#communication difficulties

“ Some people have big voices that feel like storms in my head . They thrash and they scream . “

- Book “ a day with out words “

Like, when I complain about my sensory issues or my communication difficulties making my life more difficult that is not me advocating for autism to be wiped out. That’s not what I’m fucking saying at all. I’m just trying to say that this thing that I deal with is hard for me and it feels like I’m not allowed to say that. The social model of disability is great, especially for urban planning, but it isn’t all-encompassing or perfect and I would still deal with these issues even if I only ever interacted with other autistic people and only went to ‘sensory friendly’ spaces, or honestly even if the whole built environment around me was made accessible.

Sometimes my autism is disabling and prevents me from being able to do things, and pretending that isn’t the case doesn’t do anything except silence me and protect your feelings about my disability.

There is a middle ground between this toxic positivity/equating autism to just being a bit ‘funny and quirky’ and the misinformation that I grew up hearing from Autism Speaks and other hate groups. There are parts of my autism that are actually pretty sick and that I would not be myself without, like my special interests and hyperfixations (I am using these words as they are defined in the DSM-V here, not in the way they’re often used on the internet) but even those parts can contribute to making my life harder.

This is neuropsych ableism.

God, do I feel this. I am autistic, intellectually disabled, and cluster B, and let me tell you, when I open my mouth, people constantly believe me to be trying to argue or disagree.

I can never figure out if its my choice of words, or my tone, or both, or just them deciding to pick a fight - and they never clarify, either!

I remember that it was great, but I can't remember the title and my folder of tma fics I've finished doesn't have a section for specifically language-related

Maybe I should sort the language-related ones, I have collected enough of them for that.

I specifically remember Jon trying writing, typing, and asl, but still only being able to say statements/parts of statements and eventually trying AAC apps to circumvent the problem, but could still only use 1 or 2 words at a time even with that because the Eye was being possessive of his communication ability

I literally have 55 fics saved in "TMA - Complete" and cannot remember if I last found the fic before or after I started using my bookmarks bar for them.

Answer 1: “Because I’m autistic”

>> Weird, makes people uncomfortable, apparently supplies ‘unnecessary information’

Answer 2: “It’s my lucky shirt/dress/shoes/etc.”

||✶ I don't think the cards themselves would work for me, besides I don't want them to think it's weird....