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You knew deep down that this would be your last season playing, feeling the effects on your body after a long career. But you wanted more than anything to make it to one last major tournament with England in the summer, knowing that if you won the world cup then you could retire knowing that you had won everything that you had been able to throughout your career at least once. A lot of these successes and trophies had come with your wife, Renée, the pair of you having played together for most of your senior careers.

Today was one of the last games of the season, and your team had a big game in the title race against Man city at home, you had to admit, playing for the team that is the biggest rival of the team your wife managed was weird, the only time either of you played against each other when Renée was still playing was for your countries, you playing for England and Renée for the Netherlands, and so the first time the teams played each other, there was a bit of tension between you and your wife to begin with, until Olivia, your daughter who was only three at the time, asked why mummy and mamma weren't talking to each other and you both realised how silly it seemed, agreeing that in the future, nothing from football would be brought home, an agreement which lasted about two weeks until you and England beat the Netherlands and you came home after camp, teasing Renée relentlessly, especially when Olivia kept asking to wear her little England shirt with your name and number on the back wherever she went.

"Good luck today babe, I'll see you later," Renée says, kissing you on the head and then picking up Olivia's bag ready to leave.

"Bye-bye mamma, go score goals," Olivia says as she jumps up for a hug.

"Thank you Livvy, be good for mummy yeah and I'll see you both later,"

After another two hugs from Olivia, as always, your daughter never letting you leave before a game without at least three hugs and goodbyes, something which had become almost a pre-match ritual for you. After that you finally leave the house, running a little bit late but not too bad and know that you would be able to make the time up on the way to the training ground.

"Y/n you're late," your captain, Millie, says as you get out of your car when you arrive at the training ground.

"Yeah sorry, Olivia didn't want to say bye this morning," you explained.

"Just get on the bus," Millie says, you just roll your eyes and walk off. You've never really got on with Millie, the pair of you had never fully argued but it was clear neither of you were the others biggest fan.

"You two still at each others throats?" Kiera asks as you sit next to her on the bus.

"She just has a problem with me, she always has, doesn't bother me anymore to be honest,"

"I don't know what her problem is, she isn't like that with anyone else,"

"Yeah, well she isn't the one leading us in goals is she so she can say what she wants," you laugh, putting one airpod in and handing the other to Kiera like you always do before a match.

The journey to the stadium is not too long thankfully due to it being a home game and when you get there you all get off the bus and make your way into the changing room, you and Keira still having your shared playlist playing.

Pre-match preparations go as they always do, the routine comforting before a big important match like this. Once you have all warmed up and had the final team talk from Sonia, it is time to line up in the tunnel and get ready to start the game. You always make an effort to talk to the mascot that is walking out with you, knowing that this could be a little girl or boys biggest dream.

"Hello, what's your name kiddo?" You ask, leaning down to sort out your socks and to be more at the kids level.

"I'm Ava," the little girl responds.

"Hello Ava, it's lovely to meet you, who's your favourite player?"

"Uhm, either you or Hannah," Ava responds.

Before you can respond, the girls in front of you start walking out, so you reach your hand out for Ava to take and then you start to walk out of the tunnel too. After shaking hands with the other team, the mascots all run over to the sideline where their families are all waiting, whilst you are walking towards the team huddle, you make a mental note of where Ava and her parent went to sit, wanting to go over to her after the game, and you have an idea to take Hannah over since the girl said that you two were her favourite players.

The game starts off well, Sam scoring after sixteen minutes and then Aggie getting the second after ten minutes. These meant that you and the girls went into the changing rooms at half time with a 2-0 lead in the crucial game in the title race.

It is in the second half where things start to go wrong, as soon as you come out and kick back off, you notice straight away that they now have two players on you whenever you get the ball. The opponents clearly wanting you to not be able to play anymore balls through their defence like you had to assist both of your teams goals in the first half.

It is in the sixty-fifth minute when it happens, you had been being fouled for twenty minutes, and without the ref doing anything about it. You don't hear or see her coming, one minute you're passing the ball to Keira and then the next you felt studs in the back of your leg and you were then on the floor, grabbing your leg and ankle in pain.

"Y/n/n! Are you alright?" Lucy says, crouching down next to you, getting there first as she was closest to you when the foul came.

"No, fuck that hurts," you reply, opening your eyes and looking down at your ankle, seeing the blood coming through your socks already as she physios get to you.

"Y/n can you move your hand away, we need to be able to get to your ankle." The physio asks you, having to lean down right by your ear because of the noise coming from the crowd.

You do as the physio says, moving your hand away from the affected area, the pain only seeming to feel worse as the physios start to try and assess the extent of the damage. When you look at them, they're both talking to each other, you can't hear what they are saying but you can tell by the looks on their faces that it isn't going to be news that you will want to hear.

"Do you think you can walk Y/n?" The physio asks you.

"Yeah, I'll be fine, I can carry on," you reply, knowing you can't but also not wanting to have to come off injured.

"No you absolutely can't, so you're even walking off or we can get the stretcher, which I recommend, I don't think you should be walking on it."

"No, no stretcher, fine I'll come off, but can you just help me walk off instead of the stretcher?" You ask hopefully.

"Fine, but just be careful please." The physio gives in, helping you up and each physio putting an arm around you from each side as you start to hobble off the pitch.

When you finally get to the edge of the pitch, you give Wieke a hug as she is the person coming on for you, and then Sonia comes over to you, patting you on the shoulder and wishing you the best luck and hoping that the injury isn't as bad at it looks. After that the physios help you down the tunnel and into the changing room to be able to assess the extent of the injury.

After what feels like hours of waiting and the physio prodding and checking your ankle, but could have only been minutes in reality, the physio turns to you and from the look on her face alone tells you all you need to know.

"I'm so sorry to tell you this but it looks like with the way the opposition came in from behind studs up, and the way you landed, I think it is likely that it will be broken, we will get you some x-rays tomorrow and for now I'll give you some crutches, you can go and sit back out on the bench if you want, and I'll put a boot on it for you once I have cleaned and dressed the wound from the studs catching you, sound alright?" The physio finishes as she puts on a clean pair of gloves and starts to get all the stuff she will need.

"As alright as it can sound, how long will I be out for?" you ask, trying to hide how much it is hurting when the physio is touching around the area affected.

"If it is broken, then six months,"

You don't say anything else, just letting the physio finish clean up the cut and put the boot on before she hands you the crutches and then you decide to try and have a quick shower without getting your leg wet, which takes longer than you anticipated and by the time you have got changed into a tracksuit and made you're way back out to the side of the pitch, the final whistle is being blown as you make your way out of the tunnel.

"Oh Y/n, what are they saying it looks like?" Sonia asks as she sees you come up behind her.

"Looks like it could be broken, I'm having scans tomorrow so I guess we'll find out then."

"I'm sorry Y/n, I hope it isn't too bad and that we can get you back out there as soon as possible, we're all here for you through it all ok?" Sonia says, carefully placing an arm around your shoulder as you both make your way onto the pitch for the post match huddle with your team mates, when she sees you Keira jogs over.

"You alright mate? That looked nasty," she asks you.

"I've been better I won't lie, physios think it's broken so could be six months out," You reply to Keira before Sonia starts her post-match talk.

After all the usual post-match responsibilities and rituals everyone gets on the bus, Keira not letting you carry your own bag, even after you protest that you could still carry it. Once you've settled on the coach you finally check your phone for the first time since before the match and you turn it on to see five missed calls and seven messages from Renée asking if you were ok, saying she had seen the tackle, you decide to call her back now, knowing you're wife will be worrying and won't calm down until she hears from you and actually hears your voice. You press her contact and she answers after the second ring.

"Y/n/n? Are you ok? Have they said what it is?" Renée asks, not giving you any time to answer one question before she asks you the next one, and from the noise you can hear in the background you can tell she is on the bus back to the training ground after her own teams game and you can hear Olivia in the background too.

"I'm fine babe, well as fine as I can be," you admit.

"Me and Oli will come and get you when you get back, we are only about five minutes away from the training ground so I'll get her off the coach quickly and then I'll drive to your training ground to come pick you up." Renée says, panic still clear in her voice.

"Okay thank you, no need to rush, I can wait," you reply.

The phone call ends soon after that and before you know it the coach is pulling back into Cobham and everyone is getting off, Keira picking up your bag again before you can get the chance to take it yourself. Surprisingly it is only about fifteen minutes of waiting until you get a message from Renée to say that they're outside so you start to stand up, sorting your crutches as Keira, who waited with you despite you saying you could be on your own, picked up your and her own bag and then you both make your way outside to the car park where you see Renée waiting by the car, pushing herself off the car and rushing over to you.

"I am so sorry I wasn't there when it happened, you know if I could have I would've been right next to you," Renée says.

"It's fine Renée, I'm fine, now come on let's get home, I need some sleep, and we need to by Liv down as well," you reply, getting into the car on the passenger side and turns around to say hello to Olivia.

It was meant to be the proudest day of her life, not only for her, but her family who were all there as well, all sat in the players box watching on as she warmed up. Y/n Y/l/n never usually made a habit of looking up into the crowd when she was about to play such a big game, it was not her first major final but the first one at Wimbledon and it was the first one where she had her girlfriend, Niamh, there to watch in person. Although she and Niamh were together when Y/n made it to the final of Roland Garros earlier the same year, but Niamh unfortunately could not make it to Paris because of her own career for Chelsea. So not only was this the closest she had come to winning the tournament she’d dreamed of playing in as a kid, but she was doing it in front of all the people she loved most. The day started as if it was just any other match day, a piece of advice which Y/n had got from players who she idolised growing up, that if you treated all matches, even the ones as big as grand slam finals, the same then you would always be able to perform at your best. 

When she got to the start of the match, Y/n was completely in the zone, the warm up and looking up to see her family pushed to the back of her mind somewhat and now the whole focus was entirely on what was ahead. 

She started strong, dominating her opponent with every shot, rally, easily taking the first set 6-0, the second set however was where it fell apart, not in the terms of her game, she was 3-1 up in the second set, however her body had different ideas. As Y/n ran across the length of the court to try and make a particularly tricky return when she felt something go and the next moment she was on the floor clutching her knee. The only thing going through her mind was trying to get up and finish the match, however when she tries to stand up everyone, including herself can tell that something is very badly wrong, however one thing everyone how knows Y/n will 100% know is how stubborn the athlete is, and this is the reason why she continued trying to play, despite barely being able to walk, it only took one look into the crowd however, and one look to Niamh and she knew that she couldn’t carry on playing, her knee was already swollen to nearly twice the size of what it normally is and deep down Y/n already knows what she has done.

After retiring from the match, meaning that her opponent took the title. Y/n had always promised herself that she would never cry after a match whilst the cameras where still around, however the pain of losing added on top of the physical pain of her knee, the tears just came without time for Y/n to even think. After a few minutes they had sorted out the trophies and she was being called up to receive hers for being the runner-up, and then she had to deal with an interview which was the last thing that was needed. 

“So I’m sure this isn’t the way you wanted today to go, how are you feeling right now?” The interviewer asks as you use the crutches your physio brought over for you.

“Uhm yeah, I mean gutted doesn’t even cut it to be honest, I think this has been my best grass season of my career so for it to end like this is absolutely devastating” she says, trying not to start crying again.

“I can imagine, on the injury, is it too early to say how long you could be out for or what the injury could be?”

“Yeah I mean definitely too early for certainties and that but I’m just hoping to be back as soon as possible to be trying to get back to the same level if not better”

“And a little on your opponent? I know you have faced each other before but never at this high importance of games, what was it like?”

“Yeah I mean she’s a brilliant tennis player and deserves everything that she’s worked so hard to achieve so well done to her”

“Thank you, we’ll let you get off, thank you and I hope it doesn’t keep you out for too long”

“Thank you”

With that her coach comes to help carry the trophy because of Y/n being on crutches and then she does have the option to go inside straight away in order to get an initial judgement on her injury but another think Y/n had been taught to always have good sportsmanship so she felt it was only right to remain outside until Sabalenka receives her trophy so that they can still take photos and that like normal. 

“Congratulations Aryna, how are you feeling after that?” The interviewer asks as Sabalenka stands in the same place Y/n had only a few minutes earlier.

“Yeah, I am beyond proud, the match obviously didn’t go the way anyone would have expected, obviously no one wants to see another player get any injury so I’m wishing her the best and quickest recovery because she’s an amazing player and an even more amazing person.”

After all the formalities have been finished is when Y/n walks back inside, well not walks properly but with her crutches which she had a feeling were going to become a part of her life for quite a while. She walks into the changing room and when she sees Niamh, her first reaction, without even really thinking is just falling into her arms, nearly actually falling.

“Babe you were amazing, I’m still so proud of you” Niamh starts, kissing Y/n on the top of her head.

“No don’t say that” Y/n replies, looking down.

“Why not, it’s the truth, I know how annoyed and upset you must be feeling right now” she starts.

“No you don’t, you have no idea what I’m feeling right now” is all Y/n says before walking out the room, leaving Niamh stood there slightly hurt but more concerned about how her girlfriend is processing the injury.

That was a few days ago and Y/n has now had all the scans she was referred for and she got the results yesterday morning, unfortunately she had torn her ACL and therefore would be out for at least 9 months, it was safe to say that Y/n definitely did not take the news very well. Y/n hadn’t properly spoken to her girlfriend since the moment in the changing room. 

“Y/n, babe, please just talk to me, shout at me if you want, just something, I want to help you” Niamh pleads as she comes in from being at the shop to see Y/n struggling to get up.

“I’m fine Niamh, just leave it” she snaps back, leaving the room.

“No I won’t leave it, you need help Y/n you have a serious injury, you are having surgery in two days, I’m your girlfriend, I understand that you are annoyed, of course you are but you can’t shut everyone who loves you out, we just want to help, your sister is worried sick because you keep ignoring her calls and messages.” Niamh snaps, as she follows Y/n around, knowing her partner isn’t going to stop and listen properly.

But what Y/n does next really shocks Niamh, the shorter woman just starts crying and practically crumbles into her girlfriends arms. Due to her not expecting the sudden contact or extra weight, Niamh has to think quick so that she doesn’t hurt Y/n’s knee further than it already is, causing them both to be sat on the floor, Niamh just holding Georgie. 

“Oh baby, it’s ok, let it all out” Niamh says, trying to sooth Y/n. 

“No it’s not ok, I have been such a bitch to you the past few days since I got injured, I’m sorry” 

“You don’t have to apologise, it’s such a difficult thing to go through getting any form of injury, let alone one which keeps you away from your sport for so long, I could never blame you for being angry or annoyed, I would be exactly the same darling” Niamh comments, stroking Y/n’s hair gently. 

“I don’t deserve you, you should be angry at me right now” 

“Well I’m not angry at you, and don’t say that, now come on I think we deserve a nice relaxed night, strictly no talk of any kind of sport or injury, just me, you and the next few episodes of Line of Duty, sound good?” Niamh suggests.

“Yes, that sounds great, thank you”

“Right come on then, for that to happen you might have to get off me for a minute, and how about we get a cheeky pizza, I won’t tell coaches if you won’t”

“Niamh Charles you are a very bad influence on me” Y/n chuckles.

Niamh just laughs too as they both get up and make their way into the front room, Niamh helping Y/n, even though the latter did not want the help, she was also far too tired to fight it anymore.

The rest of the evening is much less tense, no more fighting or snappy words, just both athletes sat on the sofa, watching tv mostly in a comfortable silence, only with the odd comment on who they thought had done something, Niamh always being wrong but trying anyway.

"I'm really sorry for how I've been, I really shouldn't of taken it out on you" Y/n says later on as they both get into bed, facing each other as they lay down for what feels like the first time in a while.

"It's okay babe, injuries suck and I get that it's hard to deal with sometimes but next time you're struggling like that just tell me okay, I'm here to help you" Niamh responds, calmly and places a kiss on Y/n's head before she reaches over to turn the light off and laying down properly.

"Mummy!" Hannah hears as she walks through the door after training.

"Hello babygirl, how was your day, what did you and mamma get up to?" Hannah replies, lifting the young girl into her arms.

"We took Bailey for a walk in the park and then mamma got me ice cream"

"That sounds like so much fun Iz"

"It was, but you weren't there mummy, I missed you"

"I missed you too darling, but I have tomorrow off so me you and mamma can spend all day doing whatever you want" Hannah promises as she walks into the kitchen with Izzy still in her arms, "hiya babe, what's this I hear about you getting ice cream without me?"

"You're too busy being the best keeper even to think about ice cream," Y/n laughs, "hi babe how was training?"

"fine, I'm just going to have a shower then I'll be back down," Hannah says, giving Y/n a kiss and passing Izzy to her and kissing their daughter on the head, once she's gone upstairs Izzy turns to Y/n properly.

"Is mummy ok? She looked really sad"

"Yeah I'm sure she's fine baby, just tired from training, I know how about we get all the fluffy blankets, get in our pyjamas and watch a film, just me you and mummy"

"Yay okay, I'm telling mummy though"

"Of course baby, should we go get you into your pyjamas and then mummy should be out of the shower and you can tell her then?"

"Okay mamma," Izzy replies and jumps off of Y/n's lap before she had even finished, making her way to the stairs.

"Wait for me darling, slowly up the stairs please Iz"

"Hurry up then mamma"

Y/n just laughs before following her daughter up the stairs and into the young girls room, getting some pyjamas out of the draw whilst Izzy plays with a toy that had been left on the floor, most likely from when her and Hannah had been playing that morning.

"Here you go Izzy bear, can you do it yourself or do you want some help?"

"Help please mamma"

"Of course baby"

Y/n helps Izzy to get changed and then once she is in her pyjamas Y/n knows that there has probably been enough time since she heard the shower turned off for Hannah to be ready and so she tells Izzy to go into the other bedroom and tell her the plan, and Izzy runs into Hannah and Y/n's shared bedroom, jumping onto the bed and onto Hannah.

"Wow someone is very excited, has mamma been giving you lots of sugar again?" Hannah chuckles.

"No but she said we could all watch a film, and I want cuddles" Izzy announces.

"Oh do you now cheeky monkey, how about tickles I think you want them more, mamma come help me" Hannah laughs, starting to tickle her daughter, Y/n joining in.

After a while the laughter between the three stop and they just lay there together for a while, Izzy in the middle of her mummy and mamma.

They end up going back downstairs after a while and Y/n puts a Disney film on while Izzy and Hannah get a big blanket and both get comfortable on the sofa before Y/n joins them, with some snacks. Before the end of the film Y/n looks down to see that Izzy was already fast asleep and that it didn't look like Hannah was far behind.

"Right come on, I'll take her up and then do you want to go to bed babe?" Y/n whispers over Izzy's head to Hannah.

"Yeah sounds like a plan"

Y/n gets up, careful not to wake Izzy up as she picks Izzy up, making her way up the stairs, Hannah locking up and then following them up, walking into their daughters room so that she could kiss Izzy's head, like she always did with her daughter at bedtime. After they tucked Izzy in properly, both women move to their own room and get into bed, laying down next to each other.

"Right what's wrong with you then? And don't even think about just saying you are fine, I have known you long enough to know when you're overthinking"

"Just some people saying things, nothing to worry about I'm probably just overthinking"

"Who's saying what babe?"

"Just some people in the media saying that I'm not good enough to be England and Chelsea's number 1"

"Well they have clearly never seen you play football, have you spoken to Sonia about it?"

"Yeah she spoke to me today after training, said I had nothing to worry about but that if I needed it she said I can have some time"

"Right that's good, what do you think you're going to do, it's a big game this weekend"

"I think I want to play, I feel like I should prove them wrong,"

"Then that is exactly what you will do, and me and Izzy will be there cheering you on even louder than usual,"

"Thank you babe, although I'm not sure that Izzy could physically be much louder"

"Well either way we will always be your biggest fans, and we always will be, now come on you need sleep, she fell asleep early so I have a feeling we might be woken up early"

After that, they both settle down properly and start trying to get to sleep, knowing that they would both need a proper sleep, Y/n because she had a shift the next morning and Hannah because she had a no doubt very busy day at home with Izzy.

It took Hannah a little while to get to sleep, her brain just not wanting to turn off, but when she finally does fall asleep, it is one of those nights where it feels like you have just closed your for a few minutes and the next thing you know it's morning.

"mummy, mamma wake up!" Izzy practically shouts the next morning as she runs into the room.

"Hello Iz, did you sleep okay darling?" Y/n says, sleep still very evident in her voice.

"Yeah, can we go to the park today mamma?"

"You will have to ask mummy, mamma has to go to work today and it will be too dark when I get home"

With that response, Izzy climbs over Y/n and gently taps Hannah to try and wake her up, which slowly works and then Hannah moves to give her daughter a hug.

"Mummy?"

"Yes Izzy bear," Hannah replies.

"Can we go to the park today, mamma said she's at work"

"Of course we can"

After about ten minutes of the three of them laying there enjoying the rare moment of quiet, Y/n has to break it and get up so that she can start to get ready for work.

"Do you have to go mamma?" Izzy says as she watches Y/n pull on her uniform.

"I do unfortunately, I'm sorry darling, but I promise I will be back before bedtime okay and then you can have any story you like"

"Yay, okay mamma" Izzy says before announcing she is going to play with some of her toys.

"On that note, I should get going, have a good day babe" Y/n says as she finishes her hair and gives Hannah a quick kiss.

"Okay babe, be careful, love you"

*Time skip to later on in the day, Y/n has been at work for a few hours now*

"Right okay I think we have been at the park for long enough now kiddo, we need to go get some lunch,"

"Do we have to go mummy?"

"I'm afraid so, but how about we go and see some of your aunties, I think some of the girls have gone out for lunch together,"

"Okay mummy, will auntie Lucy be there?" Izzy asks

"I think so,"

After that Hannah takes hold of Izzy's hand and they walk back to the car, Hannah getting her daughter into the car seat in the back before getting in the drivers seat, quickly texting Y/n to ask how she's getting on, knowing that she would be on her break soon and would be able to respond.

It all happened so fast, Hannah had no time whatsoever to try and avoid the van that was doing over double the speed limit and on the wrong side of the road, the impact happened and Hannah was awake and conscious, but she did have pain all throughout her body, but that is not what she was thinking of, the first thought that cam into her mind was Izzy.

"Izzy, Izzy can you hear me darling?" Hannah struggles out.

Silence.

The most painful silence Hannah has ever had to experience, not knowing what to do she just started crying until she heard sirens coming towards them.

Y/n's pov:

It had been a relatively quietly shift, which Y/n was more than grateful for. She and her partner, Sarah, had only been called out to one older woman's home after she had had a fall. This ended up being a pretty routine call out, with them checking her out and then taking the woman to hospital just to be safe when they found her blood pressure to be quite a bit higher than it should have been.

However, quiet shifts aren't really a thing in the paramedic world and both Y/n and Sarah knew this, and when they got the next call they both snapped instantly into professional mode.

"RTC on the A216 westbound, vehicle seeming to be at fault having fled the scene immediately, other vehicle involved reported to being badly effected, police en-route also," is all the information they were initially given.

The drive to the incident was like any other, Sarah driving and Y/n getting the basic things ready so that they could move as quickly as possible when they arrived. When they did arrive Sarah and Y/n started to go through normal procedures as they reached the car, until Y/n saw in the window of the car, she paused for a moment, but something inside her told her she had to stay professional.

"Two casualties, one adult female in the driver seat and one child in the rear of the vehicle," Y/n starts to report to Sarah, her partner catching up to her quickly.

"Y/n do you need me to call back up?" Sarah asks as she sees who is in the car.

"No, we might not be able to wait that long, I can do this"

"I don't doubt you, but I am still calling for back up"

Y/n doesn't respond, she just opens the door to the front of the car and can see that Hannah is still awake.

"Y/n? No, Izzy isn't responding, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"

"Sarah, child is unresponsive, move to urgent"

Before Y/n can say anything else, another unit has arrived, pushing Y/n out of the way and starting to try and treat Hannah themselves, realising why they were needed when they also recognise who was in the accident. Y/n just steps back, looking down at her hands and seeing blood all over the disposable gloves she had on that she hadn't even realised was there until now. After what felt like a lifetime in her own head, she heard Sarah shouting to her to get their ambulance open.

They took Hannah in the back of their ambulance, the second unit having Izzy with them.

"Right Y/n you sit in the back with her, you are in no state to drive, and when we get to the hospital you are off duty, I just need you to stay calm until we get there incase anything happens on the way, but she seems to be fine"

Y/n gets in the back and just looks at Hannah laying there, feeling the worst guilt she has ever experienced, even though there is no logic behind the feeling.

"Is Izzy okay?" Hannah says, still crying.

"I don't know babe but she's your daughter, and she's so strong, she will be fine"

"I am so sorry, he just appeared out of nowhere and was going so fast, there was no time to react,"

"Hannah stop beating yourself up, I know this isn't your fault, and izzy will know that too"

Y/n just holds her hand whilst keeping an eye on everything to make sure that everything is ok.

They get to the hospital and everything is a blur again, Y/n gets inside and once the handover is done, Sarah makes sure that people know they are both off duty. Sarah tries to get Y/n to sit down whilst the doctors are trying to assess Hannah, but Y/n just keeps pacing around the waiting room.

"why haven't we heard anything about Izzy, you said she hadn't woken up by the time they left right?"

"Yes but she is in good hands and we both know it" Sarah tries to reassure Y/n.

"Sarah the last I heard was that my daughter was unconscious and on the way to hospital after being in a car accident, I don't care which doctors are looking after her"

"I know it's a scary time but Hannah, and especially Izzy, needs you to be as strong as you possibly can be" Just as Sarah says that a doctor, who Y/n doesn't recognise, comes out and walks over to them both.

"Are you Izzy Hampton-Y/l/n's parent?" The doctor asks.

"Yes I'm her mum, is she okay? What's happening?" Y/n asks, panicked.

"Well she is currently being prepped for emergency surgery, she has a broken arm and a very bad concussion-" the doctor starts before getting interrupted.

"Why does she need emergency surgery?"

"Well she also appears to have a broken rib which would normally be fine to leave to heal on it's own but with the way that it has broken, it is very close to causing problems for her by damaging the lungs so we need to perform the surgery to reset the bone so we can prevent this"

"Is she going to be okay? Did she wake up at any point?" Y/n asks, beyond panicking.

"She will be fine, but there will be a long recovery period and she may be very confused for a little while after the surgery. Yes she did regain consciousness for a while before we took her down for the surgery. I will keep you updated as soon as we know anything and when she is out of surgery so you can see her"

"Thank you, and what about my partner, Hannah Hampton, do you know if she is okay?"

"I'm afraid I have nothing to do with your partner's treatment, but I can try and find out for you?"

"Thank you so much" Y/n replies as the doctor walks off to try and find out how Hannah is.

"They're both going to be okay Y/n, I know it might not seem like it right now but I promise you"

Y/n doesn't respond, not having the energy or brain space to try and seem confident, but she was very grateful for Sarah being there nether the less. After a few minutes the doctor comes back.

"Hello, Hannah Hampton was your partners name yes?"

"Yes, yes is she okay?"

"Yes, she has seemed to have got away a lot easier, she does have a slight concussion and quite a big cut on her head where she lost quite a bit of blood but she is awake and asking to see you, she's just down the corridor"

Y/n doesn't even reply, she just gets up and starts making her way to where the doctor said Hannah was, leaving Sarah to thank the doctor before following behind, but giving enough space for Y/n and Hannah to feel privacy.

"Where's Izzy, they won't tell me anything" Hannah asks, clearly panicked, when she sees Y/n.

"Calm down babe, breathe, she is going to be fine, they have just taken her down for surgery because they need to reset one of her ribs that broke, she has a broken arm and a pretty serious concussion but she is going to be fine,"

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt her,"

"Hannah Hampton stop that right now, none of this is your fault, you didn't hurt her,"

"It was so scary Y/n, I was calling her name and she just wasn't responding, I was scared I had lost her"

"But you haven't lost her, Han I know it is hard but we need to try and be positive, she is in the best place,"

After about an hour and a half, that felt like a lifetime for both Hannah another doctor comes in, breaking the tense silence the two women had been sat in, with Y/n sat holding Hannah's hand as tightly as she could.

"Okay, so you daughter's surgery went very well, we managed to reset the bone so that it no longer a concern, and we just went ahead with putting a cast on her broken arm whilst she was under anaesthetic so to cause as little pain as possible once she is awake, she should be coming round at any minute, like I mentioned before she will most likely be confused when she does come round, so it is probably best if she is not alone when she does," the doctor explains.

"I can go, Sarah can you stay with Hannah?" Y/n asks.

"Of course I can"

"Okay thank you, I'll call Sarah when Izzy starts to come round so you can see her okay babe?"

"Okay, give her a kiss and cuddle from me"

"of course"

After that, the doctor leads Y/n down the corridor to another room, but when she gets there the sight breaks Y/n's heart, Izzy looks so small laying there in the hospital bed, her little arm in a blue cast, which makes Y/n giggle inwardly, knowing that when the concussion wears off Izzy will love that it matches Chelsea's colour. Before Y/n can think anymore, Izzy starts to move a tiny bit and so Y/n moves to be right next to the bed and holds her daughters hand on her non-broken arm.

"Careful, don't move too much darling, you're going to be a bit sore"

"Mamma?" Izzy says quietly.

"Yes baby it's mamma, you're okay, you're safe"

"Mummy?" Izzy asks.

"Mummy isn't here right now but she loves you so much baby, would you like to talk to mummy?"

Izzy just nods, starting to sob.

"What's wrong Iz, does something hurt?"

"My head and arm" Izzy manages to get out.

"I know, it's going to be okay, I promise you," Y/n says as she pulls her phone out to face time Sarah, who answers straight away, giving the phone to Hannah.

"Our brave little girl is awake," Y/n says.

"Hello Iz, did mamma give you a kiss from me?"

"Yeah, but where are you mummy?"

"Mummy is just getting looked after at the minute, just like you are,"

"Okay, when can I see mummy?"

"Soon baby, I promise"

After a while the doctor walks back into Hannah's room to tell her something but Hannah doesn't want to worry or scare Izzy so she makes up some story about why she needs to go and says she will see Izzy soon before they end the call.

"Mamma?" Izzy all but whispers.

"Yes baby, are you okay?"

"My arm hurts"

"Oh my baby, I'm sorry, would you like a cuddle?" Y/n offers, knowing that Izzy can't have any more pain medication for a few hours still.

*Meanwhile with Hannah*

"So we have obviously been keeping a close eye on you but everything seems quite good and as long as you can assure us that you will not be alone, we can discharge you tonight" the doctor says.

"That is great thank you, no I won't be alone" Hannah confirms.

After that the doctor leaves to go and get all the paper work and stuff for Hannah to be discharged and Hannah gets Sarah to message Y/n to let her know what is going on.

*Later after Hannah has been discharged and has made her way to Izzy's room*

"Mummy!" Izzy practically shouts, having clearly woken up properly now.

"Hello baby, be careful, I'll come to you," Hannah says as she walks into the room properly.

"Mummy what did you do to your head?"

"It's nothing don't worry baby, I just hit it a bit when we crashed, but you were so brave, I am so proud of you darling" Hannah says, sitting next to Izzy's bed and gives her daughter a hug.

"My arm hurts though, it was scary," that makes Hannah want to cry, looking at how vulnerable her daughter currently looks, but she knows she has to stay strong right now.

"I know it does baby, but when we get home we are going to do whatever you want okay baby, we can play anything or watch anything you want"

"Okay mummy, when can I go home?"

"It should be tomorrow baby, but me and mummy aren't going anywhere tonight don't you worry" Y/n answers.

And that is how they all spend the rest of the night, Izzy falling asleep and Y/n and Hannah sitting next to her bed quietly talking before kind of falling asleep themselves, albeit not a very good sleep due to the uncomfortable hospital chairs. The next morning they are woken up quite early by Izzy.

"Iz what's wrong darling?" Y/n says as she wakes up to notice Izzy looking like she is about to cry. Izzy just shakes her head and sits there, "is it your arm," a nod, "right okay, I'll go get a doctor okay baby" she finishes as she gets up, placing a kiss on Izzy's head as she walks past.

Once she gets back Hannah has woken up and has put some cartoon on her phone for Izzy to watch, probably to try and calm her down and distract her from the pain as much as possible.

You and Jana met when you were 15, when your family moved to Barcelona. You originally met at school, but it was when you got into the Barca academy that the pair of you first started to get really close, and what started as a friendship very quickly developed into what you have now, you officially got together when you were both 17 but looking back now, you both had feelings for each other long before that. You stayed at Barca until the end of last season, when you got an offer from Chelsea. It took a lot of thinking but you ultimately knew this was the right move for you, having not had much game time all season.

It was hard leaving Jana, but the pair of you knew that your relationship would be able to last the long distance, and you both agreed to talk every day and to try and fly over to watch each others matches whenever possible.

However you didn't anticipate that you would have to play against your girlfriend at some point, but here you are, in the changing room before the second leg of the champions league semi-final, you missed the first leg through injury so you didn't have to experience the 4-1 loss first hand, but it also meant that the team had a lot of work to do at the bridge. You knew you wouldn't be starting, Sonia didn't want to push you too hard so close after an injury, but you were still very nervous to face your girlfriend, she had seemed off with you on facetime last night and although Guro who had become your closest friend at chelsea, told you not to worry, you couldn't help it and the topic was at the forefront of your mind. This fact clearly showed as you were warming up with the team.

"Get your head in the game Y/n" Lucy shouts after you miss another shot.

"Sorry Luce" You say, you had always admired Lucy so her criticism always hit harder than that from some of your other team mates.

"Y/n/n it is going to be fine, nothing could make that girl like you less" Guro says as your'e walking back into the tunnel to do your final prepartations for the match.

Safe to say that the game isn't exactly going to plan, it is currently the 66th minute and Barca are winning 3-0 so 7-1 on aggregate, you have been on the pitch for just over 5 minutes but even you know deep down that it would take a miracle to come back from this score against anyone at this stage of the game, but against Barca, that would be even harder.

The game came to an end and all you and your team mates can do is collapse to the floor, you can't help but feel like you could have done more to help the team, while you sit there, you just watch the Barca girls celebrating with each other and their fans, you realise you can't just stay sitting here and decide to go thank the fans.

After you have done a lap you make your way over to where most of the girls are standing around Sonia.

"Right girls, this is tough to say but that was not the team we have been all season, I don't know what happened but I think we all know that we are better than that, however we can't dwell on the past for long, our attention focusses straight back to the league and what we have coming up, one setback won't define the rest of our season I know it, we stick together"

After Sonia's speech some of the girls start to make their way back in and others talk to some of the Barca girls they know, you debate going straight in but really you just want to be in Jana's arms, when you find your girlfriend she's talking to Keira with Alexia so you make your way over.

"hello you" jana says, wrapping her ams around your shoulders as you slot into the conversation with your old team mates.

"Hiya, well done babe, you were amazing" You say, trying to hide the hurt you were feeling because of the game.

"Thank you, you were great too, hows the ankle feeling?"

"Not too bad actually, thanks, wasn't my best performance"

"Don't say that, you were the best player out there for chelsea"

"Still wasn't enough though was it" You slightly snap. "sorry I didn't mean to snap, I am proud of you babe, but just a shame it was against us"

"Yeah sorry about that mate" Alexia jokes.

You all just talk for a little while longer, catching up on each others lives you have to go, you and Jana walk a little bit behind the rest of your friends.

"Remember no matter what babe, I will always love you" You say to jana as you give each other a hug outside the away changing room.

"Of course babe, love you too" Janna responds, giving you a kiss before saying goodbye and walking into a very loud changing room.

You make your way back to your own changing room where the vibe is very different, no one is talking, understandably so. You just go straight for a shower and then once you're done everyone is making their way back to the bus, as much as you are proud of your girlfriend for being in the final of the champions league, it really hurts to know that you and your team mates are not there. You sit down on the bus and Lucy comes over to sit next to you.

"Stop beating yourself up, none of us were at our best and I was wrong to keep snapping at you like I did, I'm sorry"

"It's ok Luce, I know how much it means to everyone so emotions were always going to be high" You reply.

"And plus, we'll get them next time"

"You are never going to retire are you Lucy?" You smile at the older woman.

"If I don't have to then no, plus we need to win the world cup together"

"That's the plan"

You and Lucy have a sort of sisterly bond and after a while you end up falling asleep on her shoulder, much to the amusment of your team mates, Lucy just tells them to be quiet and takes a picture to send to Jana.

Jana

Lucy: *Picture attached* Very sleepy girl here x

Jana: Was she ok? she seemed a bit off x

Lucy: Yeah, she just felt that it was her fault because she wasn't at her best, but I have told her that none of us were today x

Jana: Thank you Luce, she really looks up to you x

Jana's last message made Lucy smile, she loved to think that not only little boys and girls who watched her matches looked up to her but also some of her team mates, it made her feel like all the work she put in over the years was all worth it.

When you got back to the training ground, Lucy gently nudged you to get you to wake up and then you all got off the bus and made your way to your own cars to start you respective journeys home, once you get in your car and start driving, you phone starts to ring through the cars speakers.

"Hello baby" Jana said once you had answered.

"Hiya, you alright, what have I done to deserve this beautiful call"

"Can I not just phone my girlfriend to tell her I love her and miss her?"

"Oh no you certainly can, but you only saw me literally an hour ago"

"Yeah but that wasn't properly, everyone was there, I want you all to myself so we cuddle properly, where are you now?"

"Just in my car on the way home, I know it isn't the same but I can facetime you when I do get home"

"I guess that will have to do" Jana smirks at you being completely unaware.

"Ok babe, I'm just getting home so I'll give you a call when I get in ok?"

"Ok mi amor, love you"

Jana hangs up the phone and then you turn the corner onto your street, but you see that there is a light on in your bedroom, you were certain that you had turned that off before you left this morning but you were in a bit of a rush so you don't really think too much of it. When you get in, you go straight upstairs to get changed but you are greeted by a great surprise.

"Jana? What are you doing here?" You ask, very confused.

"I got a few days off so I thought I would spend it here with you rather than in Barca" Jana responds as you practically jump on top of her while she is still sitting on your bed.

"This is the best surprise ever, but wait how did you get in?"

"Well you have Lucy to thank, it was her idea and she let me use her spare key, hey how come Lucy has one but your girlfriend does not" Jana jokes.

"Well maybe because Lucy lives down the road and comes round most days when she is missing her girlfriend and I got bored of opening the door for her whereas you live in a different country" You laugh.

"Ok well I guess that is a reasonable reason" Jana giggles.

You both spend the rest of your evening sitting in each others arms and catching up with one another, after a while you both decide you should try and get some sleep so that you would actually be able to do things together the next day. And you slept better being in the arms of your loving girlfriend.