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Marco Bodt Week 2022 Day 5: Dark Marco / Happy Ending

I'll make my own happy ending.

Draco x Y/n

Summary: Draco couldn’t love you in your marriage until he almost loses you.

Warnings: angst, angsty, angst. some fluff. TW: some self-harm imagery pls be careful reading!

The two of you had been married for one year now. You knew it wasn’t a marriage that he wanted, no it was more like one he was forced in to. On the other hand you, well you weren’t really surprised you had been wed to a Malfoy being a pureblooded Slytherin and all. The only thing you didn’t expect was for him to still not want you..

When Draco and yourself got married you were expecting him to be slightly reluctant at first, but you figured you’d win him with your charm over time. Unfortunately that never happened. You inevitably fell for the blonde haired beauty, but he just didn’t reciprocate those feelings even after a year. You’d fight with one another often, mostly over him not being loyal and the way he treated you. But he didn’t care, he just kept breaking your heart a little more each day. Tonight you were expecting just another drunk Draco to stumble through the door to your home.

It was around 11 o’clock now and you were sitting on the sofa with the fire crackling next to you illuminating the pages to your muggle book. You knew Draco was done with work around 7 pm and you knew he was definitely out getting wasted and falling over women that were not you like usual. Every friday night he shows up late, smelling like someone else, and his lips swollen red. He never let any other girls leave noticeable marks on him, thinking you still didn’t know what he was truly up to. Your eyes were drawn away from your book when your front door came swinging open, and an intoxicated Draco Malfoy stumbled in. You rolled your eyes at his appearance, he was noticeably wasted and you could already smell the alcohol coming off of him.

“What are you rolling your eyes about?” Draco said while slurring his words and stumbling to hang up his coat.

You slammed your book shut and rose to your feet, “Merlin Draco, do you think i’m that daft? Your such an ass!” You yelled to him as you tried to make your way past him, but he quickly grabbed your shoulder.

“Y/n, what the hell is your problem now? You are so damn needy and annoying!” he yelled back in to your face and you grimaced at the alcohol stench coming from his breath.

Your eyes were filling with tears but you didn’t want him to see how much his words really did hurt you, “Piss off! You’re drunk Draco, go to bed.” you said while you turned around and headed to the study.

You walked into your study and plopped down at the desk in the middle of the room. You just wanted to be alone right now. You could hear Draco slamming around outside of the door, but you didn’t care. You were so tired, so tired of his harsh words, his lack of decency, his disgusting actions, and just everything at this point. He had no idea just how much he hurt you everyday, and now it’s been a whole year of this and you were just so unbelievably tired.

Draco never understood why you got so upset with him. He assumed you disliked him just as much by the way you acted a lot. He figured you didn’t want to marry him either, he thought you’d never be able to love him, he knew he would break your heart so he made sure you wouldn’t fall for him. But he didn’t know how much he was breaking you already, he had no idea just how in love with him you were.

You had been reading in the study for at least an hour now trying not to consume yourself with bad thoughts. Your head was pounding, and you could feel yourself becoming more and more anxious by the minute. You quickly got up from the desk and made your way to the bathroom. You quietly tip toed past Draco’s sleeping form in your bed, you knew he’d be passed out with how much he drank so he wouldn’t come in. You had a routine for nights like this, nights where you just couldn’t handle everything.

Your bare feet came in contact with the cold tiled floor in your shared bathroom. You flipped on one of the many lights and walked over to your bathroom sink. You pulled open the cabinet under the sink and reached in for the bottle of wine you hid in there. You took it out and popped the seal while you let the large bathtub in the center of the room fill up. You never drank really and Draco knew that was because of how badly your father drank... But sometimes you just needed something to take the edge off. You slipped out of your clothing and into the warm water letting it soothe your skin. Your head was leaning against the edge of the tub and you took a deep breath before you brought the bottle to your lips and began to down some. Waiting for the pain to slowly fade away as you closed your eyes and let your body relax in the warm water.

You opened up your eyes and realized how quickly you had gotten tipsy from the wine, must’ve been because of your empty stomach. Your head was buzzing and your vision was blurred a bit, you only ever drank half a glass at most to take the edge off. But this time the large double bottle you had gotten out was half empty. This was a different type of drunk, and you didn’t like it. You didn’t like how it made your head hurt even more with bad thoughts. You didn’t like how it made your blood burn, how it made your bones numb, and your cheeks stained with hot tears. You hadn’t realized you were quietly sobbing in the tub now, eyes becoming too heavy to keep open anymore. So you let yourself slip down and become submerged in the hot water.

Draco had woken to the sound of your cries and busted into the bathroom to see you almost lifeless inside the tub. He grabbed underneath your arms and pulled you out of the water. His eyes had gazed over the almost empty bottle of wine sitting by the bathtub. His arms were wrapped around your torso as he sat the both of you down against the wall and pointed at your chest with his wand while speaking the reviving spell. Draco was now sitting behind you sobbing as he held your wet body close to his own. Your eyes shot open quickly after and you gasped loudly.

“Y/n!!! Y/n, what the hell were you doing?!! Please look at me!” Draco said as he turned your head to look into his perfect blue eyes.

You felt embarrassed but you knew you owed him an answer, “Draco, this wasn’t meant to happen. I-I just.. Sometimes I can’t handle the pain you know?” you said while stray tears slid down your cheeks.

Draco started to wrap a soft green towel around you,“Love, please tell me what’s going on?” he asked with soft eyes.

You tried to get up but you were too dizzy to stand, “Draco please don’t call me that!” you cried while hitting your fist lightly against his chest. “You don’t mean it! You don’t love me, i’m nothing to you!!” you yelled as he grabbed your arm and you fell into his chest crying.

He looked down at you with silent tears rolling down his own cheeks and softly kissed the top of your wet hair, “Y/n I- I am so fucking sorry. I never wanted to hurt you like this! Merlin I am so stupid!!!” he yelled and you flinched a bit at his tone. “Oh.. no.. no Y/n I- i’d never hurt you like that, and I never meant to hurt you like this.. I thought you’d be better off not loving me, I thought i’d hurt you if I let myself love you and I couldn’t do that.. I’ve wanted you for so long y/n but I thought it was just selfish of me. I figured if I couldn’t let myself love you i’d just live with you but I had no idea it was effecting you like this.” he said as he tilted your chin to look in his eyes again.

“Then why did you do it? Why did you let other women touch you like I should’ve been? Why did you say such harsh things to me?” you said while tears glistened your y/e/c eyes.

Draco looked down at you before answering, “I don’t know. I have no good explanation for you y/n and I know that’s not what you want to here but I just want you to know I’m sorry darling. You are worth so much more, you deserve so much more and I am so sorry I haven’t been giving you that. Your absolutely beautiful inside and out and I couldn’t apologize more for not realizing that in time. You deserve someone so much better y/n.” he said while he pushed a few stray hairs behind your ear.

You shifted in his arms to be completely facing him now, “But that’s the thing.. I don’t want anyone else, even after the things you’ve done I still don’t want someone else. Maybe we haven’t been able to truly love one another the right way but I don’t know Draco.. That doesn’t mean I just want to let you go.” you said to him as you nervously bit your bottom lip.

He reached down to cup your cheeks, “I don’t want to let you go either, honestly I never want to.. But I hurt you when I thought I was doing the complete opposite, I don’t want ever do that again. I don’t want you to feel like the things I did are ok. I want you to know just how important you are.” Draco said.

A stray tear slid down your left cheek, “I don’t want you to either... But I- I’d rather try than regret never knowing what this could really be.” you said while reaching up with your right arm to grab his own.

Within a couple of seconds Draco had smashed his lips on your own, and you felt it. The rush, and the pure infatuation. Draco felt the exact same way.

“Then could we start now?” he said as he pulled away from the kiss.

You gave him a confused look, “What do you mean?” you asked.

He gently placed your hands in his and pulled you to your feet, “Well for starters I am going to get rid of this,” he said while he dumped the rest of the wine bottle down the sink. “Next we’re going to give you a proper bath and then i’ll help you into some of my favorite sweats, & we can lay in each other’s arms for the rest of the night?” he asked you with a loving look on his face.

“I think that’s a perfect way to start.” you said as you smiled back.

“Then take this off and get back in love.” Draco said while he pulled at your towel. You giggled at his gesture and pressed your lips to his soft ones.

He pulled away and caressed your cheek, “I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you darling.”

jay and manny so we start with jay and manny and i'm saying this honestly i actually was in an rp on a message board in like 05 06 and i crackshipped the hell out of them. i had this whole story where circa season 5 manny and jay kind of used each other to get their love interests of the time's jealous. it didn't work since they fell for each other but then fast forward season 7 comes along and what's a new couple? jay and manny. i felt like maybe idk kinda pissed. sure it started out as a sham relationship like i remember but then it ended up working out. so my first impression of them wasn't really great. i was hoping it go in a different direction. at the time i was gunning for emma/jay also, i liked cranny too much at the time. i ended up writing a fanfiction called backtrack where my full plan was for a cranny endgame but i ended up backing out of it when i really started to ship them after writing their (almost) breakup. shortly after, i legit re-watched and fell in love with janny and found them super adorable and i love how he believed in her and her gift of acting when her asshat of a drama teacher and boyfriend mick was verbally absuing her.

jay was the first boyfriend who really appreciated the hell out of manny and was good to her and did a lot of things to help her advance her career and do what she loves and he loves doing it because he makes her legit happy. i find them awesome and i can't believe my salty ass didn't love them all the while! things change and so do opinions and i imagine they're still together today. possibly engaged and happy. he has his own garage and manny has a semi- successful career possibly. joey and caitlin growing up as a teen i didn't know who they were but that they had to be together when i watched for the first time.

i got curious and i looked into their history and started watching their early days but i can't really remember what i liked about them then, i'm actually doing a degrassi junior high/high rewatch with my boyfriend (who is a first time watcher) and we haven't reached that chapter yet.

i personally like jaitlin and used to think they were gonna get married. the older i get the less i think that's the case. yes, they were robbed. yes kevin smith got in the way. but we also have to remember a lot changes when your high school sweetheart is also a journalist/reporter and joey who owns a used car lot has his life pretty much rooted and caitlin never really grew her own it wouldn't be fair to caitlin to always be gone and joey to be at home. they were doing two totally different things in their life. she bought his house but that didn't mean that would put a bandaid on all their problems. let's face it, caitlin loves joey and she wanted to give their relationship a chance because she loved him and joey was still kicking himself for their big breakup in 1992? because it was his fault. then he moved on but 'never really left'. of course he missed her and felt guilty. that doesn't mean they should be together, he hurt her and burned her trust. maybe that's another struggle caitlin has in relationships because of her true heartbreak with joey? maybe that's a stretch but she finally found the JERKIEST OF JERKS to be her fiance. caitlin as a adult is a mess but she really loved joey and she figured years later the best they could do for each other is to be friends. i guess spike and caitlin got close after high school and joey and snake remained close but it didn't seem like they crossed paths until the big reunion so seeing her for the first time in almost 10 years scared him. did he really think she'd be still burning angry at him but he was definitely uncomfortable with the notion of caitlin getting engaged to somebody who wasn't him. his words didn't match his body language of someone who was 'over' it. they even joked about their failed engagement at spike and snake's wedding and dare i say they were totally flirting. it seemed like maybe they could've been more. in their case no matter how many arrangements, flights, videos and visits their relationship is never gonna work the way it did when they were just two kids attending degrassi. when you grow up, you tend to grow apart for better or for worse and these two were headed for the altar but we all know how this ended up. for a long time joey longed (and most guys his age) feel like high school was some of the best times of their lives and also the worst.

i know they badly wanted it to work, and were having a good run at being a long distance relationship and while their fight was kind of lazy writing but ultimately i think they dropped the ball with jaitlin because why bring them back if they were gonna break them up again? i always used to use that as my i love jaitlin argument that they were each others first loves that doesn't always equate to true love i have a special place for them even though i'm not so keen on thinking they'd ever reunite. if i were in joey's shoes i'd move on. i can't help but wonder has caitlin given up on finding a lasting relationship after that jesse/ellie debacle. i think caitlin is lost but she still deserves to find someone even though i believe that joey will likely move on, marry, date whatever that girl who he moved with but i don't know if he'd ever forgive himself for what happened with caitlin but it's kind of realistic unfortunately they didn't last forever. i recall being super super angry when i was 14 'cause it kind of gave me hope that all those years could go by and you can cross paths with an ex boyfriend or former flame and it still won't work out. some people who are exes should just stay apart. too long didn't read? i used to believe that joey and caitlin could be together and endgame, i mean why bring em back if they were just gonna break 'em up? then adulthood happened. ashley and jimmy alrighty so as a young teen i thought they and spaige were like the epitome of high school romance and they'd be together forever. back when eight months seemed like an eternity lol but their second whirl at a relationship after their brutal break up ended and that should've been their end or after the first split at ashley's party. remember when she wrote their breakup in a sad gothic twist in his YEARBOOK. what about how he was creeped out instead of intrigued by her 'love song'. either way, despite everything she comes back to town and instead they go out for a third time i found it underwhelming. back then i wanted them to work out but they bored me to death quite frankly in seasons 6 and 7 . in rewatches they were constantly bickering and didn't seem to have much in common aside from the same friend group. i used to like them and i'm not sure why they were that readymade ship that we introduced to early on but back then everything was so serious now we know different. plus ashley was devoid of personality and was simply jimmy's transportation when he was wheelchair bound. then the final straw you know the whole cd thing the show dragged out their break up for too long. marco and dylan so i like marco and marco and dylan isn't fair to marco.

we all kind of knew it wasn't gonna last right? i mean dylan is significantly older than marco and graduated when marco was a sophomore or something but then he cheated on marco and pretty much broke his heart. i didn't think dylan was into or invested in the relationship as much as marco was. marco was in love.

lets face it tho it's not like marco had any other choices. dylan was the only gay guy in the show so for all intens if he was gonna fall for someone it'd be him.

it's hard to watch marco and dylan because dylan reminds me of my first love who was always jerking with my feelings. long story short we were never like officially official but he'd come around right when i thought i had moved on, play with my emotions and leave me again. it went on a few years before i finally gave up on him and ceased communication. i guess that's a bias but it just gives me this impression that i cared way more about that person than he did of me and it rings true for marco and dylan who ran away to be on a hockey team and leave poor marco with the fall out. not a good guy. paige and alex i really don't ship paige and alex.

i guess if were talking teams i'm team alex she worked hard at the relationship and paige was cruel and hurtful to alex. alex was highkey invested and paige didn't care about alex period. if she did care about alex, she had a shoddy way of showing it.

she was always dogging her. making her feel like nothing or dirt or she didn't have a future all those sort of comments and alex looked after paige and she does one thing paige doesn't like? newsftlash paige can't get what she wants all the time she goes bitchin and always saying mean things to alex. paige was cruel and would really say some awful shit. alex isn't a punching bag and didn't deserve that. near the end sure alex could've helped paige more with that job and didn't have to wear the dress or didn't even do what she told paige she'd handle but i don't like that paige priortizes her shit over alex's shit. i really disliked how paige treated alex who she really liked and dated for a time. i truly hope alex found love in ajax that wasn't like whatever the relationship she had with paige that was pretty much shit. she didn't deserve that idc what people say that was such a horrible relationship and a bad example of how couples should treat one another

Ron: How dumb does he think you are?