a rare muu appearance and it's not surprise it is for neff | @cosmicdreamt
"People really don't. There's no heart in it anymore." It was strangely enough something she agreed with him on, maybe not in the same way, but there was a certain sentiment to it. "I feel like people often confuse yearning for obsession. Maybe it's just me romanticizing it, but I think yearning can be beautiful. To long for something with your heart because it means so much to you, even if it makes you sad in some way or it's something you know you'll never be able to obtain. Or maybe it's something you've had to be patient to have again and it's just taking a really really long time. People want things and they want it now. There's no effort in working for something, in waiting for something, in hoping in the possibility for it. There's tons I still yearn for - even if I know it'll never be for me. Knowing that my heart can still feel something like that in the first place is something important to me."
There were many things that he himself could not do, or at least not with a considerable amount of consistency to back them up.
Leaving the house beyond to fulfill essential tasks was a feat only accomplished at a rate he swore could only line up with a full moon-- not that he ever knew when they were present up above in the first place. Peering at his form within his comfortable abode, or otherwise, also appeared to be an impossible to fulfill suggestion on how to spend his time as any second dedicated towards doing such was spent grimacing at the shape loosely based on a human being stuck in the reflection. What he could do with great strength, however, was yearn splendidly for things that were not up to him to determine the likelihood of fruition of even if he wanted to do so himself.
"You know.. We are very small things in the universe. It's not to be our job to decide if the yearning we have is rationally, ah-- attainable.. Who is to be knowing that if we love in our yearning that the part of the universe in charge of creating things to yearn about in the first place won't be loving us back in a way of laying out the.. the opportunities for it to be real?"
For every one statement rambled another three built themselves up in his mind to be swiftly spoken out loud upon even if no bit of any of it made any sense to the ears his word befell upon.
"You know when you have the between when you has died and when you is a baby? The passing of a lesson from the one being alive to the next? Is a.. a seeming to be fr- fruitless endeavor kind of yearning the same? That.. What if the unobtainable you think you have now is just a you haven't got there yet sorta thing? Especially if you be thinking about how.. how being only a twenty something year old person is actually a very tiny per- percentage of the infinite amount of time there is to have all kinds of obtained things that the heart wished to have for it- itself."
More and more comments and questions flooded his overactive brain that, truthfully, it was becoming more progressively more complicated to keep up with it all.
"And actually.. If the part of the universe that creates what we yearn for does so from feelings, how come we lend it ears to know something as mean as saying those things are never going to happen? If it be loving us so very much to say we deserve no less than what we beckon for with the hearts we got, then how come you wouldn't want to be watching that energy? In fact.. I speak for all of the universe that when I be saying if you say yearned things are unobtainable one more time, I'm going to beat you up. Then I gonna go into your dreams to do it a.. a second time."
