#creative slump

I am bereft of any form of creative drive.

My minis sit primed or not even build on my workspace. My inbox is full of RP-asks for Fabius and I have no ideas for any special drawings. I am functioning but I am not enjoying what I do.

I am reading "Dropsite Massacre" right now and it's a really nice, decent read (some curious eyecolour-choices again. Like, sapphire for demon-possessed Fulgrim. Or black for Fabius - well, that one I will explain to myself with "lots of drugs at that time"). But it's not working as an inspiration.

It's not just Warhammer, though. I am totally not into anything at the moment.

I’m not the sort of person who gets classic writer/artist block anymore. I write every day. I draw, at minimum, once a week, and have for the last two years. I am motivated and want to do it. But my brain just can’t seem to decide what it wants to make. I sit at my keyboard or pick up my pencil/digital pen and just sit there and end up fiddling around doing nothing much of anything worthwhile and struggle to finish anything. It feels like I’m waiting for the next thing to tickle my brain enough to get it to hyperfocus and get the creative juices to start flowing again.

Trying to be patient with myself, because this happened after I finished Owned too, and it’s only been a couple weeks since I finished AtDP, but it’s bloody irritating when I WANT to create. I’m praying it doesn’t last as long as with Owned, because that was a long three months without writing much of anything.

Doesn’t help I’ve been feeling really uninspired about what to draw since before I even finished AtDP and I don’t like most of what I’m making. Then when I do manage to draw something I think is decent, I am struggling to colour it. I have several digital linearts done that I like and have been waiting for colour for months. I might just start posting the linearts or maybe do some simpler shading or something tbh. I’ve been doing a lot of gestures, studies, etc when I can’t figure out what else to draw, but inevitably end up not feeling like they turn out well either.

Growing more and more frustrated at how it just seems impossible to find anyone to talk to about analog/digital/internet horror these days.

All the discord servers are either so heavily moderated that normal interactions are impossible, the Reddit just suck, and the general internet seems to have moved on.

I want to talk to people about creation and what they like or dislike about Analog/Digital horror but finding said people who are adults who don't get butthurt about disagreements has become a lost cause.

Do any other neurospicy/depressed artist/writer/creative types have a weird relationship with likes and empty reblogs versus comments/reblogs with tags?