#dad!nct

“Haechan, ready for makeup please.” He hears a manager call in the background.

“Jisung go, please.” He calls back, not even bothering to turn around. The youngest rolls his eyes as he stands up to get his makeup done anyway. The manager frowns, but lets it go this time.

Donghyuck sighs and checks his phone. No new messages from you. The last message you sent was:

think we’re close!

To which, he replied:

ok baby, be safe and call me if you have any trouble

No update since then, and that was 10 minutes ago. He sighs again, anxiety bubbling in his chest. What if you got lost? Unlikely, since Donghyuck asked a staff member to escort you to the dressing room. He was strongly discouraged to leave since the concert starts in less than a few hours- if he could meet you himself, he would’ve. What if something happened? Donghyuck knows the cell reception isn’t great inside the venue. He bites his lip as anxiety eats at him.

However, it all dissipates when he sees two figures walking down the hallway. Relief washes over him and a smile breaks out onto his face.

You’re both coming down the hallway quite slowly. Little legs can only take you so far! Once you’ve come closer to view, he sees you’re slightly leaning over so your hand can hold your three-year-old daughter’s as she puts all her focus into walking.

Donghyuck can’t take it anymore. He officially steps out of the dressing room, much to the manager’s dismay. He jogs to meet you both halfway, scooping his daughter into his arms.

She squeals in joy when she sees her father, wrapping her small arms around his neck when they embrace. He peppers her face with kisses; the child’s laughter rings through the hallway.

“My baby! I missed you so much!” Donghyuck coos. Your daughter hides her face in the crook of his neck, feeling safe in her father’s arms. “Did you miss Appa?” He asks. His smile grows even more when he feels her nod against his skin.

With one last kiss to the top of her head, he turns to you. The sight of you makes him melt. You’re adorning a soft smile that can only be described as admiration for your husband.

“Hi pretty.” He says before leaning in to press a kiss to your lips.

“Hi baby.” You reply, equally as soft. Donghyuck moves his love-filled gaze to your chest, where your four-month-old is wrapped against your warmth. His head peeks over the top with a tuft of hair that he surely got from his father.

Donghyuck feels tears gathering in his eyes as he gazes down at his son. The arm that’s not supporting his daughter against his side raises so he can gently touch his son’s head. The baby slightly stirs at the feeling of his hand but stays asleep nonetheless.

“I’m surprised he’s asleep.” Donghyuck comments softly.

“Me too.” You giggle, “He gets that from you.”

At this, Donghyuck beams with pride. Any comment, big or small, addressing a similarity between him and his son causes a wave of pride and joy to wash over him.

Suddenly, he realizes something is missing. “Where’s the staff?” He asks, protectiveness evident in his voice. He remembers specifically asking if someone could help his family backstage since he wasn’t allowed to go to you himself.

“Oh, he’s getting the baby bag from the car. Don’t worry, he told us exactly where to go.” You reassure your husband.

He frowns but still takes your hand and leads you back to the dressing room.

The chaos from the dressing room can be heard far before you reach the door. It makes you smile- you can hear Chenle’s laugh and Jisung going over the choreography with Mark one more time.

However, it all comes to a quiet when you walk in.

Oh.

You had forgotten it would be the members’ first time meeting your son. The impeccable timing of giving birth in the middle of the tour allowed only Donghyuck to travel back home. It was only for a few weeks but, at least he could be there for a little bit.

Your grip tightens around Hyuck’s hand, letting him know you’re feeling nervous with all these eyes on you at once.

He knows, and thinks quickly. “Minseo-a, can you say hi to everyone?”

Your daughter peeks and lifts her head; she assesses the room before saying Hi in the way that only a child can have the entire room melting in awe.

That causes the chaos to swing back into action. A few members are still in hair and makeup, but the ones who are finished look at Donghyuck’s family, waiting for the green light.

Donghyuck checks in with you first. Minseo is still in his arms, now more aware as she takes in the atmosphere of the room- so many people doing so many things, she’s fascinated.

“You feel okay honey?” He asks you in a soft voice only reserved for you and your two babies. You nod.

“Do you wanna take Minhyung out?” You confirm with your husband, already reaching undo the wrap while holding your baby’s body against yours firmly. He nods. Not only does he want to show off his baby boy, he’s also eager to hold him again.

He sets down Minseo and tells her to go bother her Uncle Jaemin, who’s currently getting his hair styled. She giggles and toddles off. Then, Donghyuck helps you unwrap your baby, finally gathering him into his arms. Minhyung stretches and opens his eyes slowly.

“You have a good nap, buddy?” Hyuck talks softly to his son, not wanting to disturb him too much as he’s still waking up to the world. You watch with fond eyes, though feeling relieved to be free of Minhyung’s weight.

Another minute passes and Hyuck feels like he’s ready to share his son with the world.

The dressing room couch seats Renjun, Mark, Jisung and Chenle- four pairs of eyes that are eager to meet your new baby.

“Ok everyone.” Donghyuck approaches them, “This is Minhyung.”

Renjun stands up first, smile bright as he fully looks at your son. “Wow, he’s beautiful.” He says in awe, looking at your husband and then at you.

“Thank you.” You say softly, suddenly feeling bashful in front of friends you’ve known for years.

Soon enough, Donghyuck is surrounded by four NCT Dream members all amazed by the new addition to your family. Like before, the father beams with pride.

Their bubble is broken when a manager calls for Donghyuck.

“Haechan, we really need you for hair and makeup now. You’re the last member.”

“Okay, okay.” He relents.

“I wanna hold the baby!” Chenle volunteers. Your husband shoots the younger member a pointed look. But, Chenle doesn’t back down, still looking at Minhyung with hopeful eyes.

“Okay, sit down please.”

Chenle promptly takes a seat next to you on the couch, sitting up straight- ready for a baby to be placed in his arms.

Donghyuck walks over slowly, gaze set on Minhyung the entire time, then kneels down in front of the younger member.

“Remember to support his head.” Chenle nods. “And both hands on him at all times.” He nods again. “And please stay seated the whole time.” Nodding again. “Don’t move too much because-“

“Honey,” You interrupt, an amused smile on your face, “He’s got it.”

“Right.” Donghyuck murmurs more to himself than anyone else. He hesitantly places his son in his member’s arms.

Chenle is perfect, not a sound comes out of Minhyung as he’s held in the arms of a stranger. The younger member beams, looking at Mark who shoots him a proud smile too.

“Okay, I’ve got to go. I’ll be back soon.” Donghyuck practically warns Chenle.

“Don’t worry. I’m right here if anything happens.” You reassure him. He presses a quick kiss to your forehead before heading off to finally get ready for the show.

The four members gush over your son while you take a backseat. You’re glad to do it. After months of handling Minhyung practically by yourself, you’re happy to let another take care of him for a minute. You’d never tell Donghyuck though- you know him, and you know the guilt would be consuming, even if you reassured him time and time again. However, the time off he’ll have after these last shows makes up for every missed moment while he’s been gone.

Minhyung is passed from Chenle to Renjun and finally to Jisung, who’s practically trembling as Renjun places the baby into his arms. You’re not worried though- you know Jisung would never drop your baby.

You and Mark catch up- chatting about tour, the new baby, his next album, and everything in between. He still can’t believe you named your son after him. You shake your head at this.

“I’m like honored, for real.” He insists, hands on his heart.

“Really, it was something Hyuck and I decided together. We wanted to name him after someone crucial to our lives- it felt right to name him Minhyung.”

He looks away, staring into the floor, but you still catch the blush on his cheeks. “Thank you, truly.”

Jaemin and Jeno walk into the main room in tandem. Minseo is hanging from Jeno’s bicep in a way that looks like she weighs nothing more than a feather.

The sight makes you smile.

“Having fun Minseo-a?” You call, to which she giggles. Jaemin reaches behind her and gently places her back on the ground.

She does not hesitate, “Uncle Nana, can we play horsey?”

Knowing the member’s inability to say no to your daughter, you step in. “Minseo, your Uncles need to save their energy for the big concert tonight.” She looks at the ground and frowns. “How about we color for a bit? Then, you can play with them another time.”

She looks up at the two tall men, “Color together?”

They nod, and shoot you a grateful smile before following your daughter to your bag where her coloring book is kept.

Minhyung stirs just a little, but just enough to send Jisung into a panic. You quickly take him from his arms.

“What’s wrong, hm? Are you hungry?” Minhyung whimpers and waves his arms a little.

“Okay, okay.” You coo, and walk toward your baby bag.

The Dream members watch you in awe. Who knew Donghyuck’s life would turn out this way? Surely not the man himself.

“I’m so happy for him.” Renjun admits, sparkling eyes move from you to Minseo in the corner with Jaemin and Jeno. Other members nod in agreement.

“He’s meant to be a dad.” Jisung adds on.

Right on queue, Donghyuck comes back, walking briskly into the room. First thing he spots is you dealing with a whimpering Minhyung. He shifts his gaze to the same four members on the couch.

“Hwang Renjun did you do this?” He can’t resist teasing his members, even in dad mode.

The member in question rolls his eyes, “Ah, Lee Donghyuck, you know I did not.”

He shoots Renjun a grin before walking over to you.

“Everything okay, honey?”

“All good, just getting his bottle ready. Actually, can you hold him for a minute?”

You quickly place your son in his arms before rummaging through the baby bag to prepare the bottle.

Behind you, you can hear your husband try to comfort Minhyung, who is becoming fussier by the minute.

In no time, you’ve got the bottle ready which you hand to Hyuck and Minhyung accepts instantly.

You finally look at your husband who is all ready for the stage. Hair, makeup, outfit- he looks stunning.

“Hi handsome.” You comment, causing him to look up from Minhyung. When he meets your gaze, a shy smile graces his lips.

“Do you like it?” He asks.

“I love it. You’re so handsome baby.” You insist, causing his smile to grow.

As Donghyuck feeds your son, he goes to check on Minseo, who is still coloring peacefully with her Uncles, and chats with the other members while they wait for their call time.

“Alright,” Their stage manager enters the room, “15 minutes until showtime. Let’s get mic-ed up and then to your marks for the opening number.”

The members stand up and get ready to leave the dressing room. Jaemin and Jeno help Minseo clean up her coloring book and markers. Donghyuck saunters over to where you are, taking his time- every second counts with his family.

You take the bottle and place it in the bag, and when you turn around, you’re met with the most endearing sight. Your husband kneels on the floor, holding Minhyung in one arm while the other one wraps around Minseo as she leans into him.

“You have their headphones right?”

“I do,” You confirm.

“And you’ll come back here right after the show right?”

“We will, honey.”

You take Minhyung from his arms so you can wrap him around yourself again, your husband stepping in to help. Then, Donghyuck takes Minseo into his arms to give her a proper hug.

“See you in a little bit okay, my angel? Cheer loudly for appa okay?”

He lets go after a while and turns to you.

“Good luck honey! Have fun out there, you’re gonna do amazing.” You cup his cheek and lean in for a quick kiss, not wanting to mess up his makeup.

“I love you.”

“Love you too.”

“Bye bye!” He waves as he hesitantly steps out of the dressing room and toward the stage.

The same staff member as before comes to help you to your seats. The venue is lit up in green light from the lightsticks; your daughter watches in awe.

Headphones on and seated- you’re ready for the show.

Your missing piece is backstage, getting ready to perform harder than ever now that his three favorite people are in the audience.

Your eyes widen a little, ‘oh, of course not, I’m sorry.’

Mark chuckles, ‘it’s okay, it’s important he gets to know his mama. I’ll keep an eye on him while you nap, okay? I’ll wake you if he needs anything.’

‘Okay,’ you sit up slightly. The handover is awkward, it being the first time you’d done it, but eventually Mark has the tiny baby in his arms, kissing your forehead before murmuring a ‘goodnight, I love you,’ and settling into the armchair beside your bed.

‘Love you. Please keep him here,’ you mumble, turning onto your side and closing your eyes.

‘I will, don’t worry sweetheart.’

Mark is quiet for a few minutes, gently yet stiffly rocking the baby back and forth, examining his face and all the details. The baby looked so much like him, and he knew it, feeling an enormous sense of pride at the boy’s identical nose and eyes, that he’d seen in baby photos of his own over the years. Once he’s sure you’re asleep, he begins to talk to his son, wishing the infant to get used to his voice.

‘Hey, baby boy,’ Mark begins, lightly shushing the baby when he fusses, ‘it’s okay, everything is just fine.’

You were just on the verge of falling asleep when you hear Mark’s voice, heart warming at the sound of the love of your life talking to your firstborn.

‘I didn’t even know you existed a few hours ago, but God, I love you. More than anything. You’re so perfect, such a beautiful baby, all from your mama. She did so well, didn’t she? Carried you for all that time… I promise I’ll be here for you, always. Everything I do from now on is for you and your mummy/mommy.’

You still lay awake, eyes filled with hot tears at the pure love that overcomes you. 

Mark is silent for a few moments, staring back into his son’s deep brown eyes, ‘I promise I won’t let you down. I love you, son.’

renjun

This was the moment Renjun had been anticipating since the moment you found out you were pregnant. He’d been terrified at the time, the pregnancy was unexpected and Renjun wasn’t sure he was ready or capable of being a father. At the same time, Renjun’s thoughts were filled with questions and worries about your baby. What would the baby look like? How big would the baby be? Would they come during the day or the night? But his biggest fear of all, was that your baby wouldn’t like him. He didn’t have the best luck with other member’s babies; generally they would cry and protest in his arms. He tried to prevent this, doing any and every bonding exercise with your bump that he could think or read about, hoping that when your son arrived he would feel comfortable and safe with him.

‘Jun?’ You’d been holding the baby for over an hour, having some skin to skin and your first feed. Renjun froze a little at the expectant look on your face, like he knew what you were about to ask.

‘You should hold him.’

Renjun blinks, ‘are you sure? you’re bonding with hi-‘

‘Jun,’ you repeat, softly, ‘he’s your son. He’s not going to hate you. Besides, I want to see my boys together.’

‘Okay,’ Renjun reaches down for the baby on your chest, cringing when the baby whines and fusses, ‘hey, don’t cry, please don’t cry.’

Renjun rocks and bounces him awkwardly but to no avail, and he sends you a look screaming for help.

‘It’s ok, Jun,’ you smile, ‘keep talking to him.’

‘He doesn’t like me,’ Renjun begins to panic, ‘he was happy with you, maybe you should-‘

‘Junie,’ you retort softly, ‘he just doesn’t like that he’s been moved. Keep talking to him, he’ll know your voice.’

Renjun gives himself a mental pep talk, slightly relaxing when he looks at the face of his baby boy.

‘It’s okay, it’s just me, I’m your daddy.’

You give Renjun an encouraging smile, and so he continues, ‘I really hope you like me from now on. Most babies don’t.’

The baby is gradually calming down at his father’s voice, so Renjun keeps talking.

‘Good boy, do you know my voice? I tried to talk to you as much as possible while you were in there so I hope you recognise it.’

The baby is now settled, staring up at his father with big brown eyes. Your heart melts at Renjun’s wide, toothy grin.

‘He likes me,’ he says to you, before turning back to the baby, ‘I think you look like a Tengfei.’

‘I like that name,’ you hum, ‘Huang Tengfei it is.’

Renjun’s smile gets impossibly wider, pride filling his chest knowing he’d just named his firstborn baby boy.

‘I love you so much, Huang Tengfei.’

jeno

You had never felt so at peace. You had just given birth to your first child, a daughter Moonbyeol in your bedroom at home a few hours earlier. Already, Moonbyeol was a very chilled baby, rarely fussing or crying. She was perfectly happy just laying on your chest, staring back at you. Jeno had been laying beside you for several hours now, engaging in hushed conversation with you about your newborn, all while unable to take his eyes off her. It hadn’t even crossed his mind that he hadn’t properly held his daughter, as you’d been snuggled together so close. As time passed, you grew more and more exhausted, the energy you had spent during the birth beginning to weigh you down. 

‘How long has it been since she fed?’ you wonder aloud, ‘the midwife said every three hours..’

‘I think it was at six,’ Jeno says, ’so three and a bit hours ago.’

‘She needs more,’ you mumble, sighing deeply, already pulling your top down to give Moonbyeol access. Jeno helps you guide her head to your chest.

‘Agh,’ the pain is sharp when she latches, and Jeno kisses and rubs your hair in encouragement.

‘You’re doing so well, look at how well she eats.’

‘It hurts so much Jen,’ Jeno’s heart hurts at the look on your face.

‘I know, I know,’ Jeno frowns, ‘it’ll get better, with time.’

‘I hope so,’ you say, ‘I feel sore all over.’

‘You’ve been so incredible,’ Jeno praises, ‘we did so well with her.’

‘Yeah, we did,’ you grin, the and the two of you settle into small talk while Moonbyeol eats. After some time, she pulls away, ready to be burped.

‘I don’t want to move,’ you admit, ‘too tired.’

‘Hey, I’ll take her,’ Jeno offers, ‘you can stay in bed. Plus, I.. I haven’t got to hold her yet.’

‘Oh. I’m sorry.’

‘It’s okay, don’t be silly,’ Jeno presses a kiss to your cheek, ‘I’ve been so close this whole time. You should get some rest.’

You suddenly realise how drained and exhausted you truly were, eyes and body heavy with fatigue.

‘I think I probably should,’ you mumble tiredly, ‘Moonie, daddy’s going to get all that horrible air up for you.’

It takes perhaps a little longer than it should have, but eventually the baby is successfully passed into Jeno’s arms.

‘Hey, Moonie,’ Jeno rests her on his shoulder, gently patting her back, ‘you’re so tiny.’

You move to lay down on your side and rest your eyes as Jeno talks to your daughter in a hushed voice.

‘You’re so beautiful,’ Jeno meets his daughters eyes, seeing his own staring back at him, ‘look at those brown eyes! So pretty. No boy will ever be good enough for such a beautiful girl.’

Jeno slowly wanders out of your room and into Moonbyeol’s nursery, wanting to give you some peace to sleep.

‘This is your room,’ Jeno turns the baby in his arms so that she’s facing the majority of the room, ‘this is where you’ll sleep, where you’ll play… I hope you like the way we decorated. If you don’t, we can change it later.’

Moonbyeol’s eyes flicker around the room, although her expression is blank.

‘Look, Moonie,’ he walks towards her unused crib, looking at the silver mobile that hangs over it, white and yellow moon and stars hanging down, ‘it’s like you! You’re our little moon star.’

Moonbyeol burps at that exact moment, and Jeno chuckles, not sure whether he should be offended or not.

‘Well, that says what you think of that.’

haechan

Donghyuck naturally comes across as a conceited and cocky person, you know that’s just his humour. He’s cheeky and bold, but at the same time down to earth and a total sweetheart. He acted quite similarly when it came to his impending fatherhood, on the outside appearing as though he was completely confident, that he would take being a father in his stride. But on the inside, he was terrified. Sometimes he would catch sight of you, his pregnant wife, and would feel a deep sense of dread alongside the rush of love that would bubble up in his chest. When you went into labour while eating dinner together, he thought he was going to be sick, the crashing realisation that this was it. You’d done so well, going through hours of contractions before your son began to struggle, and you were taken into an emergency c-section. You were crying softly as they prepared you for the surgery. Donghyuck emerged from the bathroom in his scrubs to see you laying there, and you immediately you’d reached out for him. In that moment, he knew how much you needed him, how much both of you needed him. In that moment he knew he’d do anything to be the best father and husband.

Your son Dalgun was eventually delivered through the C-section, laying on your chest for quite some time as you were stitched up and wheeled back to your hospital room. Donghyuck hates the look of discomfort on your face as you try to move around on the bed and feed. You’re exhausted, in pain and in need of a good rest, but you had to stay awake for your son.

Donghyuck tries to make himself useful, keeping the hospital room tidy and making sure your water cup was filled and you hadn’t bled too heavily onto the pad beneath you.

Part of him aches to hold his baby boy. He so desperately wants to just reach out and take the baby into his arms, shower him in all of the love he had to give. But at the same time, he didn’t want to. He was frightened that his son would be unsettled with him, that he would do something astronomically wrong like drop him. After some time, the nurse knocks softly on the door, coming to check on your surgery site.

‘Donghyuck,’ you croak, his heart hurting when he sees you laying there, exhausted and in pain with your son on your chest, ‘will you take him?’

‘I-‘ 

‘Hyuck,’ you notice the way he freezes, but he melts and relaxes at your tone, ‘its okay. You’re his daddy. You did so well at the classes.’

Donghyuck shakes himself. You’re vulnerable, you’ve just had invasive surgery and you need him. And he’s terrified of holding his own baby.

‘Okay.’

The nurse helps with the handover as it pains you to lean too far, and suddenly there’s a seven pound baby wriggling around in his arms. Dalgun cries shrilly at being moved, Donghyuck cringing as he wails.

‘Dalgun-ah,’ he clumsily rocks the baby, ‘won’t you be a good boy while mummy/mommy gets looked after? I’m not a stranger, I’m your daddy.’

Donghyuck sways on his feet, soothing Dalgun, ‘your mummy/mommy is so so brave. She is so incredible, Dalgun-ah, she’ll be the best mummy/mommy in the whole world to you, I just know it. And I’ll try my absolute hardest to be the best daddy. I love you.’

jaemin

Jaemin thinks that his daughter’s birth was nothing short of perfect. You had given birth to Chaeyeon in a birthing centre, early in the morning in a birthing pool.

Jaemin had sat right behind you, in his swim shorts, with you between his legs, not even wincing when you near crushed his hands while you pushed. Jaemin had been the one to cut the cord, before the baby was taken away to be weighed and given her first injection.

Jaemin had felt new foreign feeling of resentment towards the nurse, who he knows deep down is just doing her job and ultimately protecting your daughter from disease, but at the same time, she made his baby girl cry.

Chaeyeon is bought back to you, now with a band-aid covering her injection site. Jaemin holds you in his arms, resting his chin on your shoulder and just soaking in your daughters face. For some time, the two of you get used to Chaeyeon, taking in her appearance and mannerisms and sounds. Jaemin doesn’t even really care how dirty the water is.

‘Y/N? Why don’t we get you cleaned up a little?’ the nurse suggests, and you’re more than happy to be helped out of the pool and herded into the shower in the conjoining bathroom. Another nurse had held Chaeyeon as Jaemin carried you bridal style into the bathroom and gently setting you down on the shower seat. He hangs around for a few minutes, eyes darting between you and Chaeyeon’s general direction, clearly conflicted as to who to stay with.

‘Go and be with her Jaem,’ you hum.

’Do you need me?’

‘I’m all good here,’ you answer honestly, ‘I think this may be quite gross, anyway.’

‘Okay,’ Jaemin leans over to kiss your cheek, ‘I’ll look after her.’

‘Oh!’ The nurse left in the delivery room is holding the little bundle in her arms, ‘lets go to daddy, shall we?’

Jaemin beams as his baby girl is handed to him for the very first time. His heart feels like it may burst out of his chest as she gurgles, tiny fists waving around above the pink blankets.

‘Oh, angel,’ Jaemin coos, ‘you’re killing me.’

Jaemin knew that this baby in his arms officially completely owned his heart. He knew it was over for him, that there was nothing he would not do for his little girl.

‘You’re such a pretty girl, Chaeyeon,’ his heart aches at her glistening eyes and nose that mirrors his own.

‘You’ll have so much love in your life. You already do. You have so many uncles who are just dying to meet you, you have a godfather who would do anything for you. I.. I would die for you, I love you more than anything in this world.’

Chaeyeon waves her arm around, peeling back the blanket slightly.

‘Oh, you don’t have any clothes on,’ Jaemin brings her over to the changing table, lowering her down as slowly as he possibly can.

‘Which should be your first ever outfit?’ Jaemin sifts through the folded up baby-grows in the small suitcase you’d brought along. He picks out a white one, patterned with little brown teddy bears.

‘Uncle Mark bought you this one,’ Jaemin buttons up the onesie, ‘like I told you, everyone loves you Chae. But not as much as I do!’

Jaemin nuzzles their noses together, before cradling Chaeyeon in his chest, pressing a kiss on top of her head.

‘I love you, angel. I’ll be here for you always.’

chenle

Chenle was the best partner throughout your entire pregnancy. He did absolutely everything for you and your baby’s comfort, fulfilling your every need and wish, whether monetary, physical or emotional. 

It seemed everything had to be perfect, the quality of your care, your baby’s nursery, your birth plans, everything. If you showed any slight indication of discomfort at any point in your pregnancy, Chenle was instantly at your side, going out of his way to somehow alleviate your pain. He was almost jumpy in that sense.

He was strangely calmer than you thought he would be when you went into labour. You had been taken to the hospital where Chenle and his family had naturally made sure you would receive the best treatment, with a spacious private room and a dedicated team of familiar doctors and nurses. You laboured for hours on end. For nearly twenty hours, you’d suffered through some of the most immense pain imaginable, completely supported by Chenle who fusses over you and holds your hand through it all. Frustratingly, you had been dilating excruciatingly slowly, and eventually the doctors decide a c-section would be best for both you and your baby. 

Your beautiful baby girl joined you in the early evening. Chenle was so overcome with love for his daughter. You both knew that she would be his little princess, that he would spoil her rotten and that nobody would ever lay a hand on her. He came up with the name Caihong, meaning rainbow. She was the rainbow that brightened up his life.

When Caihong came out, they had taken her away briefly to be weighed and checked over, before returning her to you.

‘You did so so well,’ Chenle stands as close to you as he can get, still in his scrubs as they stitch you back up, ’she’s beautiful. I can’t believe it.’

‘I’m so tired,’ you laugh, having been awake for the entirety of your labour, ‘she’s ruined me.’

Chenle chuckles, ‘they’re going to wheel you back into the room once they’re done. We’ll turn the lights down. You can nap soon.’

‘M’kay,’ you roll your head back down to look at your baby, ‘she’s perfect.’

’She is,’ Chenle nods, leaning down and pressing kisses into your hair, ‘I love you both so much.’

The first hour with your daughter is so precious. You are taken back to your private room in your bed, Caihong resting on your chest the whole time. You’d done your first feed, burping her while sitting up in your bed. Once you’d finished, the nurses left, and the three of you were alone together for the first time.

‘Are you tired?’ Chenle asks, running a hand through your hair, fussing over you.

‘I’m exhausted,’ you murmur, ‘never been so tired.’

‘Why don’t I take her?’ he suggests, ‘you can lay down and have a nap.’

‘Are you sure?’ the offer is so unbelievably tempting, ‘I don’t want to just leave you on your own.’

‘I’ll be just fine,’ Chenle reassures you, ‘you just fed her. I can change her myself, if she needs you I’ll wake you.’

‘Okay,’ you nod, moving your arms so that Chenle can easily take Caihong from you.

He grunts dramatically as he raises her up, as though he was lifting some massive weight, ‘hi baby girl.’

Chenle holds Caihong in one arm as he helps you lay down comfortably, reclining your bed back down with the remote so you were laying down.

‘Comfortable?’ Chenle checks, rubbing your upper arm with his spare hand.

‘Yes,’ your eyes are already closed, ‘love you, Lele.’

Chenle grins, ‘I love you too.’

As you fall asleep, Chenle slowly does a few laps of the hospital room, rocking Caihong in his arms. Once he’s sure you’re mostly asleep, and that talking won’t disturb you, he speaks to Caihong in a hushed voice.

‘Hi my little angel,’ he stares into her shining brown eyes, absolutely entranced by her, ‘we’ve waited for so long for you. Ever since your uncle had your cousins, I’ve wanted a baby of my own. And now you’re finally here. You’re already so loved, Caihong. I’ll do anything for you.’

Caihong looks at him almost as if she’s listening and understands what he’s saying. Chenle’s heart seizes and threatens to break out of his chest, he loves her so much. 

‘You own my heart, Caihong. Daddy loves you so much.’

jisung

Jisung was the first to hold his baby girl, and although it wasn’t for long, it was a fact he took great pride in. Jisung had completely frozen up when your midwife had asked him if he wanted to deliver the baby. His mouth had dried up, completely unsure of what to say, until he caught your gaze, face slightly screwed up in discomfort, but still encouraging him to say yes. He had taken the midwife’s offer, and under her guidance, caught your baby girl as she came out. Jisung had worried that he would drop her, due to the baby being covered in blood and various bodily fluids, but thankfully he manages to keep her in his grip, holding her up for a few moments before placing her on your chest.

Jisung didn’t get her back for another hour or so, not that he minded. You handled your first hour of motherhood expertly, Chunae was an extremely calm baby who fed easily. She was so intrigued by the both of you, as you both were with her, her brown eyes studying your faces. Jisung had never felt so many overpowering emotions at once. Firstly the feeling of pride that he’d been the one to bring Chunae into the world, and the fact he had a part in creating what he believed to be the most beautiful baby in the whole world. And of course, he felt such an overwhelming and intense love for both you and your baby, after watching you go through hours and hours of labour and delivery in his family home. You had been giving skin to skin for over an hour before you offered the baby to Jisung.

‘Hey, Jisungie,’ he is immediately by your side.

‘Do you need something? Water? Another pillow? The pad changed? Are you in a lot of pain?’

You smile at how flustered and caring he is, shaking your head, ‘no, I’m alright. I just thought you might want to hold her.’

Jisung softens, heart suddenly hammering in his chest, ‘oh, y-yeah. Yeah, of course I’d love to.’

Jisung leans down and gently picks Chunae from your chest, taking a few moments to get her into a good position.

‘Hi baby girl,’ he murmurs, strangely nervous, as though it was somebody else’s child.

‘Ah, good timing,’ Jisung’s mother suddenly enters the room, ‘I made soup for you Y/N.’

‘Oh, amazing, I’m starving,’ you welcome the bowl of hot soup with both hands.

Jisung wanders the room, rocking the slightly gurgling Chunae in his arms as he approaches the bedroom window. He doesn’t really notice you watching him, his thoughts all consumed by Chunae. His mother even points it out, catching your eyes and nodding towards him. 

‘Hi,’ Jisung shakily removes a hand from underneath her to play with her own tiny hand, melting when she curls her hand around his finger.

‘You’re so small,’ he whispered, ‘like a doll. And so well behaved too, you didn’t cry one bit when I picked you up.’

Chunae just looks back up at him, and Jisung gently wipes at the spit collecting at her mouth with a cloth.

‘I promise I’ll look after you angel,’ he nuzzles his nose against hers, ‘no one will ever hurt you. They’ll have to go through me first.’

Jisung suddenly can’t get the image of his baby girl as a teenager out of his head, his getting her heart broken by some worthless teenage boy. He imagines comforting her, giving her encouraging talks and building her confidence back up, utilising the skills he would have learned as a father to his little girl over the years. But for now, he knows nothing, only what he has read in pregnancy and parenting books.

‘I don’t know much,’ Jisung rubs his thumb up and down on her face, ‘but I promise I’ll be the best father I can possibly be for you. I’ll try so hard to do everything that’s right for you. I already love you more than anything in this world.’

Chunae yawns, tiny fists flailing weakly as she does.

‘Am I boring you?’ Jisung chuckles, ’you can’t be tired, not when I’ve just got you.’

‘You should sit down with her,’ you suggest, taking a short break from your soup, ’she’ll fall asleep on you.’

‘I think I may fall asleep also,’ Jisung chuckles, although settling into the armchair near your bed. 

‘Group nap?’ You suggest, your own eyes feeling heavy.