#crashhard

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It's like I was picked up out of my sophomore year of college and dropped into a horror story, and this new film started with a false escape route, but at least I felt preserved, alive - though I felt nothing at all. It was like the matrix and I was sleeping for a while, and although the happiness and fun and all things desired were fake, for a time I could be satisfied in fantasy. But fear goded me on yet, and I woke up into new terrors, my eyes wide open and the anesthesia unplugged, and I felt everything - every loss like a limb clinging to the edge of a cliff: my career, my finances, my husband, my daughter, my Health, and my confidence for a long life, a new life, a new SEASON, HOPE ITSELF- and now another threatened life - that threatened life being the very one that bore me mine, and I crumble, and I dream of plugging the anesthesia back in, but it doesn't work the same, and I get sick, and I fill with self-hatred. And the Healer I know to be real, I try to stay near him, but I falter and wonder if I will never be healed again in this life. And I feel every tear, every exposed organ, every scrape, and I scream silently, constantly, and long after I have lost the wind in my lungs to continue screaming, my mouth sits open wide and gaping, and I am still screaming. I am screaming but functioning, sobbing but Dry-faced, the perfectly made up woman I have to be. Wait why, And I am kicking and punching and biting, but I remain civilized and polite. I am dead, but I never sleep, I am awake, but I am numb to reality and detached- floating, carelessly, waiting for the next minute and hour and day, and waiting for nothing and everything, and oh, It Was Never Supposed to Be This Way.

When you want #starbucks before going to your next job, but you don't have time. #crankypants #caffeineheadache #workhard #caffeinehard #crashhard = #thursdays 😂

Can you guess the rider, location and year this happened? RMSHA circuit is just around the corner! @racermsha @arcticcat_snow @startinglineproducts @zbroz_racing @zollingerracingproducts #rltphotos #rmsha @am_snow_mag @sledheadzzz @sledjunkies #crashhard #ragdoll