Being 20 is fucking weird, I could’ve sworn I was 16 like 5 months ago or at least I feel like I am still 16. I wish I would’ve waited to go to the University of Oregon or well at least until I was financially stable. This is where shit gets rough, its like I am at the age where I should be building my finances but please note that I fucking ruined my credit and everything PRIOR to coming. I should’ve made sure that I fixed that shit before I jumped the bus to come here. But fuck me because my ass is already here. SO, what am I going to do to fix it? Well, I am going to try and do everything in my power to make sure that I can fix it. I want to be debt free and start to rebuild my credit by the end of 2017. Boring shit, I know but like I said being 20 is fucking weird because it is like I should but shouldn’t be worrying about this shit. So yeah, if there is anything I’ve learned it is that finances are fucking important.

Another thing I’ve learned is that I’m technically a grown up, kinda fucking sorta because I still want my parents to pay for everything and schedule my appointments. (lol I also call for permission sometimes but yeah fucking weird) My parents see it as I am 20 so I am more or less able to take care of myself?? Like hello guys, I AM A BROKE BITCH THAT STILL NEEDS YOU, DON’T CUT ME OFF PLS. I can barely make it to my 8 a.m’s on time and you expect me to be able to be a grown up? Psh, yeah right.

Also, I’ve learned that time does indeed fly by so I need to really cherish those around me. I am currently regretting every time I was 10 or 9 or whatever and would say “wow I can’t wait until I am 20″ because lord knows I would go back to being 10 or whatever and do so much differently. I think I am starting to realize that I shouldn’t dwell on the “what if’s” along with the “I would’ves” because that too holds me back from “living”.