i don’t talk much these days

some days, i don’t have the words for what i’m feeling. so i borrow someone else’s. in a song. in a line that hits too hard to be random.

i sit with my headphones on volume low like i’m afraid to shatter the silence that’s holding me together.

i don’t talk much these days. not because i have nothing to say but because music says it better.

a verse knows my ache. a bridge catches my breath. a chorus reminds me i’m not the only one who feels too much and says too little.

The stars don’t speak the same language here. They hum in frantic tones, almost like they’re trying to shun me or maybe welcome me. It’s hard to tell anymore. The instruments say I’ve been adrift for 213 cycles, but time feels elastic. I sleep in fragments and wake in echoes.

Sometimes I think I can still smell Earth, the smell of grass, raindrops, electricity before a storm, but it vanishes when I open my eyes. Out here, air tastes like metal and memory.

The last transmission came weeks ago. Static, then silence. I replay it every night, as if I could will meaning back into the noise.

This hall that never ends—

lined with doors that only lead to dead ends.

My trust fractures with each step I take;

the farther I run,

the deeper I break.

I slip into rooms,

quietly stashing away feelings

in corners and closets,

waiting for silence

to feel like safety.

Then—

I run again.

Down the endless hall,

chasing an end

that’s always

just

Hey everyone!

Guess who's back, back again?

Yep, it's me!

After a long hiatus (sorry about that!), I'm dusting off the keyboard and diving back into the world of words.

Get ready, because starting Monday I'll be posting something new daily! Think of it as your daily dose of my stories... if you like them.

So, follow along, reblog, and tell me what you think! I'm excited to share what I've been working on.

See you on Monday and stay tuned! 😉

¡Hola a todos!

¿Adivinen quién ha vuelto, vuelto, vuelto?

¡Sí, soy yo!

Después de un largo paréntesis (¡lo siento mucho!), estoy desempolvando el teclado y sumergiéndome de nuevo en el mundo de las palabras.

¡Preparaos, porque a partir del lunes publicaré algo nuevo a diario! Pensad en ello como su dosis diaria de mis historias… si os gustan.

Así que, Seguidme, rebloguead y decidme qué os parece. Estoy emocionada de compartir en lo que he estado trabajando.

"Where is the line between art and not art"

I've seen a trend of AI taking over everything. It takes over jobs, machines, and thinking. But recently, (but also for a little while), AI has been taking over art. People hate that AI is taking over art and that's very understandable. People also seem to argue about what is art and what isn't. That's not including AI.

The line between art and not art is simply passion. It's the human heart. Anything can be art, so long as it's made by a human. The Oxford Dictionary defines art as being "The expression or application of creative skill and imagination..." Then goes on to list types of art. What makes AI not art, is the fact that AI cannot have an imagination. It cannot express itself. That's what's so beautiful and artistic about the human mind. It has a passion and a need for expression. To be oneself.

Another topic of this question is, is modern art, art? I've seen many instances where people were angry that art was simply a blue square on a painting. But I think otherwise. Sometimes art is not what's immediately seen. Sometimes art is only for the one who made it. But it's still art. You see a blue square? The artist saw something greater. If you asked that artist why they painted what they did, they'd probably tell you something amazing. At least I'd think so.

Is bad art not art? No. Bad art is absolutely art. The artists expressed themselves in a way no one else had. Because that's their expression. That's their mind and that's what makes it unique. Art is art, whether people like it or not. Whether it is perceived as good. (What is good art anyway? Is it what you like? What about what the artist likes?) It is one's imagination. It is one's expression.

Inspiration. It’s that spark that every writer, artist, and creator chases. We often imagine it as a sudden burst of clarity, a lightning bolt that strikes us out of nowhere, compelling us to create. But here’s the hard truth: if you wait for inspiration to come, you’ll likely be waiting for a very long time.

I used to be one of those who believed that the best work comes from a place of sudden inspiration or intense infatuation. I would sit on my sofa, staring at a blank computer screen, waiting for the perfect idea to arrive. Days, sometimes weeks, months, or even years would pass without a single word written. Even while wasting my time, I knew that waiting for inspiration was just an excuse for not doing the work.

Create Inspiration from Your Own Life

Sometimes, you must create inspiration yourself or carve it from your own life. The world around you is full of stories waiting to be told, lessons waiting to be shared, and emotions waiting to be expressed. Here are some ways to cultivate your own inspiration:

1. Draw from Personal Experiences

Your life is a rich with experiences that can serve as a wellspring of inspiration. Personally, I have drawn significant inspiration from being deaf and navigating recent physical disabilities, as well as having gone through fertility issues, miscarriages, and mental health challenges. These experiences, both the uplifting and the challenging, have provided me with a deep reservoir of emotions and narratives that I attempt to weave into my writing.

Think about the challenges you’ve faced, the victories you’ve celebrated, the love you’ve felt, and the losses you’ve endured. Write about these moments with honesty and vulnerability; don’t sugarcoat them. Authenticity is key to connecting with your readers. Not only will this practice help you find your voice, but it will also resonate with readers who have shared similar experiences.

2. Observe the World Around You

Inspiration can be found in the most mundane places. Take a walk around your neighborhood (or for those like me, a limp), sit in a park, visit a lake, lose yourself in nature or in another’s art. Try people-watch for a while, imagine conversations or dramas they’re facing, and try to notice the small details that often go unnoticed. The world is full of stories waiting to be told, and all you need to do is pay attention.

3. Set a Routine

Honestly, this has been one of the most challenging aspects for me. Managing unmedicated ADHD can be quite demanding. Creativity is rarely about waiting for inspiration but rather about cultivating it daily. The reality is, creativity thrives on routine. Set aside time each day to write, even if it’s just for a few minutes. The more you engage in writing regularly, the more you’ll notice inspiration flowing naturally. It’s about committing to the process consistently and putting in the effort, even on days when motivation and energy are lacking.

4. Engage with Other Creative Works

Read books, watch movies, listen to music, and visit art galleries. Engaging with other forms of creative expression can spark new ideas and provide fresh perspectives. Don’t be afraid to take inspiration from others and incorporate it into your own work. Creativity is often a collaborative process, even if you’re working alone. Just remember, there’s a huge difference between inspiration and plagiarism, so make sure you’re on the right side of the line.

5. Embrace the Process, Not Just the Outcome

Focusing solely on the outcome can stifle creativity. Instead, try to embrace the process of writing itself. Allow yourself to make mistakes, write poorly, and experiment with different styles and genres. The act of writing is a journey, and it’s through this journey that you often find the most profound inspiration.

Practical Tips to Keep Writing

Here are some additional practical tips to help you keep writing, even when inspiration seems elusive:

Set Specific Goals: Whether it’s writing a certain number of words each day or completing a chapter each week, having specific goals can help keep you on track.

Find a Writing Community: Surround yourself with other writers who can offer support, feedback, and encouragement. Join a writing group, participate in workshops, or connect with other writers online. I know this one’s not easy for a lot of creative types, myself included; being creative is often isolating, and it’s hard to break out of that.

Keep a Journal: Use a journal to jot down ideas, thoughts, and observations. It can be a valuable resource when you’re struggling to find inspiration.

Take Breaks: Sometimes, stepping away from your work can give you the clarity you need. Take breaks, go for a walk, play with your children or pets. Engage in a different activity for a bit to refresh your mind.

Be Kind to Yourself: Writing is hard work, and remembering to be kind to yourself is sometimes hard. As creatives, we are often our own worst critics. Celebrate your achievements, no matter how small, and don’t be too hard on yourself when things don’t go as planned.

Conclusion

Inspiration is not something you wait for; it’s something you create. By drawing from your own life, observing the world around you, setting a routine, engaging with other creative works, and embracing the process, you can cultivate your own inspiration and keep writing consistently.