frequently to scent the candles, waiting until he finds one that makes his eyes roll back. the workers always know what heâs there for, and point him to the new batches.
new omegas.
itâs been happening for months now, so he was expecting just another trip of subpar scents before going homeâ
until he smells your scent.
he freezes, reading the description on the candle, before thrusting it into the workerâs hand.
âget âem,â he grunts, pawing at his mask that now felt incredibly suffocating and hot on his face and neck.
poor you has no idea what youâre in for.
and yes, simon absolutely lights the candle while heâs pounding into you every which way, both of you deep into your respective ruts/heatsđââď¸
AN: i feel like ghost is one of those alphas whoâs so obsessed w you he gets a rash if heâs not in you. send tweet
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Your bunny boyfriend acts all sweet, innocent, and shy around other people, whether they're strangers, friends, or family. Simply the perfect bunny.
But when you're alone, he becomes a completely different person. His libido increases a thousandfold, and all he thinks about is fucking you. In seconds, he'll bend you down on any soft surface so he can fuck you to his heart's content, whether it's the bed, the sofa, or that fur rug he begged you to buy.
Your bunny boyfriend really enjoys pretending you're his dirty bunny. He makes you wear furry bunny ears (which he bought at a costume shop), furry thigh-high stockings, and a white pom-pom-shaped anal plug that looks just like his own.
He has you face down, ass up, drooling on the sheets as he vigorously fucks you from behind. His hands grip your hips tightly, his nails leaving crescent-shaped marks on your smooth skin. He groans and moans, biting his lip as he watches the pom-pom on your ass quiver when your anus contracts and loosens around the metal.
âY-you... you have to âugh... k-keep it inside you... n-naughty bunny...â
All you can do is moan as his cock hits your sweet spot again and again. Your hands grip the sheets, his fat balls slapping against your ass repeatedly, leaving a red mark on your fuzzy skin. The wet, dirty sound of slaps fills the room along with the thick smell of sex. His cock throbs inside you, his movements becoming more erratic, feverish like a real bunny in heat. He pinches your clit, making your eyes roll back.
âC-cum on, bunny... c-cum on right now... so your h-husband... can cum inside... y-you...â
His fingers rub and pinch your clit, right where his thick cock goes in and out of you. Your belly clenches and an electric shock travels through your pussy. You come with a sharp moan, your juices soaking his cock, dripping from his balls. The sensation makes his eyes roll back. With one last thrust, he cums, strands of warm, thick semen filling you. His tail twitches and quivers, as do his ears. Looks like you two will have a litter of bunnies very soon âĽď¸
â pairing: obsessive!ellie williams x femme!reader
â summary: you believe your own obsession with your gym crush is unhealthy but you soon find that she is far more infatuated with you than you couldâve imagined
â warnings : HEAVY THEMES ! DONâT LIKE DONâT READ ! ⌠unhealthy dynamics, mutual obsession, stalker!ellie mentioned, r! is also not normal about ellie, e! being a gym rat mention, yearning, smoking indoors, shoutout to the lack of fire alarms in this fic, strap on, strap on referred to as cock, kinda loser!r, guilt tripping, e! gets mean, scent kink (?), forced eye contact, degradation, praise, emotional manipulation, licking tears, crying, marking, mentions of the big man (God), public sex, slapping, bruising, strength kink, dom!ellie, sub!r, begging, strap sucking AMEN!, face fucking, almost getting caught, hair pulling, spit swallowing, possessiveness, love confessions from both e! and r!, ellie kisses r! down there but not full on eating r out, backshots AYYYYY, sex with minimal prep, pet names, headlock from behind in a freaky way, mentions of oxygen loss, mentions of breeding, apologies, real freak4freak relationship, happy but ambiguous ending sortaÂ
â a/n: i missed writing about insane ellie so thats what this is okay love you all bye
â wc: 7k
The light overhead flickers once more, the amber hue refilling the building moments later but it is all meaningless at this moment.Â
Because itâs 11:47pm now, and Ellie always showed up to the gym by 11 at the latest. You were only assuming that was her name, as you could hear some familiar night shift workers at the front desk muttering it when sharing a casual conversation with her every now and then.Â
Names and introductions werenât important to you at this point, as you had spent these past few months sweating your ass off in this dingy place every night possible just to get a glimpse of her. She made something awful well up inside you, a part of you that shouldâve been locked away where no one else could see.Â
There was just something about her you couldnât describe, even if the taste of the truth of your fascination lingered on the tip of your tongue in her presence. It is a metallic, uncomfortable, and yet familiar flavor that overwhelms your senses whenever you watch her move about the dimly lit space.Â
Barely anyone else came to this gym and to you it was a miracle it managed to stay open in this small and unforgiving town. When you started working longer hours, you figured a place like this would be good to get out all your frustration from the day. It operated 24 hours, flexible enough to allow you to come and go as you pleased.Â
At first the times at which you came varied but about four months ago you had come a bit later, around 10:30 pm or so. You had been alone for a while, but then she walked in.Â
Itâs a clear vision in your head, even now. The way she kept her head down, a tight tank top pressed against her skin. You hadnât meant to stare but there was really nothing else to look at and it was a nice distraction from the burning within your body from pushing yourself non stop. She knew her way around, that much was apparent to you.Â
Ellieâs workout routine varied each night but she never seemed to stray from the weights section, her muscles straining in a way that made your eyes narrow in her direction just to get a better look. Sometimes you would make the mistake of staring too long, her eyes catching on yours for a moment only to flicker away in an instant as if you were just a fly on the wall.Â
To you, that meant she either didnât notice your constant gazes or she just didnât care. It physically made your heart ache, a burn so deep in your chest that you were unsure if it was from your emotions or from the irritating amount of cardio you made yourself do just to stay in her presence a while longer.Â
It was a ritual by now, come in at 10:30 pm, and wait for her. Each time she has shown without fail, as you took the same rest days as her just so you wouldnât have to be in this space without her. Sundays and Wednesdays are unbearable, your skin crawling with an insatiable need to be back near her.Â
She had never uttered a word to you or even given you a smile, but maybe that is why you were so fascinated with her. Whether or not you truly knew her was insignificant because your mind and body missed the way the air around you seemed to shift whenever she came by.
Now, both hands of the clock rest on 12. Beads of sweat roll down your neck as your chest heaves, frustration mixing with confusion all at once. Itâs a Saturday and she should be here, so why isnât she?Â
Ellie never came late and the quiet that surrounds you is somewhat jarring. You had stopped bringing your headphones a while ago, opting to listen to her heavy breathing and the sound of the weights slamming back into place when she finished using them.Â
A hollow ache fills you now, and your muscles are begging for rest. You glance over at the front desk by the door, noticing that the one worker that was usually here at this time had disappeared into the break room. It wasnât unusual, as no one beside you and Ellie came here at such an hour.Â
Well, just you now.Â
Just as you are about to call it a night, the sound of shoes scuffing against the floor catch your attention. As always, your eyes fall upon her within seconds.Â
But it is so different this time because she is looking right at you. Her eyes donât skip over you, and she doesnât break eye contact for a second. You freeze up for a moment, the shock of it crashing over you.Â
It feels wrong to look away, so your head turns to follow her footsteps, watching as she walks into the locker room towards the back of the gym. Ellie only ever went in there after she finished her workout, never once had she gone in before getting started.Â
All of this was completely out of order, your mind is scrambling to try and understand why all of this is happening. The routine of your nights with her felt holy in some way, and your frustration was only building because it seemed as if she were messing everything up on purpose.Â
You finish stretching, but you donât get up because youâre unsure of which move to make next. Your purse and keys were in that locker room, but Ellie hasnât come out yet. Minutes pass, the ticking of the clock an infuriating reminder that you are wasting time.Â
It is way too late, and youâre exhausted by every last detail of today. You shake your head, scoffing slightly because you had spent so long watching Ellie that she felt somewhat beyond your reach. This slight interaction makes her all too real, and you just want to get out of here before anything else can throw you off.Â
You let your body move on its own, your legs carrying you toward the locker room at a slower stride than usual. Your hesitance is evident in the way you move, even if you are curious about why Ellie is taking so long in there.Â
As you move further down the dark hallway, your nose wrinkles from the overwhelming scent of smoke. Undoubtedly menthols, and you knew exactly who was responsible for it. You had seen Ellie smoke outside before, but only after she had finished her workout, never before.Â
Unsurprisingly, you find her sitting on one of the benches in the locker room, the cigarette nearly burnt down to the filter. She sits casually, as if she wasnât actively flipping your world upside down with her every action today. If she notices you this time, she doesnât make it known, her head lowered as she stares at the grimy tile beneath her shoes.Â
Your eyes linger as they always do because you were under the assumption she wasnât taking notice of your presence and you had grown accustomed to being completely invisible to her.Â
Her converse are scuffed and dirty but you can really see the details of each marking now that you are closer to her, the fabric of the shoes worn down in such a way that it makes you wonder how long sheâs had them for.Â
Your head tilts in the slightest as your eyes trail further up, taking notice of how she is wearing grey sweats tonight instead of a black pair as she usually did. Before you can let yourself peer at her tank top, your gaze fixes upon her lap once more, only because you see something new.Â
There is a slight bulge you can just barely make out, something clearly pressing against the material. The sight is enough to make your skin tingle, curiosity mixing with a desperate need to see what lies beneath the fabric. She had never been packing before today, you were certain you would have noticed if she had done it in the past.Â
It caught you off guard completely and for half a moment you forgot that not only could you see her, but she could also see you.Â
You had grown so comfortable with not having to hide your constant staring that now you made no attempt to conceal your fascination with her. Even now, your hands merely rested against the locker that is holding your belongings but you made no movement to actually unlock it. Your focus is entirely on Ellie and the sound of your heart pounding in your ears.Â
âYou really are fuckinâ shamelessâ Ellie scoffs, flicking the cigarette butt down onto the floor as she leans forward with her elbows on her knees. The suddenness of her attention being directed towards you makes you instantly look back up at her face, feeling the air being suffocated out of your lungs as she stares right back.Â
âI⌠I didnât mean..â you begin to stutter, shaking your head slowly as if she were the one who had made a mistake. Youâre convinced that your very being is caving in before her, exposing every inch of yourself against your will.Â
You donât try to explain properly, as there really was no reason for you to be looking at her. Instead you continuously fumble with the lock you usually had no issues opening in the past, although now your hands are shaking far too much to put the combination in correctly.Â
Ellie doesnât seem impressed with your response, or lack thereof, at all. She stands up, her demeanor formidable in an all consuming way. âWhat?â she questions, moving closer until she is taking up the space in the bubble you had placed around yourself so many years ago. She is blocking your locker now, forcing you to stand there with your eyes as wide as a doe staring straight ahead at a set of headlights.Â
âSeriously, what were you going to say? What could possibly be an excuse for the way you were just eye fucking me the same way youâve been doing every night?â she questions, her tone so gruff that you feel completely humiliated for thinking she hadnât noticed your constant compulsion to look at her as often as possible.Â
She is so close that you can pick up on the warmth of her scent, cigarette smoke mixed with a musky, almost myrrh like undertone that makes her feel undeniably real to you.Â
âIâm sorry⌠Iâm so sorry. You just seem so nice nâ I just like seeing youâ you whisper in a tone so reverently that Ellie canât help but feel pity. âI shouldnât be bothering you like this. Iâll stop coming here, Iâll leave you aloneâ you begin to ramble, unable to hold eye contact with her for more than a split second before your eyes flicker away to soothe your nerves.Â
But your efforts to console her are cut short, your voice dying in your throat as her hand grips your face. Her hand is warm, calloused from lifting weights but a soothing weight nonetheless. It isnât hard for her to force you to hold eye contact with her now, the tips of her fingers digging into your cheeks while her palm holds your chin steady.Â
The touch is sudden and intimate, knocking you out of your frantic daze as you watch a mix of frustration and amusement dance across her features. âYou donât get to just disappear on me, no fucking wayâ she spits, her hold on your face growing painful now but you donât move away.Â
âDo you know how hard it is to control myself when you are here? God, you really donât know what youâve put me throughâ she continues on, noticing the confusion radiating from you which only spurs her to elaborate.Â
âI can feel your eyes on me all the time, but you wouldnât speak a single word to me. I tried staying here longer just to see if youâd come up to me or just do something to let me know I wasnât imagining all of thisâÂ
Ellie lowers her hand now, moving towards the pulse point of your neck and feeling it frantically fluttering. It makes her smile in the slightest, although it is more akin to a smirk of satisfaction.Â
âYou look so pretty every time I see youâ she sighs, her voice lowering as though she were telling you a secret she had kept hidden for far too long. âYour cheeks all flushed, that sweat dripping down your skin and ⌠fuck, the way you breathe is enough to make me insaneâ she adds on.Â
You are filled with confusion now, your mind scrambling to catch up with everything she was telling you. âDo you⌠do you know my name?â you question, even if it isnât what you should be concerned about right now.Â
The question makes her roll her eyes in the slightest, making you feel like an idiot. âOf course I doâ she sighs, saying your name as she refuses to look away from you. âI know more about you than I should; much more than you know about meâ she states with complete confidence, bearing herself to you.Â
âBut even after all that you ignore me. And as soon as I get you here alone, youâre apologizing and trying to get rid of me as quickly as possibleâ she huffs, her air of frustration filling the small space between you once more.Â
âIt makes me so angry, do you know that, sweetheart? It makes me want to follow you home again, just so I can watch you spend all night peering out the window because you can feel me watching youâ she whispers, now using both her hands to hold your arms as she shifts your position.Â
Now, your back is pressed against the uncomfortably cold lockers, your skin still burning hot from working out. She doesnât care if itâs uncomfortable for you, cornering you completely before she spends a long moment simply holding eye contact with you, relishing in the fact that you were finally alone with her and had nowhere to run off to.Â
Her words take a moment to truly sink in, the realization that she had been following you home making you tremble in the slightest. You canât help the natural fearful reaction you have to what she is saying, even if you had been dreaming of having her attention on you.Â
Ellie coos at the sight of you looking utterly terrified, taking notice of the sheen of sweat that still coats your skin. âI only did it because I care about you, dollâ she hums, her voice low and soothing.Â
She canât help herself anymore, leaning down and flattening her tongue against your neck before licking upwards, moaning when she reaches your cheek and feels a salty tear melt against her taste buds.Â
You should be trying to get away from her, screaming for someone to help you⌠but you donât. Instead, you whimper from the relief of being close to her at last, your tears only falling because you had spent so long believing she didnât care about your existence.Â
âI didnât want to make you angry, I promiseâ you say softly, whining in the slightest when she moves back down to your neck, nipping at your skin before letting her teeth really dig into the flesh. Itâs painful, but it relieves the ache that has consumed your heart these past few months.Â
Ellie kisses over each mark she leaves behind, her fingers now digging into your hips, fearful you would disappear if she let you go for even a moment. âI know that, silly girl. But even if it wasnât intentional, you still hurt me. So you have to make it up to meâ she says, completely certain now that you would do anything to please her.Â
You can only nod, her kisses melting your brain in such a way that she now held all the power here. It felt heavenly to surrender yourself so completely to her, your eyes momentarily flutter shut as you focus on the feeling of her breath against your freshly marked skin.Â
But Ellie is ravenous, desperate for the connection she had been deprived of for months. âEyes on meâ she states swiftly, pulling away to deny you the touch she knows you crave.Â
It works instantly, your eyes snapping back open as your brows furrow in a way that shows her your displeasure. Although your expression smooths over when you can truly take in the details of her face, each freckle placed so perfectly upon her skin that you feel as if God had created her just for you to behold.Â
Her mere presence is a blessing to you, and all you want is to belong to her in every way.Â
âDo you want to come over? To my apartment, I meanâ you ask, finding it hard to speak even if you knew that she wanted you the same way you wanted her. To your dismay, she shakes her head to say no and for a split second you fear that you have somehow overstepped again.Â
âI canât wait that longâ she states quickly, picking up on your unease. She presses herself impossibly close and now you can undoubtedly feel her strap pressing against you through her sweats. It makes a knot form in your stomach, a frantic need to feel her inside of you, to be connected with her at last.Â
You are knocked out of your daze as soon as you hear footsteps, not coming inside the locker room, but clearly passing by. It was a sudden and uncomfortable reminder that there was a possibility of being seen and it makes your cheeks burn with shame.Â
Ellie hates that something can pull away your attention from her so easily, her right hand rising to firmly tap your cheek twice. Itâs not quite a slap, but the sting of it is enough to put your focus back on her, albeit you now have a pout adorning your lips.Â
âNot here, Ellie. They can hear us⌠I mean, what if someone walks in? What if someone sees?â you whisper frantically, trying to look away again to glance at the door but no one walks through.Â
This time when you look away, Ellie is not so kind. A sharp pain spreads throughout your cheek now, the impact jarring you for a split second before you realize that she had slapped you with full force this time.Â
And fuck, she is strong.Â
The pain takes a moment to really seep in, tears brimming your eyes as it seems to worsen as seconds pass by. But your focus is centered back on her, and that is proof to her that her actions were necessary.Â
She doesnât speak right away, pleased enough to watch more tears stream down your cheeks as you stutter over your own words.Â
Lowering her head a bit, she is able to really get in your face, keeping her voice low so that what she says canât be heard beyond the space the two of you share. âYou really think those employees give a shit about what we do here?â she questions with a half hearted laugh, your apprehension to all of this amusing to her, even if she is irritated.Â
Ellie leaves space for you to answer but you are still sniffling and fighting back the urge to cry more just because she is being so mean to you. After a long pause you hesitantly shake your head side to side, trying to gauge if you are giving her the answer she wants to hear.Â
Much to your relief, she seems pleased by the motion. âThatâs right, angel. They donât care, and no one comes to this shit hole at this hour anyways. But Iâm getting real tired of you making me be so cruel. Thought a sweet little thing like you would be willing to make me feel better, but maybe I was wrongâ she mutters.Â
She feigns a wounded expression, slowly but surely beginning to pull away from you until you can move freely once more. The loss of pressure and warmth from her body feels suffocating to your heart, the ache between your thighs making you acutely aware of just how badly you needed her to be touching you.Â
âFuckinâ waste of timeâ she huffs, not looking at you as she turns away. The thought of her leaving you here makes panic crawl up your throat, the pain from her hitting you feeling akin to a distant memory as you shake your head frantically to refuse her attempts to discard you.Â
âNo, no, please. Ellie, I didnât mean it like that. I was scared, I was being stupid!â you plead with her, not even bothering to whisper now as you cry out. Your shaking hands grasp at her tank top, not truly strong enough to halt her but making an effort to do so nonetheless.Â
You canât explain what you feel at this moment, as some rational part of you knows that none of this is right and yet you are willing to go to any length to make her stay here with you.Â
Without overthinking it, you drop to your knees in front of her, your kneecaps colliding with the tile beneath you. The physical pain of the action is meaningless, your mind utterly engrossed with the need to please her.Â
Ellie finally stops trying to leave, her green eyes taking in the pathetic sight of you. Your breaths are uneven, your cheeks still flushed beautifully from working out only a while earlier. She can see the red mark she had left behind on your cheek and she truly hopes it bruises just to ensure that you remember everything about tonight.Â
âYou really were being stupid, huh?â she says, her voice calm as she watches you press your cheek against her thigh. The fabric of her sweats is so soft that it soothes you, serving as a reminder that you had managed to make her stay.Â
You nod your head, so pleased that she is speaking to you again that you canât help but smile up at her. She runs her fingers through your mussed hair, treating you like a precious pet that simply needed to be trained.Â
No further movements are made by you because it is finally clicking in your mind that you shouldnât say or do anything until Ellie wills you to do so. Instead, you remain in place, your hips slightly twitching in search of friction now because the outline of Ellieâs strap is far clearer down here, and all you can think of is the relief you will feel once it is inside you.Â
Her eyes rake over you, committing the sight of you like this in her memory. But since youâre behaving so well, she finally gives you directions.Â
âEverything off, but stay on your kneesâ she commands, her voice steady amidst so much chaos. You donât need to be told twice, yanking off your tank top along with the flimsy shorts that had been worn down after so many sessions of working out, and kicking off your shoes and socks. Next to go is your sports bra, tits fully on display for her viewing pleasure. And when you messily squirm your way out of your panties, Ellie can swear she has reached heaven.Â
You freeze up when you hear footsteps near the door again, but you know better. This time, you donât look away from her. But she can see how fearful you are, and it makes her groan in delight.Â
âAttaâ girl, following directions so wellâ she praises, still standing above you and fully clothed. You are clay in her hands now, waiting to be molded into something perfect, something only Ellie can love.Â
She glances at your discarded panties that lie on the floor, noticing the damp spot on them, the cotton soaked with your arousal.Â
âYour cunt got all sticky just from a little bit of attention from me?â she questions, although she quickly follows up before you can respond. âOr maybe you just really like it when I hit youâ she wonders aloud, already knowing how to make you squirm.Â
You should feel ashamed but you donât because she seems truly pleased with you, and that is all you need to feel content.Â
So you give her a bashful smile, your hand rising to gently touch over your cheek, the same spot that was now beginning to properly bruise from the unforgiving slap she had given you.Â
The movement is silent and you donât speak up to confirm nor deny what she had said, but the adoring way you stare up at her is just enough for her to continue on.Â
Ellie settles on the bench in between the lockers that she had been sitting on earlier, her legs spread open. She can feel your eyes trailing her every move, just as you had done so many times in the past. She pats her thigh, beckoning you closer but you can tell she isnât asking you to sit on her lap.Â
So you crawl closer, your hands and knees pressing against the icy tile beneath you. Chills rise on your skin but you donât falter, settling between her thighs after a few seconds.Â
You can hear her muttering curses under her breaths as she takes you in, a pitiful girl so willing to bend to her every whim. She clicks her tongue, noticing the way you let your eyes trail down toward what you had been staring at since you first saw her today.Â
âAwh, why donât you give my cock some attention, sweet thingâ she suggests, as if it were even an option at this point. It is more of her granting you permission to begin, her hips already rising to help you as you tug her boxers down with her sweats so that you can get what you need so badly.Â
âThank youâ you mutter, the words falling from your lips naturally. And as soon as the material is down far enough for her strap to be visible, you canât help the low whine that leaves your parted lips.Â
Itâs somehow better than you imagined, the same shade as her skin tone and thick enough that you feel intimidated by the mere sight of it. The tip is a pretty shade of pink that looks all too realistic, your tongue darting out to lick your bottom lip as you take in every last detail.Â
âWe donât have all night to wasteâ she reminds you as you stare, knowing you are in a bit of a dazed state which means you need a few reminders about taking action instead of simply ogling in disbelief.Â
âGet it nice nâ wet for me, doll. Iâve been dreaminâ of having those pretty lips wrapped around my cock since I first caught you staringâ she confesses, groaning as she watches your hand wrap around the base ever so gently as if she were something sacred.Â
All of this feels like a dream, the lights overhead buzzing as you glance up at her one more time to confirm this is what she really wants you to do. When you see the approval you seek out, your head immediately lowers.Â
Itâs gentle at first, your lips pressing little kisses all the way down the shaft before rising to the tip once more. You finally part your lips for her, never daring to look away from her as you take her further into your mouth.Â
You make no effort to hide your desperation to take more, letting your spit coat her cock so it only gets easier for her to push further into your throat. Even if you know there are people right outside these walls, you still gag around her strap and whine whenever it hits the back of your throat.Â
Ellie watches more tears take form in the corners of your eyes, your determination to please her making her nearly lightheaded. âYeah, fuck. Look at you, taking me so wellâ she praises through clenched teeth, so caught up in the moment that she almost believes she can feel the tight heat of your throat.Â
She guides your head further down, her fingers ruthlessly yanking at your hair with every movement. The pain of it only makes you needier, tears now fully streaming down your cheeks. It's hard to breathe, but that is the last thing you care about when you can hear Ellieâs constant praises for letting her use you.Â
âI knew youâd look so precious like this but Christ, this isâŚâ she trails off, taking notice of the way your saliva spills from the corners of your mouth and drips down onto your tits and the floor beneath you. âThis is just where youâre meant to beâ she finally finished her sentence, yanking you back with ease to get a good look at you.Â
Your lips are swollen, spit slick and so utterly perfect. She pulls you up just enough so that your face is close to hers, still holding the back of your neck to keep her control over you. She moves slowly now, licking over your plush lips before kissing you properly.Â
The way she moves her lips against your own makes you feel seen and loved. Itâs all consuming, teeth clashing as she tries to memorize every detail of your warmth. Her tongue slides slowly against yours, her saliva mixing with your own as the two of you melt into one another.Â
Ellie pulls you back once she is certain that neither of you will be able to breathe without taking a break, only for her to then use her thumb to pry open your mouth once more so she can spit directly into it.Â
âSwallow itâ she states simply, her eyes focusing on your throat as you do what she asks of you, her heart finally at ease now that she has proof that there is a piece of her inside you.Â
Your heart is soaring, even if your mind canât yet fully catch up with everything going on. All you know is that this is where you have wanted to be for so long, and that kiss was proof that you truly mean something to her.Â
âI love youâÂ
The words leave your mouth before you can bury them back in your heart, and you are even in shock from your inability to hide your true feelings from her. It is a completely absurd thing to say because this is the first time either of you have properly spoken and you begin to tense up, bracing for rejection.Â
But it never comes.Â
Instead, she brings your face closer once more and presses a soft kiss to your lips this time.Â
âI love you tooâ she says, her voice a soothing balm to your racing mind. The words arenât forced or false, only a declaration of the way she felt for you.Â
How you end up bent over the bench with her behind you is a mystery to you, your mind so hazy that you can only giggle as you look back to see her kneeling behind you.Â
She uses her thumbs to spread you open, her breath fanning against your cunt enough to make you squirm in the slightest. The movement doesnât make Ellie falter, her lips messily pressing against your sacred place repeatedly.Â
âSweeter than I couldâve imaginedâ she praises against your sensitive flesh, making a mess of herself as she lets herself drown in your taste and scent. She knows taking her time right now isnât the best idea but there was no way she was skipping over getting a taste of you, even if it has to be brief.Â
She listens to every breathy moan you let out, finding it adorable that you were doing your best to keep quiet just so that no one would catch the two of you in the act. With one final kiss to your clit, she pulls away to stand back up.Â
With ease in every movement, she manages to change your position yet again so that youâre facing the lockers, your hands pressing against the cool metal to keep yourself steady as she pulls your hips back toward her.Â
âCanât really take my time with you tonight, sweetheart. But I promise itâll feel good if you stay nice nâ relaxed for me. You can do that, canât you?â she whispers, her lips close to your ear as her chest presses against your back.Â
You already know it will be a stretch to fit her without taking her fingers hurt but you nod your head, willing to take what she can give you.Â
It is too hard to talk now, your brain useless when Ellie makes it so easy to just let her make every single choice for you. But your silence doesnât bother her since she can feel you pushing your hips back in search of her cock.Â
Her strap is still slick with your spit and your cunt is obscenely sticky from your own juices, so she knows it wonât be too much for you to handle.Â
She lines up the tip with your entrance, feeling it catch after grinding herself against you a few times just to get you used to the feeling. âSâ gonna be a big stretch but you can take itâ she breathes out as she begins to push her hips forward.Â
Nothing could prepare you for the feeling of her strap sinking into you, inch after inch filling you in a way you never thought possible. It aches for a moment or two, making you cry out so suddenly that Ellie has to clamp her hand over your mouth.Â
Even if the workers at the front arenât very attentive, she didnât want them to have a reason to burst in at this moment. She needs this, and so do you. Keeping you quiet isnât something she wants to do, but itâs necessary to ensure that she can get you off before the night ends.Â
You have to breathe through your nose, your relentless moans muffled by her strong hand. Your eyes nearly roll back when she bottoms out, the ache dulling slowly as pleasure begins to take over.Â
âTaking it so well, dove. Sâ all the way in now, nâ youâre pretty pussy is still trying to get me in deeperâ she coos, feeling you drool against her hand.Â
âGonna pull out just a bit⌠and slowlyyyy go back inâ she mutters, drawing out her words as she explains her every move to dumb you down further. She is kind enough to give you a few slow thrusts before she begins to revert to her natural way of being.Â
Each move of her hips grows messy and forceful, your skin colliding with her own until a wet slapping can be heard throughout the locker room. You can feel your knees beginning to weaken, wanting to collapse under the weight of your own bliss.Â
You try to beg her to slow down a bit, that it feels too good, but all your words are incoherent and jumbled against her palm. Ellie knows youâre getting lost in the sensation of it all but she canât let you go for even a second.Â
Instead, she changes her hold once she knows youâre too dumb to form any proper sentences. She wraps her bicep around your neck, putting you in a headlock tight enough to make it easy to keep you upright. And much to her pleasure she finds that your air flow is restricted just enough that you can only let out weak whimpers and gasps as she fucks you within an inch of your life.Â
Her strength is shown in the way her arm curls around your neck with such force, the hold she has on you barely needing any real effort from her. She kisses the back of your head as her hips begin to move faster, knowing that you wonât be able to hold back your release much longer.Â
âWaited so long to have this, to have you. And Iâd do it all over again too. Iâd wait outside your window while you sleep, Iâd memorize your license plate number, Iâd look through your locker⌠Iâd do it all again, all for youâ she grunts as she deepens her thrusts.Â
You should be terrified to know what she has done these past few months but you arenât, not even a bit. It's sick, the way you felt proud to be loved in such an invasive way. Never in a million years did you think she would notice you and yet you were now getting far more than that.Â
Your vision starts to go hazy and whether itâs from the building pleasure or the lack of oxygen, you are unsure. So you weakly push your hips back to get her to hit that spot within you that makes your entire body tremble.Â
Itâs all too much, and just enough.Â
âI love you, pretty dove. Youâre going to be mine, never alone again. This cunt belongs to me and only me, so when I tell you to finish, thatâs exactly what youâll doâ she explains, knowing that youâre listening to her even if youâre clinging to consciousness.Â
After one more push of her hips, she speaks up. âCum for me, dollâ she finally huffs, granting you the permission you needed to finally let go.
The intensity of your orgasm makes your legs go weak and if Ellie wasnât holding you in place you certainly would be falling to your knees. You try to say that you love her too, but the words are strangled until they sound like nothing more than weak gasps.Â
You feel so full of her, claimed completely and loved beyond all else. Your neglected clit throbs as your cunt clenches around her strap, the ache of it feeling so perfect.Â
âJesus, I can feel you grippinâ meâ she scoffs, having to put more effort into pulling out while thrusting because your pussy is clamping down around her like a vice.Â
âYour poor little cunt just wants my cum, needs to be filled up till itâs leaking out of youâ she adds on, wishing with every fiber of her being that there was a way for her to stuff her own cum inside you to permanently mark you as hers.Â
You are unable to form any meaningful reply, only whining when her movements slow while your orgasm finishes fizzling out. Itâs even more upsetting when she pulls out completely, leaving you to clench around nothing but air.Â
The sadness you feel from the loss of her cock can be felt, and she is quick to chase away that feeling. She releases your neck from her hold, instead using her hands to guide you back to facing her.Â
Within seconds of seeing your fucked out and sleepy expression, she embraces you in a suffocating hug. Ellie focuses on how she can feel the warmth of your bare skin, the scent of your love thick in the air surrounding the two of you.Â
The contact is enough to make at least part of your mind come back, leaning into her touch to show her that you adore her as much as she adores you.Â
âMâ sorry for staringâ is all you can whisper, your voice raspy from the extended pressure on your neck but neither of you seem to mind it. The apology makes Ellie smile, finding it cute that even after she had confessed to stalking your every move, you still felt the need to apologize for your own insignificant actions.Â
âI know, angelâ is all she offers in reply, kissing your lips ever so gently to make it known that she isnât at all upset with you.Â
She helps you put your clothes back on, slipping each clothing item back onto you and even tying your shoes since she doesnât want her sweet girl having to take on such a daunting task after all that.Â
Of course she opens up your locker for you, not needing to ask for the combination since she had figured it out ages ago. How she knew it was a mystery to you but it only proves to you how much she cares about you.Â
It is hard to walk out of the locker room, even with Ellie carrying your bag for you and holding your waist to keep you upright. Your head rests on her shoulder as you pass by the front desk, one of the workers muttering a casual goodnight to Ellie which she returns without any sort of hesitation.Â
As the cold air hits your skin you press yourself closer to her, needing the warmth she so easily provides. She doesnât pull away, instead she presses a gentle kiss to your forehead and pauses as the two of you stand amidst the dark and quiet parking lot.Â
âI should get you home, donât you think?â she hums, glancing at you with a look you canât quite read. You still nod, a shy smile on your lips from the idea of having her in your apartment.
Everything feels soft and distant when she is with you, the rest of the world becoming background noise as she buckles your seatbelt for you once you are in the passenger seat of your own car. She turns the key in the ignition, not needing to ask for directions to your place.Â
You should be wondering about why you hadnât seen her truck in the parking lot, but some part of you has accepted that Ellie had planned all of this out.Â
After all, she knows best, so why would you ever question her love?Â
đłđśđ˝đŹ đ¨đť đđ°đšđşđť đŠđ°đťđŹ James âBuckyâ Barnes has haunted the world for seven hundred years, cold, heartless and buried since the plague stole his last love. Until you, all warm sunlight and trouble, slammed into his night and woke the monster. Now heâs obsessed. Starving for your scent, your sleep, your soul.
vampire!bucky barnes x fem!reader
word count : 28,5k
warnings 18+ : no use of y/n, somnophilia, oral sex (f recieving), unprotected sex, forced turning, imprisonment against the readerâs will, dddne, graphic violence & gore, brutal murders, dismemberment, skull-crushing, throat-ripping, blood-draining, extreme rough sex (dw thereâs soft scenes too), bone-breaking, bruising, bleeding, pain mixed with pleasure during sex, breaking and entering, theft of intimate items, constant surveillance, stalking & obsession, graphic biting, forced blood-drinking, blood-sharing memories, heavy blood kink, murder of the readerâs ex and other men, trauma flashbacks (plague death, war violence), suicidal ideation from bucky, heavy angst and toxic obsessive âloveâ
authorâs note : my BIGGEST thank you goes to the loveliest anon who dropped a vampire!bucky request in my inbox đŤśđ Iâm literally a huge vampire nerd so this + my fave fictional man?? you KNOW I couldnât keep it a tiny drabble⌠little heads up before you read⌠ITâS DARK..... so pls pls read the warnings first and then enjoyyy <33 (and I might be open to writing a pt.2 sooo lmk if youâd want that đ)
Before the world burned with plague and death, James Buchanan Barnes was the most dangerously handsome bastard in all of plague-shadowed London. At twenty-four, he stood tall and broad-shouldered, with striking steel-blue eyes that could disarm a woman with a single glance, a sharp jawline and an easy, crooked smirk that promised both sin and salvation in the same breath.
His dark hair was tousled from brawls and eager fingers, his body toned hard from years as a mercenary, lean muscle, old battle scars and a swagger so confident it turned heads in every tavern, alehouse and alley from Southwark to Cheapside.
He knew exactly what he was. And he used it without a shred of shame or mercy.
Cocky to the marrow of his bones, sharp-tongued and arrogant as Lucifer himself, Bucky lived as though the world owed him pleasure, coin and willing flesh. By day he sold his sword to the highest bidder. By night he sold his body to any woman bold enough to meet his gaze. Tavern wenches with loud laughs and rough hands, blushing noble daughters sneaking out after curfew, widowed merchantsâ wives starved for a manâs touch and painted whores in the stews, he fucked them all. Often two or three in the same night, sometimes all at once.
He never stayed till morning. Never asked their surnames. Never cared.
One humid summer night in a crowded Southwark tavern, he had a fiery red-haired barmaid bent over a stack of ale barrels out back. Her skirts were rucked up around her waist and he was pounding into her so hard the barrels creaked and shifted beneath them. He gripped her hips with calloused hands, lips brushing her ear as he growled low and filthy,
âThatâs it, ye greedy little slut⌠take every thick inch of my cock. Moan louder, lass- let the whole fucking street hear how well Iâm ruining this tight, dripping cunt of yers.â
She came with a shaking cry, knees buckling. Bucky laughed darkly, low and wicked and pulled out only to spin her around and shove her to her knees in the dirt.
âOpen that pretty mouth,â he ordered, fisting his thick cock. âIâm going to spend down yer throat like the good little cocksucker ye are.â
She obeyed eagerly and he fucked her mouth until he spilled with a satisfied groan.
Two nights later, he found himself in a lavish merchantâs townhouse with twin noble daughters whose father was away on business. The sisters knelt before him in their fine shifts, taking turns sucking his cock while he sat like a king upon their fatherâs velvet chair. He tangled his fingers in their soft hair, voice low and dripping with filth:
âLook at you two proper little ladies⌠choking on a lowly mercenaryâs cock like common whores in the stews. Share it nicely now- lick my balls while yer sister swallows me down. Good girls. Iâm going to fuck both yer tight cunts senseless until ye canât walk straight on the morrow.â
He took them one after the other on their fatherâs fine bed, then together, whispering the most depraved things between deep thrusts:
âDoes it feel good, feeling yer sisterâs slick all over my cock while Iâm buried inside ye? Ye like being fucked like cheap sluts, donât ye?â
The girls moaned and begged for more, and Bucky gave it to them until they were trembling and spent.
Later that same month, he fucked a widowed countess in her own marriage bed, her late husbandâs portrait glaring down at them from the wall while he railed her hard from behind. He slapped her ass sharply, leaving a red handprint, and snarled against her ear,
âBet that cold old bastard never fucked ye like this, did he? Say it, my lady- tell me how much better my thick cock feels stretching this neglected, dripping noble cunt of yers.â
âBetter,â she gasped, pushing back against him shamelessly. âSo much better- please, harder!â
He laughed, dark and triumphant, and gave her exactly what she begged for.
He never asked. He simply took, with that devastating smirk, those piercing steel-blue eyes and that rough, velvet voice dripping pure sin. Women dropped to their knees the second he crooked a finger and flashed that wicked grin. Word of him spread through the taverns and great houses alike: if you wanted a night youâd never forget, you sought out James Barnes.
To him, life was cheap and fleeting, especially with the dark rumors of a terrible sickness creeping ever closer from the continent. So why not wring every last drop of pleasure from it while he still could? Death was for the weak, the unlucky, the overly cautious. James Buchanan Barnes was none of those things. He felt invincible, already half-immortal in his own mind, a king of fleeting nights and stolen pleasures.
Until the night the plague finally found him in that filthy alley behind the tavern.
James had just finished with a laughing barmaid behind the tavern, still tucking his cock back into his breeches with that signature cocky smirk when the nightmare lunged out of the shadows.
The man was a nobleman once, fine clothes now stained and torn but the plague had rotted him from the inside. Black buboes swelled grotesquely on his neck and groin, his skin slick with fever-sweat and pus. His eyes, however, burned with something far worse than the pestilence. They were mad. Hungry. And his mouth was open, revealing long, sharp fangs glistening with saliva and fresh blood.
Bucky tried to fight.
Even half-drunk and sated, the young mercenary was no easy prey. He swung a heavy fist and caught the creature square in the jaw with a solid crack.
âGet the fuck off me, ye sick bastard!â he snarled, terror spiking through the haze of ale.
The noblemanâs strength was unnatural. He slammed Bucky against the slimy brick wall of the alley with bone-jarring force. The stench of death, decay and rotting flesh filled Buckyâs lungs, making him gag. He kicked wildly, cursed, and clawed at the creatureâs rotting face, drawing blood and pus beneath his nails.
âUnhand me, you foul whoreson!â
But the dying vampire was too far gone. With a guttural, inhuman hiss, he struck.
Fangs sank deep into Buckyâs throat.
The pain was immediate and blinding.
James screamed, a raw broken sound that echoed off the narrow alley walls. It felt as though liquid fire had been poured straight into his veins. Every nerve in his body ignited at once. His back arched violently as the venom spread like acid through muscle and bone. He dropped to his knees in the filth and shit of the alley, clawing desperately at his own neck. Hot blood poured between his fingers, soaking his tunic.
âWhat⌠what the fuck have ye done to me?!â he gasped, voice cracking with raw terror. âGet off- get off me, ye devil!â
The nobleman collapsed beside him with a grotesque, satisfied smile still twisting his rotting face, finally dead.
Buckyâs vision blurred and doubled. His gums burned as though someone had shoved hot coals into his mouth. New fangs pushed through with agonizing slowness, splitting the flesh, flooding his mouth with the metallic taste of his own blood. His eyes felt like they were boiling in his skull, bloodshot crimson, pupils blown wide with unbearable pain. Every heartbeat slammed against his ribs like a war drum, each one slower, heavier, more labored than the last.
He vomited bile and blood onto the filthy cobblestones, curling into a tight ball as wave after wave of excruciating pain ripped him apart from the inside out. Nothing in his life, no sword wound, no tavern brawl, no brutal fuck had ever come close to this torment.
âIâm dying,â he gasped between screams. âChrist save me⌠Iâm dyingâŚâ
Then his heart stopped.
For one terrifying, endless moment there was only silence.
And then a new, monstrous strength flooded his limbs.
The pain crested like a breaking wave and shattered. The fire in his veins cooled into something cold, sharp, and impossibly clear. His senses exploded. He could hear rats skittering through the gutters three streets away. He could smell the fear-sweat and ale on every patron still inside the tavern. He could taste the copper of his own blood like the finest wine heâd ever stolen.
James Buchanan Barnes rose slowly from the filth of the alley a different man.
No longer the cocky mortal who believed himself invincible.
Now he was invincible.
The arrogance did not vanish overnight. It simply twisted into something far colder, darker and infinitely more dangerous. A ravenous hunger gnawed at his insides like a living beast. He staggered out of the alley on unsteady legs, eyes glowing faintly red in the darkness, new fangs aching in his gums. The whole world smelled of blood and opportunity.
For the next three centuries he drifted across Europe like a handsome plague all his own, still devastatingly beautiful, now paired with an immortal predatorâs lethal grace. He took lovers by the dozen and left ruin in his wake.
He fucked them hard and mercilessly.
In silk-draped beds of French chateaus, he would take haughty countesses from behind while their husbands slept in the next room. Heâd grip their hips hard enough to bruise, pounding into them until they sobbed with pleasure, then sink his fangs into their offered throats as they came. Many begged for it, baring their necks willingly, whispering âTake me, my lord⌠drinkâ as he drained them just enough to leave them dizzy and addicted.
In moonlit forests of Germany, he seduced witches who offered their wrists and throats in dark rituals. Heâd fuck them against ancient trees or on moss-covered altars, their bare breasts bouncing with every brutal thrust while they chanted his name like a god. He drank from them mid-climax, their blood mixing with their screams of ecstasy as he filled their cunts with his spend.
In the secret royal chambers of Spain and Italy, queens and duchesses summoned him under cover of night. They offered their royal throats like sacred gifts, spreading their legs and begging the beautiful monster to ruin them. He would fuck them on their own thrones or royal beds, merciless and unrelenting, leaving bite marks that they would hide beneath high collars and jewels for weeks.
Even peasant girls in haylofts and smoky inns were not spared. They offered themselves eagerly, wrists, throats, thighs, drawn to his dangerous beauty like moths to flame. He took them roughly against barn walls or on piles of straw, growling filthy promises in their ears as he drove into them:
âThatâs it, lass⌠bare that pretty throat for me. Let me drink while I fuck this tight cunt raw.â
He was never gentle. He fucked like the predator he had become, deep, brutal and possessive. Many women left his bed limping, marked and forever changed, craving the bite of the beautiful devil who had ruined them for mortal men.
And when the hunger demanded more than just sex, he fed.
He drank from wrists held out like offerings, from elegant throats bared in candlelight, from soft inner thighs spread wide beneath him. He never killed them, not unless they deserved it. He left them alive, dazed and addicted, whispering his name in their dreams for years afterward.
Then he vanished before dawn.
No attachments. No feelings. No mercy.
Just blood and pleasure.
He moved from city to city, country to country, leaving a trail of broken hearts, bitten throats and ruined reputations in his wake.
Until the second wave of plague swept through London in 1665⌠and brought him Dolores.
It was a rain-soaked evening when James first met Dolores.
He was walking the narrow, muddy streets of Cheapside, hood pulled low against the downpour, when a young woman hurried around the corner with a heavy basket of herbs clutched to her chest. She collided directly with him.
She stumbled, nearly dropping her basket. He caught her elbow with gentle, steady hands.
âForgive me, mistress,â he murmured, voice low and rough. âI was not watching where I-â
Their eyes met.
And she knew.
She saw the faint red glow in his eyes, the unnatural stillness of his body, the way the rain seemed to slide off him differently. She smelled the old death that clung to him like a shadow. Most mortals would have screamed or run.
Dolores only smiled, soft, unafraid, almost tender.
âYouâre him,â she whispered, so quietly only he could hear. âThe one the shadows speak of. The immortal with the devilâs hunger.â
James froze. For the first time in centuries, he was the one caught off guard.
âAnd yet ye do not run,â he said, voice low and dangerous, eyes narrowing. âMost women throw themselves at me for the thrill of the monster. They bare their throats and beg to be ruined. Why do you not scream?â
She looked up at him with calm, intelligent eyes, rain dripping from her lashes.
âBecause I see more than the monster,â she replied softly. âI see a man who is tired. Lonely. Carrying centuries of sorrow in those beautiful eyes. Tell me, stranger⌠does the hunger ever let you rest?â
James stared at her, stunned into silence. No one had ever spoken to him like this.
That night, after she invited him into the back room of her fatherâs apothecary shop under the pretense of selling him a tonic, she offered him something far more precious.
âI know what you are,â she said softly, standing close enough that he could hear her steady heartbeat. âAnd I am not afraid. If you wish to drink⌠you may. But only if it brings me pleasure, not pain. I want to know what it feels like to be wanted by something eternal.â
James stared at her, stunned. No one had ever offered themselves to him like this, without fear or mindless lust.
âDolores,â he breathed, tasting the name like a prayer. âAre you certain? I am no gentle lover. I have ruined women far braver than you.â
She cupped his face with gentle hands, thumbs brushing his cheekbones. âThen be gentle with me, my James. Show me the man behind the hunger. Kiss me first.â
He kissed her slowly, reverently, as if she were the most fragile thing in existence. When she moaned softly into his mouth, he deepened the kiss, tongue sliding against hers while his hands explored her body with aching care.
That same night, in the small room above the shop with rain pattering against the window, he took her virginity.
He laid her down on the narrow bed like she was made of Venetian glass. He kissed every inch of her, slow worshipful kisses down her throat, across her collarbones, over the soft swell of her breasts. When he reached the apex of her thighs, he worshipped her with his mouth until she was trembling and whimpering.
âEasy, my sweet Dot,â he murmured against her slick folds, voice low and tender. âBreathe for me. Let me make it good for you. I want to hear every sound you make.â
He licked her slowly, reverently, sucking gently on her clit until she came with a soft cry, fingers tangled in his hair.
When he finally pushed inside her, he did it so slowly, so carefully, whispering sweet, filthy praises the entire time.
âThatâs it, love⌠breathe. You feel so perfect. So warm and tight around my cock. Such a brave, beautiful girl, taking me so well. Does it hurt?â
âA little,â she gasped, legs wrapping around him. âBut donât stop. I want all of you, James. Please.â
He moved with aching gentleness, rocking into her in slow, deep strokes, one hand cradling her face while the other stroked between her legs.
âYouâre doing so well,â he whispered against her lips. âMy perfect Dot. Look at you, opening up for a monster like me. Iâve never felt anything like this. Never wanted anyone the way I want you.â
As she neared her peak, he kissed her throat and asked softly, âMay I taste you, love? It will feel like pleasure⌠I swear it on whatever soul I have left.â
âYes,â she breathed, tilting her head. âTake what you need. I want to feel you.â
He sank his fangs gently into her throat at the exact moment she came. She cried out in ecstasy, not pain, as his venom flooded her veins with liquid pleasure. He drank only a little, just enough to bind her to him while she clenched around his cock, sobbing his name.
âMy James⌠oh God, James⌠it feels⌠so goodâŚâ
For the first time in three hundred years, the cold, womanizing predator fell in love. Real, terrifying, all-consuming love. Dot became his anchor, his light in an endless night. She made the hunger feel like home. They moved into a small cottage on the edge of the city, hidden behind overgrown gardens. He watched her work by lamplight, head bent over dried herbs and for stolen months he felt almost human again.
He was gentle with her in ways he had never been with anyone. He would fuck her slow and deep on their modest bed, whispering filthy devotion between tender kisses:
âMy sweet Dot⌠so tight, so perfect for me. Look how beautifully you take my cock. Iâd burn kingdoms for this cunt, for you.â
She would moan his name like a prayer, fingers buried in his hair, gasping âMy James⌠my JamesâŚâ as she came apart beneath him, safe in the arms of the monster who had chosen to be gentle for her.
But the plague found her anyway.
It started with a mild fever and a small swelling under her arm. Bucky begged her to stay inside. She insisted on helping the sick in the city âI cannot sit idle while people die, James.â Within days she was burning with fever, black buboes blooming across her neck and groin, coughing up blood.
He took her to the only hospital-like place that would accept plague victims, a filthy overcrowded pesthouse run by overworked physicians and nuns. The air reeked of vinegar, smoke, and rotting flesh. They bled her, applied useless poultices, and prayed over her while she grew weaker. Bucky waited outside in the shadows like an animal, listening to her faint cries through the walls.
When the doctors finally told him there was nothing more they could do âShe is in Godâs hands nowâ he snapped. He stole her from the pesthouse that same night, carrying her home in his arms while she shivered and whimpered.
âIâve got you, Dot. Iâm not letting them touch you again.â
Back in their cottage, he took matters into his own hands. Desperate and terrified, he forced his ancient vampire blood down her throat by the cupful. He reopened the bites on his wrists again and again, mixing his blood with herbal tonics she once made, performing every forbidden rite he had learned across three centuries. He even tried to turn her prematurely, sinking his fangs into her throat while she was still semi-conscious, pumping venom and blood into her failing body in a frantic attempt to save her.
It only made everything worse.
His powerful blood clashed violently with the plague already devouring her. The buboes swelled larger and burst. Her fever spiked into delirium. She screamed in agony as her body tore itself apart from the inside, convulsing so hard she bit through her own lip. The vampire venom accelerated the plagueâs destruction, turning her gentle decline into a nightmare of pain.
In her final hours she was barely lucid. Bucky climbed into bed with her, cradling her burning body against his chest, rocking her as she gasped for air.
âStay with me, Dot⌠please, my love. I canât do this without you.â
Her eyes fluttered open one last time, bloodshot, fading but full of love. She reached up with a trembling, fever-hot hand and cupped his tear-streaked face.
âMy JamesâŚâ she breathed, voice cracking like glass. âI love you⌠even the monster. Donât⌠donât blame yourself.â
Then she screamed.
A horrible, soul-shattering scream as another wave of pain ripped through her. She clawed at her own chest and neck, eyes wide with terror and agony, whispering his name like a broken litany until her voice failed. Bucky held her through every convulsion, sobbing blood tears into her sweat-soaked hair, begging, praying, cursing God and himself.
She died just before dawn, limp and cold in the arms of the immortal who had tried everything and only hastened her suffering.
The silence afterward was worse than any scream.
Completely shattered, Bucky remained on the bed where they had been lying together.
Dot was still in his arms, limp and cold against his chest, exactly where she had drawn her last painful breath. He held her tighter, rocking her gently as if that could somehow bring her back. The silence in the small cottage was deafening, broken only by the distant rumble of plague carts outside and the crackling of the dying fire in the hearth.
Tears of blood streamed down his face as he pressed his lips to her forehead one final time.
âIâm sorry, my love,â he whispered, voice hoarse and broken. âIâm so sorry I couldnât save you. Forgive me, Dot⌠forgive your monster.â
With trembling hands, he gently laid her back against the pillows, arranging her hair and pulling the quilt up to her chin like she was only sleeping.
Then he rose.
He moved through the cottage like a man in a nightmare, pouring oil from every lamp and bottle he could find. He soaked the floorboards, the rugs, the curtains, the herbs and dried flowers she had so lovingly collected. He drenched the wooden beams and the table where she used to mix tonics.
When the entire home was saturated in oil, he returned to the bed.
He stood over her for a long moment, memorizing her peaceful face one last time. Then he struck the match.
The flames roared to life with terrifying speed, greedy and hungry, racing across the floor and climbing the walls. Bucky stayed right there beside the bed as the fire reached them, the heat blistering his immortal skin. He watched the flames lick at the quilt, at her hair, at the body of the only woman who had ever truly loved him.
He didnât move.
He stood in the flamesâ glow, the inferno painting the small cottage in violent orange and red, until the roof began to collapse and the entire structure became nothing but a roaring pyre.
The last remnants of the man he used to be, the cocky mercenary, the arrogant lover, the creature who still believed he could be redeemed, died with her in that fire.
When the cottage finally collapsed in on itself with a thunderous crash, Bucky walked out of the burning ruins and into the night.
He never looked back.
After Dolores burned, Bucky wandered the world like a ghost for nearly two hundred and fifty years, feeding in the slums of Paris, hunting through the fog of Victorian London, drifting across continents with no purpose except to dull the ache in his chest.
Then the wars found him.
In 1914, when the world descended into madness, he enlisted under a false name and threw himself into the trenches of World War I. He fought like a shadow, slipping through No Manâs Land at night, ripping out German throats with his bare fangs while artillery shells screamed overhead. The mud, the blood, the endless screams⌠they felt like penance. He told himself the carnage was justice for every innocent life heâd taken, for failing Dot. He rarely fed on soldiers, only the cruelest officers and rapists among the ranks. The rest of the time he simply endured, letting bullets tear through him, healing slowly, welcoming the pain.
When the war ended in 1918, the emptiness followed him back across the Atlantic.
He moved to Brooklyn in the early 1920s.
New York felt different, loud, restless, alive in a way Europe no longer was. Brooklyn, with its brick row houses, bustling docks and working-class grit, reminded him faintly of the London he once knew. He bought an old warehouse near the waterfront under yet another alias and made it his lair. For a few quiet decades he tried to disappear into the rhythm of the city: working nights on the docks, boxing in smoky gyms, fucking nameless women in speakeasies just to feel something close to warmth.
But peace never lasted.
World War II dragged him back in.
By 1942 he was operating as a covert Allied operative, a ghost soldier who could walk through enemy lines and leave nothing but corpses. In the brutal winter of 1944, during the Battle of the Bulge in the Ardennes Forest, everything shattered. A German artillery shell landed too close. The explosion tore his left arm clean off at the shoulder in a spray of blood and bone. Vampire healing tried desperately to close the wound but the shrapnel was too deep, the damage too severe. He lay bleeding in the snow for hours before a secret HYDRA-linked unit found him.
They dragged him to a makeshift lab hidden in the frozen woods. There, while he was half-conscious and roaring in agony, they fused a prototype metal prosthetic to the raw stump, cold steel wired directly into his immortal nervous system. The pain was worse than the turning in that London alley. He screamed until his voice gave out as they bolted the arm into place.
When he finally woke, the arm was part of him, unbreakable, unnaturally strong and freezing to the touch. A permanent scar on the body that had once made women drop to their knees.
After the war ended in 1945, Bucky vanished again.
He returned to Brooklyn, the only place that still felt halfway like home. He kept the same warehouse, later converting it into a hidden penthouse high above the city as the decades passed. The metal arm stayed hidden beneath long sleeves and gloves. He fed only on the worst of humanity, mobsters, rapists, corrupt politicians and fucked to forget, never staying longer than one night.
As the years went on, the world changed⌠and so did the way people fucked.
In the roaring 1920s, flappers threw themselves at him in smoky speakeasies, lipstick-stained mouths whispering filthy promises while they rode him in dark corners. In the 1950s and 60s, women grew bolder, secretaries, housewives, beatnik girls who wanted danger. They offered their throats and wrists in motel rooms, begging him to bite while they came on his cock. By the 1970s and 80s, the sexual revolution turned everything dirtier. Women took him home and asked him to choke them, slap them, fuck them until they cried, sometimes filthier than he had ever been in his mortal days.
He gave them what they wanted. He fucked them hard and merciless in alleyways, penthouse suites and the backs of cars. He drank from them while they screamed in pleasure, leaving bite marks they would hide under turtlenecks and makeup. But it was never love. Never connection. Just bodies and blood to numb the emptiness.
He was the shift.
Many, many years ago, people fucked mostly for love, for marriage, for heirs. Now they fucked for fun, for thrill, for the sheer dirty pleasure of it and Bucky became their favorite sin. They threw themselves at the tall, silent man with the metal arm and the dangerous eyes, never knowing they were offering themselves to something ancient and monstrous.
Yet no matter how many women he took, how many throats he drank from, how many nights he spent buried in warm, willing bodies⌠the loneliness never left.
Four hundred more years of numbness stretched ahead of him.
A ghost with fangs, a metal arm that never truly felt like his own, and a heart that hadnât truly beaten since Dolores died screaming his name.
Until one rainy night in 2026, outside a quiet Brooklyn library, a warm-blooded girl with a sunlight smile literally crashed into him⌠and everything changed.
Youâre running on fumes, a broke stubborn waitress working chaotic double shifts at a loud hipster cafĂŠ by day and a quiet night-shift librarian at an old branch library by night. Your Gothic literature thesis is the only thing that still excites you: tragic monsters, obsessive love and beautiful creatures of the night that always end up destroying what they crave most. You laugh at how dramatic it all sounds.
Itâs a brutal, pouring rainy night when fate decides to be cruel.
Youâre leaving the library well past midnight, arms overloaded with books and thesis notes, your cheap umbrella doing almost nothing against the downpour. Head down, coffee in hand, you hurry down the slick stone steps and slam directly into a solid wall of muscle.
Your coffee cup flies out of your hand, splashing across his dark coat. Your umbrella spins wildly into the street. You stumble backward, nearly slipping on the wet pavement.
âShit- Iâm so sorry!â you blurt, face burning with embarrassment. âI wasnât watching where I was going, I-â
Before you can finish, a large, surprisingly gentle hand catches your elbow, steadying you with effortless strength.
âEasy there, doll,â a low, rough voice murmurs, laced with an old-fashioned accent that doesnât belong in modern Brooklyn. âYou alright? That was my fault. Shouldâve been paying better attention.â
You finally look up.
Holy fuck.
Heâs stunning. Tall, broad-shouldered, with steel-blue eyes that seem to cut straight through you, sharp jawline and dark hair dripping from the rain. Danger rolls off him in waves, but his touch is careful, almost reverent.
He releases your elbow only to bend down and retrieve your soaked umbrella from the gutter, shaking the water off before handing it back to you.
Youâre still flustered. âNo, really, it was me. Iâm such a klutz when Iâm tired. Here- let me get you some napkins or something-â
Heâs already shrugging off his long, clearly expensive black coat. Before you can protest, he drapes it over your shoulders. Itâs warm from his body and smells like aged leather, rain and something darkly rich, like old wine and copper.
Your eyes go wide in panic.
âWait- no, no, no! I canât take this!â You immediately start shrugging it off. âThis looks really expensive. How am I supposed to give it back to you? I donât even know your name. I canât just walk off with your coat like some weirdo-â
He places a gentle but firm hand on your shoulder, stopping you from removing it. His eyes soften, the corner of his mouth twitching into the faintest crooked smirk.
âKeep it,â he says, voice low and smooth. âYouâre soaked to the bone, doll. Youâll catch your death walking home like that. I insist.â
âBut itâs yours,â you insist, cheeks burning hotter. âWhat if I ruin it? Or lose it? Seriously, I feel terrible. At least let me get your number or something so I can return it properly-â
He shakes his head, that ghost of a smirk deepening. âItâs just a coat. I have others. You, on the other hand, look like youâve had a long night. Keep it. Wear it home. Iâll survive.â
You clutch the coat tighter despite yourself, the fabric heavy and comforting against the chill. No one in this city is ever this⌠chivalrous. Guys your age wouldâve already grumbled and walked away. This man is looking at you like your comfort actually matters to him.
âYouâre really sure?â you ask softly, still hesitant.
âPositive,â he replies, eyes never leaving yours. âBesides⌠it looks better on you anyway.â
Your stomach flips. The way he says it, quiet, sincere, a little rough, makes heat creep up your neck.
You manage a flustered, stubborn little smile. âThank you⌠really. Most people in this city wouldâve just cursed me out and kept walking. Youâre⌠surprisingly nice.â
Something flickers across his face, pain, surprise, hunger but itâs gone in a heartbeat. He hasnât been called nice in over four hundred years. He hasnât been looked at like a person since Dolores whispered âmy Jamesâ with her last breath.
âYou stay safe getting home,â he says quietly, almost like a command wrapped in velvet. âAnd maybe⌠watch your step next time, doll.â
You nod, cheeks still warm. âYeah⌠I will. Goodnight.â
You give him one last awkward little wave and start walking, his coat wrapped around you like a shield against the rain. You can feel his eyes on your back the entire way down the block.
Bucky stands motionless in the downpour, fists clenched at his sides, metal arm whirring quietly under his Henley. Your scent, warm vanilla, rain and that sweet, pulsing blood underneath has already burrowed into his lungs like a drug. His fangs throb painfully behind his lips. He has to fight every instinct not to follow you right now and drag you into the nearest alley.
He waits until youâve turned the corner.
Then he moves.
Silent as death, he follows you home.
Every step. Every turn. Close enough to protect you from anyone who might look at you too long. Far enough that you never notice the shadow trailing behind you.
By the time you reach your apartment building, heâs already memorized which window is yours.
He stands across the street in the rain, eyes glowing faintly red in the dark, heart dead for centuries cracking wide open with dangerous, all-consuming obsession.
He already knows one simple truth:
Heâs never letting you go.
Bucky waited in the shadows across the street like a predator who had already decided his prey belonged to him.
He stood motionless in the pouring rain for nearly two hours, eyes fixed on your apartment window on the third floor. When the last light finally clicked off at 2:47 am, something dark and hungry uncoiled inside his chest.
But he didnât move right away.
Instead, he stayed where he was, hidden in the darkness between two buildings and watched.
You had left the curtains open.
Through the rain-streaked glass, he saw you clearly. You were still wearing his long black coat. You shrugged it off your shoulders and held it up to your face, pressing your nose into the collar. Your eyes closed as you breathed in deeply, then again, slower, savoring his scent. A soft, almost dreamy expression crossed your face.
Buckyâs fangs throbbed. His cock hardened instantly.
You muttered to yourself, voice quiet but perfectly clear to his enhanced hearing:
âGod⌠why does this smell so good?â
Buckyâs lips curled into a dark, predatory smile. He murmured under his breath, voice low and rough with dark amusement,
âPeople really donât close their curtains anymore, do they? They have no idea who could be watching themâŚâ
You laughed softly at yourself, shaking your head, then started changing. You peeled off your damp clothes, letting them drop to the floor without a care. For a moment you stood there in just your panties, stretching, completely unaware of the ancient predator standing in the rain across the street, staring at every inch of your body with black, starving eyes.
Buckyâs metal hand clenched at his side, plates whirring. Drool slipped from the corner of his mouth. He watched the way your breasts moved when you raised your arms, the curve of your hips, the soft sway of your ass as you turned. His breathing grew ragged.
âBeautiful,â he whispered to the night. âSo fucking beautiful⌠and so unaware.â
Only when you finally pulled on an oversized t-shirt and climbed into bed, turning off the last light, did he move.
Silent as death, Bucky crossed the street, climbed the stairs to your buildingâs front entrance, and picked the cheap lock on your apartment door in less than eight seconds. He slipped inside like smoke, closed the door behind him, and locked it again with the same unnatural precision, so perfectly that no one would ever know heâd been there.
The apartment was small, cluttered and alive with you.
Your scent was everywhere, warm vanilla lotion, faint coffee from your shift, the sweet copper undertone of your blood pulsing just beneath your skin. It filled the cramped space like perfume made specifically to torment him.
Buckyâs boots were silent on the worn hardwood as he walked through your living room. Books and thesis notes were scattered across the coffee table. A half-empty mug of tea sat cold beside them. A worn blanket was crumpled on the couch. The mess should have annoyed the centuries-old soldier in him⌠but it only made the obsession sink deeper. This was your chaos. Your life. Your little mortal world he was about to invade.
His gaze fell on the open notebook lying on top of the pile. Your neat handwriting filled the page, underlined and circled in places:
Vampires in Gothic Literature
Eternal life vs. eternal loneliness?
Do they feel love or only hunger?
Real or metaphor for forbidden desire? Witches â power, seduction, danger⌠real?
Bucky read the notes slowly, a low, dark chuckle rumbling in his chest. The sound was soft, almost affectionate, but laced with something ancient and dangerous.
âOnly if you knew, doll,â he whispered to the empty room, the corners of his mouth twitching into a predatory smirk. âOnly if you knew.â
He lingered there for a moment longer, tracing one finger over your handwriting, before continuing toward the bedroom.
Your bedroom door was ajar.
He pushed it open slowly, the hinges giving a tiny protesting creak that made him freeze. You didnât stir.
There you were.
Curled up in bed under a messy pile of blankets, wearing nothing but an oversized t-shirt and a pair of soft cotton panties. Your breathing was deep and even, lips slightly parted, one leg kicked out from under the covers. So vulnerable. So warm.
Buckyâs fangs throbbed. His metal hand flexed at his side, plates whirring quietly.
He stepped closer.
Your scent was strongest here, concentrated, intimate, intoxicating. He could hear every heartbeat, every soft inhale and exhale. His cock hardened instantly, thick and aching against the front of his jeans. He hadnât felt this kind of raw, physical need in decades.
On the floor near the foot of your bed lay a pair of discarded black lace panties, the ones youâd clearly worn earlier that day. Slightly damp from the rain and your long shift. The scent rolling off them made his mouth flood with venom.
He crouched down, metal fingers hovering just above the delicate fabric. The urge to snatch them was almost painful. He wanted to press them to his face, inhale you until he drowned in it. He wanted to wrap them around his cock the second he got home and fuck his fist while imagining burying himself inside you.
But he stopped.
His hand trembled. The metal plates clicked softly.
âNot yet,â he whispered to himself, voice barely a breath. âDonât scare her. Not yet.â
With a low, tortured growl, he forced himself to stand. He backed away from the panties like they were burning him.
He allowed himself one last indulgence.
He leaned over your sleeping form, careful not to touch you and breathed you in deeply, dragging your scent into his lungs like a dying man taking his final breath. His lips hovered an inch above your neck, right where your pulse fluttered so invitingly. He could hear the blood rushing beneath your skin. His cock throbbed harder, leaking against his thigh.
He stayed there for a long minute, eyes closed, fangs fully extended, fighting every instinct screaming at him to bite, to claim, to take.
Finally, with a ragged exhale, he pulled back.
On his way out, he noticed his coat draped over the back of your couch where you must have taken it off before bed. The fabric still carried traces of both your scent and his. For a moment he considered taking it back⌠but he left it exactly where it was.
He didnât want to take anything from you tonight.
Not yet.
By the time he reached his penthouse, he was shaking with raw, barely contained need.
The second the door shut, Bucky shoved his jeans down, freed his painfully hard cock and stroked himself with brutal, desperate strokes. He buried his face in the collar of his shirt, the one that still carried the faintest trace of your scent from when heâd stood so close to you and fucked his fist like a man possessed.
He came hard within minutes, spilling over his hand with a broken, guttural groan.
Even after the release, the hunger didnât fade.
It only grew sharper.
He didnât even know your name yet.
And he already knew heâd be back tomorrow night.
And the night after that.
Until simply watching you sleep was no longer enough.
The next morning, Bucky was already waiting in the shadows outside your building when you left just after 6:30 am, yawning, hair messy, clutching a travel mug of cheap instant coffee.
He followed you at a distance, ten blocks through the waking city, never close enough for you to notice. He memorized every little habit: the way you adjusted your bag strap, how you checked your phone at stoplights, the slight slump in your shoulders from exhaustion. When you finally stopped in front of a small, cozy cafĂŠ called âThe Midnight Brew,â he lingered across the street for nearly forty minutes, watching through the large windows as you tied on your black apron and started your shift.
Only when the morning rush began to build did he cross the street and step inside.
The bell above the door jingled. You looked up from behind the counter and your breath hitched.
It was him.
Bucky chose the small table by the window, the one with the perfect view of you. A few minutes later you approached, notepad in hand, trying (and failing) to look professional.
âHi⌠you again,â you said, a shy, surprised smile tugging at your lips. âDidnât expect to see you so soon. What can I get started for you today?â
Bucky looked up slowly, his steel-blue eyes dragging over your face like he wanted to commit every detail to memory. His gaze flicked briefly to your name tag.
âThatâs a beautiful name,â he murmured, voice low and rough with that old-fashioned accent. âSuits you perfectly.â
Your cheeks instantly burned hot. You werenât used to compliments delivered like that, slow, sincere and a little dangerous.
âTh-thank you,â you stammered, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. âThatâs⌠really sweet of you to say. Um, what would you like?â
âBlack coffee. No sugar,â he said, leaning back in his chair. âAnd whatever your favorite pastry is this morning. Surprise me, doll. I trust your taste.â
You nodded quickly, scribbling on your pad to hide how flustered you felt. âOne black coffee and a chocolate croissant coming right up.â
When you returned with his order, your fingers brushed against his right hand as you set the mug down. His skin was cool, almost unnaturally so, and the brief contact sent a shiver racing up your arm. You couldnât help but notice that his left hand remained gloved in black leather, resting quietly on the table, the same glove heâd worn outside. You wondered about it for a split second but said nothing, simply offering him a small smile instead.
âHere you go,â you said softly, still pink-cheeked. âThe croissant is still warm. Let me know if you need a refill or anything else.â
You hesitated for a second, then added, âOh- I actually brought your coat with me. Itâs hanging on the rack in the back. I was going to take it to the dry cleaners on my break because it got soaked last night. I can drop it off at the library tonight if you want, or⌠I donât know, maybe you could pick it up later?â
Buckyâs eyes darkened, something possessive flickering behind them. He shook his head slowly.
âKeep it,â he said, voice low and firm but gentle. âIt looks better on you than it ever did on me. I have more coats than I know what to do with. I insist.â
âBut itâs such a nice coat,â you protested, cheeks burning hotter. âIâd feel terrible if something happened to it. At least let me get it cleaned for you-â
âNo arguments, doll,â he interrupted, the faintest crooked smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âWear it when you need it. Stay warm. Thatâs all I want from you right now.â
You blinked, completely thrown by how gently but stubbornly he was refusing. No guy had ever spoken to you like this.
ââŚOkay,â you said softly, biting your lip. âIf youâre really sure. Thank you again. Seriously. Most people wouldnât have even offered their coat in that rain.â
Buckyâs gaze softened for just a moment. âMost people arenât me.â
You gave him a shy little smile and hurried back to the counter, heart racing. For the rest of your shift you could feel his eyes on you, steady, dark and unwavering. He barely touched the coffee or the croissant. He just watched you move behind the counter like you were the only thing worth looking at in the entire world.
When the rush finally slowed, he stood up, left a very generous tip folded neatly under the mug, and paused at the counter on his way out.
âSee you soon,â he murmured, saying your name like it was something sacred and secret. âHave a good rest of your shift, doll. Donât work too hard.â
You could only manage a flustered nod, cheeks still warm long after heâd walked out the door.
That night, when he picked the lock on your front door and slipped silently into your apartment while you slept, he stood over your bed for a long time, breathing you in.
He leaned down, lips hovering just above the soft skin of your neck and whispered your name into the darkness like a vow.
It sounded like both a prayer⌠and a promise.
Over the next several nights, Buckyâs restraint completely shattered.
He came back every few nights, slipping through your front door like a ghost, locking it behind him with that soft, familiar click. At first he only watched you sleep. But the hunger quickly grew teeth.
The third night he touched you.
He leaned over your bed, cool lips pressing slow, open-mouthed kisses down the side of your throat. He nipped at your skin, fangs grazing but never breaking it, sucking lightly until you whimpered in your sleep.
âFuck⌠such a pretty neck,â he growled quietly against your pulse. âBet youâd look so good with my marks all over it.â
He pushed your nightshirt up, exposing your breasts and buried his face between them with a low, filthy groan. His tongue dragged over your nipples in slow, wet circles before he sucked one into his mouth, moaning like he was tasting something divine.
âSo fucking sweet⌠these tits are perfect, doll. Made for my mouth.â
His metal hand ghosted over your hips, fingertips barely brushing your skin as he fought not to grip hard enough to bruise. You arched unconsciously toward him, thighs pressing together.
The fourth night he went lower.
He eased your panties down your legs and spread your thighs wide, kneeling between them like he was worshipping at an altar. He dragged his tongue through your soaked folds in one long, obscene lick and groaned deeply.
âJesus Christ⌠your pussy is dripping for me even when youâre asleep,â he rasped, voice thick with lust. âSuch a needy little cunt. You taste so fucking good, baby. I could eat this pretty pussy for hours.â
He licked you like a man starved, slow, filthy strokes of his tongue circling your clit before pushing inside you, fucking you with it. He sucked on your swollen clit with wet, obscene sounds, metal fingers gently holding your thighs open.
âThatâs it⌠grind against my tongue even in your sleep like a good little slut,â he murmured against your slick flesh. âThis pussy belongs to me now. You hear me? Mine.â
You came hard on his tongue, thighs shaking, a broken moan slipping from your lips. He licked you through every pulse, drinking down every drop like it was sacred.
The visits only got dirtier.
Night after night he returned. Heâd bury his face between your thighs for what felt like hours, tongue-fucking you, sucking your clit, growling filthy praise against your soaked cunt.
âFuck, youâre so wet⌠creaming all over my tongue like you were made for this. Thatâs my girl. Let me taste how much you need me.â
Sometimes heâd slide two cool fingers inside you while sucking on your clit, curling them just right, whispering, âTight little pussy sucking my fingers in even when youâre dreaming. Gonna ruin this cunt one day. Gonna fill you up and make you scream my name for real.â
You always woke drenched in sweat, thighs slick and trembling, panties pushed to the side or completely off. Fragments of sensation haunted you, cold tongue licking deep, a rough voice groaning filthy things, the faint scent of old leather and blood on your skin. You told yourself they were just extremely vivid, filthy dreams caused by stress and loneliness.
Your body knew the truth.
Every morning you woke up aching and empty, clit throbbing, sheets ruined. And every few nights the dreams returned, darker, wetter, more intense.
Bucky, meanwhile, was unraveling.
He left your apartment every time with your taste coating his tongue and his cock so hard it hurt. Back in his penthouse he would stroke himself raw, snarling your name as he came but it was never enough.
He needed to hear you moan his name for real.
He needed to sink his fangs into your thigh while buried balls-deep inside you.
And he was getting dangerously close to losing the last shred of control he had left.
A few days later, the universe seemed determined to keep pushing you together.
You were halfway through your post-shift grocery run, still wearing Buckyâs oversized black coat because the autumn air had turned crisp. It swallowed your frame, the hem brushing your thighs and you secretly loved how warm and safe it made you feel. Your basket was overloaded with pasta, fresh vegetables, a cheap bottle of red wine, and a pint of ice cream you were definitely stress-eating later.
You turned the corner into the pasta aisle and walked straight into a solid wall of muscle.
âOh- Iâm so sorry!â you gasped, nearly dropping your basket.
Gentle but strong hands immediately steadied you, catching your elbows with careful precision so you wouldnât fall.
âEasy there, doll,â a low, familiar voice murmured. âYou alright? That was my fault. Shouldâve been paying better attention.â
You looked up and your heart skipped hard.
It was him, the mysterious, devastatingly handsome man from the rainy night and the cafĂŠ. He was wearing a red Henley under a leather jacket, his metal hand tucked discreetly into his pocket like always. His steel-blue eyes softened the second they met yours.
You blushed instantly. âI swear Iâm not this clumsy all the time. I was trying to decide between spaghetti and linguine like my life depended on it.â
Buckyâs mouth curved into that faint, crooked smile that made your stomach flutter. His gaze drifted down, noticing you were still wearing his coat.
âLooks far better on you than it ever did on me,â he said softly, almost reverent. âIâm glad you kept it.â
Before you could respond, he smoothly took the heavy basket from your hands as if it weighed nothing.
âPlease, allow me,â he said, already heading toward the checkout. âA lady shouldnât have to carry all this herself.â
You tried to protest. âYou really donât have to-â
âI insist,â he replied gently but firmly, that old-world chivalry radiating off him. He held the basket in one arm and used the other to open the door for an elderly woman leaving the store, nodding politely to her. âAfter you, maâam.â
You watched him, completely charmed and a little dazed. No guy your age ever acted like this.
At checkout, he politely waited while you paid, then immediately took all the bags before you could reach for them. Outside, he positioned himself on the street side of the sidewalk, shielding you from traffic like it was the most natural thing in the world.
The walk back to your apartment was short but felt electric. He carried every bag effortlessly, making easy conversation the whole way.
âLong shift today?â he asked, glancing at you with genuine concern.
âYeah⌠double again. Iâm exhausted but the thesis wonât write itself.â
âYou work too hard,â he said quietly. âA girl like you deserves to be taken care of sometimes.â
When you reached your building, he didnât hesitate.
âMind if I help you up with these?â he asked, voice warm and sincere. âIâd feel better knowing they made it safely upstairs.â
You nodded, cheeks warm. âYeah⌠sure. That would be really nice, actually. Thank you.â
You let him follow you up the narrow stairs to your third-floor apartment. Bucky carried all the bags effortlessly in one arm, walking just behind you like a perfect gentleman.
Inside your small, cluttered apartment, he set the bags on the counter and looked around with quiet appreciation, taking in the fairy lights, the overflowing bookshelves, and the half-dead plants on the windowsill.
âItâs lovely in here,â he said sincerely, a soft smile tugging at his lips. âWarm. Lived-in. Feels like a real home.â
He rolled up the sleeve on his right arm and started helping you unpack without being asked, putting milk and eggs in the fridge, pasta in the cupboard, vegetables in the crisper, moving with surprising familiarity and care.
You noticed immediately that he only rolled up one sleeve. The left arm stayed fully covered, the black leather glove still firmly in place.
You tilted your head, curious. âWhy do you keep that glove on? And you only rolled up one sleeve.â
Bucky paused for half a second, then gave a small, easy smile.
âPoor circulation,â he said smoothly. âOld injury from years ago. The left arm gets cold easily, especially in weather like this, so I keep it covered. Doctorâs orders.â
You nodded, accepting the answer. âThat makes sense. Must be annoying, especially in winter.â
âSometimes,â he replied, voice gentle. âBut Iâm used to it now. Doesnât slow me down much.â
When everything was put away, you leaned against the counter, suddenly feeling chatty and comfortable in his presence.
âI still donât even know your nameâŚâ you said with a shy smile.
He gave you a small, almost shy smile of his own and rubbed the back of his neck.
âJames Buchanan Barnes,â he said. âBut everyone just calls me Bucky.â
âBucky,â you repeated, liking the way it sounded. âNice to finally meet you properly, Bucky.â
âThe pleasureâs all mine, doll.â
You kept talking, gesturing with your hands. âSo⌠what do you do, Bucky? You seem like you have your life pretty together. Do you work around here?â
He chuckled softly, leaning on the opposite counter. âI do some consulting work. Private security, mostly. Nothing too exciting.â
âPrivate security at your age?â You raised an eyebrow, smiling. âHow old are you, anyway?â
Buckyâs eyes sparkled with quiet amusement. âTwenty-four.â
You blinked. âWait, really? You seem⌠older. Not in a bad way! Just⌠more mature. Like youâve seen some stuff.â
He gave a low, self-deprecating laugh. âIâve been told that before. Guess I grew up fast.â
You kept talking, comfortable now. âIâm twenty-three. Still feel like a kid half the time. Working two jobs, trying to finish my thesis on Gothic literature. Vampires, monsters, tragic love stories⌠the usual dramatic stuff.â You laughed lightly. âDo you believe any of that is real? Like, vampires and witches and all that? Or is it just fun fiction?â
Buckyâs gaze sharpened for a fraction of a second before he smiled. âI think thereâs more to the world than most people realize,â he said carefully. âSome legends have roots in truth. What do you think?â
âI go back and forth,â you admitted, leaning closer. âSometimes I think vampires are just metaphors for forbidden desire or immortality anxiety. Other times⌠I donât know. The idea of someone living for centuries, watching everyone they love die⌠that feels too real. Too sad.â
Buckyâs expression softened, something pained flickering behind his eyes. âIt is sad,â he murmured. âVery sad.â
You kept going, excited to talk about your thesis. âExactly! And witches- the way theyâre portrayed as powerful but dangerous. Do you have any favorite books or movies about that stuff?â
He listened with genuine interest, answering carefully and making up plausible details while keeping his ancient truth hidden. He asked you questions in return, drawing you out, letting you talk about your terrible boss at the cafĂŠ, your fear of never finishing your degree and how overwhelmed you felt sometimes.
âDo you have Instagram or anything?â you asked, then quickly added with an awkward little laugh, âIâm not trying to stalk you, donât worry. Just⌠if you maybe wanted to hang out sometime, or so I could reach out?â
Bucky let out a low, self-deprecating chuckle. âIâm afraid Iâm terribly old-fashioned. No social media at all. But I do have a phone number.â
You raised an eyebrow, a playful but suspicious smile tugging at your lips. âNo social media? At twenty-four? Thatâs⌠suspicious. Are you secretly a spy or something?â
He laughed, the sound warm and genuine. âNothing that exciting, I promise. Just prefer real life over screens.â
You saved his number and sent him a quick text. When his phone buzzed, his smile deepened.
âThere,â you said, grinning. âNow you canât vanish on me.â
âWouldnât dream of it,â he murmured, eyes dark and intense for just a moment before he softened again. âYou get some rest now. Youâve earned it.â
He walked to the door, then paused and turned back.
âGoodnight, doll,â he said softly. âLock the door behind me.â
You nodded, cheeks warm. âGoodnight, Bucky.â
He waited outside until he heard the lock click, then disappeared down the hallway with a small, satisfied smile.
But the second he was out of sight, his expression darkened with raw hunger.
Hearing you say his name in that sweet voice had nearly made him snap.
The gentleman act was becoming harder to maintain⌠and the monster beneath it was growing impatient.
Buckyâs obsession had grown teeth.
After the night he helped you with your groceries something inside him finally snapped. Knowing your name wasnât enough. Hearing you laugh wasnât enough. Standing so close to you and still not being able to claim you wasnât enough.
He needed pieces of you. Tangible. Permanent. His.
So the stealing began.
The first time was the night after the grocery store. While you slept, he moved through your apartment like a shadow. He took your favorite perfume from the dresser, the one that smelled like warm vanilla and something sweet and uniquely you. He sprayed a little on his wrist before slipping the bottle into his coat.
Two nights later, he took the soft cream-colored scarf youâd been wearing the rainy night you first met him. It still carried the faint scent of rain, coffee and you. He buried his face in it the second he got home and didnât let go for nearly an hour.
The nights had become his sanctuary and his torment.
For the first time, Bucky began invading your dreams like an incubus, silent, hungry, and unstoppable. He would wait until you fell into deep sleep in your own apartment, then slip into your mind with the ease of centuries of practice. You never remembered the full details in the morning, only waking with damp thighs, aching nipples, and a strange, lingering bite of exhaustion.
In the dream he appeared behind you, naked, massive, his metal arm cold against your fevered skin as he pinned you down in a bed that wasnât quite yours. His fangs grazed your throat while his thick cock rubbed between your slick folds, teasing, never quite entering.
âShhh, doll,â he whispered into your sleeping mind, voice low and velvet-dark. âJust a taste. I need you so fucking badly.â
He started with your wrist. In the dream he lifted your arm, licked a slow, reverent stripe over your pulse, then sank his fangs in deep. The pull was slow and obscene, wet sucking sounds filling the dream as he drank in long, greedy swallows. Your dream-self moaned and writhed, hips grinding against nothing while he fed.
When he was done, he sealed the punctures with long, filthy licks of his tongue, savoring the last drops. Then he moved lower.
He spread your thighs wide in the dreamscape, burying his face between them like a starving man. His tongue dragged up your inner thigh before his fangs pierced the soft flesh there too. Hot blood flooded his mouth, richer, headier, while his nose pressed against your dripping cunt, inhaling the scent of your arousal. He drank deeply, groaning against your skin, cock leaking steadily onto the dream sheets.
âFuck⌠your blood tastes like sin,â he growled into your thigh. âSweeter when youâre wet for me.â
He sealed that bite too, licking lazily over the twin holes, his cool saliva tingling as it closed the wounds. Only then did he allow himself to grind his massive cock against your soaked pussy, never pushing inside, just rutting until your dream-body came with a broken cry. He spilled across your thighs in thick ropes, marking you even in sleep, then vanished before you could wake.
You always woke up with faint, fading marks on your wrist and inner thigh that you blamed on restless sleep.
But the real collection had only just begun.
Then came the panties.
He started small. The black lace pair heâd seen on your floor the very first night, the sexy ones you wore when you wanted to feel powerful and desired. He took them while you showered, pressing the crotch to his face the second he was back in his penthouse. The scent of your pussy was still faintly there, musky and sweet. He inhaled so deeply his fangs throbbed.
A few nights later he stole the soft silk ones from your laundry basket, still slightly damp. He sucked the fabric into his mouth, tasting the faint traces of your arousal and detergent, groaning like a beast as he fisted his aching cock.
But what truly broke something inside him were the cute ones.
He found them one night while you slept, an entire drawer of soft cotton panties with little embroidered days of the week. Innocent. Everyday. Mortal. The kind of thing that made his ancient, dead heart twist with dark fondness and cruel hunger.
He picked up the pair marked âThursdayâ and ran his thumb over the tiny lettering, a low, predatory chuckle rumbling in his chest.
âMortals,â he whispered into the dark of your bedroom, voice rough with twisted amusement. âStill pretending time matters. Still marking your little days like you wonât eventually be mine forever. How fucking endearing.â
He stole the Wednesday pair that night, along with the Thursday ones for good measure.
His obsession only grew darker.
He discovered the small trash can in your bathroom. Inside were a few used tampons wrapped in toilet paper. The metallic, coppery scent of your period blood hit him like pure heroin. Centuries of memories flooded him, women on their cycles spreading their thighs for him, begging him to drink while their cunts were heaviest, bloodiest, most potent.
He stood there in your bathroom for a long minute, breathing deeply, cock straining painfully against his pants.
âEven your waste calls to me,â he murmured reverently, almost lovingly. âYour blood⌠every drop of it belongs to me.â
He took one of the wrapped tampons, brought it back to his penthouse, and spent hours with it pressed to his nose and mouth while he stroked himself raw.
Every few nights he added something new to his growing collection: a hair tie with strands of your hair still caught in it, the half-used lip balm from your bag that still carried the faint taste of your mouth, a well-worn hoodie that smelled like your shampoo, your sweat, and the warmth of your skin. More panties, both the slutty lace ones that made his cock leak and the innocent cotton ones with their childish little days.
He kept them all in a locked drawer in his penthouse like a sacred, filthy shrine.
When the emptiness clawed at him too viciously, when Doloresâs screams echoed too loudly in his skull, he would sit alone in the dark, open the drawer, and surround himself with you. Heâd press your stolen panties to his face, inhaling the scent of your cunt like oxygen. Sometimes he wrapped the Thursday pair around his thick, leaking cock and fucked his fist with slow, filthy strokes, groaning your name like a broken prayer.
âFuck⌠smell so good,â he rasped into the cotton, voice wrecked and desperate. âThis little mortal pussy is going to be mine. Iâm going to drink from it while youâre bleeding. Iâm going to fuck it until you scream. Until you beg.â
Other nights he pressed the blood-stained cotton directly to his mouth and nose, sucking on the fabric while he jerked himself brutally, imagining it was your bloody cunt riding his face. Thick ropes of cum would splatter across his abs and chest as he came with a guttural snarl, over and over, until the drawer was sticky with his spend and the scent of you was mixed with his own.
âYouâre already mine,â he whispered hoarsely into the silk and cotton, fangs fully extended, eyes glowing crimson in the dark. âEvery pair. Every drop of blood. Every dream. Every breath you take. All fucking mine. Even if you donât know it yet⌠you will. Soon.â
He was patient.
He was starving.
And the monster inside him was done waiting.
You, meanwhile, were spiraling.
At first you thought you were simply losing your mind from exhaustion and stress. The perfume? Maybe youâd moved it and forgotten. The scarf? You probably left it at the library. But when your favorite pair of silk panties vanished from the laundry basket and then the soft cotton ones with the little embroidered days of the week started disappearing too, real unease settled deep in your stomach.
Then more things disappeared.
A hoodie you loved. Your favorite lip balm. A hair clip youâd worn the day Bucky helped with your groceries. Even one of your thesis notebooks went missing for two days before mysteriously reappearing on your nightstand.
You tore your apartment apart looking for them. You started keeping a paranoid little list on your phone. You even wondered if you had a stalker⌠or if the stress was finally making you crack.
Then one evening you came home from a brutally long double shift at the cafĂŠ, feet aching, hair smelling like coffee and grease. You flipped on the light in your bedroom and froze.
His coat was still hanging on the back of your bedroom door where youâd left it days ago.
But something was different.
A single, perfect red rose was tucked neatly into the breast pocket.
No note. No card. No explanation.
Just one flawless, blood-red bloom with a long, elegant stem and sharp thorns that caught the lamplight like tiny blades. The rose was impossibly perfect, not a single petal out of place, fresh dew still clinging to the edges like droplets of blood.
Your heart slammed against your ribs so hard it hurt.
You stood frozen in the doorway, grocery bag slipping from your fingers onto the floor. The faint scent of the rose mixed with the lingering smell of old leather from the coat, creating something intoxicating and terrifying all at once.
You knew.
You knew it was him.
Bucky.
The gentleman who had carried all your groceries without being asked. The man who opened doors, insisted you keep his coat, and looked at you like you were the only person in the world who mattered. The one with the old-fashioned manners, the low velvet voice and those intense steel-blue eyes that seemed to see straight through you, into places you hadnât let anyone see in years.
He had been in your apartment again.
He had taken things.
And now⌠he was leaving gifts in his own coat, the one still hanging in your room like a claim.
You walked over on shaky legs and carefully pulled the rose from the pocket. A thorn pricked your thumb. A tiny bead of blood welled up instantly. You stared at it, then brought the rose to your nose and inhaled. The scent was rich, sweet, and heavy.
Your mind raced.
How long has he been coming in here? How many nights has he stood beside my bed while I slept? What else has he taken? What has he seen while I was unconscious?
Part of you was terrified. The logical, rational part screamed that this was insane. Dangerous. That you should change the locks right now, call the police, run as far as you could.
But another part, darker, quieter and growing louder every day, felt a rush of shameful heat low in your belly. The thought of him moving silently through your space, touching your things, watching you sleep⌠it made your thighs press together.
You sat down heavily on the edge of your bed, still holding the rose, and whispered into the quiet apartment:
ââŚBucky?â
The silence that answered felt alive.
Like he was still there.
Watching.
Waiting.
The game had truly begun.
And neither of you were ready for how deep, how dark and how consuming it would become.
You couldnât take it anymore.
It was 2:13 am and you were sitting on the edge of your bed in the dark, phone clutched so tightly in your shaking hands that your knuckles had gone white. Another thing had vanished today, your favorite silver necklace. But that wasnât what broke you. It was the rose tucked into the pocket of his coat. The pattern. The way everything pointed straight to him.
Your thumb hovered over his contact for a long, trembling minute. Part of you wanted to throw the phone across the room and change the locks. Another part, the terrified, exhausted, furious part, needed answers. You pressed call.
It rang only once before he picked up.
âHeyâ His voice was low, smooth, perfectly calm. âIs everything okay? Itâs late.â
You didnât even try to sound normal. Your voice came out raw, trembling with a volatile mix of terror, fury, and betrayal.
âItâs you,â you said, barely above a whisper at first, then louder. âDonât you dare lie to me, Bucky. The perfume, the scarf, my panties, the necklace, itâs all you. Youâve been in my apartment. Youâve been watching me sleep. You left that fucking rose in your own coat. I know itâs you.â
Silence stretched on the other end.
On the fire escape right outside your bedroom window, Bucky stood completely still in the pouring rain, glowing red eyes fixed on you through the gap in the curtains. His metal hand tightened on the railing, slowly denting the metal.
He tried anyway.
âBaby, slow down,â he said, voice dripping with concern. âYou sound really scared. Maybe youâre just stressed from work and your thesis. Youâve been so tired lately. I would never-â
âStop.â Your voice cracked, but it was sharp with raw fury. Tears burned in your eyes as you stood up from the bed, pacing. âDonât you dare lie to me right now. Iâm terrified, Bucky. Iâve been checking my locks ten times a night. I wake up feeling like someoneâs been touching me. And itâs you. Youâve been breaking into my home. Stealing my fucking underwear. What the hell is wrong with you?!â
Buckyâs jaw clenched hard. Drool slipped from the corner of his mouth as he watched you curl tighter into yourself on the bed, tears streaming down your face. His free hand flexed at his side, metal plates whirring.
âI was trying to protect you,â he said, voice low and careful, almost pleading. âI just wanted to be close to you. Iâve been alone for so long and you-â
âClose to me?â you snapped, voice rising in a hysterical, broken laugh that sounded more like a sob. âYouâve been sneaking into my room while I sleep! Thatâs not protecting me, thatâs stalking me! I trusted you. You carried my groceries. You were sweet and gentle and now I find out youâve been stealing my panties and watching me change? What kind of sick fuck does that?!â
Buckyâs red eyes flashed brighter. His metal fingers dug into the windowsill, cracking the frame with a quiet groan.
âI know it looks bad,â he said, trying to keep his voice steady but you could hear the strain. âBut Iâm not going to hurt you. I could never hurt you. I just⌠I need you. Iâve been alone for so long and youâre the only thing that makes me feel alive again. Please, doll. Let me explain-â
âExplain what?â you shouted, no longer caring if your neighbors heard. Fresh tears spilled down your cheeks. âHow youâve been breaking in? How you left a rose like some twisted gift? Iâm scared to even close my eyes now because I donât know if youâre standing there watching me!â
You were crying hard now, terrified and furious and completely overwhelmed. Your voice cracked as you whispered the last part.
âI thought you were different⌠I thought you were safe.â
Bucky pressed his forehead against the cold glass, breathing heavily, fangs fully extended. For a long moment he was silent. When he spoke again, his voice was raw, almost broken, with very little hope left in it.
âIâm sorry,â he said, the words cracking. âIâm so fucking sorry. I know Iâm messed up. I know I went too far. But I canât stop. I wonât lose you. I wonât. Please⌠just come to my penthouse tomorrow night. Let me explain everything in person. No more lies. No more hiding. Iâll tell you everything. Just⌠please donât shut me out. I need to see you. I need to make this right.â
His voice dropped, almost desperate.
âI know I donât deserve it⌠but please. Tomorrow at 8. My penthouse. Iâll send a car. If you still want nothing to do with me after that, Iâll leave you alone. I swear it.â
You were silent for a long, heavy moment, shaking with fear and anger.
âAre you fucking kidding me?â you hissed, voice rising again. âYou want me to come to your place? After everything you just admitted? After youâve been breaking into my home and stealing from me? You have the nerve to ask me to walk into your penthouse like itâs some normal date? Are you out of your fucking mind?!â
Buckyâs breath hitched on the other end. His voice was quieter now, almost pleading, with almost no hope left.
âI know how it sounds,â he said, the words heavy. âI know I donât deserve your trust. But I canât explain this over the phone. I need you to see me. To see that Iâm not going to hurt you. Please, doll⌠just one chance. Iâm begging you. Tomorrow at 8. Iâll send a car. If you walk out after I explain, I wonât stop you. I swear on whateverâs left of me.â
You were silent for a long, heavy moment, shaking with fear and anger.
ââŚFine,â you finally whispered, voice trembling. âTomorrow at 8. But if you lie to me again, Bucky, Iâm done. I mean it.â
âThank you,â he breathed, relief and dark hunger mixing in his tone. âIâll see you tomorrow. Get some sleep, doll. Iâll be thinking about you.â
You hung up without another word.
Bucky stayed on the fire escape for a long moment, staring at your shaking form through the window. Rain mixed with the blood tears sliding down his face.
He whispered into the night, voice dark and possessive:
âYou donât have to be scared of me, doll. Iâll make sure of that⌠one way or another.â
He vanished into the shadows, already planning exactly what he would say and what he would do when you came to him tomorrow.
The next day, Bucky moved through the city like a man on a mission.
He hadnât slept. He doesnât anymore.
Vampires donât need sleep the way humans do. The closest he ever came was a kind of cold, motionless trance but even that had abandoned him since you entered his life. Instead, he had spent the entire night on the rooftop of his penthouse, standing motionless in the wind and rain, staring out at the glittering lights of Brooklyn below. Your terrified, furious voice played on repeat in his head like a broken record.
The way you had cried.
The way you had called him a sick fuck.
The way you had still agreed to come tonight even if it was only because you were angry and scared.
Every word cut deeper than the last.
He was going to tell you everything.
No more lies. No more half-truths. Tonight, in his penthouse, he would confess what he really was. And he was going to make it as⌠human as possible. As normal as a seven-hundred-year-old vampire could manage.
So he went grocery shopping.
He walked into the upscale organic market near the waterfront in the late afternoon, black coat on, sunglasses hiding his eyes, metal arm tucked into his sleeve. The fluorescent lights felt too bright, the chatter of normal people too loud. But he pushed a cart through the aisles with focused determination.
He started with breakfast ingredients for tomorrow, just in case you stayed. Eggs, fresh herbs, thick-cut bacon, ripe avocados, sourdough bread. Then he moved to dinner. He wanted something comforting, something that said âI care.â He picked out ingredients for homemade lasagna, fresh pasta sheets, rich tomato sauce, ground beef, ricotta, mozzarella and basil. He added things for a salad and garlic bread.
His mind kept drifting to you as he shopped.
Sheâs coming tonight. Sheâs terrified of me. She has every right to be.
He stopped in the baking aisle and stared at the rows of flour, sugar, chocolate and vanilla. He remembered you mentioning once that you loved chocolate cake when you were stressed. So he grabbed everything he needed, dark cocoa powder, heavy cream, eggs, butter and added a bottle of expensive vanilla extract.
An older woman beside him smiled kindly as she reached for a bag of sugar.
âBaking for someone special?â she asked.
Bucky gave her a small, tired smile. âYeah⌠something like that.â
He hoped you would still want anything from him after tonight.
By the time he got back to the penthouse, his arms were full of bags. He spent the next several hours in the kitchen, sleeves rolled up. He prepped the lasagna, made the chocolate cake from scratch, even baked fresh bread. The entire penthouse filled with warm, comforting smells, tomato sauce simmering, cake baking, garlic and herbs.
As he worked, he practiced what he would say.
âIâm a vampire.â âIâve been watching you sleep.â âI stole your things because Iâm obsessed with you.â âI would kill for you.â âI want to turn you so I never lose you.â
Every version sounded insane. Every version made him feel sick with fear that you would finally run.
He set the dining table beautifully, candles, wine, flowers. He even picked out soft music. When everything was ready, he stood in the middle of the kitchen, staring at the feast he had made, and whispered to the empty room:
âPlease donât leave me, doll. Please⌠just listen.â
He checked the clock.
8:00 pm was approaching.
And for the first time in centuries, the ancient predator felt genuinely nervous.
He was about to confess everything.
And he had no idea if you would still be his when the night was over.
You arrived at his penthouse at exactly 8:00 pm, fury burning hotter than fear. The car he sent had been silent and luxurious but you spent the entire ride clenching your fists, rehearsing every accusation. When the private elevator doors opened directly into his home, you stepped out with your chin high, jaw tight, eyes blazing.
Bucky stood near the floor-to-ceiling windows, the glittering city sprawled behind him like a dark jewel. The lights were low, candles flickering on the dining table. He looked almost⌠human. Nervous. Shoulders tense, hands shoved into his pockets.
You stopped a few feet away, arms crossed tightly.
âStart talking,â you snapped, voice trembling with rage. âNo more âprotecting meâ bullshit. I want the truth. All of it. Right now.â
Bucky swallowed hard. âI⌠I donât know where to begin.â
âBegin with why youâve been lying to me.â
He took a slow step closer, then stopped when you flinched. âIâm not who you think I am. Not⌠not completely.â
Your heart hammered. Something in his voice, the raw edge, the hesitation made the air feel heavier. âBucky. What are you?â
For a long moment, he just stared at you. Then his shoulders slumped.
âIâm not human,â he said, voice low and rough, almost a growl. âNot anymore. Not for a very long time.â
The lights in the penthouse seemed to dim further. A chill crawled up your spine.
âWhat the hell does that mean?â you whispered.
His eyes, those beautiful blue eyes youâd trusted, began to change. The color bled away from the edges inward, flooding with a violent, glowing red. Not just red. Blood-red. Like twin embers pulled straight from hell, pulsing with unnatural hunger.
You stumbled back a step. âBucky-â
His lips parted. There was a soft, wet click as his canines elongated into fangs, long, razor-sharp, gleaming under the candlelight. They looked strong enough to tear through flesh without effort. A low, involuntary growl rumbled in his chest, deep and animalistic.
You pressed a hand to your mouth, breath shallow. âOh my GodâŚâ
He slowly raised his left hand. The plates of the metal arm shifted with a mechanical whirr-click-grind, like a machine waking up. The steel caught the red glow from his eyes, reflecting it back in cold, deadly shards.
âBucky, what are you?â You asked again, fear finally overtaking the anger.
He took one more step forward, voice dropping into something ancient and broken. âThis is what I am.â
The full transformation hit like a nightmare unfolding in real time. His skin seemed to pale further, veins standing out dark beneath it. The red in his eyes brightened, casting eerie shadows across his face. Those fangs, fully extended now, made his mouth look wrong, predatory. When he spoke again, his voice was layered with something inhuman, a resonance that vibrated in your bones.
âA vampire,â he said. âTurned in 1349 during the Black Death. I died in an alley with a noblemanâs teeth in my throat⌠and I woke up like this.â
You backed up until your legs hit the edge of the couch. âNo. No, thatâs not- this isnât real.â
He rolled up his sleeve with deliberate slowness, revealing the brutal fusion where metal met scarred flesh. The seam looked raw, like it had been cauterized with fire and rage. The arm flexed, plates shifting with a menacing hum.
You stared, heart slamming against your ribs. âThe glove⌠the circulation storyâŚâ
âAll lies,â he admitted, voice raw. âI didnât want you to see the monster. I thought if I could be James for a little while longer, you might not run screaming.â
He reached out slowly but you jerked away.
âDoes it hurt?â you whispered, despite everything.
âEvery day.â His red eyes never left yours. âItâs not mine. They tore the real one off and bolted this thing onto me while I was screaming. HYDRA made sure I felt every second of it.â
Silence stretched, thick and suffocating. Only the distant city hum and the frantic beat of your own heart filled the room.
Buckyâs shoulders shook as he continued, the words pouring out like heâd held them back for centuries. âI was arrogant. Handsome. Thought the world was mine. Then the plague came and a dying man made me eternal. Iâve spent nearly seven hundred years alone. Fucking. Feeding. Leaving bodies behind before dawn because nothing ever filled the emptiness.â
His voice cracked completely. Blood-red tears slid down his cheeks, actual blood, dark and glistening.
âUntil Dolores. Dot. She called me âmy James.â She knew what I was and still loved me. When the plague took her in 1665, I tried to turn her. Forced my blood down her throat while she was still breathing. She screamed my name as she died in my arms. I burned the cottage with her body inside because I couldnât bear to look at what Iâd done.â
He dropped to his knees right there on the marble floor, arms wrapping around your waist like you were his last anchor.
âIâve carried her screams for four hundred years,â he choked out against your stomach, blood tears soaking your shirt. âThe wars. The mud. The explosion that took my arm. Waking up with this thing fused to me, roaring while they wiped my mind over and over. I came back to Brooklyn. Fed only on the worst people so I wouldnât have to feel. Until that rainy night outside the library⌠when you smiled at me like I wasnât damned.â
You stood frozen, sobbing, one hand hovering over his dark hair.
He looked up at you, eyes glowing like fresh blood, fangs fully bared, metal arm clenched so hard the plates screamed in protest. âIâve been breaking into your apartment. Stealing your things. Tasting you while you slept. Listening to your heartbeat and praying I wouldnât ruin you too.â
You shook your head, tears streaming. âYou⌠you drank from me? While I was sleeping? You touched me, took my things like some kind of sick collector-â
âI know,â he whispered brokenly. âIâm a monster. A killer. I understand if you run. I wonât stop you. But please⌠Iâm so fucking tired of being alone. Youâre the only light Iâve had in centuries. Donât take it away.â
The penthouse was silent except for your ragged breathing and his quiet, desperate sobs against you.
You were terrified.
You were furious.
You stood there, trembling, with Buckyâs arms locked around your waist and his face pressed against your stomach. The glow of his red eyes lit the floor beneath you like dying embers. His fangs were still fully extended, brushing against the fabric every time he breathed.
Your hand finally lowered. Fingers sank into his dark hair.
âI should run,â you whispered, voice cracking. âAny sane person would.â
Buckyâs shoulders tensed, waiting for the blow.
âBut Iâm still here,â you continued, the words spilling out before you could stop them. âIâm terrified⌠but Iâm not leaving. Not tonight. Not yet. Youâre a monster, Bucky. A real one. But youâre my monster. And I hate how much that matters to me right now.â
A broken sound escaped him, half sob, half relief. He tightened his hold for one heartbeat, then slowly loosened it, as if afraid youâd vanish.
âThank you,â he breathed against you. âGod, thank you.â
He stayed on his knees a moment longer, forehead pressed to your hip like a penitent at confession. When he finally rose, the red in his eyes had dimmed slightly but the fangs still peeked past his lips and the metal arm still hummed with tension. He looked raw. Exposed. Almost boyish in his uncertainty.
Bucky rubbed the back of his neck, a shy human gesture that felt strangely out of place on a centuries-old vampire.
âI⌠prepared dinner for you,â he said softly, a faint flush coloring his pale cheeks. âIâve been cooking since the afternoon. I wanted tonight to feel⌠normal. Before everything else.â
You blinked, surprised, still wiping tears from your face. âYou cooked? For me?â
He gave a small, almost shy nod. âI havenât cooked for anyone in⌠a very long time. I wanted it to be perfect.â
He led you further into the penthouse with gentle care, one hand hovering near the small of your back without quite touching. The long dining table was set beautifully for one, fine china, crystal glasses, silverware polished to a mirror shine. Tall candles flickered in elegant holders, casting warm golden light across the room. A bottle of deep red wine breathed in a decanter. Soft, old jazz played from hidden speakers, something slow and smoky from the 1940s.
You could see into the open kitchen: chopping boards with fresh herb scraps, a pot that had clearly been simmering for hours, an empty wine bottle he must have used in the sauce.
Bucky pulled out your chair like a gentleman from another century, then sat across from you. He didnât touch his own plate.
The feast was incredible.
Bucky had clearly poured hours into it. A rich homemade minestrone soup steamed gently in a beautiful ceramic bowl, loaded with fresh vegetables and herbs. Next to it sat a generous serving of creamy garlic pasta with fresh basil and shaved parmesan. There was a perfectly roasted vegetable medley glistening with olive oil and sea salt, a beautifully seared steak with rosemary and garlic butter and a large tray of homemade lasagna, layers of tender pasta, rich meat sauce, creamy ricotta, and melted mozzarella that still bubbled from the oven. A basket of warm, golden garlic bread sat beside it, the aroma of butter and roasted garlic filling the air.
On a side table waited three different desserts: tiramisu dusted with cocoa, dark chocolate cake layered with silky ganache and fresh berries with whipped cream and mint.
You took your first bite of the pasta and actually moaned. âBucky⌠this is amazing. When did you even have time to do all this?â
He watched you eat with quiet intensity, a small smile playing at his lips despite the fangs. âIâve had a lot of time to learn things over the centuries. Cooking was one way I tried to feel⌠human. I started preparing everything this morning. I needed to do something with my hands or I was going to lose my mind waiting for you to say yes.â
You ate slowly, studying him the entire time, the way candlelight danced across his pale skin, the subtle shift of metal plates under his sleeve, the faint red glow still lingering at the edges of his eyes. The silence finally became too much.
âBucky⌠why arenât you eating anything?â you asked gently.
He gave a low, tired chuckle and leaned back in his chair, eyes soft but shadowed.
âI can eat human food, doll. Some of us do it at galas or restaurants to blend in. But it tastes like ash in my mouth. No real flavor. No nourishment. Most of us vomit it up later, or it just sits heavy and makes us sick. If we rely on it too long, we get weak⌠malnourished.â His voice dropped, dark and intimate. âNothing, nothing, compares to blood. Especially yours.â
You swallowed hard, heart racing, but took another slow bite of the pasta anyway. The rich garlic and herbs still tasted divine to you, even if they were nothing to him. Curiosity was slowly winning the war against your nerves. âSo the garlic in this pasta⌠itâs really fine?â
He smiled faintly, fangs glinting in the candlelight. âOld folklore. Garlic doesnât hurt us. It just smells strong. Some of us find it unpleasant, like it stings our nose but it wonât kill me. I actually like cooking with it. Reminds me of simpler times.â
You nodded, chewing thoughtfully. âCan you see yourself in mirrors?â
He let out a soft laugh. âYes. Always have. The whole âno reflectionâ thing was invented by Bram Stoker as a narrative device to show vampires lacked a soul. I still shave the old-fashioned way every evening.â
âWhat about sunlight?â you pressed, leaning forward. âDo you sparkle or burst into flames like in the movies?â
Bucky let out a genuine laugh, the sound low and warm, cutting through the heavy tension in the room. âNo sparkling. That one always makes me laugh. I can go out in daylight- it just weakens me. The older I get, the more it burns if I stay out too long. Like a bad sunburn that never quite heals. Thatâs why I prefer evening dates. Sunsets are my limit on a good day.â
You kept going, emboldened by his patience. âHoly water? Crosses? What about stakes?â
âHoly water feels like a mild burn on the skin, like touching a hot pan for half a second. Crosses do nothing- never have.â He shrugged. âAs for stakes⌠that whole âwooden stake through the heart kills usâ idea is mostly modern invention. In the old folklore they were just used to pin us down or immobilize us so we couldnât rise from the grave. To actually finish one of us off, youâd need to behead or burn the body.â
He tapped his chest with a wry smile. âA stake would hurt like hell and slow me down, but I heal too fast. Youâd have to be quicker than me and almost nothing is.â
You set your fork down, studying his face, the way the red glow in his eyes pulsed softly with every answer. âWhen do your fangs come out? Just when youâre hungry?â
Buckyâs eyes darkened, the crimson flaring brighter for a heartbeat. âThey come out when Iâm hungry. When Iâm angry.â His voice dropped into a rough growl that sent heat and fear twisting low in your belly. âAnd when Iâm aroused. Theyâve been out since you walked into the penthouse. Looking at you does that to me. Every damn time.â
Your breath caught. Heat flooded your cheeks. âSo right now⌠theyâre because of me?â
âPartly,â he admitted, voice rough with honesty. âMostly. You walk in a room and my body reacts before my brain catches up.â
You bit your lip, fighting the strange flutter in your chest. âDo you⌠shape-shift? Like into bats or wolves or anything?â
He tilted his head, a small, dangerously charming smirk playing on his lips. âSome of the very old ones can. Bats, rats, owls, foxes, even wolves. I never learned how. Never needed to. I prefer this form. This body.â His metal fingers flexed slowly on the tablecloth. âItâs served me well for seven hundred years. Strong. Fast. Familiar.â
You nodded slowly, processing everything. âWhat about needing an invitation to enter a home? Is that why you waited for me to open the door sometimes?â
Buckyâs smirk faded into something darker, almost predatory. His red eyes gleamed with dark amusement.
âThat one used to be real,â he said, voice low. âA long time ago. But we figured it out centuries back. Vampires invented welcome mats. Cute little loophole. Put one outside your door and boom youâve technically invited every vampire in the world inside. Most people have them now without even realizing what theyâre doing.â
He leaned forward slightly, watching your face.
âI never actually needed an invitation. I only picked your lock those first few times out of habit⌠and because I wanted to hear you invite me in yourself. I wanted to watch that sweet, trusting smile when you opened the door for me. I wanted you to choose to let me in.â
A deep chill ran down your spine. The candle flames suddenly felt tiny and useless against the growing shadows in the room.
âSo you could just⌠walk in whenever?â you asked quietly, voice barely above a whisper.
âAnytime,â he said, eyes locked on yours, unblinking. âDay or night. Rain or shine. Whether youâre awake, asleep, or in the shower. I never have to wait outside again unless you explicitly tell me to leave. And even thenâŚâ
He let the sentence hang, the implication heavy in the air.
You swallowed hard, heart hammering.
Buckyâs voice dropped even lower, almost intimate.
âIâd probably still watch from the street⌠just to make sure youâre safe.â
You tried to push past the shiver of fear. âWhat about resting in a coffin with soil from your grave? Is any of that real?â
Buckyâs expression turned almost nostalgic, though there was a hint of darkness in his eyes.
âMostly myth,â he said. âI donât need a coffin. I donât actually need to sleep at all- vampires donât. The body doesnât require rest the way a human one does. But some of us do sleep in soil from their homeland. It⌠grounds us. Keeps the centuries from driving them completely insane. I havenât done that in a long time. The last time was right after the war, when everything hurt too much.â
The questions kept coming, almost like you couldnât stop them. âAre all vampires pale and beautiful like you? Or is that just in books?â
Bucky gave a dark, low chuckle that vibrated through his chest.
âIn the oldest stories, we were bloated, ruddy, purple corpses. Disgusting, swollen things that crawled out of graves smelling of rot, mindless demons driven by pure bestial instinct. No charm, no seduction, just mindless hunger.â
He smiled, his red eyes gleaming with something hungry and possessive. âBut after the change⌠itâs different. The venom rewrites you. Makes you younger. More beautiful. More magnetic.â
âYou get this pull, an almost supernatural allure that draws people in. Makes them want to get closer. Makes them easy to seduce⌠easy to drain dry without them even realizing whatâs happening until itâs too late.â
He leaned forward slightly, voice velvet and smoke. âWhen I turn you, you wonât just be immortal. Youâll be⌠irresistible. Skin flawless. Body perfected. A face and presence that makes mortals ache to be near you. To offer themselves. To bare their throats without understanding why. Thatâs how we survive. Not just by strength- but by beauty. By hunger wrapped in seduction.â
You swallowed hard, a shiver racing down your spine at how casually he spoke about turning you. Like it was something he had already decided in his mind. âYou keep saying âwhen,ââ you whispered. âNot âif.ââ
Bucky noticed your unease immediately. He reached across the table and gently took your hand, metal fingers cool but careful against your skin.
âYou donât have to worry your pretty head about it right now, doll,â he murmured, voice softening into that velvet tone that always made your stomach flutter. âIâm not going to rush you. Iâm not going to force anything. When- if- it happens, itâll be when youâre ready. I just⌠I canât stand the thought of watching you grow old and die while I stay like this. Iâve buried too many people I cared about. I donât want you to be one of them.â
He lifted your hand to his lips and pressed a slow, reverent kiss to your knuckles, fangs lightly grazing your skin in a promise that made your pulse jump wildly.
âYouâre already perfect to me,â he whispered against your fingers. âHuman or not.â
You stared at him across the flickering candles, heart racing with a dizzying mixture of fear, fascination, lingering anger, and something far deeper. The jazz still played softly. The feast was slowly cooling on your plate. And the vampire who had just answered every terrifying question with surprising patience was still holding your hand like it was the most precious thing in his long, dark life.
âThis is⌠a lot to take in,â you said finally, voice barely above a whisper.
Buckyâs red eyes softened. âI know. Take all the time you need. Ask me anything. Iâll answer every question, no matter how dark. And I understand if itâs too much. If you want to run, I wonât stop you.â
You didnât run.
Instead, you reached across the table and gently touched his metal hand.
âIâm still here,â you whispered, fingers tracing the cool plates. âI wonât run.â
Bucky turned his hand over instantly, metal fingers carefully closing around yours like he was afraid youâd disappear. His glowing red eyes searched your face, raw and uncertain.
âThereâs one more thing,â he said, voice dropping even lower, almost ashamed. âSometimes⌠I can slip into dreams. Like an incubus. Iâve done it to you. Many times. Iâve made you dream filthy things while you slept. Made you feel my hands spreading you open, my mouth on your cunt, my cock buried so deep you were sobbing my name. Youâd wake up soaked, thighs slick, aching so badly you had to touch yourself⌠and you thought it was just your imagination.â
Your breath hitched sharply. Heat flooded your face and lower, a sudden throb between your legs. âYou⌠did that?â
Buckyâs eyes burned brighter, pupils blown wide. âEvery night I couldnât stay away. Even when I tried to stop myself. Iâd stand in the corner of your room, hard as steel and push into your mind just to hear you moan for me in your sleep. Iâm sorry. I know how fucked up that is.â
The silence between you crackled, thick, electric, heavy with fear, shame, and dark, undeniable desire. Your pulse thundered in your ears. You didnât pull your hand away.
The tension finally snapped.
You stood up slowly, chair scraping against the floor. Bucky rose to meet you, chest heaving. The first kiss was slow and reverent, his hands cradling your face like you were made of glass. But hunger took over fast. The kiss turned deep, desperate, tongues sliding, teeth clashing. You moaned into his mouth and he answered with a broken growl that vibrated straight to your core.
He pulled back suddenly, breathing hard, fangs fully extended and gleaming. A thin string of saliva still connected his lower lip to your skin. He looked feral. Starving. Devastatingly beautiful.
You stared, heart pounding with something far beyond fear now. Curiosity and lust burned hotter. You reached up, cupped his jaw, thumb brushing the sharp line of his cheekbone. âOpen for me, Bucky.â
His glowing red eyes flickered with surprise, but he obeyed instantly. Lips parting, he showed you the full, lethal length of his fangs. A low, needy growl rumbled in his chest, submissive and desperate, like he was offering himself up for your inspection.
You traced one fang slowly with your thumb, feeling the razor edge without cutting yourself. âDoes it hurt when they come out?â
âJust a dull ache,â he murmured, voice gravel-rough and trembling. âLike an old wound. But right now⌠fuck, doll, it feels good. Because itâs you touching them.â His tongue flicked out helplessly. Thick drool slipped from the corner of his mouth, sliding down his chin as he fought the urge to bite.
You leaned in, eyes locked on his and dragged your tongue slowly up the length of one fang. The metallic tang mixed with his dark, cold taste, addictive and intoxicating. Bucky groaned deep in his throat, the sound broken and filthy. His metal hand tightened on your waist, hard enough to bruise, hips jerking forward involuntarily against you.
âFuck⌠youâre gonna kill me,â he rasped, drooling openly now. Saliva dripped onto your chest as he watched you explore him with wide, submissive eyes. âNo oneâs ever⌠touched them like that. No oneâs ever been brave enough.â
âDoes drinking hurt?â you asked, still licking and teasing the sharp point, sucking gently at the tip.
âOnly if I want it to.â His voice cracked into something dangerous and wrecked. âI can make it burn like fire⌠or feel like the best orgasm youâve ever had. Iâve learned control over centuries. But with you-â He shuddered hard when you sucked harder. â-I donât know how long itâll last. Please⌠dollâŚâ
You smiled, wicked and curious and took the entire tip of his fang into your mouth, sucking softly. Bucky snarled, the sound purely submissive and lifted you off the ground like you weighed nothing. Clothes were torn away in a frantic blur, your shirt ripped down the middle, his pants shoved down just enough. He carried you to the bedroom, metal arm cool and unyielding against your bare back and laid you on the bed with surprising gentleness.
But the second your back hit the mattress, the hunger consumed him.
He worshipped you for what felt like hours. Mouth everywhere. He sucked dark, claiming bruises into your breasts, fangs grazing your nipples until you arched and whimpered. He licked long, messy stripes down your stomach, drooling shamelessly over your skin, leaving shiny, cooling trails. When he finally shoved your thighs apart and settled between them, his red eyes burned up at you with raw need.
âIâve tasted you before,â he confessed, voice thick with shame and lust, pressing open-mouthed kisses to your inner thigh. âWhile you slept. Just little sips from your wrist or your thigh. Never enough to hurt you. Never while you were awake, watching me like this.â He groaned, hips grinding helplessly against the sheets. âIâm sorry⌠but I couldnât stop. You taste like fucking heaven.â
His tongue dragged slowly through your folds, and the broken, desperate sound he made was almost worshipful. âLet me make it up to you, doll. Please. Let me show you how good I can make it feel when youâre awake.â
Before you could answer, he buried his face in your cunt. No teasing. He devoured you, filthy, wet, obscene sounds filling the room as his tongue fucked deep inside you, curling, thrusting. His drool mixed with your slick, dripping down his chin, soaking the sheets. Two thick fingers joined his tongue while his thumb rubbed tight circles on your clit. You came the first time with a broken cry, thighs clamping around his head. He didnât stop. He sucked your clit between his lips and growled, the vibration sending you over again almost immediately, sobbing his name.
Only then did he crawl up your body, cock heavy and leaking against your thigh. He was massive, thick, flushed dark, the head already glistening with precum and your own slick. You reached down with a shaky hand and stroked him, spreading the mess along his length.
âBucky⌠youâre so fucking big,â you whimpered, eyes wide with a mix of awe and nerves.
âI know, baby,â he groaned, pressing his forehead to yours, breathing ragged and hot against your lips. âGonna go slow at first. Breathe for me. Iâve got you. Tell me if it hurts, okay? I need to hear you.â
He pushed in inch by inch, stretching you open until you felt impossibly full. The burn was intense but perfect, bordering on too much. When he bottomed out, he stayed there, hips twitching, drooling onto your neck as he fought for control.
âFuck⌠youâre so tight,â he rasped, voice wrecked. âSo warm and wet for me. Taking every inch like you were made for this cock. How does it feel, doll? Does it hurt?â
âA little,â you gasped, nails digging into his shoulders. âItâs so much⌠but it feels good. Donât stop.â
He stayed buried deep, rolling his hips in slow, careful circles, letting you adjust. âGood girl. Breathe. Iâve got you. If it gets too much, you tell me. Promise me.â
âI promise,â you whispered, legs wrapping tighter around him.
Then he started moving, deep, slow rolls of his hips at first, letting you feel every ridge and vein dragging inside you. The headboard creaked under his metal grip. Soon the pace turned punishing, hips snapping hard, the wet slap of skin on skin echoing obscenely through the room. He fucked you like heâd been starving for you for decades.
âMine,â he snarled against your throat, fangs scraping your skin. âSay it.â
âIâm yours- fuck, Bucky, Iâm yours!â
Your orgasm was building fast, walls fluttering around his cock. Bucky suddenly slowed, pulling almost all the way out before sliding back in deep. His glowing red eyes locked onto yours, intense and pleading.
âDrink from me,â he rasped, slicing his wrist open with a fang. Dark, ancient blood welled up instantly. âJust a little. Itâll make everything feel better. So much better. Trust me, doll. Youâll feel like youâre flying.â
You hesitated, breath shaky. âBucky⌠I donât know if-â
âPlease,â he whispered, pressing his bleeding wrist closer to your lips, voice desperate and feral. âIt wonât hurt you. Itâll heighten everything. Every thrust. Every touch. Every single nerve in your body. Youâll come harder than you ever have. Let me give this to you, baby. Let me make you feel good.â
The raw need in his voice, combined with the way he was still buried so deep inside you, made you cave. You parted your lips and let him press his wrist to your mouth.
The first taste was overwhelming, rich, metallic, and strangely sweet, like dark spiced wine laced with raw power. His blood flooded your tongue and burned down your throat. Almost immediately, fire spread through your veins. Pleasure exploded tenfold. Every nerve lit up like live wires. The stretch of his cock inside you suddenly felt impossibly better, every ridge dragging against sensitive spots you didnât even know existed.
âOh my God-â you gasped, eyes rolling back, a broken moan tearing from your throat.
Bucky groaned loudly, hips snapping forward harder. âThatâs it⌠good girl. Feel me now. Feel how deep I am. How full you are. Does it still hurt, doll? Tell me.â
âNo- fuck, it feels⌠incredible,â you sobbed, legs shaking around him. âDonât stop. Please donât stop.â
He fucked you through it without mercy, eyes glowing brighter, drooling onto your chest as he watched you fall apart.
âFuck, look at you,â he growled, voice wrecked with feral hunger. âDrinking my blood and creaming all over my cock like a perfect little slut. So fucking perfect. So mine. You okay, baby? Not lightheaded?â
âIâm⌠Iâm good,â you gasped, tears of overwhelming pleasure streaming down your face. âItâs so much- I feel like Iâm burning up in the best way.â
He kept feeding you small sips as he pounded into you, each swallow making the pleasure spiral higher and higher until you were sobbing, shaking, coming again and again. The room spun. Your body felt like it was on fire in the best possible way, every thrust, every drag of his cock, every brush of his skin against yours amplified into pure bliss.
âDoes it still feel good?â he panted, voice rough and concerned even as he fucked you like a beast. âTalk to me, doll. Tell me youâre okay.â
He shifted higher, mouth trailing wet, open kisses up your leg until he reached your calf. Without warning, his fangs sank deep into the soft, sensitive flesh there, right below the knee, where the muscle was firm but yielding. The sharp, burning pain exploded through you, mixing violently with the overwhelming pleasure still pulsing from his blood in your veins.
The combined sensation sent you over the edge one final time, his fangs buried deep in your calf while his thick cock slammed into you with brutal, relentless strokes. You screamed, raw and broken, vision whiting out as your walls clenched violently around him. His hot, endless pulses of cum flooded you at the exact same moment, thick ropes painting your insides until it squirted out around his pistoning shaft with every thrust, slick and obscene. The wet, filthy sound of it echoed through the room, wet squelching, skin slapping, your mixed fluids soaking the sheets beneath you.
âFuck- take it all, doll,â Bucky growled against your neck, voice ragged and possessive, his metal fingers digging bruises into your hip while his flesh hand fisted your hair. âGonna fill this greedy little cunt until itâs dripping for days. Youâre mine now. Every drop of blood, every fucking inch of this perfect body- mine.â
He kept rutting through his orgasm, hips snapping harder, chasing the last spasms of your climax until your thighs shook uncontrollably. The bedframe groaned in protest under the force, wood creaking dangerously with every punishing thrust. You were a mess, sweat-slick, cum-stuffed, blood trickling from the fresh bite marks on your neck and calf where heâd feasted earlier. The metallic tang of your blood still coated his tongue as he licked greedily at the wound.
Then it happened.
One particularly savage thrust, his cock slamming so deep you swore you felt him in your guts, made the entire bed collapse. The wooden slats snapped with a loud crack, the mattress dropping hard onto the box spring. You both jolted, still locked together.
âOh fuck!â you gasped, eyes wide, a breathless laugh already bubbling up.
Bucky froze mid-thrust, cock still buried to the hilt inside your fluttering pussy, his glowing eyes blinking in confusion. âWhat the- did we justâŚ?â
The absurdity hit you both at once. You burst into giggles, the sound bright and giddy even as his cum continued to leak out around where you were joined. Buckyâs serious, post-orgasm face cracked, and he let out a low, rumbling laugh that vibrated through his chest into yours.
âShit, doll,â he chuckled, forehead dropping to yours, still half-hard and twitching inside you. âBroke the damn bed. Guess I donât know my own strength when Iâm buried in this tight, sloppy heaven.â
You grinned up at him, running your fingers through his messy hair, feeling the coolness of his skin, vampire cool, never quite warm like a humanâs. âMmm, worth it. You fucked me so hard Iâm gonna feel you for a week. My vampire super-soldier broke the bed railing me like a damn animal. Kinda hot.â
He smirked, fangs still partially extended, glistening with your blood. âAnimal, huh? Careful what you ask for.â He gave one lazy, deep roll of his hips, pushing his cum deeper, making you whimper. âStill hard for you. Could go again right here on the broken wreckage.â
You laughed softer this time, cupping his face. âLater, Buck. Iâm wrecked. But⌠youâre not gonna sleep, are you?â
Buckyâs expression softened. He carefully pulled out with a wet sound, a gush of his spend following, dripping down your ass onto the ruined sheets. He sealed the bite on your neck first, slow, reverent licks of his tongue, warm and soothing, the healing properties in his saliva already knitting the skin. Then he moved lower, spreading your thighs wide to lap gently at the bite on your inner thigh, tasting the mix of your blood and his cum with a low, appreciative groan.
âFuck, look at this pretty, used cunt,â he murmured filthily between licks. âAll swollen and leaking my load. So damn perfect.â He pressed a tender kiss right over your clit before crawling back up.
He didnât lie down beside you like a human would. Instead, he sat up against the tilted headboard of the collapsed bed, metal arm pulling you effortlessly into his lap so you were draped over his chest. His fingers, both flesh and metal, traced lazy, soothing patterns along your spine, your ass, the backs of your thighs.
âI donât need sleep, baby,â he said quietly, voice low and intimate in the dark. âHavenât in decades. Iâll stay right here, watching over you. Listening to that beautiful heartbeat. After everything⌠I canât risk losing you too.â
You nuzzled into his neck, kissing the old scars there. âYouâre not gonna lose me, Bucky. Iâm yours. I chose this, chose you. The biting, the blood, the way you fuck me stupid⌠all of it. Iâm not going anywhere.â Your hand slid down his abs, giving his still-hard cock a lazy stroke. âEven if you do break every bed we own.â
He let out a soft, relieved laugh, pressing kisses to your temple, your eyelids, your swollen lips. âGood girl. My perfect doll. Iâll buy a reinforced steel frame tomorrow. Maybe bolt it to the damn floor.â His voice dropped, more serious, thumb brushing your jaw. âYouâre safe with me. I swear it. Iâll burn the world before I let anything touch you. Youâre my light now. My reason.â
You smiled sleepily, body heavy and sated, the buzz of his blood in your veins making everything warm and floaty. âMmm. Love you, my vampire. Even if youâre a creepy non-sleeper who stares at me all night.â
âCreepy, huh?â He nipped your ear playfully, then soothed it with his tongue. âKeep talking like that and Iâll spread these thighs again and make you scream my name until sunrise.â
âPromises, promisesâŚâ you mumbled, already drifting.
Bucky held you tighter, one hand possessively cupping your cum-filled pussy, the other stroking your hair. He stayed awake all night like that, cock half-hard against your thigh, silent blood-tinged tears slipping down his cheeks onto the pillow, heart aching with a love so fierce it terrified him. Your heartbeat was steady and strong against his chest, the last pure thing left in his long, violent existence.
And heâd protect it with every undead fiber of his being.
You woke slowly, blinking against the soft morning light filtering through the curtains, your body deliciously sore and heavy with the afterglow of being thoroughly claimed. The first thing you noticed was the chaos surrounding you.
The bed was completely destroyed, slats snapped clean in half, the mattress tilted at a ridiculous angle on the broken box spring and white down feathers absolutely everywhere. They drifted lazily through the air like snow, clung to your sticky skin, tangled in your messy hair and dusted the dried streaks of cum and blood that painted your thighs and stomach. Feathers stuck to the dark bite marks on your neck and breasts, nestled in the crease of your ass and even floated gently off the ruined sheets every time you shifted.
The bed was empty. Or so you thought.
âBucky?â you murmured, voice raspy from screaming his name half the night. A faint flutter of panic mixed with the warm throb between your legs.
Before you could sit up, the most sinful, decadent sensation hit you, a warm wet tongue dragging with deliberate, unhurried laziness up the soft, sensitive skin of your inner thigh. Each long, slow stroke pressed firmly against a fresh, throbbing bite mark, the one Bucky had left deep in the throes of last nightâs passion. The feeling was possessive, almost worshipful, like he was savoring every drop of you.
A shiver raced through your body and a soft, breathy moan escaped your lips. You looked down to find Bucky right there between your spread thighs, his massive metal arm draped heavily over your hip to keep you pinned open for him. His mouth was latched onto that tender wound, tongue working in slow, reverent circles as he licked it closed, sealing it with his cool venom while tasting the last faint traces of your blood. The sting mixed with pleasure in a way that made your core clench emptily, still aching and leaking from how brutally heâd fucked you hours earlier.
He must have been waiting for you to stir.
When he felt you tense, he lifted his head just enough to look up at you through hooded crimson eyes that glowed with hunger and raw devotion. His lips were shiny, slick and stained vivid crimson with your blood. Feathers clung to his dark hair and broad shoulders like some filthy, fallen angel.
âGood morning, my sweet girl,â he rumbled, voice gravelly and thick. âFound you leaking all over the wreckage. Couldnât resist cleaning up my mess. You taste even better in the morning- soft, warm and dripping with me.â
You let out a shaky laugh, glancing around at the feather explosion and broken wood. âWe really destroyed everything, didnât we? Feathers in my ass, feathers in my hair⌠I look like I got attacked by a pillow factory after the worldâs hardest fuck.â
Bucky chuckled darkly, dragging his tongue slowly up your slit, collecting the creamy mix of his dried cum and your fresh arousal. âMmm. Worth every splinter and every damn feather. I woke up hard as fuck just from smelling how soaked you still are. Been down here licking you for ten minutes, waiting for those pretty eyes to open.â
Heat flooded your cheeks. âBucky⌠thank you. For last night. For letting me drink from you. It felt⌠God, it felt incredible. Like every nerve in my body was on fire and singing at the same time. I donât know how to repay you for something so intimate.â
He crawled up your body with predatory grace, feathers shifting around you both, until he hovered over you. Then he kissed you deeply, hungrily, tongue sliding into your mouth so you could taste the copper of your own blood mixed with his cool sweetness and the filthy evidence of your combined releases.
âYou never have to repay me, sweetheart,â he whispered against your lips, brushing feathers from your flushed face with gentle metal fingers. âIâd drain every drop I have into you if it made you feel even half that good. Your pleasure is everything to me. Youâre everything to me. Donât ever thank me like you owe me. Youâre my girl. My heart. Iâd burn the world down just to keep you warm and safe in my arms.â
You smiled shyly up at him, that bashful look that always made his ancient chest tighten. âI still feel lucky. Every single time you choose me.â
Bucky groaned and pressed lingering kisses to your forehead, eyelids and the tip of your nose. âStay right here in this ruined bed, baby. Donât move. Iâm gonna make you breakfast- you need fuel after I took so much blood and fucked you raw.â
You watched him leave the room completely naked, that perfect sculpted ass and broad back on full display, long angry red scratches running down his shoulders and spine, some deep enough to have drawn thin trails of dried blood. Guilt twisted in your stomach.
When he returned balancing a tray loaded with food, you sat up quickly, clutching the sheet.
âBucky⌠your back,â you whispered, voice thick with remorse as he set the tray down on the tilted mattress. âI did that? Oh God, Iâm so sorry, Buck. I got so lost in it, scratching and begging like a wild animal-â
He climbed onto the broken bed without hesitation and pulled you straight into his lap, sheet and all, so your back rested against his solid chest. His thick cock, already half-hard again, nestled hot and heavy against your ass. The scratches looked even more vicious up close.
âShh, none of that,â he murmured, kissing your temple, then your ear. âI fucking love these marks. Every single one. Means my perfect girl lost control while I was balls-deep, pounding that tight cunt and flooding you with cum. Means I made you feel so good you turned feral. You wear my bites and bruises like jewelry⌠Iâll wear your scratches like badges of honor. Thatâs how it should be between us, doll.â
You still looked guilty, so he gently tilted your chin up, forcing you to meet those glowing red eyes. âEat, baby. Before it gets cold. I made all your favorites.â
The tray held fluffy scrambled eggs with fresh herbs, crispy bacon, sliced strawberries and melon, buttered toast and cold orange juice. You relaxed back against his chest as he picked up the fork and began feeding you slow, careful bites, one hand continuously stroking through your feather-dusted hair while the other rested possessively on your stomach, thumb tracing lazy circles over your skin.
Every few bites heâd lean down and kiss your shoulder, your neck, the dark claiming bite marks heâd left. His fingers traced the vivid bruises on your hips and inner thighs with open, filthy pride.
âLook at you,â he murmured hotly against your ear, voice dropping into that low, dirty register. âAll covered in my marks like a goddamn masterpiece. These pretty thighs bruised purple from my hands spreading you open while I railed you. This sweet little pussy still puffy, sore, and leaking my cum from how many times I filled you. And these gorgeous titsâŚâ He cupped one gently, thumb brushing the bite right above your nipple. âMarked up so anyone who sees you knows exactly who owns this body. My perfect, filthy girl. So soft and sweet when you thank me for my blood⌠but you turn into a desperate little cockslut when Iâm stretching this cunt open, scratching my back bloody and begging me to breed you deeper.â
You whimpered around a bite of toast, cheeks burning but you pressed back against his hardening cock. âBucky⌠youâre making me wet again just talking like that. I can feel you getting hard against my ass.â
He chuckled darkly, the sound vibrating through his chest into yours. âGood. Thatâs what I want. I love how sincere you are, doll- blushing and thanking me even after Iâve had you screaming and creaming all over my cock half the night. It makes the monster in me want to wrap you up and protect you forever⌠and it also makes me want to bend you over these broken slats and fuck you raw again until youâre crying and begging for another load.â
You turned your head, kissing his jaw tenderly. âI love you. All of you- the monster, the man, the way you take care of me even after you ruin me and break the bed.â
His arms tightened around you, metal and flesh, and he buried his face in your neck with a low, possessive growl. âI love you more than Iâve ever loved anything in centuries, sweetheart. Youâre mine. Every moan, every drop of blood, every scratch on my back⌠itâs all mine. Now finish your breakfast so I can lay you down in all these feathers and lick that pretty pussy until youâre shaking and soaking my face. Then Iâll feed you more. And if you keep thanking me so sweetly, Iâll let you drink from me again while Iâm buried so deep inside you that you feel me for days.â
The monster was wide awake, completely, dangerously obsessed and he had never been happier.
The honeymoon phase didnât last long.
What started as stolen kisses in the library stacks after closing quickly spiraled into something darker, more addictive and far more dangerous. You and Bucky fell into a secret rhythm that consumed both of you. Youâd sneak out of your apartment at all hours, heart hammering and meet him in shadowed alleys, on empty rooftops, or in the back of his blacked-out SUV where heâd fuck you until you couldnât walk straight. Some nights heâd show up at your door unannounced, eyes already black and take you right there against the wall before you could even say hello.
You started wearing high collars, scarves, and heavy concealer everywhere. Fresh bite marks bloomed on your neck, your breasts, the soft insides of your thighs. Some nights he bit you in three different places just because he couldnât stop tasting you.
âYouâre mine now,â heâd growl against your skin, licking the wounds closed with slow, possessive drags of his tongue while drool slipped from his fangs. âNo one else gets to see these marks. No one else gets to touch what belongs to me.â
You lied to your friends. You lied to your coworkers. You told yourself you could handle the monster you were falling for.
But Bucky was losing control.
His obsession turned feral.
Your creepy ex Lance, the one who still drunk-texted you at 2 am calling you a worthless bitch for leaving him, was found dead in his apartment four days later. The news called it a âbrutal animal attack.â Throat torn out. Body almost completely drained of blood. No forced entry. No fingerprints.
You stared at the graphic photos on your phone until your vision blurred.
Then there was that jerk from the cafĂŠ from two weeks ago, the one who wouldnât stop cat-calling you, who grabbed your ass when you walked past and whispered what heâd do to you if he got you alone. He was found in the alley behind the cafe the next night. Same story. Throat ripped open. Drained dry.
You knew.
You knew it was Bucky.
When he showed up at your apartment that night, soaked from the rain, you were waiting for him. The printed news articles were spread across your kitchen table like evidence at a crime scene.
The second he stepped through the door, you shoved the papers into his chest.
âWhat the fuck did you do?!â Your voice cracked with fury and terror. âLance is dead, Bucky. That asshole from the cafĂŠ is dead. Their throats were torn out. Was that you? Look me in the eyes and tell me it wasnât you.â
Bucky didnât even glance at the articles. His eyes were already pitch black, fangs partially extended, a thin string of clear drool slipping from the corner of his mouth as he stared at you like a starving wolf.
âI took care of them,â he said, voice low and rough. âThey touched whatâs mine. They scared you. They donât get to keep breathing after that.â
You backed up until you hit the kitchen counter, chest heaving.
âThey werenât innocent,â he snarled, stepping closer. More drool slid down his chin. âLance sent you death threats. Pictures of you sleeping. The other one had videos on his phone, following you home, jerking off to you. I smelled what they wanted to do to you. I saw it.â
Tears burned in your eyes. Your hands were shaking.
âYou canât just murder people because they looked at me the wrong way! This isnât protection, this is insanity!â
Buckyâs metal hand slammed into the cabinet beside your head, splintering the wood. He was breathing hard, drooling openly now, fangs fully extended and glistening.
âI would burn this entire fucking city to the ground for you,â he growled, voice breaking. âI already lost the only woman I ever loved. I watched her die screaming my name while I tried to save her. I wonât lose you too. I wonât. I canât.â
The silence that followed was deafening.
You should have screamed. You should have run.
Instead, you grabbed the front of his wet shirt with both hands and yanked him into a brutal, angry kiss.
He tasted like rain and blood and desperation. He groaned into your mouth, lifting you onto the counter in one motion and shoving your legs apart. His hands were shaking as he ripped your panties aside.
You were horrified.
You were dripping wet.
That night you rode him on your couch like you were trying to punish both of you, nails raking bloody lines down his chest while he drooled against your neck, fangs scraping your skin without breaking it. Every thrust was punishing and worshipful at the same time.
Afterward, when you were both panting and spent, you curled into his lap on the couch, still shaking from the intensity of it all. Your body ached. Your mind was a storm of fear and twisted desire.
Bucky buried his face in your hair, arms wrapped around you like iron bands, so tight it almost hurt to breathe. His chest heaved against your back. You could feel his drool, warm and slick, sliding down the side of your neck from his slightly parted lips. His fangs were still partially extended, brushing your skin with every ragged breath.
His voice was barely a whisper, raw with shame and something much darker.
âIâve thought about it, you know,â he confessed against your throat, lips moving wetly over your pulse. âTurning you. Against your will.â
You froze in his lap, every muscle locking up.
He kept going, voice cracking painfully, like the words were being ripped out of him.
âI fantasize about it almost every night,â he whispered, the confession trembling. âHolding you down while you fight me. Pinning you with my metal arm so you canât move no matter how hard you scream. Draining you until youâre weak and crying and begging me to stop⌠then forcing my blood down your throat while Iâm still buried balls-deep inside you. Fucking you through the change until your heart stops and you wake up screaming with new fangs in your mouth.â
A broken, wet sob tore out of him. Drool and blood tears mixed on your shoulder as he pressed closer, almost rocking you.
âI imagine the way youâd hate me at first. The way youâd scream my name in terror while your body burns and breaks and reforms. But Iâd keep going. Iâd hold you through it. Because then youâd be mine. Forever. Safe. Eternal. Youâd never grow old and die like Dot did. Youâd never leave me. Even if you hated me for eternity⌠at least youâd be here. With me.â
His voice dropped into something truly terrifying, low, trembling, unhinged.
âSome nights when youâre sleeping in my arms, bleeding from my bites⌠I hold my wrist right against your mouth. I pry your lips open with my fingers and imagine forcing it down your throat while youâre still unconscious. I want it so fucking bad it physically hurts me to stop myself. My hands shake. I drool just thinking about it. I have to leave the room sometimes because Iâm scared Iâll actually do it.â
You sat there in his lap, silent tears running down your face, heart hammering so hard it hurt. His drool was sliding down your collarbone. His blood tears soaked into you. You could feel his cock twitching against your thigh, still half-hard, like even confessing this horror turned him on.
You didnât know if you were holding a man anymoreâŚ
âŚor the monster who was slowly going to destroy you.
Buckyâs arms tightened even more, almost crushing you against his chest. His voice cracked into a broken, childlike whimper.
âIâm so fucking scared Iâm going to do it one day. Iâm scared I wonât be able to stop myself. Iâm scared Iâll wake up one morning and youâll be like me⌠and youâll never forgive me.â
He pressed his face harder into your neck, fangs scraping your skin, drooling openly now as fresh blood tears fell.
âBut God⌠I want it. I want it so much.â
You sat there in the dark, trembling in the arms of the vampire who had just admitted he fantasized about violating you in the worst possible way and you still wrapped your arms around him.
You still held on tighter.
And that terrified you more than anything else.
Because deep down, some sick, addicted part of you wasnât sure you would stop him if he tried.
The sickness came on fast. Too fast.
It started with a scratchy throat and a mild fever you brushed off, just stress from your thesis and late shifts at the cafĂŠ. By the second night in Buckyâs penthouse, you were shaking apart. Violent chills slammed through your body even as sweat soaked the sheets. Your lungs felt heavy, like they were filling with wet concrete. Every cough ripped through you like shards of glass scraping your throat raw. You couldnât keep anything down.
Bucky watched it all with growing horror, red eyes wide and unblinking.
He turned his sleek, modern bedroom into a nightmare sickroom overnight. Humidifier hissing like a dying animal. Stolen IV bags hanging from a makeshift stand. Bottles of antibiotics he didnât trust. Ancient herbal poultices that smelled like rot and grave dirt. Cold cloths. Thermometers. Nothing helped. Your fever climbed past 104. Your breathing turned wet and rattling, like drowning on dry land.
On the third night, you were barely conscious, convulsing in his arms as another coughing fit tore through you.
âJamesâŚâ you rasped, voice barely more than a broken whisper, tears streaming down your fever-flushed face. âPlease⌠take me to a hospital. I need real doctors. Tests. Medicine. Iâm scared- Iâm so fucking scared. I feel like Iâm dying.â
His eyes flashed blood-red, fangs fully extended, drool slipping from the corner of his mouth in thick strings.
âNo.â The word came out like a growl from the pit of hell. âNo hospitals. Theyâre butcher shops. Theyâll pump you full of poison, poke you with needles and watch you rot under those lights while they pray to a god that doesnât give a shit. I watched it happen for centuries. I held Dot while she screamed in one of those places. I wonât lose you the same way.â
You tried to push him away, but your arms were limp and useless. âBucky, please- Iâm begging you. Iâm terrified. I donât want to die here like this. Let me go. Let me call someone.â
He didnât budge. The metal arm wrapped around you like iron bands, cool and merciless, as he carried you back to the bedroom despite your weak struggles. You slapped at his chest, sobbing, screaming hoarsely.
âIâm scared! Bucky, donât do this- youâre scaring me! Please, I canât breathe!â
The heavy click of the bedroom door locking from the outside echoed like a coffin lid slamming shut.
You were trapped.
Hours blurred into days. The fever spiked so high the room started to warp. Shadows crawled across the ceiling like living things, reaching for you with clawed hands. You heard Dotâs screams, a woman youâd never met, mixed with your own wet, gurgling coughs. Sometimes you saw her face rotting in the corner, black buboes bursting, whispering that Buckyâs blood had killed her too.
Bucky never left your side for long. He sat like a gargoyle on the edge of the bed, eyes permanently black, blood tears carving constant red tracks down his face. Drool dripped from his fangs onto the sheets as hunger and terror twisted him into something truly monstrous.
He murmured hoarsely, pressing icy cloths to your burning skin. His voice cracked with raw desperation. âStay with me, doll. Please. I canât watch you burn like she did. I canât bury another woman I love.â
When your breathing grew too shallow and your pulse fluttered like a dying bird, he made the choice.
He sliced his wrist open with a fang, dark, ancient blood welling up and forced it against your cracked lips.
âDrink,â he begged, voice shattered and desperate. âDrink for me, baby. Please. I wonât let you die.â
The blood burned like liquid fire down your throat, healing and poisoning at once. It dragged you back from the edge for a few hours but the fever only raged hotter. Your body rejected it in violent chills and vomiting.
So Bucky started hunting.
He locked you in with cameras watching your every shallow, rattling breath, then disappeared into the night like the predator he was. You woke once to the sound of the door and saw him covered in blood that wasnât his, splattered across his shirt, matted in his hair. He carried thermoses of warm stolen blood, mixing it with his own before forcing it down your throat.
The penthouse began to reek of copper, decay, and terror.
When you finally clawed back enough strength to be lucid, you were still weak, still burning but fury gave you fire.
The second he walked back in with another thermos, blood still dripping from his chin, you slapped him hard across the face with everything you had left.
âYou locked me in here!â you screamed, voice raw and cracking. âYou imprisoned me like a fucking animal! I begged you, Bucky- I begged on my knees and you said no! Iâm terrified of you right now. What the hell are you becoming?!â
Bucky dropped to his knees instantly, metal arm wrapping around your waist like a vice as he pressed his forehead to your stomach. Blood tears soaked through your thin shirt.
âI know,â he choked out, voice wrecked. âIâm a monster. I watched Dot die screaming because my blood poisoned her during the plague. She begged me to let her go and I held her down instead. I canât- I wonât- do the same with you. Not you. Please donât make me bury you too.â
You sobbed, fists pounding weakly against his shoulders. âThis isnât love, itâs control! Youâre killing me slowly. Iâm so scared of what youâll do next. What if your blood makes me worse? What if I never leave this room alive?â
âIâm scared too,â he whispered, looking up at you with those terrifying black-red eyes, drool and blood mixing on his chin. âIâm so fucking terrified of losing you that Iâd rather you hate me forever than watch you slip away.â
You yanked him up by his bloody shirt, tears streaming down your face.
He didnât give you time to think.
âI need to be inside you,â he rasped, voice desperate and feral. âRight now. My blood, my cock- it will make you feel better. It will heal you. Let me fuck you. Let me fill you. I can make this okay. I can make you okay.â
You shoved at his chest hard, fury and terror giving you strength you didnât know you had.
âNo!â you cried, voice cracking. âAre you insane?! Iâm sick, Iâm scared and you want to fuck me?! Iâm not some toy you can use to feel better about yourself! Get off me!â
Buckyâs hands tightened on your hips, eyes wild.
âPlease,â he begged, voice breaking even as his cock pressed insistently against you. âJust let me in. Let me make you feel good. My blood is already in you. Let me finish it. Let me heal you the only way I know how.â
You slapped him hard across the face, the sound echoing in the locked room.
âI said no!â you screamed, tears pouring down your cheeks. âIâm terrified of you right now! You locked me in here like a prisoner, you fed me blood, youâre acting like a fucking animal- and you think sex is going to fix this?! Get the hell off me!â
Bucky froze.
For a long, terrible moment he just stared at you, red eyes wide, fangs out, drool and blood tears streaking his face. Then something in him shattered.
He dropped to his knees again, metal arm wrapping around your waist as he pressed his forehead to your stomach, sobbing openly.
âIâm sorry,â he choked out, voice completely broken. âIâm so fucking sorry. I know Iâm a monster. I know Iâm scaring you. I just⌠I canât watch you die. I canât do it again. Please donât hate me. Please.â
You stood there shaking, still furious, still terrified, but the raw pain in his voice cracked something inside you. You sank down slowly, wrapping your arms around his shoulders as he trembled against you.
The fight dissolved into quiet, broken sobs from both of you.
He held you like you were the only thing keeping him sane, blood tears soaking your shirt, drool and fear mixing on your skin.
The city lights flickered outside the soundproof windows.
Inside, the air was thick with blood, sickness, terror, and the heavy weight of a love that might destroy you both.
And you still curled into his chest, listening to the dead heart that beat only for you⌠wondering how much longer you had before the monster inside him finally won.
The next night, after the fever finally broke and the blood-stained sheets had been burned, Bucky carried you to the roof of his penthouse.
The city sprawled beneath you like a glittering sea of lights, cold wind whipping across the concrete rooftop. He sat on the wide ledge with you curled in his lap, your back against his chest, his metal arm wrapped securely around your waist. For a long time, neither of you spoke. The silence was heavy, weighted down by everything that had happened in that locked room.
âIâm still pissed at you,â you said quietly, staring out at the city. Your voice was hoarse but steady. âYou apologized, but it doesnât just erase it. You tried to force yourself on me when I was weak and scared. That shit stays with me, Bucky.â
âI know,â he murmured, lips brushing the top of your head. His voice was rough with guilt. âAnd Iâll keep being sorry for the rest of your life if thatâs what it takes. I hate what I did. I hate that I became that version of myself with you. I was terrified⌠but thatâs no excuse. Iâm sorry I hurt you. Iâm sorry I scared you. Iâm sorry I made you feel like a thing instead of the only person I have left.â
You stayed tense in his arms, anger still simmering under your skin even as you leaned back against him. âGood. You should feel like shit about it.â
He exhaled shakily. âI do. Every second.â After a long pause, he continued, softer. âI want you to understand why I lose control like that. Not just hear the stories. I want you to feel them. All the years. All the deaths. All the reasons Iâm so fucking broken that Iâd rather force you to live than watch you die.â
You turned in his arms to look at him. His red eyes were haunted, vulnerable in a way that made your chest ache despite your lingering fury.
âHow?â you asked.
Bucky pressed his wrist to his own mouth and bit down hard. Dark, potent blood welled up immediately, thick and gleaming under the city lights. He offered it to you, eyes glowing faintly red.
âDrink,â he whispered. âAnd Iâll show you everything. Please.â
You hesitated but finally brought his bleeding wrist to your lips. The taste exploded across your tongue: copper, power, and centuries of him. The world tilted violently.
Suddenly you were there.
Mud. Endless, sucking mud.
1917 - The Western Front
The stench hit you like a physical blow, rotting flesh, human shit, wet wool, gunpowder, and death. Freezing rain poured down in sheets. Artillery shells screamed overhead and detonated so close your teeth rattled. You felt Buckyâs constant, gnawing hunger like it was tearing through your own gut. He hadnât fed properly in weeks. You moved like a shadow with him between the trenches, ripping out throats of German scouts under cover of night, drinking just enough to stay sane while the screams of dying men tore at what remained of his soul.
âI hated it,â his real voice murmured against your ear on the rooftop as the memory swallowed you. âBut the screams reminded me I could still feel something.â
The loneliness was suffocating. Thousands of men all around, laughing, cursing, praying and he was completely, utterly alone. No one could ever know the monster wearing a soldierâs uniform.
The vision shifted with brutal force.
December 1944 - The Ardennes Forest
Bitter, freezing snow. Gunfire cracking through the trees like whips.
Then the shell.
White-hot agony ripped through your body as shrapnel tore his left arm clean off at the shoulder. You screamed with him, feeling the bone shatter, muscle rip, hot blood spray across white snow. He dropped to his knees in the freezing slush, roaring in pain while his vampire healing failed to close the massive wound.
HYDRA came next.
Straps biting into skin. Cold metal table. Blinding lights. You felt every bolt and wire as they fused the prototype metal arm directly into the raw, bleeding stump. The pain was apocalyptic. You thrashed in Buckyâs lap on the rooftop, whimpering.
âI begged them to let me die,â he whispered, arms tightening around you. âThey wouldnât let me.â
Decades of numbness followed. The metal arm never felt like part of him, just a constant, heavy reminder that even eternity could be mutilated. That even a monster could be broken beyond repair.
The blood-sharing deepened, flooding you with centuries of crushing loneliness in relentless flashes:
Nameless women fucked in candlelit rooms across Europe, then left before dawn because none of them were her.
Standing alone on a cliff in 1803, staring at the crashing ocean, wondering if he should just walk into the sunrise and end it.
Returning year after year to the ashes of that cottage in 1665, sitting among the ruins on the anniversary of Doloresâs screaming death, whispering apologies to the wind.
Feeding on killers in dark 1970s Brooklyn alleys, then returning to an empty penthouse to stare at the wall for days, sometimes weeks, with nothing but silence and ghosts for company.
Wave after wave of isolation crashed over you. Seven hundred years of it. You felt every agonizing second.
When the blood-sharing finally ended, you were sobbing violently in his arms on the rooftop, clutching his shirt like he might vanish. Bucky was crying too, silent blood tears tracking down his face.
âIâm not her,â you whispered fiercely through your tears, cupping his wet cheeks. âIâm not Dolores. Iâm not going to die screaming in your arms. Iâm choosing you, Bucky. Scars. Metal arm. Fangs. Murders. All the darkness. I see the monster and Iâm still here. Iâm still choosing you.â
He made a broken, wrecked sound and crushed you against his chest, burying his face in your neck.
âI donât deserve you,â he choked out. âEspecially not after what I did in that room. I keep waiting for you to realize that and run. Every single night I wait for it.â
You pulled back just enough to kiss him, slow, deep, tasting salt and blood and centuries of pain.
âIâm still pissed at you,â you whispered against his lips. âThat doesnât go away overnight. But Iâm not running. Even when Iâm terrified. Even when you scare the shit out of me. Iâm staying.â
Bucky kissed you harder, almost desperately, metal arm holding you so tight it almost hurt. When he finally pulled back, his red eyes were softer than youâd ever seen them.
âYou have no idea what you just did,â he murmured, voice wrecked. âYou just gave a dead man a reason to keep existing.â
You stayed on the rooftop until dawn threatened the sky, wrapped in each other, the weight of seven hundred years of loneliness finally shared between two hearts, one living, one long dead.
But the darkness wasnât done with either of you.
Not yet.
The hunters had been watching for weeks.
A group of ex-military contractors turned self-proclaimed âparanormal investigators,â they chased high-paying bounties and conspiracy forums. Theyâd heard the fragmented stories for months: an ancient vampire with a metal arm operating in Brooklyn, leaving bodies drained and throats torn out in back alleys. Most of them laughed at the vampire part, they figured it was some enhanced super-soldier gone rogue, maybe a Winter Soldier copycat. But the bounty was massive and the rumors were consistent enough to make them curious.
Theyâd been tailing both of you. Taking photos. Noting patterns.
And when they saw their opportunity: you, still pale and weak from the illness, walking alone to the corner store in broad daylight, they took it.
A black van screeched up beside you. Two men in tactical gear grabbed you before you could scream. A chemical-soaked rag clamped brutally over your mouth and nose. The world spun violently, then went black.
You woke up zip-tied to a cold metal chair in the middle of an abandoned warehouse on the edge of Brooklyn. The air smelled of rust, mildew, and old oil. Your head throbbed. Your wrists burned where the plastic ties cut into your skin. Six armed men stood around you in a loose circle, rifles held loosely, smirking like this was just another job.
The leader, a bearded man with a scarred face and cold eyes crouched in front of you, tilting his head.
âWell, well. Look whoâs awake.â He grinned. âIf your boyfriend really is some immortal bloodsucker, heâll come running. If notâŚâ He shrugged. âWeâll still get paid for the freak with the metal arm. Either way, jackpot.â
One of the others laughed, chewing gum loudly. âYou really believe that vampire shit? Probably just some juiced-up psycho with a fancy prosthetic. Weâll put him down like any other target.â
Another poked your shoulder with the barrel of his rifle. âBet sheâs just some poor girl heâs been mind-controlling. Pathetic.â
You spat at the leaderâs boots, voice hoarse but defiant. âYou have no idea what youâre fucking with. Let me go. Now.â
The leader only chuckled darkly. âWeâll find out soon enough, sweetheart. Sit tight.â
Bucky felt it the instant they grabbed you.
The blood bond, the one he had strengthened every time he drank from you, every time he fed you his own blood, snapped taut like a live wire in his chest. Your fear. Your pain. Your confusion. It hit him so hard he dropped the glass of blood heâd been holding. It shattered across the penthouse floor.
His vision went red.
A roar tore out of him, raw, ancient, inhuman, shaking the windows and rattling the walls.
Then the monster took over completely.
He stormed the warehouse alone like judgment day.
The moment the steel doors exploded inward off their hinges, the hunters opened fire. Bullets ripped into his chest, his shoulders, his stomach, his thighs. Blood sprayed from the wounds but he kept walking forward through the hail of gunfire, eyes glowing bright blood-red, fangs fully extended, metal arm whirring violently as the plates shifted and spun.
In front of you, he became something from hell.
The first hunter raised his rifle. Bucky grabbed his arm, ripped it clean off at the shoulder with a wet, tearing sound, and beat the screaming man to death with his own severed limb. Bone crunched. Blood fountained. The manâs screams turned into wet gurgles until his skull caved in with a sickening crack.
The second tried to run. Bucky caught him by the waist, metal fingers sinking deep into flesh, and tore him in half at the torso with raw strength. The spine snapped like dry wood. Intestines spilled across the concrete in a steaming pile. The manâs dying screams echoed horribly as his upper body twitched on the ground.
The third got close enough to fire point-blank into Buckyâs face. Bucky crushed his skull in his metal fist while the man was still screaming, bone fragments and brain matter exploding between the vibrating plates with a wet, disgusting crunch. Blood and gore splattered across your lap and chest.
The fourth and fifth tried to flank him. Bucky moved like death itself, tearing oneâs throat out with his teeth, ripping the otherâs spine out through his back in a fountain of blood.
The last hunter dropped his gun, stumbling backward, piss staining the front of his pants.
âIt wasnât real- we didnât think- please God, we didnât know he was actually a fucking vampire-!â
Bucky grabbed him by the throat, lifted him a foot off the ground, and tore his throat out with his fangs in one savage bite. Arterial blood sprayed across the room like a broken hose as the man convulsed and died.
Then silence.
Only the sound of dripping blood, your ragged breathing, and the wet squelch of Buckyâs boots in the carnage remained.
Bucky stood in the middle of the slaughter, covered head to toe in blood and gore, chest heaving, fangs still fully extended, eyes glowing like twin hellfires. For a moment he looked every inch the ancient monster he was.
Then he saw you.
The monster shattered.
Bucky dropped to his knees in the pool of blood and viscera, crawling to you with shaking hands, fangs still fully extended, red eyes wild. The metal arm moved with terrifying gentleness as he reached for you first, slicing through the zip-ties with one careful claw so they fell away from your raw, bruised wrists.
âDoll- fuck, let me see you,â he rasped, voice cracking. His hands immediately started checking you, sliding over your body with desperate care. He turned your wrists gently, thumbs brushing the deep purple bruises left by the plastic ties. He ran his palms down your arms, your ribs, your thighs, searching for wounds, broken bones, blood that wasnât from the slaughter around you.
âThey hurt you?â His voice was hoarse, almost whimpering. âTell me where. Did they touch you? Did they- fuck, Iâll kill them again if they-â
Only the angry red imprints from the zip-ties marred your skin. No cuts. No bites. No worse damage. Relief and guilt crashed over him at once.
âIâm sorry,â he choked out, pressing his forehead to your stomach, trembling violently. âIâm so fucking sorry you had to see that. But they touched you. They took you from me. I couldnât- I canât lose you. I canât do it again.â
He was covered head to toe in someone elseâs blood and brains, gore streaking his face, fangs out, blood tears mixing with the carnage dripping down his cheeks. His massive frame shook as he knelt in the slaughter, clinging to you like you were the only thing keeping him from falling apart completely.
You were shaking too, sobbing quietly, your clothes and skin soaked in warm, sticky blood that wasnât yours. The metallic stench was overwhelming. The screams still rang in your ears.
You should have been terrified. You should have been screaming.
Instead, that dark, addicted part of you reached for him anyway.
You grabbed his bloody face with both hands, fingers sliding through the gore, and yanked him up into a desperate, blood-slick kiss.
Bucky groaned into your mouth like a wounded animal, raw, broken, relieved. The coppery taste of death coated both your tongues as he kissed you back with centuries of fear and feral love. His metal arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you tighter against his blood-soaked chest while his flesh hand cradled the back of your head.
When you finally broke the kiss, foreheads pressed together, breaths mingling in the carnage, you whispered shakily against his gore-stained lips:
ââŚTake me home, Bucky. Please. Just take me home. I donât want to be here anymore. I just want you to take me home.â
He nodded frantically, blood tears still falling. âYeah. Yeah, doll. Home. Iâve got you.â
He lifted you into his arms with ease, cradling you like something precious and fragile among the slaughter. Your head tucked against his neck as he carried you out of the warehouse, boots squelching through puddles of blood, leaving nothing but corpses and the heavy, metallic stench of death behind.
You clung to him the entire way, still trembling, still terrified, but refusing to let go.
The monster had won tonight.
And you were still his.
You woke up every day for three weeks telling yourself this was love.
Bucky had moved you into his penthouse the night after the warehouse massacre. No discussion. He simply carried your exhausted body through the elevator, locked it down with a code only his fingerprints could activate and whispered against your ear in that low, dangerous growl, âYouâre never leaving me again, doll. Never.â
Your old life was gone. Your apartment, your friends, your thesis notes, they all gathered dust while your clothes now hung neatly beside his in the massive walk-in closet. Every night you slept naked in his silk sheets, the fabric permanently scented with blood, sex and the faint metallic tang of his ancient hunger. He fed you from his wrist, fucked you until you screamed, then held you like you were the only fragile thing left in his centuries-long existence.
You told yourself you were safe. Cherished. Loved.
Tonight, that comforting lie finally burned to ash.
The hunger had been eating him alive for hours.
You were on your back in the middle of his massive bed, legs locked tight around his waist as he fucked you with those deep, claiming strokes youâd grown addicted to. At first it felt fucking perfect, his thick cock stretching your dripping cunt wide open, dragging against that sweet spot with every brutal thrust, metal fingers bruising your hips while his mouth sucked dark, possessive marks across your tits.
âFuck, baby⌠this tight little cunt is creaming all over me,â he growled against your neck, voice thick and raw. âHear how fucking sloppy and wet you sound? Sucking my cock in like you were made for it. My perfect filthy girl.â
You moaned, nails raking down his back. âHarder, Bucky- please, I need you to ruin me-â
He gave it to you.
Then the flashback hit like a goddamn freight train.
You sitting on that filthy warehouse floor. Limp. Pale as death. Almost gone forever. Your head lolled weakly to the side, skin ghostly white, lips colorless, eyes half-lidded and unfocused. You looked so fragile, so close to slipping away that the sight nearly brought Bucky to his knees.
His control fucking snapped.
His hips slammed forward with terrifying force. The wet slap of skin turned savage, punishing. Pleasure twisted into sharp, stabbing pain that tore through your core like broken glass.
âBucky- wait! Fuck- too hard!â you cried, voice already cracking. âSlow down, baby, please- shit, it hurts!â
He didnât hear you. His eyes were wild, glowing crimson, fangs fully extended as thick ropes of drool poured from his mouth onto your bouncing tits. He pounded into you like a rabid, starving beast, driven by centuries of hunger and the primal fear of losing you again.
âMine,â he snarled, the word vicious and broken, vibrating with pure desperation. âThis fucking pussy is mine. Youâre never leaving this bed. Never leaving this goddamn penthouse. Iâll fuck you raw every single night until you canât even crawl away from me, you hear me? I wonât let death take you. I wonât let anything take you.â
Each savage thrust jolted your whole body. His metal arm crushed your hip with a sickening crack. Bone splintered. White-hot agony exploded through your pelvis like fire. You screamed, back arching violently.
âBucky- stop! Fuck, my hip! Itâs breaking- please, baby, please stop! Iâm begging you! It hurts so fucking bad!â
He only fucked you harder, lost in the nightmare, hips snapping forward with inhuman power. Another vicious snap and your left wrist, pinned above your head, shattered with an audible pop. The pain was blinding, nauseating, shooting up your arm like lightning. You screamed until your voice broke, tears pouring down your face as you thrashed helplessly beneath him.
âJesus Christ- Bucky, my wrist! Stop, please! It hurts so fucking bad- I canât take it! Slow down, Iâm scared! Please see me, baby, Iâm right here- donât break me!â
âLook at you,â he panted, drool dripping onto your lips and chin, his breath hot and ragged against your skin. âTaking my cock like such a good little slut. So fucking greedy for me even when youâre ruined. Gonna fill this sloppy cunt up until youâre dripping. Gonna keep you leaking my cum for days, baby. Youâre never getting away from me. Never.â
Your ribs cracked on the next brutal thrust, one, two, three, sharp nauseating crunches that stole your breath completely. Blood bubbled up your throat and trickled from the corner of your mouth in dark rivulets. Your body went terrifyingly limp, only weak, wet gasps leaving you as he kept rutting into your destroyed hole like a desperate, starving animal.
âI almost watched you die once,â he growled, voice cracking between raw hunger and bone-deep horror. âFelt your heart slowing in my arms while you burned up with that fucking sickness. You were slipping away from me, right here in this bed. Never. Never again.â
His hips snapped harder, driving deep into you with every word.
âI will keep you here. Fill you. Bind you. You will never leave this penthouse. You will be my eternal companion⌠my blood, my breath, my only reason to keep walking through this damned night. Iâll drink from you every night until the hunger in me is quiet. Iâll hold you while you tremble and beg, and I will never let you go. Youâre mine, my wife, my meal, my everything.â
You could barely speak now, only weak, broken cries leaving you between gasps. âJames⌠please⌠it hurts⌠everythingâs breaking inside me⌠Iâm so scared⌠donât let me die like this⌠please see me⌠I love you, just stop-â
He froze only when he felt how deathly still you had become, your body no longer fighting, just a fragile, ruined thing in his grasp, blood leaking from you in steady streams.
Reality crashed over him like ice water.
âNo⌠no, no, NO! FUCK NO!â The roar that tore from his throat was inhuman, shaking the windows and rattling the walls until the glass trembled. He ripped himself out of you with a horrified shout, a flood of blood and slick gushing from your ruined cunt onto the silk sheets. He gathered your shattered body against his chest, rocking you violently as thick, black blood-tears poured down his face in rivers.
âI did it again- I fucking killed you!â he screamed, voice cracking into something ancient and monstrous. His metal fist smashed the headboard repeatedly, wood exploding into splinters, plaster raining down around you both. âI broke my baby- my perfect sweet girl- I crushed you like a goddamn animal! How the fuck could I do this to you?! After everything, after I swore Iâd protect you, I still fucking destroy you! Iâm a monster!â
In his panic he tried desperately to fix it.
He lowered his head and dragged his cool tongue frantically over the mangled ruin of your hip. Long, desperate licks, reverent, almost worshipful just like he did every dawn to the bite marks on your thighs. His cool venom should have sealed the wounds, should have soothed and healed. But the damage was catastrophic. Shattered bone jutted through torn flesh like jagged ivory knives. Blood poured freely. His tongue only lapped desperately at the crimson flow, mixing his saliva with your lifeblood, yet the wounds refused to close.
âFuck- why isnât it working?!â he sobbed, voice raw and cracking. âHeal, damn you- heal! Come on, baby, please heal.â He moved to your shattered wrist, licking over the crushed bones and swollen purple skin with frantic tenderness, fangs carefully retracted. âHeal, my love. My venom has always healed you before. Come back to me. Donât leave me in this emptiness again. I canât- I canât survive without you. Please, donât die on me!â
It didnât work. Your ribs stayed caved in. Your insides were ruptured. Blood kept leaking from your mouth and between your legs. He traced every injury with guilty, starving strokes of his tongue, pressing wet, bloody kisses to your mangled hip, your ruined wrist, your trembling lips.
âIâm so fucking sorry- shit, Iâm so fucking sorry, doll,â he choked out, rocking you harder against his chest, his entire body trembling with guilt and fear. âI tried- god, I tried everything. My tongue, my venom, my soul- nothing works when the monster in me takes over. Iâm a horror. A starving, desperate horror who destroys the only thing he loves. Forgive me⌠please forgive me.â
Guilt, hunger and obsessive fear twisted violently inside him until his madness crystallized in an instant.
He slashed his own wrist open with a razor-sharp fang. Dark, ancient blood, thick and burning, gushed from the wound. He cradled your head with both hands, pressing your slack mouth desperately against the gash.
âDrink,â he begged, voice broken and trembling with terror. âFucking drink, baby. Become mine forever. I cannot watch you die. I will not bury you. Take it. Let me damn you if it means keeping you by my side through all the endless nights. Donât leave me alone again- Iâm so scared without you. So goddamn hungry for you. Please⌠please donât go. I need you more than Iâve ever needed anything.â
He held your head tighter, forcing the potent blood past your lips. Your body latched on instinctively, sucking with weak, greedy pulls even at the edge of death. The change ignited like liquid hellfire in your veins.
Your broken bones snapped and realigned with excruciating force, each crack wrenching agonized whimpers and jerks from your throat against his wrist. Your organs burned and rewrote themselves in waves of molten pain. Your heart stuttered violently⌠then stopped completely. The agony was worse than death, pure, liquid fire searing through every vein, every nerve, every inch of your soul as the vampire venom rewrote you from the inside out.
All the while Bucky kept himself buried deep inside your twitching, blood-slick heat. He rocked slowly through your torment, whispering hoarse, broken promises between every shallow, desperate thrust.
âIâm sorry, my everything⌠but you belong to me now. Eternally. I will hold you through every dark night. I will drink from you while you cry out my name. You will never grow old. Never slip away from me again. I love you too much- too desperately- to let death have you. Forgive me for what Iâve done⌠even if you hate me forever. This pussy, this body, this soul- itâs all mine now. Forever.â
Your eyes flew open.
Crimson. Glowing. Filled with an ancient, bottomless hunger.
New fangs pushed through your bleeding gums in sharp, painful bursts. You tore your mouth from his wrist, dark blood streaking down your chin and onto your chest, and stared up at him with pure, ravenous starvation.
âBuckyâŚâ Your voice was hoarse, ruined, but dripping with dark, insatiable need. âIâm so fucking thirsty.â
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synopsis. đ in the midst of your argument, you uttered the unthinkable.
disclaimers. dark fanfic, domestic violence, abusive relationship, rafe slapping reader, toxic!rafe, dark!rafe, aggressive face grabbing, soft core fear play
âyou wanna leave me?â rafe inquired, his brows pulled into a deep scowl that carved shadows across his face. your cheek burning from the slap he gave you. you wiped at your tear streaked cheeks, fingers trembling against your skin. âno, no, no,â you assured him quickly, voice cracking.
âdonât fucking lie to me,â he growled, snatching your face in his hand so hard his fingers dug into your jaw like iron clamps. he forced your gaze up to his with his grip, his eyes burning through yours with that dark mix of rage and possession. he scoffed, low and bitter, unbelieving that you had actually dared to say those words. that you thought you could just walk away from him.
his grip tightened, thumb pressing into your cheek until you winced. âafter everything iâve done for you? after i kept you safe, gave you everything?â his voice dropped into a whisper, breath hot against your lips. âyou think you get to decide when this ends? oh no, baby. youâre mine. you donât leave unless i say so.â
tears spilled fresh over your lashes as you tried to pull back, but he only yanked you closer, slamming your body against his chest. his free hand slid down your waist, harsh and bruising, pinning you in place. âsay it again,â he demanded, lips curling into a cruel smirk. âtell me you wanna leave. i fucking dare you.â
you shook your head frantically, the fear twisting in your gut like a knife. but rafe wasnât done. he never was. with a rough shove, he backed you up until your spine hit the wall, caging you there with his taller frame. his hand left your face only to wrap around your throat, not squeezing yet, but the threat was there, heavy in the air between you.
âgood girl,â he murmured when you stayed silent, though his eyes still flickered with that unhinged glint. âkeep lying to yourself if you want. but we both know the truth. youâre not going anywhere.â he said. he leaned in, brushing his mouth against yours in a kiss that felt more like a brand than affection. his teeth grazing your lip hard enough to draw a small whimper from you.
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pairing â dark!truckdriver!joel miller x f!reader
description â you hitch hike to escape your small town, but the man that picks you up isn't the savior you initially see him as.
word count â 11,886
tags â dead dove do not eat!!! smut, noncon, age gap, drugging, perv joel obviously, body betrayal, throat-fking, creampie, forced breeding, what else is there to miss? oh, he spits in your mouth once. this is actually evil and entirely self-indulgent. read at your own risk. this is not meant to romanticize or promote the behavior written and is purely fantasy. THIS GETS SUPER DARK SUPER FAST, BEWARE !!!!
notes â this has been hiding away in my wips for almost a year, and I finally rushed out the ending. so yeah, kinda sucks near the end, but i was gooning writing it, so sue me.
You sighed sharply, letting your arm fall to your side for what felt like the hundredth time. The weight of the sun pressed heavily on your shoulders, the heat clinging to you like a second skin. A warm breeze teased strands of your damp hair from your face, a mercy against the uv rays. Tilting your head back, you gazed at the expanse of blue sky that had darkened in the hours you stood on the side of the road, your patience steadily unraveling like an old, worn thread.
How hard could it be to hitch a damn ride?
All you wanted was to escape the stifling monotony of this rundown, bumfuck-nowhere town. Where time seemed to crawl and every day bled into the next. There was nothing to do except drink cheap beer in collapsing barns with the people your age you could tolerateâwhich, frankly, wasnât many. Your graduating class had barely scraped together two hundred students, and most of them were already neck-deep in their great-grandparentsâ conservative, redneck ideologies, content to stay trapped in the same traditional, endless loop you were desperate to escape.
Entertainment options were laughably slim, unless you counted gossiping at the diner or staring at the peeling wallpaper of your living room. The highlight of the week was usually a herd of cattle escaping or a barn dance, where everyone pretended their lives werenât as dull as dishwater.
It was no wonder that generations before had filled their houses to the brim with children. After all, raising a family gave them something to do, a purpose to cling to in the otherwise monotonous grind of small-town life. And maybe, just maybe, it helped fill the silence that crept in at night, the kind that even wolf songs couldnât drown out.
It wasnât all bad, you supposed. At night, the air hummed with the songs of frogs and crickets, a sound that felt almost sacred. The stars lit up the sky in a way that was impossible to see from the city, their light twinkling like scattered diamonds. Fireflies blinked alongside them, tiny, fleeting beacons in the dark. Those moments, rare and quiet, made this place almost bearable.
Almost.
But Christ on a cross, when the sun rose, it brought the same crushing realization: there was nothing for you here. Nothing except Sunday mornings at church, where people whispered behind hymnals and dissected the sins of their neighbors, the same people they'd smile brightly at as they prayed for blessings to come to them. At least they handed out free donuts. Small mercies, you thought bitterly, kicking at a loose pebble on the cracked asphalt beneath your feet.
You adjusted the straps of your backpack, the weight of it pressing uncomfortably against your spine. The highway stretched ahead in an unbroken line, a mirage shimmering in the distance, promising freedom just out of reach. All you needed was someone to pull over, just one car willing to take you somewhereâanywhereâthat wasnât here.
You even went so far as to wear the most revealing clothes you could find, not that your wardrobe had much to offer in that department. A perverted driver was still a driver, and at this point, you were desperate. Youâd taken scissors to an old shirt, hacking it into a crop top that bared your midriff. The fabric was frayed and uneven, but it did the job. Your shorts were another matter entirely, uncomfortably tight and clearly too small, leftovers from when you were a kid. The waistband dug into your skin, and you had to keep tugging them down to avoid cutting off circulation.
God forbid any girl showed an ounce of skin in this town. The stares you got on your way out were enough to make you want to sprint out, but you were banking on that very same scrutiny to catch the attention of a passing car. Modesty might have been the golden rule here, but you werenât above breaking it if it got you out of this dead-end stretch of nowhere.
You felt ridiculous, humiliated even, but the thought of staying here was far worse than enduring the leering eyes of some old man. You were used to that already. Men in this town had a way of looking at you like you were an object on a shelf they might pick up, inspect, and set back down when they were done. Youâd learned to ignore it, to shrug off the uncomfortable heat of their stares and the muttered comments you pretended not to hear.
This was just more of the same, except now you were using it to your advantage. If showing a little skin meant one of those creeps would stop and offer you a ride out of this godforsaken town, then so be it. Dignity wasnât exactly high on your list of priorities right nowâfreedom was.
If only one of these fuckers would actually stop. Youâd been standing here long enough to feel the sunburn creeping across your shoulders, sweat pooling at the small of your back. You threw your arm out every time, trying to look as pitiful, or enticing, as possible, but all you got in return were waves of hot air as they sped by.
Was it just your town where men stared at women like predators? Or was that just how men were everywhere? You had no way of knowing. Your entire life had been spent here, in this suffocating bubble of prying eyes and wagging tongues. Sometimes you wondered if the rest of the world was different, or if the same lecherous glances and whispered judgments waited for you on the other side of this horizon.
Still, staying here wasnât an option. Even if the grass wasnât greener anywhere else, at least it would be different grass. And different was all you were asking for.
You were snapped out of your thoughts by the thunderous roar of an engine, deep and rumbling, shaking the stillness of the road. A semi. Your heart leapt, both with hope and a twinge of unease. Youâd heard the stories, truck drivers were lonely old men whoâd fuck anything with a heartbeat, and even that was a stretch. The thought made your stomach twist, but desperation outweighed caution.
Throwing your arm out again, thumb raised high, you focused on the massive vehicle barreling toward you. The sheer size of it was almost intimidating, the largest thing youâd seen on the road. Its grill gleamed in the sunlight like a steel beast, and you could already hear the hiss of brakes as it began to slow down.
This was it. Maybe luck was finally on your sideâor maybe you were about to make the worst mistake of your life. Either way, it wasnât like you had much to lose.
The semi groaned to a stop a few yards ahead of you, its engine idling. The driverâs side door creaked open, and out stepped a man, an old man, just as youâd expected.
His hair was almost completely gray, though uneven splotches of the lighter color dotted his scruffy beard like it couldnât decide whether to age gracefully or not.
The glare of the sun bounced off the truck, making it hard to get a clear look at him, but you could tell enough. He was much larger than you, his frame broad and solid like heâd spent his life lifting things far heavier than the backpack you hauled. His hair had a slight curl to it, messy and unkempt, like he hadnât seen a comb in days.
He tilted his head toward the passenger side, gesturing with his chin as he spoke. His voice was deep, slow, and unmistakably southern.
"Well, donât just stand there, girl. You need a ride or what?"
There wasnât much kindness in his tone, but there wasnât any malice, either. Just a bluntness that matched the heat of the day. Your hesitation lingered for a moment before you nodded, swallowing the lump in your throat.
You all but scaled up the side of the truck, your legs shaky from a mix of exhaustion and the strain of hauling yourself up. The heat of the day clung to you, making every movement feel heavier than it should have. By the time you managed to get one foot inside, your muscles were screaming in protest.
The older man was already back in his seat, one wrist draped lazily over the steering wheel. He chewed on a wad of tobacco, the sound wet and unmannered as he watched you crawl in with a measured gaze. His eyes flickered up and down your figure, lingering just long enough to make your skin crawl. You swore you saw his hand shift subtly, adjusting himself as a low groan escaped your lips from the effort.
You settled into the passenger seat, the cracked leather sticking to your bare thighs. His stare lingered for a moment too long at the way they expanded before he finally spit into an old plastic bottle by his side.
âWhere ya headinâ, sweetheart?â he drawled, his lips curling into a half-smirk that didnât reach his eyes.
Now that the sun was no longer blinding you, you could finally get a good look at him. To your surprise, he wasnât all that bad-looking. In fact, he was quite handsome in a rugged, weathered sort of way. His deep chocolate-brown eyes had a sad look to them, like they had seen more than they cared to share. His nose was prominent, giving his face a bold, defined structure that worked with the lines etched into his skin. Those wrinkles, instead of detracting from his appearance like you'd expect them too, seemed to enhance his features.
Your eyes flicked to his hands resting on the wheel. They were large, rough-looking, the scarred, calloused kind of hands that did hard labor. An old, scratched watch clung to his wrist, the leather strap worn and glass cracked, but still functional.
Practical, like him, you figured.
Despite the circumstances, you found yourself momentarily distracted by his appearance.
âWell?â he asked again, the smirk on his face still lingering as he spit tobacco into his bottle. âWhere ya headed?â
You hesitated, your fingers gripping the edge of the seat. âAnywhere but here,â you muttered, your voice low but firm.
He chuckled at that, a low rumble that seemed to reverberate through the cab. âFair enough. Lucky for you, I ainât goinâ anywhere near here for a good long while. Buckle up, sweetheart.â
You slid your backpack off your shoulders, letting it rest on your lap as your fingers found the charms hanging from the zippers. You twisted them absentmindedly, trying to occupy your mind and ignore the creeping weight of his gaze. The truck didn't move. Confused, you glanced at the gear shift, expecting to see his hand on it. Instead, his hand rested on his thigh, his fingers tapping lazily against his jeans.
Looking up, you caught him staring at you again, his dark eyes locked on yours for a moment before shifting downward. He sighed, tilting his head slightly like he was deciding what to do next. Without saying a word, he leaned toward you.
Your breath hitched as he closed the space between you, his face so close you could almost feel the faint stubble on his jaw and the silver strands in his hair. His arm brushed your shoulder as he reached for your seatbelt.
"Seatbelt's stuck," he muttered, though you hadn't even tried to buckle it yourself. His large hands gripped the strap and gave it a few tugs, his breath fanning across your cheek as he grunted, the plastic clicked before the webbing slid free and he pulled it across your chest.
The motion seemed smooth at first, but you stiffened when his knuckles grazed the curve of your breast. He didn't pause or acknowledge it. His gaze wasn't on the seatbelt or even his hands, it was fixed lower, right where the strap pressed against your chest. His eyes lingered there shamelessly.
He adjusted the strap, tugging it tighter against your chest, his fingers brushing over the swell more than once. The way he moved was deliberate, too slow to be casual, like he was testing how far he could push before you said something.
It didn't feel accidental, but it wasn't obvious enough for you to call him out on it, either. Your throat tightened, and you froze, unsure whether to flinch or let him finish.
âThere,â he muttered, his voice low and rough, as he clicked the belt into place. For a moment, he didnât move, his face lingering close enough for you to see the faint lines around his eyes and the uneven streaks of gray in his beard. Then, without a word, he leaned back into his seat with a grunt, as though the small task had been a chore.
His hand moved to the gear shift, and the truck rumbled forward, pulling onto the road with a jolt. âCanât have you flyinâ out the windshield,â he said, his voice laced with dry humor.
You didnât respond, your heart still racing from the unnecessary closeness. Staring out the window, you gripped the straps of your backpack tightly, trying to shake off the lingering feeling of his hands, unease prickling along your skin.
Joel glanced at the cracked dashboard clock, tapping it lightly with his knuckle as if that would somehow make the time change. "Weâll probably hit a truck stop in a few hours," he said, his voice breaking the long silence in the cab.
He finally broke the silence with a grunt and a glance at the dashboard. ââBout two âtil we hit the next one,â he said, shifting in his seat and rolling his neck like it ached. âGonna pull in there, grab some food. Might get a room if the lot ainât full.â
You didnât look at him, just nodded a little, eyes fixed on the streak of pavement disappearing beneath the truck. âOkay.â
He glanced at you then, like he was waiting for more. When you didnât say anything, he added, âThey got showers too, yâknow. Clean ones. Not five-star or nothinâ, but they get the job done.â
âCool,â you murmured, trying to sound neutral, like you werenât clocking every word.
Then he smirked a littleâjust a flicker, barely there, but you caught it. âDonât worry, you can have your own bed,â he said, voice low, tone meant to be reassuring but sitting wrong in your gut. âUnless, uh... youâd rather save a few bucks.â
You turned to look at him, your expression unreadable. âIâve got cash,â you said, flatly.
âDidnât mean nothinâ by it,â Joel said with a chuckle, eyes flicking to your chest again, not even subtle about it this time. âJust jokinâ around.â
You looked away, jaw tightening.
He scratched his beard, shifting in his seat again. âYouâre real quiet,â he said after a moment. âKinda figured a girl like youâd be more talkative.â
âA girl like me?â you asked, without looking at him.
âYeah,â he drawled, his tone casual as his fingers drummed against the steering wheel. âCâmon you ain't exactly dressed for church, honey.â He turned to you with a grin.
You rolled your eyes before you forced yourself to focus on the landscape outside, the golden hues of the setting sun casting long shadows across the empty fields. But even as you tried to tune him out, you could feel his gaze darting toward you. It wasnât constant, but it was enough to set your nerves on edgeâquick, almost imperceptible glances at your legs, your chest, the curve of your neck.
Every time you caught him, he shifted slightly, like he hadnât been looking at all. His fingers rubbed idly against his thigh, the movement subtle but deliberate.
âDonât get too quiet on me now,â he said after a moment, his voice breaking the uneasy silence. âA guy can only handle so much quiet before he starts gettinâ lonely.â
You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye. âIâm just tired,â you muttered, hoping that would be enough to end the conversation.
âTired, huh?â Joelâs smirk widened as he leaned back in his seat, one hand lazily adjusting his belt. âBet youâve had a long day, stickinâ that pretty thumb out on the highway. Lucky for you I came along. Not everyone out hereâs as friendly as me.â
The way he said âfriendlyâ made your stomach churn. You shifted in your seat, pretending to adjust your backpack as an excuse to look away. âYeah,â you said flatly, unsure of what else to say.
He chuckled again, a deep, gravelly sound that filled the cab. âYou know,â he started, his tone turning thoughtful, âtruck stops ainât so bad. Some of âem even got little diners... Hell, if youâre lucky, you might even find a little entertainment.â
You glanced at him sharply, but he kept his eyes on the road, his expression unreadable. You gritted your teeth, damn religious upbringings, you forced yourself to be polite and dryly humor his conversation. âWhat kind of entertainment?â
Joel shrugged, his fingers still idly tapping his thigh. âDepends on the stop. Some got TVs, little gift shops... and sometimes, you meet interestinâ people. Yâknow, folks passinâ through, lookinâ for a little... company.â
Your pulse quickened, and you swallowed hard, trying to keep your voice steady. âIâm not really looking for company,â you said quickly.
His grin widened, and he let out another low chuckle. âDidnât think you were, sweetheart.â
You turned back to the window, your heart pounding as the shadows outside grew longer. The truck rumbled on, the uneasy tension between you thickening with every mile.
The truckâs turn signal clicked lazily, a rhythmic tick that cut through the hum of the engine as Joel guided the semi off the highway and into the glow of the truck stop.
The lights hit first, flickering fluorescents mounted on leaning poles, casting long shadows across the cracked pavement. The parking lot was littered with rigs and pickups, a few scattered sedans, and the occasional figure ducking in and out of the convenience storeâs heavy glass doors. Beyond that, a rundown diner and a flickering neon sign that buzzed louder than it glowed. It wasnât much, two diesel pumps, a few bent metal benches out front, and a crooked billboard advertising pie that probably hadnât been served fresh since the Reagan administration, and behind it, the shape of a small roadside motel slumped under a sagging roofline.
Joel shifted the truck into park with a heavy hand and let out a grunt, stretching his arms above his head until his back cracked. His faded shirt lifted just enough to reveal a strip of his stomach, leathery and scarred. He caught you looking, not at that, exactly, just observing the place, but he smirked like youâd been staring.
âNot bad, huh?â he said, pulling the key out of the ignition. âCozy little stopover.â
You looked out at the rows of trucks and diesel pumps, trying not to fidget. The stillness inside the cab after the engine died was sudden, as if the noise from the it had been cushioning something you didnât want to feel.
You said nothing, unbuckling your seatbelt with a quick snap and reaching for your backpack, your fingers finding those familiar charms again. You rolled one between your thumb and forefinger, grounding yourself. The tension in your chest hadnât left since you climbed into the truck. If anything, itâd only settled deeper.
Joel opened his door and climbed out with a grunt. âFoodâs better than it looks,â he said over the roar of the diesel engine cooling off. âDinerâs got burgers, eggs, hash. All the heart-attack bullshit you could ever want.â
You followed after a beat, the door heavier than you expected. He waited for you at the base of the steps, one hand resting on the open door like he was holding it open for a date. You stepped down, trying not to flinch as his eyes moved with you, tracking every inch.
You stared past him at the diner, its windows fogged and glowing yellow under too-dim lights. A man smoked on a bench by the door. He looked tired. Everyone here did.
Joel jerked his chin toward the motel attached to the back of the lot. âGonna check if they got any rooms left,â he said, spitting a wad of his chewing tobacco into the dirt. âYou hungry, or what?â
âYeah,â you said, your voice flatter than you intended. âStarving.â
He grinned at that, like it pleased him. âGo on then, I'll meet'cha.â
Inside, the diner smelled like grease and bleach, two things that didnât mix well. The waitress behind the counter didnât look up when you entered, too focused on a crossword puzzle. Joel slid into a booth a few minutes after you had, patting the cracked vinyl across from him.
The seat felt sticky. He leaned back, one arm stretched lazily across the backrest like he owned the place, the other already reaching for a menu he clearly didnât need.
âGo ahead,â he said, nodding at you. âOrder whatever. Iâll cover it.â
You eyed him, unsure if it was kindness or another invisible string. He caught your look and smirked.
âCâmon. Not tryna poison you. Just donât like eatinâ alone.â
You nodded slowly, glancing down at the menu as he watched you over the top of his.
Joel leaned back in the booth, the vinyl seat creaking under his weight. One arm sprawled across the top, the other cradling his plastic cup of water. He let out a long sigh, an exaggerated exhale, like he was trying to be noticed.
âBeen on the road five weeks straight,â he muttered, glancing out the window like he might spot someone he used to know. âStart talkinâ to myself if I donât get some damn conversation.â
You looked up, cautious. He smiled, but it was thin. Forced.
âLife gets quiet when you get to my age. Too damn quiet, sometimes,â he said, fingers tapping idly against the side of his cup. âWife gone. Kids donât call. Truckâs about the only thing still wants me 'round.â
He chuckled softly, but there wasnât much humor in it. More like he expected a certain reaction and didnât care if it was genuine.
âThatâs why I donât mind pickinâ up company when I can,â he added, taking a sip and eyeing you over the rim. âMakes the road feel less... long.â
You didnât respond, just nodded faintly. He didnât seem to careâheâd already settled into his little performance.
âNot askinâ for much,â Joel went on, looking down at his calloused hands. âJust someone to talk to. Hearinâ a pretty voice now and again reminds me Iâm still 'round, yâknow?â
His eyes flicked to your mouth when he said it.
âHell, you donât even gotta talk if you donât want, face's pretty 'nough on its own,â he added with a little grin, eyes crinkling like he was doing you a favor. âIâll just ramble on till I lose my voice. You can pretend I ainât even here.â
You raised an eyebrow. âSeems like you want someone to listen to you talk till your mouth hurts.â
That got a chuckle out of him. âAlright, fair,â he said, scratching at his beard. âI like a little attention. Guilty as charged.â
The waitress came over, tired eyes scanning the table. Joel ordered without looking at the menuââbacon cheeseburger, extra pickles, fries, and a Coke,â before nodding at you to go ahead.
As you gave your order, you could feel his gaze on your face, lingering just a tad too long on your lips when you spoke. When the waitress walked off, Joel leaned back again with a grunt.
âBet you think Iâm some sad old bastard,â he said, smirking.
You tilted your head slightly. âYou donât seem all that sad.â
He laughed again, low and knowing. âDonât gotta be sad to be lonely, darlinâ.â
He said it so easily, like it was the kind of thing heâd said a hundred times before. Like it worked on someone, once.
There was something off about the way he spokeâtoo rehearsed, maybe. Like heâd said this all before. The âpoor old manâ routine. Alone on the road, no family, no one to talk to. It felt... thin.
Still, something about it tugged at you.
Maybe it was the way he sighed after every sentence, like he didnât expect you to care. Maybe it was the worn in look behind his eyes.
You glanced down at your lap, your fingers twisting the zipper of your backpack until it bit into your skin.
You knew better. You really did. People didnât get like this for no reason. Men didnât hand out kindness for free. But even as your gut whispered caution, another part of you, smaller, quieter, felt bad for him.
He wasnât pushing anything. Not yet. And you were tired. Not just from standing on the side of the road, but from months of going nowhere, of waiting for someone, anyone, to see you.
Joel caught your eye again, that half-smile still tugging at the corner of his mouth. âDidnât mean to lay it on thick,â he said, almost sheepish now. âGuess I donât talk to people much these days. Gettin' rusty.â
You tried to smile, but it came out just as performative as his. âItâs fine. I get it.â
He tapped a finger against his glass, his tone softening. âYou runninâ from somethinâ?â he asked, not accusing, just curious.
You hesitated. âNot really. Just⌠done with where I came from.â
Joel nodded like he understood. Maybe he did. âAinât nothinâ wrong with wantinâ out. Some places donât give you much reason to stay.â
His voice was quieter now, less performative. For a second, it felt more real. Or maybe you just wanted it to.
You studied him for a beat longerâhis hands, his eyes, the worn creases in his skin. You could still feel the phantom touch of his fingers pulling your seatbelt earlier, still see the way his gaze had lingered a second too long.
But right now, he looked tired. Lonely. And something in you, despite everything, softened just a little.
âI appreciate the ride,â you said quietly. âReally.â
Joel looked at you for a second, then nodded once and leaned back again. âAinât no trouble,â he said. âLike I said, road gets real damn quiet.â
You both fell into silence after that, the kind that wasnât entirely comfortable.
Heâd tried to make small talk over greasy plates and chipped mugs of diner coffeeâasked about your favorite music, your family, whether you had a boyfriend âwaitinâ around somewhere.â He framed it as harmless banter, chuckling over his fries, talking with his mouth half full like it wasnât meant to mean anything.
You mostly nodded, gave short answers. Your appetite had all but vanished the longer his eyes lingered on you.
They didnât wander constantly, Joel wasnât that obvious. But every so often, as you cut into your food or brushed hair out of your face, youâd catch him watching you instead of eating. His gaze would always drop quickly, back to his plate or the tabletop, but the silence between those glances felt thicker each time.
You told yourself it was nothing. You told yourself you were tired, overthinking.
But by the time he paid the bill and motioned for you to follow him outside, your stomach had twisted into something tight and uneasy.
The air had cooled a little with the setting sun. Crickets had started their nightly hum, and the truck lot buzzed quietly with the sound of engines cooling and the occasional burst of laughter from inside the diner. But your ears were filled with the sound of your own footsteps following Joelâs.
He led you past the edge of the lot, toward a squat, single-story row of motel rooms behind the diner. Faded numbers were bolted onto each door, and the porch lights above them flickered weakly, as if unsure whether to bother staying lit.
Joel stopped in front of one, jingling a key in his hand. âOnly had one left,â he said, turning the knob. âTold the guy itâs just for a few hoursâ shut-eye. Not like Iâm settlinâ in.â
Your heart skipped. Just one?
The room door creaked open. Joel stepped inside first, tossing the key on the nightstand and flipping on the light. A yellow glow filled the room, bouncing off stained wallpaper and a twin bed with a faded comforter. The A/C unit in the window rattled weakly.
The moment you stepped into the room, something felt different.
Not in the air itself, the motel room still smelled like bleach and dust, but Joelâs presence had changed.
He didnât say much after unlocking the door. Just let it swing open, stepped inside like he owned the place, and gave the room a lazy once-over. Gone was the exaggerated sighing, the talk of loneliness, the half-hearted chuckles meant to make you feel bad for him. Now he moved slower, more comfortably, like someone whoâd settled into something.
You werenât sure what.
He let the door close behind you with a click that made your pulse hitch. He didnât bolt it, he didnât need to. The message was already clear.
Joel walked over to the table near the bed and dropped the room key with a soft clink. His hand hovered for a second, then he sat in the chair near the window, stretching out with a tired grunt. One arm slung over the backrest like he was getting ready to stay awhile.
âNot bad,â he muttered, adjusting the waistband of his jeans before running a hand through his graying hair. âCould be worse.â
You didnât answer. You were still standing near the door, backpack hugged to your chest like a shield.
Joelâs eyes flicked up to you. Slower now. Less polite. Like he didnât feel the need to pretend anymore.
"You can sit, yâknow,â he said. âAinât gonna bite.â
He grinned at his own joke, but it didnât reach his eyes. They were darker now. Not cold, just⌠sure. Like whatever this was, it was already decided in his head.
You moved slowly, choosing the edge of the bed farthest from himâyou wished the separate beds calmed your nerves, they didn't. The springs creaked as you sat, and the sound felt too loud. You kept your backpack in your lap, your hands gripping the strap.
Joel let his gaze linger for a moment longer, then leaned his head back and looked up at the ceiling. âYâknow, most folks would be grateful by now,â he said idly, like he was commenting on the weather. âFree ride, free food, place to rest. Ainât a bad deal.â
Your spine stiffened slightly. There was no edge in his voice, no threat. But there was something underneath it. Something that made your stomach coil.
âI am grateful,â you said carefully.
âMm.â He didnât sound entirely convinced. âYouâre just real quiet is all. Hard to read.â
You didnât reply.
Joel scratched at his jaw. âGuess itâs just been a while since I had company.â He looked at you again, head tilted, lips just barely curved. âItâs nice. Real nice. You're nice.â
You felt your shoulders tense. He wasnât doing anything, not really, but you could feel it building. The shift. The subtle way he took up more space now, like just getting you through that door had changed everything.
Joel stood up, stretching again with a low groan, and walked toward the mini fridge. He bent to open it, empty, but lingered there a second longer than needed. When he straightened, he looked at you again. Still that same expression. Casual. Relaxed. Like this was just the natural next step in whatever he thought was happening here.
âIâm gonna go grab us some drinks,â he said, voice lighter now, maybe even cheerful. âYou want soda, water, somethinâ stronger?â
You blinked. âCokeâs fine.â
He nodded, already halfway to the door. He paused, hand on the knob, then turned back.
âYou lock that behind me if it makes you feel better,â he said, his voice quiet. âBut Iâll be back in five. Donât go disappearinâ on me.â
He winked. Not playful. Not mean. Just⌠like a joke he thought you were in on, even if you didnât know the punchline yet.
Then the door clicked shut behind him, and you were alone.
The silence returned.
You sat still, backpack clutched to your chest, heart pounding a little faster than before. You werenât sure what Joel thought this was. But for the first time, you were sure of one thing:
He thought he was owed something.
You werenât sure why you stayed.
Maybe it was pride. Maybe it was the weight of your backpack digging into your spine for hours that made you too tired to run again. Maybe it was something worse, something harder to admit. That small, scared voice that told you: This is what you asked for, isnât it? A ride. A room. A way out.
You told yourself it was fine.
But when Joel came back a few agonizing minutes later, holding a single room-temperature soda like it was some kind of gift, that thin illusion started to crack.
"Vending machineâs shot to hell," he said, tossing it onto the end of the bed like he expected you to jump at it. âStill good, though. S'just warm.â
You nodded, reaching to take a grab the bottle. You tried not to acknowledge the way your heart sped up as you leaned closer to him, your hand shaking.
Joel didnât seem to notice, or didnât care. He kicked off his boots, grunted as he lowered himself into the creaking chair near the TV, and grabbed the remote from the armrest.
The television flashed on, its speakers crackling as static fizzled into some old cable rerun. The volume was too loud for the tiny room, but Joel didnât adjust it. He just leaned back and settled in, letting the laugh track fill the silence like white noise drowning out your thoughts.
You nerves were so shot, you hadnât noticed the bottle hadn't hissed when you twisted the cap.
When your leg started to shake it was just a tremor at first, barely noticeable. But it spread, up your thigh, into your stomach, into your chest. Your heart fluttered under your ribs, fluttered wrong. Your throat was too dry. The lights were too yellow. The TV too loud. His breathing, even and steady from across the room, was the only rhythm that didn't match your panic.
You stood quickly, too quickly.
âBathroom,â you muttered, grabbing your bag without really knowing why. Just needing it close.
Joel gave a vague nod, his eyes barely lifting from the screen. âTake your time.â
The bathroom was even smaller than you expected. Dim light. Cracked tile. A fan in the ceiling that buzzed faintly behind the walls. You closed the door and leaned against it, gripping the edge of the sink with both hands.
Your reflection stared back at you, paler than before. Eyes wide. Lips dry.
You didnât even notice you were crying until the first drop hit the sink.
You werenât scared, not exactly. But something inside you was twisting tight, something old and instinctive that didnât care about politeness or gratitude or second chances. Something that whispered, Leave. Now.
You splashed water on your face. Once. Twice. The cold shocked your nerves, grounding you just a little, enough to breathe. But your hand trembled as you reached for the towel, and you had to brace yourself before you looked in the mirror again.
You stared at your own eyes for a long time.
You could still leave. You hadnât unpacked. Your legs worked fine. The door wasnât locked.
But outside that door, Joel waited. Not a stranger anymore. Not really. And that was somehow worse.
You dried your face, turned off the faucet, and in front the door of the bathroom for a beat, staring at the crack under it, the yellow-lit room shared the space of flickering blue light from the TV.
âYou alright in there, sweetheart?â he asked, his voice warm again, sounding gentle despite how he'd had to hollar over the TV.
You took a breath. Then another. You told yourself you were overreacting.
People were weird, sure. Joel was⌠weird. But maybe thatâs all it was. Maybe your nerves were shot from being on the road, from standing in the sun for hours, from not eating enough. You were tired. That made everything feel worse.
One night. Get some rest. Ditch him in the morning.
That was the plan. Simple. Safe.
You pushed open the door and stepped out into the dim light of the room again, trying to slide your expression back into something neutral. Something nice.
You gave him a polite, too-sweet smile in return, it was automatic, from that church-girl buried deep in your gut. You didn't owe him anything, but you still felt like you had to at least perform gratitude. Like that was part of the deal.
It was tight-lipped, polite, instinctual. The same smile youâd been trained to give since you were a kid, the smile that didnt reach your eyes, that said Iâm fine, thank you, donât worry about me.
He smiled back.
Not kindly. Not broadly. Just this thin, smug little thing tugging at the corner of his mouth.
He tried to play it off like nothing. Reached for the remote. Adjusted his posture. But it didnât go unnoticed, not by you. Joel looked over at you from the chair, his arms resting behind his head now, relaxed.
You crossed the room, easing yourself onto the top of the bed. The blanket was old and dusty and reeked of stale detergent. Still, it beat the side of the highway. You opened the Coke and took a sip. Flat. Warm. Still, it gave your hands something to do.
On the TV, that same crusty sitcom was still going. Joel had turned the volume up since you'd gone. The laugh track punched through the tiny speakers like a drill to the temple. The jokes came rapid-fireâloud, overacted, dated.
You werenât really listening until one of the charactersâa middle-aged man with a gut and a mustacheâjoked about slipping a woman something to make her âact with less prudence.â The studio audience howled. His female co-star gave him a fake slap on the shoulder with an annoyed glare. The scene moved on.
You didnât laugh. You didnât even smile.
Joel did.
Not loud. Just a low huff of a chuckle, amused. Right in time with the laugh track. Like it had hit a nerve in him. The wrong nerve.
You stiffened. Your spine straightened just a little more. You didnât look at him.
It was the type of joke that made men laugh in bars when theyâd already had too much and werenât watching their tone anymore.
Joelâs laughter stopped as quickly as it came. But when you risked a glance, you saw it, that same smug curl at the edge of his mouth, his tongue poking briefly at the inside of his cheek like he was chewing on something he wasnât going to say out loud.
You looked away.
Itâs the show, you told yourself. Itâs the show. Heâs just laughing because itâs on.
But the hairs on your arms were standing up anyway.
You shifted around on the stiff mattress for what mustâve been the better part of an hour. The bed creaked with every movement, the scratchy comforter brushing against your skin like old sandpaper. You kept changing positionsâlegs folded under you, then stretched out, then pulled back in. Nothing felt comfortable. Nothing felt settled.
You kept reaching for the bottle of Coke on the side table, fingers brushing it absentmindedly before pulling back. The ritual repeated over and over until finally, you just brought it into your lap. The half-full bottle had lost what little fizz it had, but you held onto it anyway. The weight of it in your hands was something solid, something to focus on. It gave your fingers something to do besides twist the hem of your shirt or pick at your skin.
Joel hadnât said much. The flicker of the TV lit up his face in little bursts. Every so often, heâd glance over at you. Not long enough to say anything. Just enough to make your body flare up with heat as your blood rushed.
You tried to focus on the show, but your brain had gone fuzzy. Not foggy, exactly, but distant. Like your thoughts were moving through syrup. Your limbs felt a little heavy, your eyes dry.
The Coke sat in your lap like a small weight. When you went to take another sip, you hesitated, your hand lifting slower than you expected. The bottle felt heavier than before. Not by much. Just enough for you to notice.
You frowned a little, blinked once, then twice. Maybe it was exhaustion. Your nerves had been running hot all day, your body could just be crashing. That had to be it.
Still⌠something felt off. You gripped the bottle a little tighter.
Your head rolled slightly on your shoulders as you tried to blink the haze away. You gave a small shake, like maybe you could rattle the exhaustion out of your skull, but it clung to youâdraped heavy over your limbs like a damp blanket.
You werenât that tired.
At least, you hadnât been.
You blinked again. The TV was still flickering, the showâs punchlines rolling out like clockwork. Joel chuckled along with the laugh track, low and content. Like nothing was wrong. Like everything was exactly the way he wanted it.
You didnât look at him. You just focused on the bottle in your hands.
It wasnât spinning, but it felt like it could be. Your fingers curled a little tighter around it as if that might tether you to the present. You told yourself again that you hadnât eaten properly. That this was just your body protesting the long day. That the motel room was warm, and Joelâs TV was loud, and your senses were frayed.
But still⌠your skin was buzzing. Not panic, just static. An edge.
You reached for your phone without thinking, fingertips fumbling slightly with the zipper of your bag. You didnât even know who youâd text if you needed help, but the need to do something was rising in your chest, your instincts growing louder, like background noise you could no longer ignore.
âFeelinâ alright, sweetheart?â Joel asked suddenly, not looking at you.
You jumped slightly at his voice, your fingers freezing over your backpack. You glanced at him.
His eyes were still on the screen, but his smirk was back. Not wide, not obvious, just there. Subtle, like he was hiding something behind it and didnât care enough to try hard.
âIâm fine,â you said automatically, your voice quieter than you meant it to be.
Joel made a little humming sound, like he didnât quite believe you, but he didnât press. Just leaned back further in his chair, exhaling like a man pleased with how the day turned out.
You turned your eyes to the bathroom door again.
It wasnât far. You could go in, close the door, lock it. Just for a minute. Just to breathe.
You planted your hands on the edge of the bed and pushed yourself up. Your legs didnât respond the way you expected.
For a split second, it felt like they werenât even attached. Your knees nearly gave out as you stood, a sharp, disconnected jolt rushing through your lower body like the numbness you get from sitting too long in one position, but worse. There was no familiar prickle of circulation returning, no tingling promise of sensation coming back. Just absence.
And something about that absence made your chest tighten.
You reached out, grabbing the wall for balance. The Coke bottle in your hand slipped from your fingers.
Behind you, Joelâs chuckle drifted lazily through the static of the television. Not loud. Just enough to make the air feel thinner.
âYou alright there?â he drawled, voice a little too casual. A little too slow.
You didnât look at him. âYeah. Just, stiff legs.â
Your voice sounded strange even to your own ears, it was muted, distant. You could feel his eyes on your back now, tracking your movement more attentively than before.
You didnât turn.
Didnât say anything else.
You pressed your hands against the rough motel wall, the chipped paint cool against your skin. Your legs felt weak beneath you, shaking softly, and you couldnât seem to make them move.
Your breath came fast and shallow, chest tightening with each inhale. The vintage chair creaked faintly nearby, a reminder that Joel was still in the room, still watching.
You didnât look over.
Your eyes darted to the flickering TV, its pale light casting long shadows on the cracked wallpaper. It buzzed softly, filling the silence with pointless noise.
Maybe not so pointless.
You could hear him settle out of his chair, the scrape of fabric on denim. Joelâs footsteps shuffled behind you, slow and deliberate.
âEverything alright, sweetheart?â His voice was low, smooth, and far too casual. Almost mocking. It didn't sound like a question.
You didnât answer. You couldnât.
Instead, you pressed your palm harder against the wall, willing the tremors in your legs to stop. But the more you willed it, the worse it felt, like your body was betraying you, leaving you trapped between fight or flight, but doing neither.
You swallowed the lump rising in your throat, biting your lip to keep from shaking or crying. Your heart hammered so loud you were sure he could hear it.
You wanted to run. To scream. To disappear.
But you stayed still.
You didnât realize he was approaching again until the floor creaked just to your left. A soft sound, but close. Too close.
âHey, câmon now,â Joel said, voice gentle in a way that made your stomach twist. âYou donât look too good. Maybe you should lie back down.â
His hand reached out, palm warm and rough as it hovered near your arm. Not yet. The faux tenderness in his tone didnât sit right with the look in his eyes. They were too alert, too interested.
âIâm fine,â you said quickly, though your voice was hoarse and small. You hated how it sounded.
âYou sure? âCause youâre swayinâ a little.â His hand landed on your arm this time, solid and steady. But he didnât grip.
That should have made it better. It didnât.
It was the stillness in his hand that made your skin crawl, how his thumb pressed, then circled slowly, like he was mapping out your pulse.
âCâmon,â he said again, guiding you gently, not forcing, but not offering space to resist. âJust for a minute. Youâll feel better when ya do.â
When... not if.
You let yourself be led. Partly because your legs still felt unsteady. Partly because you didnât know what would happen if you pulled away.
He walked you the few steps to the bed, hand never leaving your arm, and helped you sit. His other hand reached for your shoulder, too familiar now, the way it rested there a beat too long.
You flinched.
Joel paused, then gave a soft chuckle under his breath. âEasy now. Ainât tryinâ to scare you."
But when he leaned in to adjust the pillow behind you, his knuckles dragged against your collarbone. His other hand hovered lower on your side, not quite touching your hipâbut close enough that the heat of it made you recoil inside.
âYouâre all tense,â he murmured, gaze slipping down your frame like a slow leak. âJust breathe, alright? Youâre safe.â
The worst part was how convincing his voice sounded.
But you knew better.
Your body knew better.
You sank down against the bed with a strange sort of heaviness, like your own limbs no longer belonged to you. The mattress dipped beneath your weight, a dry, musty scent rising up from the sheets.
You tried to sit upright, to keep your spine straight, but your body leaned without permission, your muscles slackened under the weight of your own breath.
Joel didnât go back to the chair.
You heard the soft groan of the mattress again, felt the subtle shift beside you before your eyes caught up. He sat on the edge of the bed now. Right next to you.
Not touching, but close.
You turned your head toward him slowly, eyes trying to focus. Your brain felt like it was wrapped in cotton, every thought dragging through molasses.
âWhyâŚâ you started, but the rest of the sentence didnât come.
Your tongue felt thick. Heavy. Wrong.
He smiled, small, faint. You might've miss it if you werenât looking. But you were looking. Because watching him felt like the only thing tethering you now.
âYou okay, sugar?â he asked again, quieter this time. Closer. He didnât sound worried. Not really.
You tried to speak, but your words came out slurred, barely above a whisper. âMâfineâŚâ
It took all your strength just to swallow the lump in your throat, even that felt like work. You could feel your pulse behind your eyes now, slow and sluggish.
Joel didnât move away.
His arm rested across his lap, hand curled on his thigh. The same hand that had guided you here. The same hand that lingered too long.
His eyes werenât on your face anymore.
You saw that.
You felt that.
Still, you couldnât quite pull your body back. Couldnât seem to make your limbs respond.
You were here. And so was he.
And something deep in your gut told you the space between you wouldnât stay empty much longer.
Joel's calloused hands reached toward the strap of your bra that had peaked out from your shirt. He lifted it in his fingers almost carefully, letting it lead up to the top of your bra. Your mumbled incoherently at his touch. He shushed you softly.
He didn't speak anymore, he didnt need too. He brought his fingers back up to your collarbone before laying his palm across it, the strap caught between his fingers as he pushed it down your shoulder. His body leaned forward to press his lips to your collarbone. His beard was scruffy and sharp against your soft skin, like needles.
His lips were dry and cracked, the wetness from his saliva being the only softness. He pecked at the bone a few times before his mouth wrapped around it, sucking.
Your hands weakly moved to his shoulders, but his hands patiently wrapped around your wrists, pushing them to sit by your head. The bed dented down. Your writhed weakly. He continued sucking and nipping at the spot till a dark mark appeared.
The knot in your stomach churned as he licked over where he bit to soothe your skin, his beard felt like a hundred tiny needles digging into you. Red appeared around the purple. His thumbs pressed into your wrists, feeling your pulse as you whimpered. His mouth lifted for a moment, his breath hot on your irritated skin.
"Your hearts finally slowin' down sweetheart, ain't losin' ya am I?" He huffed with a humor only he had. His mouth wrapped around the mark again, his tounge tracing your collarbone as he hummed.
He hadnât lied, your heart finally slowed, but the panic stayed lodged in your chest. Each beat hammered against your ribs, like it was trying to tear its way out and leave you behind. The thump in your chest spread your blood throughout your body, heat rising on your skin.
His hands werenât tight on your wrists, his thumbs traced slow circles on your pulsepoints before sliding into your palms. His mouth kept defacing your shoulder. There was no violence in it, if anything, he almost seemed to be comforting you.
You couldnât decide if that made it better, or worse, or if it changed anything at all.
Your knees dragged upward in another weak attempt to slip free, but your bones felt like wet cement, heavy and useless. You turned your head away with a thin whine, your body mustering what little control it had to spill tears that slid into your ears. Your chest heaved as you writhed.
Joel shushed you without cruelty, his hum low and pitying, the vibration running from his throat into your collarbone. His mouth scattered pecks over the marks fresh on your neck and shoulders before he propped himself on an elbow, still looming above you. One calloused hand smeared the tears across your right cheek while his lips caught the ones on the leftâand you swore his tongue slipped out to taste the salt straight from your skin.
âDonât cry, sugarpie⌠I ainât gonna hurt you, promise. Didnât mean to upset you none. I just get real lonely out on the road, is all.â
He looked and sounded so genuine, like he truly believed every word he spoke. His lips brushed your ear when he talked, his voice almost swallowed by the blare of the TVâand now you understood why it was so loud. Not that it mattered. The only sounds you could make were thin, mousey whines, easy to mistake for the creaks of the old bedframe or an actual mouse.
Your lips trembled as you turned your face from his hands, eyelids pressed tight. The only refuge you had was to pretend, if only for a moment, that none of this was real.
âHey now⌠look at me. Let me see those pretty eyes, baby.â His voice stayed soft, but there was an edge of annoyance beneath it.
When you didnât obey, his hand closed around your face, squeezing your cheeks until your lips puckered. He tilted your head toward him, but your eyes stayed shut. He clicked his tongue, then used his other hand to peel one eyelid open. Your iris was barely a ring around your blown pupil, whatever heâd given you was already winding through your blood, sinking heavy into your bones.
He smiled softly. âThere she isâŚâ he whispered, letting your eyelid flutter shut as his hand slipped into your hair, fingers combing slow like he meant to soothe. âPretty, pretty girl.â
His lips met your forced pout in a mockery of a kiss, his tongue brushing gently against them, coaxing for a response you never gave. When you didn't reciprocate, he nipped at your lips gently.
He pulled back just enough to watch your face, your eyes still screwed shut, leaving you with nothing but the ghost of his touch. His hand hovered at your shoulder, and he grinned at the weak tremors rippling through your body. Slowly, he let his fingertips trail down to your hip, slipping beneath the hem of your shorts to trace the waistband, his blunt nail dragging a cruel line across your pelvis.
"It's okay, hun." He whispered as he slipped another finger into the waistband.
You felt his hand turn in your shorts, the pads of his fingers now touching you. You tensed but made no move to resist, not that you could. His hand slowly, painstakingly, moved deeper into your shorts. You quietly cried as his middle and pointer finger dragged across your clothed clit before it was quickly replaced by his palm, fingers down to your slit. Your heard a gravelly groan reach out of his throat.
"Fuck sweetie, you're soaking through your panties." He chuckled near the end of his words before exhaling heavily.
Your eyes wanted to shoot open, but only managed to lift with a furrowed brow. His eyes met yours, his bottom lip between his stained teeth. Confusion was painted on your features.
"Yeah baby, you're panties are fucking ruined." He huffed, his palm pressing onto your swollen clit.
A humiliating gasp was ripped from you as more tears fell from your eyes. No, no no no...
"Mhm, shit baby, see? Your body knows I'm not hurting ya, what was all that fuss about?"
The pads of his fingers brushed over your clothes slit, the wetness became more obvious as you heard a sickening squelch when he pressed them into your sopping hole over your panties.
"Ah... Joel.." you cried, your voice never felt smaller.
His hot breath fanned your face with a pant, "Yeah, baby, say my name."
You shook your head weakly, your eyes traveling down to where his hand disappeared into your shorts. You remembered you had hands as you tried to push his hand away. In your haze, you accidently pushed him closer, letting his palm rub harder into your clit.
You wanted to puke when your felt a shot of pleasure crack through you, you wanted to die when you felt your hips roll into his hand. Your voice cracked with a wordless 'No'.
Joel beamed, "You got such a needy pussy, baby... look at her, she wants so bad. She knows whats best for you... she just wanna feel good."
You grit your teeth as your hips rolled again, his hand meeting it with a circle of his own. Your nails dug into his forearm, but they barely made an indent. You felt his leg cross over yours as he hummed your thigh. His cock was hard in his jeans, the bulge large and visable despite your brain fog and the dark room.
His hand left your shorts for a moment, and you felt a wave of relief before you felt them fall straight to the button on them.
He unbuttoned them with one hand as he groaned, lifting himself to his knees. He grabbed at the waistband at both your hip bones and tore them down. You tried to cross your legs but one of his hands met your thigh and shoved it to the side, just long enough to get your shorts off.
He brought both hands to the back of your knees, dragging you down for his thighs to meet the back of yours. He spread you open and stared down like he was holding his fridge open, deciding what he wanted to feast on. He barely felt the tug of you trying to close them. In a last ditch effort you moved your hands to cover your crotch, and that's when you felt it.
You were completely soaked through, the wet spot making your white panties transparent. It was like something inside you broke at that moment. Your body had decided to completely betray you.
As if he noticed you resolve falter, he brought his hands to the side of your panties and ripped. One side, then the other. Throwing them across the room to land somewhere on the carpet. You bit into your hands as you stopped pulling away. Eyes distant but open, he would take it.
His hands lifted your shirt over your bra before he shoved that up too. It squeezed over the top of your breasts almost painfully.
"God bless you, baby... perfect fucking pussy," his hand slapped it as he leaned forward, "and perfect fucking tits."
His mouth wrapped around your nipple, tounge circling it wildly as he sucked the nub between his teeth. Your body reacted how it wanted, and you could only whimper and whine pathetically. He rested above you on one forearm while his other hand met your leaking slit again. His thick middle finger dragged up and down it, your wetness coating the pad. He brought it to you clit, circling slowly before he flicked it.
He moaned around you nipple when you jumped with a cry. The more your body reacted the more he seemed to lose it. He switched to the other nipple, "Gotta give her some lovin' too." He chuckled.
The actions repeated for a few minutes you think, your perception of time got foggy with each circle, flick, and switch.
The vibration from his groans tickled your breast, making your back arch further into his mouth. He was almost fucking drooling, copious amounts of spit shined your chest like you'd been rubbed down in oil.
He abruptly moved down, his hand leaving to grip your hips, holding them down as he settled between your legs. He licked a long stripe across your slit, shaking his head side to side as the muscle circled your clit before he sunk it into your organ. His hands moved to your chest as he tounge fucked you, fast and unrelenting. He only lifted from you to spit on you pussy before he flattened his tounge across your entire slit and diving back in.
Every groan and moan from his vibrated against your clit and the inside of you. You felt breathless and violated. And when a knot formed in your stomach that you couldn't decipher at first due to the sinking dread that had settled there, it was too late.
With a broken cry, you threw your head back as your legs shook around his head. His voice raised over the tv for a moment with how loud he growled against your pussy.
He detached from you before appearing in front of your eyes and shoving his hot tounge down your throat. You grimaced as you tasted yourself, your pussy still throbbing from your orgasm.
"Sweet as cherry pie, baby." He mumbled against your mouth. His tounge dragged along the inside of your mouth, just another hole to him. Along the ridges of the roof of your mouth to the back of your teeth.
He sucked on your tounge harshly before unlatching, raising back on his knees again with a hushed 'Fuck...' undoing his belt. The clink of metal echoed, as he stood. He didn't bother taking his jeans off, just shoved them down enough to release his raging cock.
He walked to the side of the bed, grabbing your arm and dragging you closer. His dick hung heavy as it twitched, face level with you. You closed your mouth tightly and turned your head, only to met with a gentle but forceful tap from the back of his hand. The same hand grabbed your jaw as he leaned down to meet your eyes.
"I'm only gonna say this once, you don't fucking bite. I don't wanna hurt you, sugar, but you bite my fucking dick and I'll knock your teeth out." He said it sternly with raised brows.
You only looked at him fearfully before he spoke again, "Do you understand?" You nodded.
He loosened his grip and brought his thumbs to the sides of your mouth, forcing it open. "Relax your throat, sweetheart. Be good for me, m'kay?"
What else could you do other then what you were told?
The tip leaked as he dragged it across your lips before he got an idea, backing up and manhandling you to lay with your head upside down on the edge. He returned to your lips, a couple heavy slaps of his cock landed on your cheek before he told you to stick your tounge out, and he slid into your warm waiting mouth.
He groaned as he moved till his balls touched your nose, stilling there for a moment as you suffocated. You whimpered around him as you brought your hands up, "Breath through your nose, sweetheart." He instructed.
He pulled out leaving just the tip in your mouth before he slowly bottomed out again. He didnt waste time changing the pace, his hips thrusted steadily. Drool dripped from your mouth as he fucked it, his heavy, twitching balls smacking your nose each time. He brought his hands to take your wrists, settling them on your stomach as he leaned forward so he could thrust harder. He panted and groaned, cursing occasionally inbetween.
One of his hands left your wrist to smack your pussy once before he lifted himself. Bringing one knee to the mattress, he stood as he thrusted downward into your throat. His hand enveloped it with a growl when he saw the shift inside of it. His eyes were locked on the bulge that appeared in your throat when he shoved it down.
His thrusts became sloppy as he got louder. He lean forward again, fully pounding your throat before hot seed filled it. You felt it hit your uvula in bursts, forcing you to cough and gag, your body desperately trying to suck in air through your filled neck. He stilled at the deepest point, his tip twitching to hit the back of your throat as you felt his balls tighten against your nose. He exhaled roughly before giving you one more slowly thrust, pulling out.
You gasped desperately, veins bulging in your face and neck. Your eyes were pink and your head was swimming due to it hanging upside down for so long. Spit and snot leaked down from your face along with his cum.
Kneeling next to you, he nuzzled your head with his own with soft shushing. "That's it, breath, honey... You did so good, took it so good. Made me feel so good, baby..." he muttered, kisses moving across your temple.
When your coughing subsided you breathed a sigh of relief that it was over, mumbling incoherently as your brain struggled to process. The fog lifted when you felt his hands around your ankles from the other side of the bed, dragging you to lay on it again. He crawled to join you before twisting you back around so your head was at the pillows.
Cries came more freely now as you saw his still hard cock scoot closer to your pussy. You head turned before narrowing in on a sheet of tablets sitting on the side table he'd been sitting at. Two blue pills missing.
Your throat burned as a weak cry tried to crawl out, but he'd abused it to the point of you loosing your voice. Pathetic squeaks falling from your mouth instead. You felt his cock slap against your pussy, it instinctively pulsed at the pressure. He pressed the tip to your clit, thrusting against it. Your back arched as your hips rolled with his, your brain was so fuzzy you didnt even register the noises spilling from your lips.
The stretch was sudden as he pushed into you. Your lips trembled around him as he slid inside easily. Your spit and already soaked his cock immeasurably, but the lube that leaked from you without permission added to it ease of which he came inside you without friction. You felt impossibly full when his hand came down to push on your lower stomach as he began working.
There was no build up, the speed was set from the jump as he hauled himself over you. His hips met yours with heavy thrusts, pounding into you without thought. The only time he let you breath was when he kneeled again, only to grab the back of your knees and shove them next to you head as he somehow fucked you harder. He felt no need to speak anymore, only occasion growls of how wet you were, which you hadn't needed verbal acknowledgement of. It was clear from the wet slaps that echoed in the room, bouncing off the walls and into your ears as you laid limp and took it.
Your mouth hung open as noises continued to force themselves from your throat, you had been so gone that you didnt flinch when you spit into your mouth, your throat instantly tensing as you swallowed it. You had lost almost all feeling, your hearing muffled, you took no notice of the impending release.
"Fucking shit baby... pussys so fucking tight 'round me... you gonna cum again? Hmm? You love this fucking cock, you know you do. You're body knows you do."
It went in one ear and out the other, you were reduced to a whimpering hole.
You didnt react when he pulled out to flip you onto your stomach, shoving one knee hip while the other stayed straight. He laid atop your seemingly lifeless body as he shoved himself back in and quickly resumed his previous pace. The cupped smacking sound reverberated with his pounding, your voice now muffled by the pillows you faced.
You felt his weight as his chest met your back and he rutted into you. Your fingers twitched with a mix of exhaustion, pleasure, and anxiety. He swiped your hair from your shoulder as he sucked another mark onto you from behind. Your voice raised a pitch as he thrusts began sloppy again.
"You're gonna make me cum again, honey... fuck yeah that's it, you can take it, knew you could." You whimpered as he lifted your hips, shoving you onto him just as harshly as he was fucking you. But you tightend around him all the same.
"Come on, cum with me, baby! Want your pussy to clamp down and suck my cum right out of my cock... milk me fucking dry, baby... lemme fill up that sexy fucking pussy!"
A scream was at the back of your throat as your body jumped like you were electrocuted. It came out as a broken cry as you shook violently. He didn't stop even after your orgasm run its course, only fucked you faster. Your hips pulled away as you mindlessly scrambled away from his unrelenting ones, but you were still under the influence of his roofie, and he was still so much stronger.
And so for another agonizing few minutes you shook and writhed and cried till he bottomed out. Cumming deep inside your abused cunt. You felt the warmth fill you as his tip hit your cervix, it spread quickly down to your opening where it leaked down onto the bed. He let himself to thrust a handful more times as he drained his balls inside of you.
And then he stayed there, his hand lifting your hips to keep it from leaking out. But there was so much, it filled your entire cunt. You felt his hands reached and pinch your slit closed around his cock. His mouth came to your ear as he whispered.
"Gotta make it stick... make sure you get nice and full."
You have nothing left in you to protest, only tears slipping by. You're so fucking dirty, cum and spit and snot and tears and sweat. The blanket your sprawled on feels like got left out in the rain.
You feel his cock soften inside you of before he pulls out. Two fingers immediately replace it, stuffing the little that leaks out back into your brushed pussy. You begin to lose your senses, your body unable to force itself to fight awake anymore.
You only feel the repeated drag of his fingers, a clicking sound like a camrea accompanied by a flash of light, and his breathless heaving. The bed shakes as he falls next to you before you feel his arm loosely wrap around you waist, pulling you into him. You eyes droop as you gave in. A lump forms in your throat when you feel a twitch against your ass as you slowly loose consciousness.
WARNINGS: toxic sugar daddy dynamics, power imbalance, possessiveness, controlling behavior, ownership kink, oral sex (while driving) degradation, dubcon undertones, sexism from rafe, mild pain play, reader is very much finically dependent on rafe (pls never depend on a man for money) and age gap
AUTHORS NOTE: this is a dark fic!! minors do not interact, and if you do i will block you
you trail behind rafe through the crowded mall, arms already aching from the weight of the bags heâs made you carry. dior, chanel, yslâhe doesnât even look at the price tags anymore, just tosses his black card at whoeverâs behind the counter and tells them to make it quick. itâs black friday, but the chaos barely touches him. people part when they see him coming, all sharp jaw and expensive coat, that quiet kind of scary that makes security nod instead of ask questions.
âkeep up,â he mutters, not turning around. his hand finds the back of your neck, fingers curling possessive under your hair, steering you like youâre something he owns. you are. thatâs the deal.
he stops dead in front of agent provocateur, eyes flicking over the mannequins in lace and straps. âyouâre getting everything in here,â he says, voice low. âand youâre gonna model it for me later. slowly.â
your stomach flips. ârafe, people canââ
âi donât give a fuck what people can do.â he finally looks at you, blue eyes cold. âyou wanted to be taken care of, yeah? this is it. you wear what i buy, you walk where i walk, you open your legs when i say. thatâs the arrangement, sweetheart.â
he says it quiet enough that no one around hears, but it still burns. you nod anyway, small and quick, because the alternative is him walking away and taking the cards, the apartment, the clothes, all of it with him. and you hate how fast you got used to not worrying about rent.
inside the store he sits like a king on the velvet bench, legs spread, watching you get passed lingerie set after set by the nervous salesgirl. every time you step out of the curtain he tilts his head, drags his gaze over you slow, then either nods or flicks two fingers: next. no smile. no âyou look pretty.â just ownership.
when you hesitate on a set thatâs basically strings, he leans forward. âyou think i pay for shy? put it on.â
you do.
an hour later youâre loaded with pink bags, legs shaking a little from the heels he made you wear out of the last store. he finally stops at some overpriced jewelry counter, picks up a thin gold anklet with a tiny âRâ charm dangling from it.
âthis one,â he tells the guy, not asking your opinion. âand engrave the inside. property of rc. small.â
your face goes hot. ârafeââ
he turns, slow, crowding you against the glass case. âyou donât like my name on you? that a problem?â his thumb presses into your wrist, hard enough to bruise tomorrow. âbecause i can take all this shit back right now. leave you in the food court with your little target coat from last year. that what you want?â
you swallow. âno.â
âdidnât think so.â he smiles then, small and mean, and kisses your forehead like youâre a kid who just learned a lesson. âgood girl.â
he clips the anklet on you himself in the middle of the damn mall, crouching down, fingers rough against your skin. when he stands he doesnât let go of your ankle right awayâjust holds it, thumb brushing the fresh gold.
ânow everyone knows,â he says, quiet. âeven if they canât read it.â
you spend the rest of the day following him from store to store, bags cutting into your fingers, his hand slipping under your skirt in elevators just because he can. by the time the sun goes down youâre exhausted, feet bleeding in the new louboutins, but heâs finally satisfied.
in the parking lot he opens the trunk of the range rover, tosses everything in like itâs nothing. then he pins you against the cold metal, mouth at your ear.
âyou did good today,â he murmurs, almost soft. âyour gonna give me somethinâ in return, baby?â
you nod against his shoulder, the âRâ on your ankle catching the streetlight.
âwords, baby.â
âyes, daddy,â you whisper.
he hums, pleased, and he shoves you into the back seat first, climbs in after, and slams the door so hard the car rocks. tinted windows turn the parking-lot lights into smears of orange. youâre still catching your breath when he fists the front of your little skirt, yanks you across the leather until youâre straddling his lap.
âbeen hard since you walked out in that last set,â he mutters, already undoing his belt with one hand. the clink of metal is loud in the quiet. âget on your knees.â
thereâs barely room, but you make it work, sliding down between the seats, knees digging into the carpet. he doesnât help, just watches you with that lazy, entitled stare while he pulls himself out. thick, flushed, already leaking at the tip like heâs been thinking about this for hours.
you wrap your fingers around him and he exhales through his nose, head tipping back against the headrest.
âno teasing,â he warns, voice rough. âyou know what i want.â
you do. you lean in, take him as deep as you can on the first go, cheeks hollowing. he groans low, hips twitching, then threads his fingers through your hairânot gentle, but not brutal either. just holding you there while you work him, tongue flat against the underside, spit already slicking your chin.
the carâs still in park, engine rumbling. he thumbs the start button with his free hand, shifts into drive like itâs nothing, one palm on the wheel, the other guiding your head. you feel the rover roll forward, tires crunching over the speed bumps, and your stomach flips.
âkeep going,â he says, casual as ever, merging into traffic. âred light in thirty seconds. better make me come before it turns green.â
itâs insane. people in the next lane could look over. but his grip tightens, forcing you lower, and you stop thinking. just the taste of him, the way he fills your mouth, the little grunt he lets out every time you swallow around him.
he drives one-handed, knuckles white, breathing getting jagged. you can feel him swelling, getting close, and he starts muttering filth under his breathâhow good your throat feels, how you were made for this, how every girl in that mall wished they were you right now.
the light ahead flips to yellow.
âfuckânow, babyââ
you take him all the way down, nose pressed to his pelvis, and he comes hard, hips jerking, spilling hot and thick while the car idles at the red. his hand in your hair goes soft, almost petting, thumb rubbing messy circles at your scalp while he rides it out.
when heâs done he tucks himself away, zips up, then hauls you up by the armpits like you weigh nothing. youâre a messâlips swollen, mascara smudgedâand he just looks at you for a second, something unreadable in his eyes.
âcâmere,â he says, quieter.
you crawl into his lap again, shaky, and he surprises you by pulling you against his chest. one big hand cups the back of your head, the other sliding under your skirt to rub slow at the small of your back. almost⌠gentle.
âdid good today,â he murmurs into your hair. âreal fuckinâ good.â
the light turns green. he drives with you still in his lap, one arm locked around your waist like a seatbelt, city lights streaking across the windshield.
when you get to the house he carries you inside himself, bags abandoned in the trunk for tomorrow. kicks the bedroom door shut, lays you on the bed like youâre something breakable all of a sudden.
he peels the ruined louboutins off your feet, thumbs the blisters, then crawls up over you. kisses your forehead, your cheek, the corner of your mouthâsoft, slow, nothing like the mall, nothing like the car.
âyou sore?â he asks, voice low.
you nod, throat raw.
he hums, reaches for the nightstand, pulls out that same stupid-expensive balm he bought you last month. warms it between his palms before rubbing it into your feet, your ankles, the little âRâ charm cool against his fingers.
âmy girl,â he says, almost to himself. âdid everything i asked. proud of you.â
itâs the closest he ever gets to sweet. you close your eyes, let him take care of you for once, the ache between your legs already starting again because even when heâs soft like this, you know tomorrow heâll put you right back in your place.