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word count: 28.3k tags: jiseok x fem reader, mostly sfw but there is like one nsfw scene so be warned, fake relationship au, college au, wedding au, dumb and dumber, they think it's one sided because they're idiots but its really not, jiseok man wtf, jiseok is terrible at lying for like 20 minutes, lighthearted, comedy, everyone is tired of them, everyone knows except them like pls get a grip, getting together, they're both in SO MUCH denial, gunil plays cupid, happy ending duh, junhan is your best friend, jooyeon is jiseok's cousing and he also gets married, seungmin is very suspicious, junhan has a boyfriend, jiseok is scared of his own feelings, 'we're just acting' they said like the lying liars they are, jiseok is too jealous for his own good, there's some pink hair dye involved, you're both crybabies plot: Jiseok doesn't lie like...ever...but his mom wonāt stop pressuring him about getting into a relationship so he gets himself into a mess by saying heās been in one for months in a fit of panic so Gunil suggests he asks you since you're down for everything because his mom made him promise he'd bring his irlfriend as a plus one at his cousinās wedding and somehow you two end up kissing all the time and oh now what do you mean you caught feelings??? Who would've thought??? (pls like and enjoy this i am begging you)
In this world, thereās two types of people: those who lie as if itās breathing and those who couldnāt tell a lie even if their life depended on it.Ā
Sadly, Jiseok was the second kind. He never really thought it was a bad thing, he actually took quite some pride in how much of a honest person he is, even though sometimes it would result into getting nasty stares because he couldnāt lie to protect someoneās feelings or he would have no choice but to deal with the consequences of his own actions rather than lying his way out of it.Ā
Jiseok wasnāt a liar. There is nothing he loved more than the cold cruel justice. In his eyes, everything happens for a reason and everyone will eventually get back what they give. Lying only created useless problems that made you waste your energy on matters that were unimportant, so why should he complicate his own life for no reason? Thatās the way his brain has worked since birth and thatās the way his brain will work forever.Ā
At least, thatās the way his brain used to work, untilā¦
āYou really arenāt getting any younger and neither am I, sonā¦I should be asking you to get married at this age but Iām a good understanding mother so I wonāt but, pleaseā¦I need to know you will have someone by your side when Iām no longer here..ā His mother sighs dramatically during a family dinner, a weekend when he decided to visit his hometown.Ā
āMaā¦ā Jiseok groans, chewing on his food, body deflating tiredly.Ā
āAre you gay? Because thatās totally fine too I wo-ā She starts and Jiseok widens his eyes.
āWhy does it matter if I have a girlfriendā¦or boyfriend? We could break up after you die anyways.ā He squints, his dad snickering from beside his mom before clearing his throat when she hits his arm.Ā
āWhat do you mean why?? Donāt you want to see your mother happy, Kwak Jiseok?? What type of son are you?? I kept waiting, I even tried to set you up on blind datesā¦really, what is this? Do you hate me? Are you just against seeing me happy?ā She pouts, fake tears forming in her eyes.Ā
Jiseok doesnāt lie. Ever. But heās been having to deal with his motherās antics for about three years now and it was starting to get irritating because they couldnāt have a single meal without her mentioning it and trying to guilt trip him. All he wanted to do was focus on his studies, have fun with his friends and eventually get a good job. Why waste his time on a relationship?
Itās not as if he was running away from it, he was simply not searching for one. Relationships are supposed to be an addition to your life, not the sole purpose of your existence. Unless, you were his mom, of course.Ā
Jiseok doesnāt lie, but for some reason he blurts out āFine! I do have a girlfriend, okay??ā As soon as the words leave his mouth, both of his parents drop their forks on their plates. āI wasnāt gonna say anything until it was more serious but there, I guessā¦ā He mumbles, ducking his face down.Ā
āOh my god?? For how long?? Who is she?? Whatās her name?? Is she your age?? Is she pretty??ā His mother cheers, and he grimaces as his father looks at him amused.Ā
āI donāt want to give youĀ more details, youāll probably stalk her and show up at her front door with chocolate.ā Jiseok says quickly, pretending his hands are not getting sweaty because of the nerves.
āWell, how about you bring her as a plus one to your cousinās wedding?ā His father smiles and Jiseok chokes on the water he was chugging down. He might kill himself.Ā
āAh I donāt knowā¦isnāt that kind of-ā He starts but sighs and nods tiredly when his mother sternly tells him he will because itās the least he could do for her.Ā
Jiseok goes back that day and considers hitting his head very hard on a wall as Gunil looks at him amused from the couch while drinking his beer.Ā
āI canāt believe you never lie and the one time you do you get yourself into this much shit.ā The older snickers, shaking his head as the blonde lays on the floor, looking up at the ceiling.Ā
āMy momās gonna kill me, you shouldāve seen her eyes man, she was close to crying out of happiness. CRYING! They want me to bring her for dinner NEXT WEEK.ā He whines, hands covering his face with a loud groan.
āWellā¦you either find a girlfriend in a week or you break your momās heart.ā The drummer shrugs. āOr you get a fake girlfriend.ā He jokes, widening his eyes when his friend shoots up from the floor, holding on to the otherās shoulders amazed.
āKoo Gunil YOUāRE A FUCKING GENIUS!ā Jiseok grins excitedly.Ā
āIt was a joke-I-ā The older blinks, dumbfounded. āWouldnāt it be easier to just find an actual girlfriend? You act as if youād have a hard time with that face.ā Gunil rolls his eyes, but Jiseok shakes his head quickly.Ā
āI donāt want a girlfriend, theyāre a lot of work and the whole thing before dating?? The pining, not knowing if she likes you, and when girls get jealous they start fights and-i donāt have the time for that. I would need to find a super specific girl thatās super fun to be around and confident and extrovert and that- whatever, not the point! Itās easier!ā He nods, sitting next to Gunil.Ā
āOne small problem is I donāt know anyone down for it. My friends are either in a relationship or lesbians or my family knows them and knows I donāt like them. I need someone that they donāt know that well but if itās a complete stranger theyāll get suspicious-ā Jiseok sighs, thinking.Ā
āWhat about my friend?ā Gunil says, sipping on his beer. āRemember the one I convinced to come with me during the band audition so she would suck and Iād look better in comparison? Sheās always down for everything.āĀ
āShit, really? Wouldn't that be weird though? We talked like four timesā¦ā The blonde wonders, looking at the photo on Gunilās phone. āSheās hotā¦ā He mumbles to himself.Ā
āNah, she loves to do weird shit like this, she has this whole idea of having a lot of experiences so she wonāt regret it when she dies. Plus, sheās like a pathological liar, one time she convinced Jooyeon France isnāt real.ā The older one laughs, making Jiseok let out an impressed breath.
āOh wow sheās my dream woman.ā He grins. āCan you ask her? Pleasepleaseplease-ā He starts, but the other shakes his head amused.
āYou do it, everytime i ask her for a favor she asks for something in return. I donāt wanna go ghost hunting in the middle of the night again, last time I almost shit myself.āĀ
Jiseok whines annoyed but nods, spending a lot of time at home thinking about how exactly to ask a girl heās barely been around to be his fake girlfriend for about a month until the wedding.Ā
If you two were close, he wouldnāt be this stressed but what if he comes off as weird or desperate-well, he /is/ desperate, but still! The last thing he wants is to be awkward with one of his friendās closest friends. So, he makes a game plan: heāll walk around the campus during the time you so conveniently have a free hour, with your favorite type of coffee and casually, very not anxiously ask you to help him.
The next day, you were sitting on the grass under a tree on your phone, back resting against it as one of your legs was propped up. Suddenly, you hear your name being called out by a familiar voice, and when you look up there is Jiseok holding a coffee cup with your name on it, a bag of snacks and a big smile.
āHiā¦?ā You say confused, grabbing the coffee weirded out by the sudden appearance.Ā
You and Jiseok knew each other. You met a few times during hang outs at Gunilās house and youād always go to their shows since Gunil insisted itās your job as his good friend. You always thought he was cool and he /was/ one of the most gorgeous people youāve ever seen but you two never really got close.
āOkay so I donāt know if Gunil talked to you but I need your help and youāre the only person I could go to because my parents know all of my other friends but if itās a total stranger theyāll be suspicious and know iām lying and kill me and- I need you to pretend to be my girlfriend until my cousinās wedding!ā He says in one breath, voice pleading.Ā
You blink at him, holding back a laugh and opening your mouth to say something before he goes on.Ā
āIāll buy you coffee every day and- and I'll write your essays for the rest of the school year just please help me out, I swear I wouldnāt ask if it wasnāt a life or death situation!ā He whines, clasping his hands together.Ā
You laugh softly, sipping on your coffee, letting out a small pleased noise at the taste. āAlright.āĀ
āAlright??ā Jiseok widens his eyes surprised and you nod.
āI wouldāve done it for free but since you offered, I will be sending you my homework.ā You grin, pulling out your phone and giving it to him to put his number in it. āWhy do you need a fake girlfriend?ā You ask opening the bag of snacks, offering Jiseok one which he gladly takes.
āMy mom keeps being on my ass about not having a girlfriend so I panicked and told them I was already dating someone.ā The blonde sighs, sitting next to you tiredly.Ā
āWhat about aā¦realā¦girlfriend?ā You frown confused. āWouldnāt that be way easier?āĀ
āThey want to have dinner next week already and I have no one Iām interested in. Plus, I donāt want a girlfriend, too much work, Iām fine with watching romcoms and imagining.ā He nods, and you hold in a laugh before bursting out into laughter.
āYouāre so odd.ā You note, resting your head against the tree. āWhat exactly am I supposed to do? Just have dinner with them?āĀ
āAnd look in love. I might or might have not said weāve been dating for three months alreadyā¦ā He grims and you look at him baffled.
āThree??? Jiseok I barely know your last name, what the fuck-ā You whine covering your face. āOkay, fine. Itās doable, yes. We just need toā¦study. And take pictures. Lots of them.ā You nod to yourself, snapping a picture of him while he wasnāt looking.Ā
āOh wow youāre goodā¦ā Jiseok says looking at the picture you now set as your lock screen, amazed.
āI used to be a girlfriend for rent in my first year.ā You answer casually, making the other widen his eyes even more. āIt pays pretty well.āĀ
āWait, you can actually do that??? I thought it was like something people lied about.ā He whispers.Ā
āNo, itās easier than you think. Kind of dangerous, but thatās how I paid for my laptop.ā You grin, opening a document on it. āOkay so, I need a run down of your family, and yourself and ā¦everything.āĀ
Jiseok looks at you for a while before gently closing your laptop. āI know weāre supposed to be fake dating but wouldnāt it be better if we /actually/ got to know each other? If you study it, itāll come off as unnatural.ā He debates and you let out a small nod.Ā
āUu so you want to take me out on a date?? Never took you as the type to be so direct.ā You say playfully and Jiseok squints.Ā
āYeah, I should take my girlfriend out on dates before we have dinner with my parents.ā He argues and you hum.Ā
You put your laptop away, turning around and sitting on your knees next to him. You look over his face for a few moments before cupping his face and kiss him once. Jiseok barely gets to kiss back before you pull away, leaving him blinking multiple times.
āWoah- I- okay, yes, we should kiss to make it more believable.ā He nods and you giggle.Ā
āSorry if it was sudden, I figured itās better to get it out of the way already.ā You whisper, face still close to him. The blonde looks at your features with a small nod, licking his lips. āWeāll have to take pictures to show your parents, you know?ā You say but Jiseok doesnāt really seem to be listening.Ā
Instead, he pulls you closer by your waist and starts kissing you slowly. You let out a small surprised noise but kiss back, letting out a laugh when you hear the bell ring. You pull away, hand on his chest. āI have to go.ā You whisper.Ā
āWhen are you free to hang out? We donāt have a lot of time.ā He asks barely above a whisper and you look at the sky thinking.Ā
āI have a pretty big exam on Wednesday and a project for friday-ā You wince, knowing you have to probably have dinner with his parents on the weekend.Ā
Jiseok groans, resting his head back on the tree before looking back at you. āI could pick you up when your classes end and grab some food if you want to.ā He offers and you smile nodding.Ā
āSure, I get out early today. Iāll text you.ā You say grabbing your things and turning around to look at him while walking. āPlease write down some super important things Iām supposed to know!!ā You say before rushing away.Ā
Jiseok looks at you leaving dumbfounded. This was definitelyā¦way easier than he expected it to be. He knew Gunil said youāll be down for it but he didnāt really expect things to be /this/ easy. He looks at the bag of chips you forgot to take and grabs it with a chuckle, shaking his head, feeling weirdly giddy.Ā
He smiles to himself when you send him a selfie looking bored in your class before clearing his throat and saving your number with the āmy girl <3ā ID. The day went by pretty quickly and before you knew it, you found yourself waiting for Jiseok at the main entrance.Ā
You soon came to realize that you and Jiseok actually had a lot of things in common. From music taste to shows you like, and you were pretty sure pretending with him will be easier than you imagined.Ā
āWhat do you mean you broke your arm falling off the bed??ā You laugh, eating some of the meat he grilled for you.Ā
āI used to sleep really badly!ā He defends himself with a whine, laughing too. āIām not that bad nowā¦I donāt think so.āĀ
āSo if we ever sleep together Iāll have to wear a helmet, thatās what Iām hearing.ā You tease, blush spreading across the blondeās cheeks.Ā
āWho said anything about that??āĀ
āDidnāt you say your cousinās wedding is in another city?? We canāt share bunk beds at the hotel if weāre supposed to be in a serious relationship, idiot.ā You squint amused. āHave you never had a girlfriend before??āĀ
āI have!! I swear!...a few years agoā¦.ā He winces, making you laugh hard.Ā
āHigh School relationships donāt count, oh my godā¦we have so much work to doā¦ā You shake your head with a tsk. āWhy is your mom so set on you having a girlfriend?ā You ask tilting your head with a frown.
āSheās just worried she keeps getting older and she thinks Iāll only ever be a /real man/ if I show I can be in a serious relationship, I donāt know, you know how old people get.ā Jiseok purses his lips, eating.Ā
āYou know, I think we should do method acting, itāll work faster.ā You say casually, and the blonde raises an eyebrow.
āYouāre not into me, right? Cuz this is really awkward if you are and I'm not-ā He starts and you roll your eyes.Ā
āYouāre such a dude, Jesus Christā¦remember /you/ came to me to help you out. Iām just saying because thereās still this awkwardness and we need to get rid of it quickly. We canāt afford for your parents to even have time to suspect anything. Do any of your friends know itās a lie?āĀ
āGunil was the one to come up with the idea so for now only himā¦but I think if they see us together theyāll be quick to figure it out.ā Jiseok hums, munching on his food as you scrunch your nose thinking.
āOkay, so keep up the act. All. The. Time.ā You point your finger at him squinting. āI remember Gunil telling me youāre really bad at lying so if you treat this as a lie youāll get caught.ā You explain, the blonde groaning.
āBut how am I supposed to treat it?? It IS a lie!! Oh godā¦what if everyone already knows and theyāre just messing with me??? OH MY GOD WHAT IF THEYāLL DISOWN ME-ā He starts panicking and you stare at him.
āYouā¦youāre so-ā You start but then shake your head, getting up and grabbing him by the shoulders. āKwak Jiseok! Focus!ā You complain, slightly shaking him. āYou donāt /know/ how to keep up with a lie!āĀ
āSo what am I supposed to do?!ā He asks, this time rocking his body on his own as you laugh at his dramatics.Ā
āKwak Jiseok. Look at me.ā You say in a serious tone, grabbing his face and squishing his cheeks. āDo you want to be my boyfriend?ā You ask, trying your best not to pull out your phone and take a photo of his shocked expression.Ā
āWha-but weāre not-ā He starts and you tilt your head at him with raised eyebrows, hoping he understands where youāre going with this. āW-Oh-OHHH!....Yeah! Sure!ā He nods, grinning and you scoff before kissing him shortly.Ā
āOkay. Done. Not a lie. Youāre my boyfriend. We just need toā¦catch up.ā You smile, sitting back down as you munch on your food, the other instantly relaxing at the thought that the relationship isnāt a lieā¦kinda.
āYou know, the way you tiptoe around the truth is kind of concerning.ā Jiseok purses his lips, making your lips twitch amusedly.Ā
āWell for now, itās whatās saving our ass sooooā¦ā You start and then poke your tongue out at him, the other doing the same, causing you to open your mouth, playfully offended. āOh yeah?ā You ask, before grabbing the last piece of meat off his plate and putting it on yours, giving him the middle finger.Ā
The older gasps, leaning over to take it back before you put it between your teeth but just as youāre about to bite into it he grabs the back of your neck and bites the other half, leaning back into his seat and chewing satisfied with your surprised expression. You blink a couple times and slowly eat your food, not sure why your heart skipped a beat, not caring about the man laughing as he takes a picture of you.Ā
āIāll get back at youā¦when you least expect it.ā You nod determinedly, the older asking for the check, crossing his arms.Ā
āGet back?! You started!!ā He reminds you with a chuckle, paying before getting up with you. You look at him annoyedly and poke your tongue out, only for the other to pull on it with his fingers as you groan, slapping his arm.Ā
āJerk!!ā You laugh, pushing him away playfully before going back to walking.Ā
Pretending was definitely easier once Jiseok could lie to himself that this was an actual relationship, but that didnāt mean you two were fully comfortable with each other. Not because of any weird tension but more so because you were both worried about overstepping boundaries or having the other one think you were doing too much.Ā
That is why that week, your interactions in public resumed to you two kissing each otherās cheek when meeting on the hallways or hanging out when you both had a break at the same time. Like now, when you were sitting on the grass next to Jiseok, Gunil and one of their bandmates, Seungmin.Ā
You and Seungmin didnāt have a lot of things in common, so you avoided being around him one on one, but you didnāt mind being in a group with him. After all, it was hard not to be around him when he was one of the closest to both Jiseok and Hyeongjun, one of your best friends.Ā
Seungmin and Jiseok being so close is also why you were so worried about him. If anyone could figure it out first, it would be him. You know he cares about Jiseok and wouldnāt ruin it for him but you also know that the thought of someone catching him red handed would make him absolutely lose it.Ā Ā
You werenāt going to let Jiseok know about how much Seungminās presence stresses you out, so when you heard Gunil say he was on his way with coffee, you rested your head on Jiseokās shoulder, hugging his arm. The blonde blinks at you a little confused. āAre you okay?ā He whispers worriedly, and you simply look up at him and nod shortly with a small smile.Ā
āYou two disgust me. What happened to not searching for a real relationship?? All it took was FOUR DAYS??ā Gunil complains, you and Jiseok sharing a small knowing look, letting out a small chuckle.Ā
You both decided it was a better idea if absolutely everyone believed the charade, since it meant less stress for Jiseok and more likeliness of the plan to actually work. So now, from Gunilās point of view, you two planned on having a fake relationship but actually started dating. So in his head, the only lie is how much you two have been together for.Ā
Seungmin was looking at you two quietly while sipping his coffee, analyzing the situation. The body language, the way you looked at Jiseok, the way when the blondeās screen lit up, the photo he took of you at the restaurant shows up as a lock screen. You were being observed. Heavily so.Ā
āYou know, Iām kinda mad about the fact that you didnāt tell me about this.ā The black haired man sighs, looking at his friend.Ā
āAh wellā¦it was kindaā¦unexpectedā¦I didnāt want to bring your hopes up for nothingā¦ā Jiseok grimaces, and you could physically feel him recoil at yet another lie he had to tell.Ā
Seungmin simply hums, not very convinced, but lets it go for the sake of it. You purse your lips, feeling a little guilty since technically, although not a complete lie, it wasn't a complete truth and you could feel Jiseok tense next to you. So, because youāre a good girlfriend, you squeeze his bicep reassuringly before caressing it, feeling the other relax slightly, his head resting on yours.Ā
At that, Seungminās lips twitch into a small smile, glancing at Gunil shortly. āSo how are you two going to deal with his mom?ā He frowns after having the situation explained to him, both you and Jiseok groaning in unison.Ā
āIāll go pray or somethingā¦ā You mumble, your so-called boyfriend whining. āDonāt do that! This is on you! You couldāve told your mom we just started dating! Why did you have to go to that extreme?!ā You accuse him, pointing a finger at him, earning a laugh from his friends.
āI panicked! Itās whatever! Itās done!!ā He moves his hand dismissively, whining again when you pinch his sides, doing the same to you, before you playfully smack his head, earning him pinching your arm in return. This turns into a push and pull and you are now on the grass gasping for air while laughing, begging him to stop as he is pinning you down while tickling your sides.Ā
Gunil and Seungmin share another look, knowing more than either of you two knew at that moment. And because he is such a good friend, Seungmin takes a video of it, cheering for you. āARENāT YOU SUPPOSED TO BE ON MY SIDE?ā Jiseok groans when you turn the two of you around, trying to get away from you.Ā
āNOT AFTER YOU DIDNāT TELL ME YOU GOT A GIRLFRIEND! I ACTUALLY LIKE HER MORE THAN I LIKE YOU!ā Seungmin grins, and just as you get distracted by posing for the camera, the blonde takes the opportunity to turn you two around one last time and pin your arms down. He looks down at you, the both of you breathing heavily and you look up at him, laugh slowly dying down.Ā
You donāt know when Gunil and Seungmin left, too busy looking at the way his hair fell on his eyes and the way his expression was playful but determined, and him being too busy noticing the way your chest was raising up and down or the leaf that was stuck in your hair. You stay like that for a bit, before the other clears his throat, sitting up followed by you.Ā
You scoff, brushing your clothes as you look at him annoyedly, the older smiling softly while taking the leaf out of your hair. āI think that was convincing enough.āĀ
āWas the violence necessary??ā You protest, the blonde nodding quickly with a laugh, stopping your hand as you try to smack his arm and pulling you close to him, in a way that makes your body crash into his, before he kisses you slowly. You stiff for a moment, taken aback before you kiss back, hand fidgeting with his shirt.Ā
Youāre not too sure if it was the lack of physical affection up until now or the fact that Jiseokās cologne was your favorite type, but you found yourself feeling giddy when his lips touched yours. You figured it was because after all, he was attractive and a good kisser, not because of any other hidden reasons.
Jiseok, too, figured that his heart thumping so hard he could hear it in his head and his breath shortening was because you were admittedly attractive and because he was still stressed out about the lie, not because of any other hidden reasons.Ā
You were both terribly wrong.
You pull away after a while, looking at the boy as your tongue brushes against your lower lip, letting out a shuddered breath. āWhat was that for?ā You ask in a whisper, not pulling away.
āYou wouldnāt stop being annoying.ā He breathes out, before laughing softly when you push him away with a groan, biting back a smile. āAre you free today? We should have a pop quiz.āĀ
āPop quiz?ā You giggle. āAre we going to act like weāre on the wheel of fortune?āĀ
āYeah?? Are you kidding me?? How do I know you even read my texts about all the info?? What if you are lazy and youāll be the reason for our downfall??āĀ
At that, you canāt help but laugh with skepticism. āYouāre the one about to hyperventilate at the smallest lie you tell!ā You correct, the other mocking you. āOh yeah, really mature, Kwak Jiseok. Very manly of you.ā You make fun of him while getting up, dodging his attempt to poke your sides.Ā
āI was going to go home and have a self care day since I had to stay up until five in the morning to finish the project for tomorrow, but SURE. Come over when you want to so I can kick you out when Iām tired of you.ā You suggest, walking away.
āYOU SHOULDNāT SPEAK TO YOUR BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT!ā He yells after you with a laugh, and you wave him off.Ā
āMY BOYFRIENDāS A LITTLE BITCH!!ā You yell back, giggling at his distant protests.Ā
Getting along with Jiseok came pretty naturally, you think to yourself as you were both eating some pizza while sitting on your couch, watching tv. You somehow got close enough in a few days to feel comfortable with playful banter and jokingly insulting each other. You look over to him, wondering why it is that you two never really bonded until now.Ā
And when Jiseok reaches over for the pillow next to you, eyes fixated on the screen as he mutters a small sorry when his elbow brushes your torso, you realize maybe itās just that now was the right time.Ā
Strangely, being with him felt very comforting, but the pace to which you felt yourself getting attached to him was terrifying because thereās no reason as to why you should not care about the fact that he was now rummaging through your fridge to find a can of soda before coming back on the couch.Ā
You guess thatās part of his charm as a person. Heās about the only guy you could think of that would get away with making himself at home in a strangerās house. Although, if you were to ask Jiseok, he would defend it by saying youāre not a stranger but his girlfriend, before apologizing and offering you some soda, which you gladly take.Ā
At some point you were no longer paying attention to the tv but asking each other random questions about the other.Ā
āHOW ARE YOU GOING TO FORGET I'M LACTOSE INTOLERANT?? WHAT TYPE OF GIRLFRIEND ARE YOU??ā He gasps with wide eyes when you get a question wrong.Ā
āWHA- YOU DRINK BANANA MILK LIKEā¦DAILY!!!ā You gasp, mimicking his expression. āDO YOU WANT TO DIE OR SOMETHING? DO YOU LIKE THE IDEA OF SHITTING YOURSELF TO DEATH??ā
Jiseok groans, nose scrunching in disgust as he throws his pillow at you. āTHATāS NOT THE POINT!! ITāS LIKE A CRUCIAL PART OF MYSELF!!ā āOh yeah, just like your STUPIDITY!!ā You laugh, throwing the pillow back at him, both of you getting into a pillow fight, before his phone rings.
āShit- shit shit shit MY MOM IS CALLING!ā The man lets out a squeal, jumping up from the couch.
āSo?ā You frown, fixing your hair.Ā
āVIDEO-CALLING!ā He screams, wiggling the phone in your face, pacing around. You look at him for a few moments before grabbing his wrist and dragging him into his bedroom.
āTake off your shirt.ā You instruct, the older widening his eyes even more.
āHUH?!āĀ
āJISEOK FOR FUCKāS SAKE I SAID TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT!ā You yell and the other can simply let out a small whine, doing as told as you push him on the bed to lay down on it. You mess up your hair quickly and lay half on top of him, head on his chest as your eyes stay closed and your mouth is slightly open.Ā
It takes a while for the other to understand where youāre going with this but when he finally does, he wraps his free arm around your shoulders caressing your hair and answers the phone, with a nervous laugh.Ā
āA-ah hey maā...I was just- laying down with my girlfriendā¦ā He starts and you quickly realize you need to make him shut up before he vomits the truth so you let out a small noise, hugging him tighter as you frown your eyebrows, slowly opening your eyes and looking up at him before moving up to peck his lips.Ā
Jiseok blinks a little, lips forming into a small smile before he looks over your face. āHey, did I wake you up?āĀ
āMm kinda, I felt you movingā¦ā You grumble, wiping your eyes as you squint at the phone. āOh! Hello, sorry- I didnāt know-ā You start apologizing but his mother tells you not to worry happily, saying she only wanted to check up on you two, before informing her son when exactly she will arrive and then hanging up.Ā
Jiseok finally lets out a breath heās been holding in, slamming his phone on the mattress as you laugh at him. āWas the shirtless part really necessary?ā He asks, curiously.
āYes and no. If you let me nap with you shirtless itāll let your mom know weāre really intimate in private so itās more believable weāve been dating for a while.ā You explain, the otherās lips making a circular sound, impressed at the thoughtfulness. Itās also because he looked really hot without a t-shirt on but he didnāt need to know that.
Jiseok puts on a shirt complaining about how itās too cold, but you two end up in the same position as before, neither of you moving, as you keep asking each other questions, before going over the story of how you two met and started dating.
A short while after that, you two ended up talking about the time you destroyed a theater set in middle school because of the wires in your angel costume getting stuck. Jiseok laughs with his head thrown back and his eyes closed, looking back at you.
āAre you serious?? This sounds like something out of a movie.ā You nod embarrassed, burying your head in his chest as he laughs more.
āIt was very traumatizing for me!ā You whine, patting his stomach to get him to stop making fun of you. āPlus, itās not more embarrassing than plugging in your guitar in the bass amp on the first day on the job-ā You start, smiling mischievously at his doe eyes. āMhm, thatās right, Gunil told me. He also told me you tripped on the cable and fell on top of Jungsu and you gave him a little kisss-ā You grin, puckering your lips as he groans, covering his face.Ā
āIT WASNāT A KISS MY LIPS JUST HIT HIS EYE AND IT WAS VERY PAINFUL!ā He defends himself, making you laugh even more.
āMhmmmm whatever you sayyyy boy kissserrrr!ā You giggle, letting out a surprised noise when Jiseok starts puckering his lips, moving them in a funny way, trying to get close to you. āNO GET AWAY FROM MY EYE!ā You grunt, fighting for your life as he was trying to get closer while laughing.Ā
The blonde gets on top of you trying to get closer but you manage to get control by swiping his leg with yours and turning the both of you around. āWoah-ā He breathes out impressed as you grin down at him. āHow did you-āĀ
āI watch a lot of movies.ā You nod proudly, moving your lips in the same way he did, the older snickering as he pretends to try to get away, but wraps his arms around your waist instead, looking up at you and doing the same thing trying to intimidate you.Ā
You squint, and cup his jaw, pecking him once with a loud sound, before you move to his cheek and blow a raspberry on it, earning an annoyed whine from the boy, who pulls away with squinted eyes before trying to do the same to you. However, before his lips reach your cheek you move away, making your lips touch, which turns into a mix of giggles before you peck him a few times.Ā
Jiseok mumbles something about you being gross and annoying before kissing you softly, as your arms find their way around his neck. The kiss started innocently, really. The problem was that neither of you knew when it was the right time to stop so you simplyā¦did not stop.
You hug Jiseok closer, one arm around his neck as the other moves in his hair, the man breathing in as his arms wrap tighter around your waist. Kissing Jiseok was intoxicating. He was annoyingly good at it, and it felt addictive so instead of pulling away, you tentatively pull on his bottom lip, earning a small sigh from the blonde.Ā
Now that you think of it, this was a good idea. After all, you needed to practice intimacy and it would definitely be awkward if you two never even properly made out before meeting his parents.Ā
Jiseok seems to have the same idea, because his hands grip on your waist just a little tighter and his kisses get slightly needier. You caress his jaw before playing with his lip, breathing heavily as you open your eyes.Ā
When you do, you think to yourself this is what heaven must look like, because his cheeks were rosy and lips puffy and his hair was messily falling on his face as he was looking at you with a hazed expression.Ā
The older licks his lips, looking over your face, eyes quickly moving back to your lips, hands wanting to leave your waist so badly but never doing so. And when you sit on his lap more properly as his back rests against the headboard, he finds himself quickly breaking out of his trance in panic.Ā
You look over Jiseokās face innocently, before grabbing his hand and moving it on your ass. āIf you want your parents to believe weāre dating, youāre gonna have to start touching me like a boyfriend.ā
āBut my parents arenāt here now-ā The blonde breathes out, hand frozen in place. You tilt your head at him unimpressed, moving closer to him.
āNot now, but what are you going to do when they see you flinch every time I touch you?ā You ask, hand going into his hair.
āI just donāt wanna make you uncomfortableā¦ā He answers blushing, hand on your thigh again, so you press your chest on his.Ā
āIf I was uncomfortable I wouldnāt be telling you to grab my ass. Stop worrying about making me uncomfortable, just act the way youād act with your real girlfriend, your parents are gonna know if youāre pretending, theyāre not stupid.ā You whisper looking down at him and the blonde licks his lips debating internally for a few moments before moving his hand on your ass and pulling you closer, hand gripping on it before kissing you slowly.Ā
āMm-thatās more like it.ā You whisper smiling, grabbing his hair while kissing him back, pretending your stomach didnāt turn at the action. This kiss wasnāt innocent anymore and you both knew it, because your chest was now pressed on his chest as you hugged his neck, letting out a small noise.
āWe shouldā¦ā The blonde pulls away shortly, breathing heavily, but before he can continue you pull him in another kiss because you really couldnāt not kiss him.Ā
āMhm..ā You agree, grinding once on him while kissing him more passionately when his hands grab your ass as he leans over you to kiss you back, a small moan leaving both of your lips.Ā
The room was filled with heavy breaths and pants, and you really didnāt know how much of it you could handle anymore. Thankfully, a loud knock on the door makes the both of you jump away from the kiss, laughing slightly at the jumpscare.Ā
āI should get that.ā You whisper and Jiseok nods, pecking you one last time. You hold back a smile, patting his chest once and getting the door after fixing your hair slightly, frowning.Ā
āHey uh-sorry⦠my shower isnāt working, is it cool if I use yours? Please? I just came back from the gym and I feel like a sewer rat-ā Jungsu, your neighbor, asks shily. āYouāre the only person in this building I trust not to strangle me with the shower curtain.āĀ
āTheyāre messing with the water again?? I swear to fucking god-ā You groan but nod understandingly as you let him in. āDid you call maintenance?ā You ask, walking him into your living room.Ā
āYeah, theyāre not picking up, you know how they are. Iāll try again tomorrow, If I knew I wouldāve showered at the gym.ā He scoffs, grabbing his towel and pajamas.Ā
You were about to ask more about the issue, when the door of your room opens, a very confused and slightly bothered Jiseok looking between the two of you. āWhat the fu-āĀ
āOh, youāre here?? Shit, hi man, I didnāt know- did I interrupt something or-ā He asks, partially worried and partially teasing after greeting the younger.
āNo.ā You say, at the same time as Jiseok says āYes.ā You give the blonde a death stare but smile and wave at Jungsu, encouraging him to go into the bathroom.Ā
āWhyās my keyboardist in your apartment at 11PM?ā Your fake-boyfriend raises an eyebrow, arms crossed as he comes closer to you.Ā
āHis showerās not working so I let him use mine like the good neighbor I am, why?ā You reply mimicking his actions, getting closer to him as well. āHow come you never told me you two are neighbors?ā Jiseok asks, irritation clear in his voice as he looks down at you. āAnd canāt he just wait it out and shower in the morning at the gym or something? Was this really necessary?ā He scoffs, eyes rolling.Ā
āWha-oh my godā¦ā You grin, covering your mouth amused. āYouāre jealous!ā You point at him, the blondeās cheeks instantly getting red as he coughs trying to deny your accusations.Ā
āNo Iām not! I just- think itās a bad look! If you let people like that in your apartment at nightā¦and they know you have a boyfriend- I mean- what will they /say/ about us?? And you??ā He whisper yells, eyes widened as you nod sarcastically.
You look up at him, arms still crossed as you get close enough for your arms to touch his. āJiseok?ā You whisper grinning, earning a hum from the other. āYouāre jealous.ā You repeat, but peck his lips once before he could protest. āYouāre so so jealous.ā You tease more, feeling giddy at the idea of the other getting jealous over something so stupid, especially when he doesnāt really have a reason to since you two are not actuallyā¦dating.Ā
āI told you Iām not youāre just not mindfu-ā He starts debating, but you smile more, cupping his cheeks and kissing him softly, the blonde playfully pulling away the first few times before you let out a small whine, squishing his cheeks. He lets out a small chuckle, arms looping around your waist, as you caress his jaw, feeling him smile softly in the kiss.Ā
āBetter?ā You whisper knowingly, pecking him a couple times as you look up at him, face still close to his. He was about to give a snarky reply before you two heard someone clear their throat behind you, making you pull away and look at Jungsu, the blonde keeping one of his arms around your waist, your back on his chest.Ā
āWell uh- thanks for letting me use the shower and sorry again- see you tomorrow at practice!!ā He chimes, hurriedly getting his things, as you purse your lips, holding back a smile at Jiseokās death stare.Ā
āDo you want to stay over for dinner?ā You ask, purely out of curiosity as to what your so-called boyfriendās reaction will be. Jiseok runs his tongue in the inside of his cheek, smiling at you sarcastically as you give him an innocent look.Ā
āAh su-ā Jungsu starts but then blinks fastly a couple times, coughing. āI mean itās already late and I have food at home, so-yeah-bye!!ā The older man corrects, and when he leaves you turn around to see the blondeās scary expression, making you laugh as you kiss his cheek.Ā
āI canāt believe you scared your bandmate off because youāre jealous.ā You giggle, closing the door and walking into the kitchen to heat up some food.Ā
āI didnāt do it because Iām jealous, I did it because heās annoying and he has a home.ā He bites, following you into the kitchen.Ā
āDonāt /you/ have a home?ā You raise an eyebrow, the other blinking.
āOh I figured Iād crash over since itās late if thatās okay-ā He starts but you interrupt him.Ā
āYou know, considering youāre my FAKE boyfriend, you wanna be around me too much. Iām starting to think you actually like me.ā You joke, but you can see Jiseokās smile drop, expression and demeanor instantly changing.Ā
You part your lips, feeling a pang in your chest, and you get reminded just how much this isnāt real. He says he remembers he has to study for an exam tomorrow, which you know is a lie but you have no choice other than to give him a small nod and tell him to get a good nightās sleep.
Jiseok barely looks at you as he nods and then grabs his things, leaving you staring at the door, guilt suddenly filling your chest. From the looks of it, lying came easier to Jiseok now, and youāre starting to dislike being the reason for it.
He gets home annoyedly dropping his bag on the floor, Hyeongjun choosing to stay quiet, knowing the blonde will eventually talk about it if he feels like it. But Jiseok doesnāt. He doesnāt have anything to talk about. Hell, he doesn't even have a reason to feel as angry as he does right now. When his screen lights up with a notification and he sees your face on the screen, all he can do is put his phone on the mattress face down as he groans, hands covering his face.Ā
āFucking hell, Jiseok. Get it together, dude.ā He whispers to himself, rubbing his eyes with a sigh. And because he is a very mature and in tune with his emotions type of man, he puts his phone on battery-saving mode so the lock screen would turn black and he could avoid looking at your picture for as long as possible, walking to the living room with his guitar in his hand.
āCan we play?ā He asks the other guitarist, who was quietly watching tv in the living room while eating some snacks. Hyeongjun looks over his face for a few moments but decides to simply give the other a short nod before getting up and grabbing his own guitar, setting everything up. If Jiseok needed to angrily strum at 2AM to feel better then so be it.Ā
You lay in your bed, trying to ignore the lump in your throat while thinking about the interaction from earlier. You didnāt mean for it to sound as harsh as it did and now that you look back on it, it was a stupid thing to say in the first place.Ā
You liked Jiseok. It took a date for you to know you did, so why you impulsively said something you knew although real would only make things more uncomfortable, was something you couldnāt explain.Ā
Well maybe you can. You were sure of /your/ feelings, but you were also painfully aware of /his/ feelings, simply by how many times he has repeatedly said he isnāt looking for an actual relationship.Ā
You didnāt necessarily have a crush on him from day one, you always found him attractive and thought he was cute but it was left at that. Until you got to know him, and realized he was annoyingly perfect. Perfect and out of reach.Ā
This whole thing genuinely started as a fun acting gig, but youāre too grown to pretend that the butterflies in your stomach whenever he looks at you or kisses you are from method acting.Ā
You glance at your phone on the nightstand and consider calling. Instead, you settle for tapping the screen every five minutes to look at his picture, considering whether heād think youāre a weirdo if you showed up at his place to apologize.Ā
Jiseok was strumming the guitar as the other was playing the lead concentrated, both of them choosing to simply enjoy each otherās company instead of talking, as you were turning around from one side to the other, trying to fall asleep.Ā
You scoff, turning on your back, cursing to yourself before you get up, grabbing your phone and keys, not bothering to change as you walk out of the house, praying Hyeongjun is asleep so you wouldnāt have to deal with his judgy look.Ā
Turns out, he was in fact, not asleep, because a few moments after knocking the door, he swung the door open, blinking a couple times in surprise.Ā
āIs Jiseok home?ā You ask embarrassed, almost mumbling. Your friend seems to put together two pieces of a missing puzzle together mentally as he gives you a short nod, stepping away so you could enter.Ā
You purse your lips, wincing slightly when Hyeongjun gives you a side eye with a raised eyebrow, walking into his room after picking up his guitar. The blonde was too caught up in the song he was currently playing while sitting on the couch to notice you standing next to him.Ā
When you call his name barely above a whisper, his head shoots up, looking at you with his blonde hair falling on his face. You part your lips, feeling your heartbeat speed up as you look at his oversized band shirt, his plump lips and tired eyes.Ā
His eyes flutter for a few moments, mouth slightly opened in surprise. āWh-āĀ
āIām sorry.ā You say boldly, guilt obvious in your voice. āAbout earlierā¦ā You clarify, noticing the way the olderās adam apple moves as he gulps once, taking the guitar off his shoulder, still trying to process everything.
āShit am I having anger hallucinations right now-ā He mumbles to himself, patting his cheek a couple times, making you let out a small laugh, shaking your head. He is so stupid. So very stupid and so very cute.Ā
āIām seriousā¦Iām sorry If itās weird I came over at this hour I justā¦didnāt know if youād pick up if I calledā¦ā You continue, the taller not moving away from his spot. āI didnāt mean for it to sound like thatā¦I-I didnāt mean it in a-ā You ramble but the blonde smiles softly, looking over your face. āWhat?āĀ
āNothing.ā He whispers, as he lets you ramble away how sorry you are all over again. Except, heās not listening. How could he when your hair is a mess, youāre wearing stupid cat pajamas and you look as cute as you do when youāre stressed?Ā
How could he when youāre the only person to walk all the way to his house to apologize as soon as you fucked up because youāre not immature and annoying? How could he when you looked so pretty right now and he liked you so much?Ā
He liked you. He likes you. Heās been liking you, and itās so silly how what made him come to terms with it was you coming to his house, close to crying, at two in the morning, because you said something kinda mean.
So, as you keep rambling anxiously, he gets up and cups your jaw with one hand, leaning down and kissing you softly to shut you up. You let out a small whimper, not expecting this type of reaction, but kiss in no time, hands gently holding his shirt. Jiseok smiles slightly, pulling you closer by your waist as you sigh in the kiss, hugging his waist.Ā
Jiseok felt things he never even knew he could feel when you pulled him closer by the waist, his arms hugging your neck before pecking you a couple more times, resting his forehead on yours.Ā
āAre we okay?ā You whisper, earning a small nod from the older, because asking why he did it might have given you an answer you didnāt want to hear like oh Hyeongjun is at home, he might overhear if we explain it more or oh i thought we were still supposed to do method acting.Ā
Your lips form a small pout, feeling a weight be lifted off your shoulders as you bury your head in the crock of his neck, hugging him with your eyes closed. The older one bites back a smile, cheek on your head while hugging you back. āThanks.ā He starts, glancing at you when you shoot him a questioning look. āFor apologizing.ā He finishes, kissing your cheek before pulling away as he clears his throat. After all, you were right. Even if he knew he liked you, he had no proof you felt the same way.Ā
You find yourself smiling to yourself as Jiseok unplugs his guitar, forcing a neutral expression when he turns around to look at you.
āRight wellā¦I should uh-leave. Itās really late.ā You nod quickly, thinking that was the end of it, since the older was putting away the amp, when you hear his voice interrupt the silence.Ā
āStay.ā He says simply, walking back to you. āItās really late.ā He repeats after you, and this time you canāt hold back a smile, whispering a small okay before offering to help him put away his guitar.
āArenāt you scared your neighbors could call the police on you for making noise at 2AM?ā You ask curiously as you wrap the guitar cable around your arm.Ā
āTheyāve done worse.ā Jiseok answers indifferently. āWhy? Would you call the police on me?ā He squints, pointing a pick at you.Ā
āIād actually probably be the one to be really annoying and play. If I knew how to.ā You clarify with a small giggle, Jiseokās eyes instantly lighting up.Ā
āWant me to teach you?ā The guitarist asks excitedly, and god he looked kisseable.
āNowā¦?ā You frown amused as the other nods fastly, grabbing his guitar in one hand and your wrist in the other, walking to his room. You whisper yell at him to be careful so Hyeongjun won't curse you out.Ā
The other hits his foot just as you finish the sentence once he puts his guitar down, about to let out a scream. You widen your eyes covering his mouth to muffle the noise, body crashing onto him as he stumbles on the bed with you on top of him, both of you laughing softly.Ā
āAre you alright?ā You ask between snickers, the guitarist shaking his head and playing dead. āYouāre so-ā You start but yelp when he wraps his arms around you blowing a raspberry on your neck, making you squirm with a whine as you playfully smack his arm.Ā
The blonde looks at you smiling, kissing you once before grabbing his guitar and putting it on your lap, taking a picture while giggling at your confused face. It doesnāt take long for the pick to fly out of your hand and you two spend a good five minutes looking around the bed for it.
āHere. Be careful, itās like the last one I have.ā He scoffs, handing it to you.
āArenāt you supposed to have more than oneā¦?ā You frown confused.
āI do! Well. I used to! They justā¦keep fucking disappearing on meā¦I got a new pack just last week.ā He winces, earning a small laugh from you.
He gets behind you, breath hot against your neck as he positions your fingers on the fretboard, explaining terminology you could not be bothered to care about right now. Not when you could smell his cologne, overly aware that all it would take to kiss him is turning your head around.Ā
āDidnāt you say you have an exam tomorrow?ā You ask, strumming slowly as Jiseok moves his fingers on the fretboard after you complained about it being too hard.
āI lied.ā He replies casually. āHad a really good teacher.ā He teases, talking in your ear, sending shivers down your spine. You know he didnāt mean much with it, but you couldnāt stop thinking about it so after quietly strumming for a while, you speak up.
āJiseok?ā You ask carefully, head turning to look at him, breath hitching when he locks his eyes with yours with a curious hum. āI know it might come off as ironic, but can I ask something of you?ā You purse your lips, nervously.Ā
āYeah, sure, what is it?ā The older frowns, arms wrapping around your waist from behind, and your stomach turns upside down.Ā
āCan you please not lie to me even though you got better at it?ā You plead softly, feeling your heartbeat in your head. You felt nervous heād think youāre being dramatic or maybe tell you this is your fault, but instead he gives you a sincere nod.
āI wonāt.ā He reassures you, lightly squeezing you once. You give him a grateful smile, and strum some more, the older resting his chin on your shoulder as he goes on. āThat applies to you too, you know? Youāre a bigger threat because youāre freakishly good at lying.ā
āI never lied to you.ā You admit, glancing at his fingers grazing over the strings. āHave no reason to do so.ā
At some point, your back ended up pressed on Jiseokās chest as he leaned against the headboard, arms wrapped around you as he played a slow song on guitar. You smile softly, drifting to sleep, not noticing the way the otherās lips curl into a loving smile as he kisses your temple.Ā
You get woken up by a knock on the door, Hyeongjunās voice warning about how late it is. You frown as you stretch, slowly opening your eyes, only to realize you fell asleep against Jiseokās chest, his guitar still on your lap as his mouth was parted, head resting on the headboard.Ā
Your eyes light up as you let out a small snicker, taking a couple pictures, before poking his cheeks, eventually making him wake up with a confused expression, eyes widening when he sees you.Ā
āHoly shit-ā He coughs, trying to make sense of the situation before he notices the guitar and your pajamas, letting out an annoyed groan. āSo thatās why my neck was hurting.ā He complains, hugging your waist as he buries his head in your neck.Ā
āDonāt you have classes today?ā You ask with a whine, when he pulls you down to lay with him fully.
āIām just gonna skipā¦ā He mumbles, pecking your neck once, your body jerking in surprise.Ā
āI have to go.ā You reply, trying to pull away but not being able to as the blonde squeezes you closer to him. āJiseok let go, I need to go home, I'm still in my pajamas!ā You grunt as your arms push on his biceps.Ā
āCanāt you skip?ā He groans, snuggling more. āām in a comfortable position and if you move away iāll have to figure out another position.ā He complains, as if that was a good enough reason for you to miss class. āWhy even do you have to go?āĀ
āBecause! I need to be studious. Be responsible.ā You reply, knowing you still had around three hours until you had to go, since you only had a class that you could, in fact, skip. You were going to pull away but when Jiseok looked up at you with a sleepy expression, messy hair and wrinkled shirt, you started doubting yourself. āAnd even if I skip, I have to shower.ā You try to convince yourself more than him.Ā
āYou can shower here.ā He debates, and you tilt your head unimpressed.Ā
āWhat about the clothes?ā You squint, and the other shrugs, holding you closer, lips close to yours.Ā
āYou can take mine.ā You blink, lips parting at the boldness, not really knowing what to think of it. Sure, you agreed to keep up the act at all times, but Jiseok was getting disturbingly good at acting as if he genuinely had feelings for you.Ā
āIām starting to think this was all part of your plan to mess with my routine.ā You whisper, eyes traveling down to his lips.
āThatās why weāll skip at the same time. A break from routine /and/ getting more sleep, I'm only seeing pros.ā He whispers back, hand going on your lower waist to pull you close to him, your breath hitching.Ā
āYou might not be a good liar, but youāre a really good bullshitter.ā You maintain your voice low, hand traveling from his bicep into his hair, lips almost brushing against his.Ā
āThatās why we make a good team.ā Jiseokās lips form into a small smirk, leaning closer to your face before he pulls you in a slow kiss, as you hear Hyeongjun close the front door behind him.Ā
You inhale shortly, one hand playing with his hair as the other was on his chest. You would be lying if you said that wasnāt hot, and Jiseok letting out a satisfied hum as he presses his chest on you when you kiss back really wasnāt helping.
Jiseok wraps his arm around you tighter to hug your lower back, kissing you softly but with intention, and for a moment you believed you were really kissing your lover. It hurt. Knowing you get to experience being his girlfriend but only as a trial, it made you want to cry.Ā
Instead, you chose to hug his neck more and close your eyes tighter, wanting to be as much in the moment as you could and pretend as much as possible, because thatās the only thing you could do. The older is taken aback for a bit at the sudden affection but returns it in no time by putting you half on top of him, hugging your waist with both arms securely.Ā
He doesnāt know why the kiss suddenly felt moreā¦real, but he wasnāt going to let the opportunity of pretending he is kissing his actual girlfriend go to waste, so he grazes his tongue over your bottom lip and makes sure to pour out emotions he canāt say out loud in this one kiss.Ā
You could feel tears build up in your eyes and hear your heart breaking because you started to wonder what it would be like to have this be a constant in your life. Waking up next to Jiseok, your boyfriend, cuddling, kissing as you try to pull away to start your day.Ā
The older one seems to feel that something was off, because he kisses you gently a few more times before pulling away just enough to look over your face. āAre you okay?āĀ
You open your eyes, only to be met by a blurry version of him, choosing to simply bury your head in his neck, hugging him tighter as you try to control your breathing. He sighs, pained at the sight of your hurt expression but hugs you back, hand caressing your back.Ā
āNeed to talk about it?ā He asks softly, making you shake your head.Ā
āNo, itās fineā¦Iām sorry.ā You chuckle, quickly wiping your eyes before looking up at him with a small smile.Ā
āIf I knew missing class would cause you a breakdown I wouldāve let you leaveā¦ā He purses his lips innocently, although you knew he was joking by the look in his eyes.
āYouāre soā¦ā You mutter, unable to stay serious as small giggles escape your lips, pushing the man away playfully.Ā
The guitarist grins, kissing your cheek, before getting up. āDo you want some coffee?āĀ
āWhat happened to sleeping more?ā You frown, supporting yourself by your elbows.
āYou scared my sleep away by collapsing because of a missed class, who knows whatās gonna happen if we stay in bed? What if you DIE?ā He gestures dramatically, your mouth opening offendedly as you get up, running after him.Ā
āWHAT HAPPENED TO BEING NICE TO EACH OTHER BECAUSE WEāRE DATING, KWAK JISEOK??ā You laugh, following him in the kitchen as he tries to get away, putting his hands up when heās met with a dead end.Ā
āIāM NICE BY NOT LETTING YOU DIE!ā He defends himself, breathing heavily with a smile. You flick his forehead, letting him whine as you grab two mugs, pouring the coffee in them. As he keeps talking about how unfair and terrible you are, you smile to yourself, looking at the way he reaches for the top cabinet for the sugar.Ā
Dating Jiseok was like a dream. Technically, it was a dream, because it wasnāt real. You had to keep telling yourself that as he kissed your cheek once cutely with a loud noise as apology for making you skip class, before walking into the living room.Ā
You ended up going home and showering at your own place, but it didnāt matter because you couldn't think of anything else for the rest of the day, and neither did he. He was a mess at practice, and things didnāt get better by Saturday.Ā
Especially not when you two decided to meet up a few hours before meeting with his parents, going over a few details of your ārelationshipā a few more times, just in case. And when you changed into more elegant clothes and walked out of the bathroom towards your living room where Jiseok was waiting for you, you stopped in your tracks.Ā
He looked unreal. His hair was slicked back, a few strands of blonde hair falling on his face and he was wearing a gray blazer over his white button up. āYou lookā¦ā You start, but the other was not listening because his lips were parted, looking at you up and down stunned, breaths slower and heavier.
āWoahā¦ā He breathes out, as you walk closer to the other. You look up at him shily, before fixing his tie carefully. Out of impulse, you tug on it, making him take a step closer to you, chest bumping into yours as his hand goes to your lower back.
āRemember. Weāre dating. Keep the pda appropriate but try not to flinch away when I touch you, yeah?ā You instruct seriously, the other gulping, because this was truly the hottest thing someone has ever done to him.Ā
āY-yeah-ā He stutters, unable to form an actual sentence, and you take advantage of the closeness by pulling him in a slow kiss, the blonde groaning.Ā
āWait no-ā He mumbles, pulling away embarrassed and putting distance between the two of you. You tilt your head confused until your eyes catch a glimpse of the issue, covering your mouth trying your best not to laugh at his flustered face, as he walks to the balcony after pouring himself a glass of water.
āJiseok we have to go-ā You remind him, after taking a few breaths to calm down, the other not even looking at you. You giggle, wrapping your arms around his arms from behind, hugging him while peeking at him. āYouāre cute.ā You grin, but the older simply scoffs embarrassed, looking away. You really needed to leave so you cup his cheeks and cutely peck him once, before grabbing his hand and leaving the apartment.Ā
The ride there wasā¦awkward. The air was filled with nerves and anxiety and you could see Jiseok get more and more worried as you got closer to the restaurant. You looked over his face, unsure whether comforting him by putting your hand on his knee would work or worsen the situation.Ā
āJiseok.ā You whisper, the blonde looking at you, biting on the skin near his fingernail. āItāll be alright.ā You reassure him, although you know the words wonāt change anything.
Meeting his parents was nerve wracking. For the both of you. Partially because you didnāt want to experience Jiseok having a breakdown because of getting caught but also because in your delusions they /had/ to like you because even if you canāt actually date their son, they will believe you are.Ā
His father greeted you politely but then his mother pulled you in a tight hug, excitedly saying something about you being sent from heaven for finally getting her son to change his mind. You laugh slightly uncomfortable, begging Jiseok to help you with your eyes, who was too caught up in his own head to realize.Ā
Once you sit at the table, his mother instantly starts small talk. Well, more like a police interrogation. By her demeanor, you could tell sheās not suspicious about the relationship being fake but rather extremely interested in how you convinced him to get into a relationship at all.Ā
However, regardless of the reason, you could feel your so-called boyfriend tense next to you, the grip on his water glass getting slightly tighter. āAnd how did you two meet?ā His mother asks, and you were about to go with the planned story but when Jiseokās knee started moving up and down anxiously, you decided to change the plan.Ā
āWe met through Gunil.ā You reply, putting your hand on the blondeās knee, earning a surprised look from the other, as this wasnāt what you originally talked about. Originally, you were going to say that you two met at a concert and then kept bumping into each other, but seeing the way the older was close to sweating, you chose to say the truth. Kind of.
āOh?? You know Gunil?ā His mother asks, surprised, and you nod as you caress Jiseokās knee gently from under the table.
āHeās one of my best friends. Jiseok needed help with girl problems and since he didnāt know how to solve it, Gunil recommended he talks to me and then we justā¦got along. Kept hanging out.ā You smile politely, turning your head and looking into Jiseokās eyes, who let out a small relieved breath, instantly calming down.Ā
āAnd then I kept trying to find reasons to be around her.ā The older whispers, and he looked strangely sincere as you smiled, choosing not to think about the pain in your chest.
You look back at his mom, who was very moved by the whole thing, especially as you mentioned how you had to grab his face and confess first because he wouldnāt. Which was also not really a lie, since the day you agreed to keep up the act full-time, you had to be the one to seal the deal.Ā
āHeās not giving you a hard time, is he?ā The woman asks, sipping on her wine as you shake your head with a playful sigh.
āItās so hardā¦ā You barely get to say that, before Jiseok complains about how youāre mean and theyāll think he sucks as a boyfriend. You grin, turning to him and mocking him, letting a small noise in surprise when the older pecks your lips once, making you blush and shut up, slightly ducking your head.Ā
Dinner was going well, your hand never leaving Jiseokās knee unless it was to sip on your drink. āDid he talk to you about the wedding?ā His father asks and you nod shortly, glancing at the man next to you when you feel his hand go to yours, fingers interlocking with yours as he caresses your knuckles for some comfort.Ā
āI already talked to my parents about the trip, so there wonāt be any issues, but I wanted to ask when I was supposed to get the trip tickets?ā You frown, genuinely curious as you realize you and Jiseok didnāt actually talk about the whens and hows of the wedding.
āOh, donāt be silly! Weāll drive you there!ā His mother smiles, making you blink quickly.Ā
āOh thatās fine you donāt have to-ā You start, anxious at the thought of having to be stuck with his parents in a car for hours, making sure you donāt say anything that could blow your cover.
āI uh- actually already got the tickets.ā Jiseok speaks up, and you widen your eyes at him. He is lying. āI thought it would be better if you guys didnāt have to worry about it, and I want to spend some time with her before the wedding since Iāll be busy with best man things when we get there.ā He finishes, and you look over his face, not believing how well heās handling this.Ā
āOh, thatās great too, speak to Jooyeon and make sure he sends you the details since weāll already be there a few days earlier to help with preparations.ā His father nods, and then you all keep eating as if nothing.Ā
When his parents aren't looking, you look at your fake-boyfriend, who simply gives you a quick wink as he squeezes your hand once. Somehow, /you/ were the nervous one because what do you mean, you need to be stuck all alone on a trip with him, having him look all boyfriend and having no one else around so you could find an excuse to actually act the way you want to? You were so fucked.Ā
When dinner was done, his parents offered to drive you two home but Jiseok insisted on walking, saying he wants to spend some more time with you since he missed you. Liar. He saw you a day ago, and itās not like he actually wanted to be more around you, he just didnāt want them to ask more questions.Ā
Except he did want to be around you some more, because at dinner he understood that he can really rely on you, from the way you tried to comfort him to the way you chose to kind of say the truth just to make sure he doesnāt feel too overwhelmed. He was gone. He was so gone.Ā
āYour mom doesnāt seem as bad as you made her seem.ā You smile softly, walking besides him as you hug your arms.Ā
āSheās not a bad mom. Just a veryā¦pushy future-grandma.ā He smiles back, making you laugh.Ā
āSo you /do/ want to give her grandkids.ā You tease, the taller throwing his head back.Ā
āIf I donāt she might die of heartbreak.ā The older replies, taking off his jacket. āPlus, I never said I donāt want to get married. Or have kids. I just don't want itā¦/now/.ā He corrects, putting his blazer over your shoulders. āSheās just scared that by the time I do want it, itāll be too late for her.ā He continues, and when he sees your pout, he adds with a smile. āShe is also perfectly healthy and simply overreacting.āĀ
āWhy donāt you want to date?ā You tilt your head, walking closer to him as you put your hands in the pockets of the blazer. āAre you too cool and smart for us mortals?ā You joke.Ā
Jiseok looks at you weirdly, poking your side. āIām not that much of an ass!ā He defends himself, shaking his head. āI just donāt knowā¦I feel like itās a lot of work. Seungminās in a relationship and I hear about the fights and the jealousy and all that and it just seems like a headacheā¦and the relationships I've had before werenāt that good soā¦ā He shrugs, looking at the street lights.
āAhā¦youāre scared about the bad parts.ā You hum, glancing at him. āDonāt you think that there will be more good than bad if youāre with the right person, though?āĀ
Jiseok swallows, looking over your face, before turning his attention to the street again. āIām not against it. If I were to find someone that wouldnāt make me feel like Iām difficult to love.ā He says in a joking manner, but you could hear the hint of hurt and insecurity in his voice.Ā
Jiseok was always easy-going and fun, and quite frankly the best person to have around because he knew how to make people feel good. He wasnāt scared of vulnerability, but he was careful with whom he shared it with, something you know from Gunil. You couldnāt help but feel pride, knowing he feels comfortable enough to open up even if itās a little and disguised as a joke.Ā
Maybe, although you canāt be his lover, you could stay in his life as a friend, because having him as a friend is way better than never talking to him again after this whole charade is over.Ā
You didnāt know what to say, so you simply chuckle and keep walking, when Jiseok speaks up again. āThanks for tonight.āĀ
āThat was the deal, wasnāt it?ā You beam, looking up at him.
āI meant for telling the truthā¦sort of.ā He clarifies, stopping in front of your apartment. You look over his face, feeling your heart beat faster when the guitarist nods his head towards the entrance. āYou should go inside, youāre freezing.ā He whispers, and you wish you had an excuse to ask him to stay over or kiss him goodnight, but you donāt so you simply smile softly.
āGoodnight, Jiseok.ā You whisper back, your bodies too close to each other. And because Jiseok likes nothing more than to unknowingly make you suffer, he leans down and kisses your cheek once before leaving. You look at his figure getting further and purse your lips, wishing he did more than that.Ā
Jiseok takes the long way home, trying to figure out how heās supposed to justā¦stop being around you after the wedding. Heās already used to the daily texts, the banter and the kissing, and he really wishes there would be a way for this to just keep going. Maybe if he pretends his mother will move into the city so you two have no other choice than to keep this up for a long time.Ā
He chuckles to himself, shaking his head as he gets into his shared house, and takes a long shower. Having feelings for you was easy. Knowing what to do with those feelings was a whole different conversation.Ā
He was the one to be annoying about how much this will not develop into something serious and yet here he is, at three in the morning, looking at the pictures in his phone like the stupid boy he is. He tears up that night. For the first time, he understands that he brought this upon himself.Ā
He is stupid and in love and you probably are thinking of this as a fun acting job while hanging out with a friend. Except, you aren't. You are sad and in love and wondering if he would run away and move cities if you brought up the idea of actually being together.Ā
You two already did almost everything couples did, what is the difference between the fake and real thing? Is there even a difference at this point?Ā
The charade kept going like this for two more weeks. You two hanging out, learning more about each other, texting, kissing, and you started to wonder if Jiseok too, wants to learn more about you because he is interested in you the way you are, not because of a deal you two have.Ā
āCan we talk?ā You ask Gunil one evening, on your way to one of their shows.Ā
āYeah, whatās up?ā The older frowns, getting in the car. You purse your lips, debating whether or not you should come clean with things. You knew that you agreed to make everyone believe itās real, but you really needed a friend, just one person, that you could be honest with and talk about whatās on your mind.
You didnāt want to go to Hyeongjun, because you knew him well enough to predict his answer: just confess, talk it out. He was simple like that, and most times itās exactly what you needed but right now, you didnāt think you could handle his boldness although you knew he did it out of love and that it did, in fact, always work as a wake up call.
Gunil, however, was more fit for it this time around. Especially since he came up with the idea and after all, also knows Jiseok way better than Hyeongjun. The only thing making you not worry about the outcome, is the fact that he knew youād rather deal with your own problems instead of having him go on a spy mission to figure out if Jiseok likes you back.Ā
āI like Jiseok. A lot.ā You breathe out, eyes closed. The drummer smiles to himself, stopping at a red light.
āI know.ā The older replies, making you shake your head with a sigh.
āNo I mean- weāre not actually dating we just decided to make everyone think we are so itāll be easier for him to play along with it but we arenāt and weāre supposed to stop this once the wedding is done but I-ā You ramble in one breath, Gunil glancing at you knowingly, before looking at the road again.
āI know.ā He repeats, amused at your stressed out expression.
āWhat do you mean you KNOW??? Did he tell you about it already?? THAT LIAR!ā You groan, the other letting out a laugh.
āNo, I just know you two. Youāre both idiots and you might be good liars, but you suck ass at hiding things from me.ā He answers, looking behind him as he parks the car next to the building they were supposed to perform at. āI was the one to suggest this to him, so I figured that when you said youāre actually together it was to make it more believable. Iām not that dense, you know?ā He smiles, taking the keys out of the car.
āWhy didnāt you say anything?ā You blink, unbuckling your seatbelt.Ā
āYouāre right about him handling it easier like this. And with you, your feelings are your feelings, thatās none of my business, you know?ā He hums, turning to look at you. āBut is it that bad that you like him for real?āĀ
āYeah, it is.ā You sigh, looking up as you swallow down the lump in your throat. āHe doesnāt want a relationship, I knew it when we started this whole thing. I was fine with it too, I never really paid attention to him like that, he was justā¦one of your bandmates.āĀ
āHow do you know he wouldnāt want to make it real?ā The older man tilts his head, choosing to stay in the car with you until you finish the conversation.Ā
āBecause heās said itā¦so many times tooā¦ā You look down with a small voice. āThe only reason heās so comfortable with me is because he knows he wonāt have to worry about all the drama that a real relationship brings. He likes me because he knows I donāt like him.āĀ
Gunil sighs, thinking for a few seconds before continuing the conversation. āDo you want advice or just to vent?āĀ
āAs long as the advice isn't to go talk to him, whatever you want.ā You mumble, making the drummer let out a laugh.
āYou kids are so difficultā¦no wonder you look so good together.ā He smiles to himself, shaking his head once again. āWellā¦if you donāt talk to him, you have two choices. You either somehow get him to explicitly confess his true feelings for you once and for all, good or bad, orā¦you slowly try to detach yourself from him and the situation by the time the wedding is over.āĀ
āArenāt you supposed to be the mature one? None of those plans sound mature and responsible.ā You squint, the other letting out a laugh.Ā
āWell, my mature and responsible advice would be the same as Hyeongjunās and since you donāt want that, thatās the best I can offer.ā He answers unimpressed and you groan. Your phone rings with a notification from Jiseok saying heās on his way, and you close to tear up.
Gunil opens his arms and pulls you into a tight hug as you pout, thanking him. Jiseok stops by the entrance, seeing the drummer's car but just as he was about to walk up to him, he notices the hug, jealousy piling up in his chest. āWhatās with them?ā Jungsu asks curiously from beside Jiseok, looking at the way Gunil ruffles your hair once before getting out of the car.Ā
āThe fuck do I care?ā Jiseok mumbles annoyedly, walking inside the venue and setting everything up, avoiding everyone until it was time to perform. You were in the first few rows and you kept looking at Jiseok and his perfectly styled hair and red guitar, but the other was looking everywhere but your direction.
Thatās how the concert went. You look at Jiseok, and Jiseok looks at everyone else. You didnāt know what happened, but you started to get worried that maybe he /knows/ and just doesnāt want anything to do with you. Things get worse when you notice a girl in the front row cheering for him, the guitarist giving her a quick wink.
Asshole, youāre supposed to be taken. You think to yourself, pretending that when at the end of the gig he gave her his pick when she asked for it, you werenāt about to throw up in jealousy.Ā
When they step off the stage and go to the side, greeting and thanking people for coming, you notice the girl from before going to Jiseok first, excitedly talking to him. He brushes his hair back and laughs at something she said and if looks could kill, they would both be dead by now.Ā
The other guys glance at each other and thatās when you see Gunil open his mouth as if having a realization, when Jiseok gives him a dirty look while talking to the girl. The drummer canāt help but chuckle because of course heād be stupid enough to get jealous over a hug.Ā
You were debating whether to let it slide or not but then you remembered. He was the one who needed to keep up the act at all times so if he wanted you to act like his girlfriend, you will do it even when it doesnāt benefit him.Ā
You walk up to the guys, crossing your arms as you look at Jiseok. āCould I have your number?ā The girl asks, and you clear your throat, making the both of them look at you, the other guys holding back a laugh.Ā
āOh- hi uh, sorry were you waiting in line for too long?ā She asks apologetically, and you smile politely, shaking your head before glaring at the guitarist.Ā
āNo, donāt worry, I can wait for him. Just wanted to ask if he was gonna be taking long.ā
āOh, you guys know each other?ā The girl smiles and Jiseok purses his lips, finally realizing what this is about.Ā
āYeah.ā Is all Jiseok says, but you raise your eyebrows, arms crossed. Thatās all? Thatās all he had to say??? What type of fake-boyfriend is he??
āYeah, I just wanted to let my boyfriend know I have to go.ā You say bitterly, admittedly hurt at his behavior. You knew you werenāt actually dating but if everyone else thought you were, how was he flirting with random people a good look?Ā
Jiseok parts his lips, about to speak but is interrupted by you speaking to the girl, still looking at him. āDonāt worry, Itās not your fault. You couldnāt have known, itās not like he told you.ā Is all you say before leaving, trying to get out of the place before someone sees you crying.Ā
It hurt. It hurt so much. Not only because it was stupid of him but because this was confirmation that he didnāt feel anything about you, because if he truly likes you, he wouldnāt let others flirt with him.Ā
You tear up, sniffling as you walk to the bus station, hating how involved you got yourself in this mess.Ā
Jiseok blinks once the words leave your mouth, exhaling before cursing to himself, apologizing before putting the guitar over his shoulder and rushing outside, trying to look for you. Heās stupid, so so stupid. He let himself get jealous over a fucking hug and then acted like an asshole just to prove a point.Ā
He shouldnāt think much of it. After all, you might have made a scene just to keep up the whole girlfriend persona, but something about the tone of your voice made him uneasy. He walks to the nearest bus station hurriedly, and lets out a relieved breath when he spots you on the bench.Ā
You quickly wipe your tears, looking at the cars passing by as you wait for the bus, when you feel someone sit besides you, smelling a familiar cologne. You turn your head around, only to be met with an out of breath and very guilty looking Jiseok. You gulp before looking in front of you again, the other sighing with his eyes closed, trying to find the right words.Ā
He canāt seem to find them though, so he does the next best thing that goes through his head and cups your jaw, making you look at him before he kisses you softly. You donāt kiss back, because the last thing you need right now is to let even more of your emotions for him take control.Ā
You pull away but keep your eyes on him, the older sighing. āIām sorry.ā You hum with a small nod, before looking back at the street.Ā
āI know weāre not actually together, but you were the one to be so serious about making sure others believe us. I donāt think flirting with other people while your friends know you have a girlfriend is a good look on us. Or you.ā You say coldly, not wanting to look at him because you know youāll forgive him if you do.
āI-ā He starts but then frowns. āI know, but itās not a good look if you do it either.ā He says childishly, copying your stance.
You blink a couple times, looking at him surprised. āWhat are you talking about?āĀ
āYou and Gunil. In the car. It looked really bad. Not like I care.ā He scoffs, making you widen your eyes. He canāt be serious. āIf you like him and heās fine with us keeping up an act until the wedding itās whatever, but the others-āĀ
āYou canāt possibly mean the hug. Please tell me you donāt mean the hug.ā You gape dumbfounded, not believing the words that are coming out of the otherās mouth.
āIt looked like a very intimate hug.ā He mumbles, kicking a rock with his foot.Ā
āSo you thought the best way to go about it was to flirt with someone too?ā You raise your voice in disbelief.
āSo you /were/ flirting!ā He widens his eyes, pointing at you. You widen your eyes too, covering your face with a groan.Ā
āNo I wasnāt! But you know who was?? You!!ā You accuse, pointing your finger at him as well.
āHow was I flirting??? We were just talking and suddenly she wanted my number!ā He defends himself, putting his hands up. āYou!! You were all over Gunil!! Feeling his muscles!! The guys saw it, they probably think iām such a lame boyfriend you arenāt satisfied enough!! It ruined my rep!!ā He whines.
āYour REP??ā You scoff, rolling your eyes. āYour rep is that of a stupid idiot, thatās your rep.ā You grumble. āYou were the one to give her your pick!āĀ
āWhat does that have to do with anything?? How is that flirting??? Iām just being a cool artist and interacting with my fans!!ā He debates, getting up.Ā
āWell you could interact less! Took you long enough to say you have a girlfriend!!ā You complain, getting up as well. āWhat?? You think we have to keep this up only when itās convenient for you?? You were the one that wanted to pretend itās real! That includes turning down people that flirt with you until the wedding is done!! And not give them your pick!!ā You point out annoyedly.Ā
Jiseok bites back a smile, hands on his hips. āDo we need to have the whole dramatic jealousy relationship fight too?? Canāt we skip it??ā He whines, throwing his head back.
āOh no, no no! Donāt put this on me, Kwak Jiseok! You know Iām right! Itās your fuck up, you fix it.ā You nod and Jiseokās heart hurts. It hurts with love because youāre so cute and your nose is pink and he never thought he would ever experience having a fight with someone while the only thing on his mind was how much he wants to kiss said person.Ā
āWhat?!ā You ask angrily when you see him break into a huge grin, but instead of answering, the man simply pulls you close to him by your belt loops before cupping your face and kissing you lovingly. You whine, hitting his chest, but instead of pulling away, the blonde pecks you hard multiple times, mumbling āsorryā every peck.
You pout annoyed at how good he is at damage control but kiss back, hands on his shoulders, yelping when he picks you up slightly to kiss you a bit more. āThatās not fixing it.ā You mumble, knowing you already forgot why you were mad in the first place.Ā
Jiseok mocks you cutely, before pulling away and reaching for something in his pocket. You watch him grab a pick youāve seen him always carry around although he never uses it and then he takes out one of your earrings.
Youāre about to complain when he takes his lighter and heats up the hook, but he shushes you concentrated as he makes a hole in his pick quickly, before blowing on the earring and putting it back in your ear. āGive me your necklace.ā You blink at him confused but do as he says.Ā
After a couple seconds, Jiseok walks closer to you and looks down at you as he clips back the necklace around your neck, which now has his pick as a charm. You let out a small breath, touching it as the older smiles.Ā
āThere, now you canāt complain about me being a bad fake boyfriend. You got my lucky pick. Arguably way more important than any other pick. Fake girlfriend privileges.ā He nods, and you really might sob in front of him this time.
āAre you sure-ā You start but the other wraps his arms around your waist.Ā
āYeah. Youāre right. And Iām sorry for being stupid. Plus, this way youāre forced to come to all my shows even after the wedding so you can bring me good luck.ā He says playfully. āAnd like this you can brag about how romantic and amazing of a boyfriend I am to everyone so you fix my reputation.āĀ
You roll your eyes with a small laugh, slapping his arm jokingly. āOh so this is just about your reputation, huh?āĀ
āPft, of course.ā He grins, leaning down and pulling you into another kiss. This time, you kiss back and you silently pray that thereās more to his gesture than method acting, even though you know there isnāt. The bus arrives and you kiss him once more, before hurriedly catching it, smiling to yourself as you look at the pick through the window reflection.
You get home and think about the conversation you had with Gunil. He's right. You sit on the couch fidgeting with the pick, smiling to yourself. Maybe trying to make Jiseok fall in love with you wonāt be that hard. After all, worst case scenario, he just never confesses and youāll have to deal with the already expected heartbreak.Ā
Jiseok walks into the building feeling giddy, unable to stop smiling when thinking about the interaction from before. Maybe it wouldnāt be that bad if he just said fuck it and confessed.
He was considering asking Hyeongjun for his insight since heās your good friend but as soon as he knocks on the door, having forgotten his keys inside before leaving, heās met with the guitaristās messy hair, wrinkled shirt and wide eyes.Ā
The older raises his eyebrows, head tilting when he hears ruffling from inside the place, the other holding the door open just enough for only his head to peek through. When the blonde takes a step forward to get into the house, Hyeongjun holds the door, blocking him.Ā
āYou need to leave.ā He says hurriedly.Ā
āLea-Hyeongjun I live here!ā Jiseok whines, grabbing the door handle.Ā
āNo. Not tonight. I need you gone. Now.ā The other replies in a whisper, glancing back into the house for a split second, before returning his attention to the other.
āAre you seriously sexiling me right now?!ā Jiseok widens his eyes, baffled, pinching his nose. āWhere am I supposed to go??āĀ
āDonāt you have a girlfriend? Go spend some time together! Please, Iāll pay for your strings for the next three months.ā He begs and the blonde squints, arms crossed.Ā
āSix.ā Hyeongjun gapes, but eventually agrees with a quick nod. āCan you at least give me my keys??ā The guitarist scoffs, grabbing them before leaving annoyedly. Great. Now he has to come over to your place and youāll think heās weird and clingy.Ā
You were daydreaming on the couch, still not having changed your clothes or eaten since you got back from the gig, when you heard an aggressive knock on the door. When you open the door, youāre met with a heavy breathing and visibly annoyed fake-boyfriend.
āHi uh...can I crash over tonight?ā Jiseok asks, scrunching his face. You blink at him in confusion, tilting your head. āHyeongjun has someone over. He kicked me out. Told me to go spend some time with my girlfriend.ā He complains, voice desperate.Ā
You hold back a laugh but nod, moving out of the way so he could get inside the apartment, not realizing the stupid smile on your face. āWhat?ā Jiseok asks in a whine, putting his backpack down as you cross your arms. āArenāt you supposed to want to help me as my girlfriend?ā He asks annoyed, and god he looks kissable.Ā
āI didnāt say anything.ā You whisper, before patting his chest once and walking away. āIām gonna shower.ā
āI saw the judging look in your eyes!! You should feel sorry for me, not laugh at me!!ā He yells after you, as you giggle, waving a hand at him dismissively. Jiseok sits in the middle of your living room, hands on his hips as he mentally casts a hex on his flatmate.Ā
You were planning on changing into some old sweats but since Jiseok was over, you decided to put in motion your new plan to make him fall in love with you. You wrap the towel around your body, and walk out of the bathroom, bumping into the other on the hallway, his eyes close to popping out of his head when he sees you.
āI-woah you-ā He starts but covers his eyes with his hand. āI mean, I just- wanted to go use the bathroom I didnāt mean to-ā He rambles as you chuckle.Ā
āYou can look, itās not like Iām naked.ā You roll your eyes, walking closer to him and whispering in his ear. āAnd even if I was, would that be a big deal since Iām your girlfriend?āĀ
Jiseokās brain just got fried. Forever. He tries to reply but no words come out as you walk into the bedroom to change. Thatās when it hits him. He doesnāt have to worry about rejection if you actually like him, so why not justā¦make you fall in love with him? Yes, exactly. Heās so smart.
So, he goes and showers as well, and just so casually forgets to ask if you had any clothes you could lend him. He, so sadly, is left with no other choice than to wrap the towel lowly around his waist and go into your room while brushing his damp hair back.
You were now changed into your arguably best looking pajamas, a tightly fitted tank top and some short shorts, scrolling on your phone in bed. When you hear Jiseokās voice you turn your head, and have to hold back a cough. Oh. Oh. He was evil. Vile. Disgusting. And soā¦so very hot.Ā
Jiseok tries to hide the way he had to stop in his tracks and check you out, but itās not like you noticed, considering you were too focused on not letting your eyes travel to his happy trail. You get up and grab a pair of sweatpants you had and an oversized shirt and give them to him, and you two sit on the couch as you wait for the pizza to get made, talking about the gig.
Somehow, you two ended up talking about how good he used to look with blue hair, when he showed you a photo of his first ever gig. āWhy did you drop the color??ā You gasp while looking at the phone with wide eyes.
āAh, I just got tired of it, you know? I wanted to keep the blonde for a while, but I wouldnāt mind getting it done again.ā He hums, without giving it much thought.Ā
āI always wanted blue peekaboo hair! We should totally get matching hairstyles. Couples do that.ā You nod as a joke, but Jiseokās eyes widen, as if he got an idea. āNo. No way- are you serious??ā You laugh with wide eyes, covering your mouth.
The guitarist looks at his watch, getting up in a hurry and putting his hoodie on you. āCāmon, thereās a 24h convenience store nearby, isnāt it?ā He smiles and you giggle, putting on shoes and grabbing your keys with a nod.Ā
āAre you sure??ā You ask as you two rush out of the building. āThe weddingās in like a week anyways, what better time to get a makeover?ā The older shrugs, walking into the store.Ā
āDo you have any preference?ā You ask, trying to find the hair products aisle, but get interrupted by Jiseok calling you over to look at something.Ā
āOh my god, I always wanted to try these.ā He grins with an excited expression, showing you the snacks. āWasabi kitkats?ā You raise your eyebrows. āI thought we were here for hair dye?ā You smile at the olderās cute pleading look, rolling your eyes as you grab two and head towards the hair aisle, a happy Jiseok following you behind.Ā
āDo you know any of the brands?ā You frown, trying to find familiar names. āNot reallyā¦considering how cheap they are, iāll be pleased if they donāt burn my hair off.ā He jokes, and you gasp, eyes almost popping out of your head.Ā
āBURN!ā You yell, grabbing two random blue colored bottles without looking at the tag, hurrying to the exit, and when Jiseok looks at you confused, you yelp. āTHE PIZZA! WE LEFT THE OVEN ON!ā You whine worriedly, the older becoming fanatic as well.
āNO, YOU MEAN /YOU/ LEFT THE OVEN ON!ā He corrects, running with you. You yell something about him being annoying as he yells something about you not being responsible.Ā
You rush into your house, breathing heavily as you head straight to the oven, turning it off after getting out the very much burned pizza. You cough, waving the smoke off as you look at the blonde tiredly. āFoodās doneā¦ā You mumble, the older getting closer to the pizza with a disgusted look.
āMore like poison.ā He grimaces after trying to take a bite. You huff, grabbing two cups of instant noodles and turning on the stove, when the older gently pushes you away. āYeah no, I'll take it from here. You have a bad history with hot stuffā¦ā He holds back a laugh, as you hit his arm annoyedly, taking out more ingredients to add to the plain soup.
Now that you think about it, the whole thing was painfully domestic. Cooking a meal with your boyfriend as you shared small smiles and talked about whatever, Jiseok kissing your cheek as an apology when he almost hit your head with one of the cabinets and you mocking him just to make him kiss you once again.Ā
It was perfect. It was perfect and it hurt so much. Eventually, you two finally get to eat and decide to get straight to dyeing your hair, doing Jiseokās first since it was more work. You squeeze the dye in the small container and mix it with the solution, throwing the bottles in the trash can, not thinking much of the odd looking color.Ā
You spread it across Jiseokās hair and wrap it in a towel, before putting the color in your hair as well, taking the liberty to give your fake-boyfriend a skincare routine in the meantime as payment for helping him.
āOw! Be more gentle, will you? My face is the moneymaker.ā He mutters as you start plucking on his eyebrows, sitting on his lap as his arms loop around your waist loosely, both of you having your hair put up in showercaps.Ā
āYouāre such a crybaby. At least itās not your leg hair I'm plucking.ā You scoff, grabbing his cheeks and getting closer, concentrating on not messing up his eyebrow shape.Ā
Jiseok looks over your face with a soft expression, feeling his heart swell at your cute frown and suddenly, being in a relationship didnāt seem so bad. You look over his face when his eyes close for you to put hydrating cream on his face, and you pout to yourself. Kwak Jiseok, why canāt you just confess?Ā
When youāre done and take the showercap out of Jiseokās head, you widen your eyes, covering your mouth. Oh no. āEverything okay?ā He frowns, not knowing his hair is now hot pink, since you had the amazing idea of dying it in the living room, where he couldnāt see the outcome until you washed it off.
āY-yeah, you look- you look great!ā You laugh nervously, hurriedly covering his eyes when he tries to take a glance at himself through the tv behind him. āLetās wash it off. Justā keep your eyes closed so dye doesnāt get in your eyes. At all times.ā You instruct hurriedly, walking him to the bathroom and washing away the dye as you pray to all the gods out there that when he sees his new hair he at least kills you in a quick and painless manner.Ā
You stay painfully quiet, mentally cursing yourself for not reading the tag on the bottle, close to crying because Jiseok mentioned how much he /hates/ pink hair on himself. You quickly wash yours before running out of the bathroom, before Jiseok could kill you.Ā
You barely manage to get into your bedroom, when you suddenly hear a scream accompanied by your name, a very wide eyed Jiseok entering the bedroom with damp pink hair and no shirt on, pointing to his head and you could swear you can see smoke coming out of his ears in anger.
āWHAT IS THIS??ā He yells with a whine, and you wince, trying to hide under the blanket. āNO! YOU CANāT HIDE!! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED??? I THOUGHT WE AGREED ON BLUE!ā The guitarist screams, getting on top of you on the bed, pulling the blanket off you and looking down at you.
āDoes it help knowing mine is pink too?ā You smile pained, showing your pink peekaboo.
āNO!ā He answers fanatically. āDID YOU DO THIS ON PURPOSE??? WAS IT BECAUSE I ASKED FOR KIT KATS?? IF YOU WANTED ME TO PAY YOU I COULDāVE GIVEN YOU MONEY!āĀ
āI DIDNāT MEAN TO!! THE BOTTLES WERE BLUE!! WHO MAKES BLUE BOTTLES FOR PINK HAIR DYE? BLAME THE HAIR COMPANY!ā You complain, trying to get away but Jiseok grabs a pillow and hits you gently with it.
āWHAT TYPE OF PERSON SEES PINK COLORED PAINT AND THINKS TO THEMSELVES OH YEAH, THIS WILL DEFINITELY TURN OUT BLUE??ā He scoffs, groaning when you grab the pillow hitting him instead.
āDONāT BLAME ME!! YOU WERE THE ONE TO DISTRACT ME!!ā You defend yourself, the both of you now having a pillow fight, before Jiseok huffs and throws your pillow away as he puts his behind his head, sighing tiredly.Ā
āI canāt believe I became what I hated mostā¦ā He reflects dramatically, and you purse your lips feeling guilty.Ā
āIām sorry, reallyā¦I didnāt mean to, my head was just- in another place.ā You whisper looking down, because saying youāve been too distracted by the idea of being his actual girlfriend wasnāt an option. āIf you hate it that much we can dye it black or something tomorrowā¦ā You mumble, the other staring at you, before he smiles with a chuckle, shaking his head.
āYouāre so stupid.ā He sighs, grinning, ruffling your hair. āLeave it, itās whatever. At least we still match.ā He couldnāt even be mad about you dyeing his hair in the one color he didnāt want because you looked too cute and because admittedly, having pink hair wasnāt that bad if it meant matching with you.Ā
You look at him with a sad expression, but the older one gets closer to you on the bed, shoulder brushing with yours. āI think you look really good, if it counts for anything.ā You admit in a small voice, the guitarist looking at you amused.
āYouāre so cute when you feel bad about something.ā He chimes and you scoff, pushing him away, failing to hold back a smile.Ā
He stays next to you, groaning playfully when he catches a glimpse of himself through the tv screen. You glance over his exposed chest, down to his abs and let out a small breath, before reverting your attention back to the tv. He didnāt just look good with the new hair.Ā
He looked disgustingly attractive, somehow even more than he already was, and you were starting to thank yourself for being in a hurry because this might be the best mistake youāve ever made. Jiseok turns his head to look at the way your shorts expose your skin and the low cut of the tanktop, eyes not leaving your body when you look at him again.Ā
Jiseokās been attracted to you. For a long time. He doesnāt know if itās the whole spending a whole day together glued to you pretending to be your boyfriend or the chemicals in his hair eating away his brain, but he finds himself making a move he would not be able to do if it wasnāt for the smell of hair dye stuck in his nostrils.Ā
āYou knowā¦if weāre gonna be together at the weddingā¦ā He starts, licking his lips as his eyes travel down your body again. āWe should really get comfortable with each other.āĀ
You feel your breath hitch, excitement building up in your chest. Your eyes fixate on his happy trail before they move up to his stomach, chest, lips and finally his eyes. āYeah, we should make sure thereās nothing we havenāt done as a coupleā¦ā You breathe out, the older nodding once.
You two look at each other still in place for a second, before you lean into a kiss at the same time, hands going into Jiseokās hair as he puts you on top of his lap with your legs each side. He starts kissing you harder, hands pressing on your waist as you pull him closer, grabbing his hair with a small moan.Ā
āAre you sure?ā The pink haired man pulls away for a split second, but you simply take your top off, making him look up at you.
āYeah, we need to practice our chemistry and all.ā You exhale, letting out a noise when the older grabs your legs, turning you two around to grind on you, kissing you messily. You let out a pleased groan, grinding on his knee.
You pull on his bottom lip, nails dragging over his chest, earning a grunt from the guitarist, whose hand was grabbing your ass, still a bit hesitant as his mouth moved on your neck. If you two were about to take this step, might as well take advantage of it and make sure itās the best sex heās ever had, so that even if he tries to forget you he wonāt be able to.Ā
You look up at him, licking his bottom lip before kissing his jaw, moving one of his hands under your shorts. āJiseok?ā You whisper, the other stopping briefly to let you go on. āI want it hard.ā
āFuckā¦ā Is all he says in a shudder, before starting to move his fingers against your clit. You arch your back, pulling on his hair while biting your bottom lip.
If kissing him made you dizzy, this was justā¦too much to take. The guitarist moves two fingers inside you, thrusting them slowly as you moan out his name when you feel your hands be taken out of his hair and pinned on the mattress, chasing his lips.Ā
Jiseok lets out a shaky breath at the sight before kissing you hungrily, hand leaving your wrists and going down your body again, massaging your chest as you exhale, tilting your head back when he speeds up his pace.
āPlease-ā You grunt, grabbing his hair and letting out yet another moan when you see him kiss down your chest, eventually licking your clit slowly while his fingers thrust inside you at a fast pace. Oh he was good.Ā
You feel yourself close to cumming when Jiseok suddenly stops, looking up at you with a satisfied smirk as he takes his pants off. Youāre about to complain but stop, parting your lips when you see him open the condom with his teeth, messy pink hair falling on his face. You feel him slowly enter inside you, earning a whimper from you as you kiss him passionately, hands grabbing his shoulders.
āJerk.ā You whisper with a grin, moaning when he thrusts once hard with a small laugh, before kissing you again, letting out small grunts when your hands go into his hair, his thumbs pressing on your waist.Ā
You pull him closer, nails dragging against his back when he thrusts harder and faster, hands gripping on the pillow on each side of you for better support, leaving marks on your collar bones. You roll your eyes back with a gasp when one of his hands goes down to your clit and starts moving his fingers over it as his thrusts get slower and deeper, but still as hard. Holy shit.Ā
Jiseok moans your name as you scratch his back, fastening his pace and he grabs your waist and lifts your lower back from the bed for a better angle, and you might pass out. You gasp, hands gripping on his shoulders, as he chuckles amused. āYou sure you can handle it?ā He whispers teasingly in your ear, and God, this side of him really is something else.Ā
You breathe quickly, but grab his neck pulling him in a hard messy kiss, smiling to yourself when you feel him shudder, nails dragging from his neck to his chest. You pull on his hair as you arch your back, moving on him at the same pace as his thrusts.Ā
āShitā¦ā Jiseok moans, head burying in your neck as he grabs your ass, nails digging into your skin as one moves up to your ribs then the side of your neck, grabbing your jaw before kissing you with tongue. Yeah, you were definitely going to do this again. You were so so very fucked and so so very gone for each other.Ā
You cum when Jiseok pulls away from the kiss, holding your waist as he thrusts harder, head thrown back as he moans your name. He didnāt take long to finish either, and you could swear your vision was blurry.Ā
You pull him in a slow, tired kiss, exchanging small giggles between the kisses, Jiseok whisper-asking if youāre alright. You simply nod with a satisfied hum, still kissing him. Eventually you pull away from each other to catch your breaths, laying next to each other as you process what just happened.
Jiseok was in heaven. He was certain of it. That was the best sex of his life and it made him think that even if you donāt have feelings for him, maybe he wouldnāt mind letting you use him for his body.Ā
To say you were fucked out of your mind is an understatement. It was the first time when your first time with someone wasnāt weird or awkward or where you had to instruct them with every move. All you had to do was tell Jiseok what you wanted and he /did it/. You were starting to feel angry. What do you mean Iām supposed to just not have him in my life after this?
You two share a look, chuckling at the same time, before the guitarist looks at the ceiling, brushing his hair back as he catches his breath. You canāt help but smile to yourself when he gets up to help clean up and you notice the scratches on his back.Ā
āAre you sure you donāt mind?ā You ask in a shy voice, looking at the older as he wipes you clean. He was about to ask when you mean, when he notices your eyes traveling to his shoulders.
āWhy would I? Theyāre from my girlfriend.ā He smiles reassuringly with a quick wink, changing back into his sweatpants and putting some more comfortable clothes on you than the ones before. You two stay glued to each other for the rest of the night, laying in comfortable silence while sharing small kisses until you fall asleep with your head on Jiseokās chest.Ā
Luckily, things didnāt really get awkward except the morning after when you two just stared at each other in disbelief from opposite sides of the room after jumping out of bed when you remembered last nightās events. Thankfully, you both kept repeating that it was for the charade and what not so, it quickly got brushed off.
Except you never stopped thinking about it. The way he was looking at you as if you were the only person he wanted to be with, the way he knew exactly what to do and how to do it. Everything about that night was stuck in a constant loop in your head.Ā
And as if you didnāt already have it bad enough, it happened again. It took five days and a garage birthday party with Jiseok looking stupidly good for it to happen again. Two hours into the party, you see Jiseok take out a blunt, rolling it up as you raise your eyebrow from beside him.
āWhat?ās my birthdayā¦ā He huffs, putting the joint between his lips.
āI didnāt know you smoked.ā You reply, looking as the other lights up the joint and puts it between his lips.
āNot usually. Itās for when my anxiety gets really bad.ā He admits with a sad smile. āUnfortunately, itās not because Iām cool.ā
You blink a few times, getting closer to him on the couch, music still blasting through the speakers. āWhatās wrong?ā You try, but the older simply shakes his head with a dismissive chuckle.
āNah, donāt worry about it. Just a lot of stuff, probably the wedding too.ā He says before taking a puff, looking at the ceiling. It wasnāt a lie. He was stressed because of the wedding, but he was even more stressed about everything going on between you two.Ā
That night was a night he doesnāt think heāll ever forget. He realized that somehow, you made him feel loved without even trying and even if it was pretend, he didnāt want to let go of that feeling. He wanted you to keep making him feel loved and he wanted to keep making you feel loved.
He was starting to get angry every time the wedding was brought up, knowing that the time he had with you was getting shorter and shorter and that there was no way to change it, because even after all of this, you didnāt confess, and it would be an ass move to ask for a real relationship of you when heās been the one to keep denying one for as long as he has.Ā
You look over Jiseokās face when he puts you on his lap bridal style, one of them caressing your inner thigh. āIām fine.ā You werenāt going to kiss him, really, but it was hard not to when one of his arms was wrapped securely around your waist while smoking.Ā
You take the joint out of his lips but before he could protest you replace it with your lips, kissing the other slowly, your free hand cupping his jaw. Jiseok says something about how he wants his joint back but you simply kiss him slower and more passionately, tongue running over his bottom lip, the hand that was cupping his cheek now going into his hair. You take a sharp breath when he moves you on top of him with your legs on each side, hands on your thighs.Ā
āThe ash-ā The older mumbles in the kiss, making you pull away slightly to tap it to the ashtray before taking a puff and kissing him again. At that, Jiseok lets out a shaky breath. āHoly shit-ā Is all he says before he kisses you harder, hands bringing your body closer so your chest is now pressed onto his.
You wouldnāt usually do all this in public but to be fair the garage was pretty dark and everyone was already too drunk to care that the birthday boy is currently making out with his so-called girlfriend. Besides, youād much rather take his mind off things by kissing him than watching him smoke.Ā
You let out a small noise when you feel his hands rest on your ass while caressing it gently and pull on his bottom lip lightly, joint still between your fingers.Ā
Jiseok massages your thighs before moving his hand on your sides and then back on your ass, humming pleased when he feels your breaths getting heavier. You pull away just enough to stop kissing and look at him while licking your lips. Trying to regulate your breathing turns out to be a failure when the man looks at you slightly amused, eyes fixated on you as he leans lower to put the joint between his lips and takes a puff from it.Ā
You blink a few times, this time being you the one who lets a heavy breath, subconsciously getting closer on his lap. Jiseok smiles lazily before kissing you slowly, putting out the joint on the ashtray without pulling away. His hand goes under your shirt, caressing your ribs first and then massaging your chest. You whine in the kiss, hugging him closer.
Kissing Jiseok felt good, you already knew that, but this was soā¦woah. It might just be the dizziest you have ever gotten from just making out with someone and it might just be the most attractive and hottest thing you have ever experienced. The olderās back is now resting against the backrest and you really donāt know how youāre supposed to pretend youāre not feeling everything you could feel and more.Ā
āJiseok we should stop-ā You whisper almost in a whine when he pulls you closer on his lap making you involuntarily grind once and let out a small groan.Ā
The pink haired boy pulls away slightly to kiss your neck and then jaw, before whispering in your ear. āWhy?ā
āI- people-ā You exhale, breath hitching when his hand slowly moves lower from your chest to your pants, slowly sliding it in.Ā
āTheyāre not looking.ā He whispers, kissing your jaw. āAre you sure you want to stop, baby?ā Oh, heās mean. First time to use an endearment term and itās to get in your pants. Worst part? It worked.
You let out an annoyed grunt before getting off him and grabbing his hand, walking out of the garage in a hurry, not waiting to fully get into his room before you pull him closer by his flannel collar and kiss him hard, the other walking inside after locking the door and pushing you on the bed, getting on top of you.
He was about to take his flannel off before you stop him and instead pull him closer, grinding on his thigh as you grip onto his hair with one hand, your nails lightly tracing over his neck.Ā
āI know I look really good in this outfit and you like the idea of me fucking you with the flannel on but Iām gonna get hyperthermia.ā He pulls away for a bit and you giggle, helping him take off his clothes as he takes off yours.
āYouāre no fun.ā You tease, kissing him more, pulling him closer by his waist, making the other moan, body almost falling on you at the feeling.Ā
āWe can save it for next time, when the AC is on.ā He mumbles playfully, and you pretend you donāt get giddy at the idea of this happening again.Ā
After you catch your breaths and change into comfortable clothes, the party long forgotten, you look at him while caressing his hair. Your thumb then brushes against his cheek, kissing his temple once. Jiseok looks at you with doe eyes, and your heart breaks, wishing you could do something to make whatever is on his mind go away.Ā
Thatās when you notice a tear staining his cheek and you blink quickly, instantly hugging his neck and playing with his hair. When he wraps his arms around your waist, you can only close your eyes tightly and let out a shaky breath.Ā
Jiseok lets himself cry for the first time in front of you, and you donāt know if you should feel grateful or worried. Instead of asking why, you pull away slightly to wipe his tears with your thumbs, kissing his forehead. āYou know Iām here for you, right?ā You ask softly.Ā
The guitarist looks over your face for a split second before gulping, thinking to himself: Yeah, but for how long? He wondered if he could stretch this out for just a bit more, but instead of wasting his time on that, he decided to focus on the present, when your nose was brushing against his.Ā
Jiseok kisses you. He kisses you more lovingly and needingly than youāve ever been kissed. You wondered if it was some sick plan to put salt on the wound because he already knew you loved him. He too, wondered if you squishing his face as you kissed back equally, if not more lovingly, was some sick plan to put salt on the wound because you already knew he loved you.Ā
He texted Seungmin letting him know they could just keep up the party until Hyeongjun got tired of everyone and kicked them out because he was going to stay inside the house since he wasnāt feeling well.
Which again, wasnāt a lie. The last thing Jiseok wanted right now was a party. The only thing he wanted, even needed, was to be with you. You two changed into comfortable clothes, the older calling you cute every five minutes just because you were wearing his sweatpants and one of his big hoodies.Ā
āI didnāt get to give you my present.ā You smile, reaching into your backpack from where you were sitting on the bed talking as he played guitar. You grin, holding a small bag in front of him, the man smiling softly.Ā
āYou didnāt have to get me anything.ā He chuckles, but you could see the glint in his eyes.
āOf course I did! What type of girlfriend do you think I am?ā You ask cutely, purposefully leaving out the fake part, just to watch Jiseokās reaction, but when he seems unbothered by it, you figure it was because he was too excited about the present to realize.
Jiseok however, was overly aware of it, but figured it was a simple slip up. A slip up that made his heartbeat go over a hundred, and although he didnāt want to give himself false hope, he still couldnāt hold back a smile.Ā
āAh please donāt get your hopes upā¦itās really notā¦ā You wince, but he shushes you, breaking into a huge smile as he looks at the pick holder keychain. āItās not that good because I made it myself, but I know you always lose them and you have them scattered all over the place so I asked Hyeongjun to help me figure out the best shape for it and-ā You explain nervously, getting interrupted by the older pulling you in a happy kiss, hands cupping your cheeks.Ā
You kiss back, blush spreading across your face, looking into his eyes after he pulls away enough to rest his forehead on yours and peck you multiple times. āItās really the best birthday present ever, thank you.ā
āNow youāre just being dramaticā¦ā You roll your eyes still smiling, the older enjoying your annoyed expression as he mocks you, happily putting his picks in his new keychain.Ā
You look at him lovingly, whining when he bites your cheek and squishes your face as a thanks, before laying his head on your lap with his guitar on his stomach, playing some blues song you definitely donāt know the name of.
Jiseok spends his birthday like that. Doing the two things he loves most: playing guitar and spending time with you. Thatās how he spends the days leading up to the wedding as well. You knew he was overly clingy and you figured it was because he must feel guilty for having to reject you when this whole thing is over.Ā
Preparing for the trip, you couldnāt stop thinking that maybe you should just say fuck it and confess and deal with whatver outcome, but it was really hard to convince yourself that Jiseok rejecting you would be bearable when he made sure to pack everything with you and buy you snacks for the ride and let you sleep on his shoulder while on the bus.Ā
Midway through the trip, you both take the bathroom break at a gas station and spend the next 30 minutes arguing over who exactly is at fault for almost missing the bus. āWho even shits in a gas station?!ā You whisper yell, snuggling closer to him in your seat.
āIām lactose intolerant! Itās your fault for not getting me the right type of coffee!ā He gasps, thumbs caressing your shoulder, and against his complaints he is smiling.Ā
āYouāre grown! Shouldāve ordered your own coffee!ā You argue with a scoff, burying your head in his neck.
āItās a favor you should do me as my girlfriend. And youāre grown enough to remember an order!ā He defends himself, and you mock him, kissing him once annoyed, the other kissing you once as well, scoffing too.Ā
You two smile to yourselves, and continue watching the movie on the screen, too caught up in the playful banter and the kisses to worry about the deal being off in a few hours. When you get to the resort, you greet his parents and his bandmates since Jooyeon, Jiseokās cousin, was the bass player.Ā
āI canāt believe youāre getting married before any of us.ā Seungmin tsks, shaking his head as Jooyeon pokes his tongue out at the man, walking you to your rooms.
You and Jiseok walk into your shared room, dropping down on the bed exhausted. The manās back barely gets to touch the mattress before a knock on the door makes him jump out of it with a groan, only to be met with his mother, telling him he needs to come with her.
You glance at him with a sad expression, tiredness clear on his face and get up, kissing his cheek when he comes near the bed. āI think Iām gonna kill myself before the wedding.ā He complains.
āYouāll be fine, let me know If I can help, yeah?ā You say softly, caressing his cheeks as the guitarist loops his arms around your waist tiredly with a nod.Ā
āWeāre gonna have rehearsals today, so donāt get too comfortable in bed.ā Your fake-boyfriend hums, pecking you once before leaving with a wave.Ā
You smile sadly. Tomorrow is going to be the last night you can use the excuse of method acting and Jiseok still hasnāt confessed. Your mind was all over the place, trying to figure out if confessing would really be that bad, because a part of your delusional brain is convinced he likes you but wonāt confess.Ā
That day, you and Jiseok didnāt really get to be together. He was too busy to let himself be nervous about keeping up with the whole charade, especially since you two had to be in different places at different times. You werenāt one of the bridesā maids because you didnāt know her that well, so you spend your day helping in other ways like making sure everyone was where they were supposed to be and whatnot.Ā
āI didnāt expect you to get so involved in the wedding.ā Seungmin speaks from behind you as you are carrying some flowers to the tables.Ā
āJiseokās mom asked me to help. Plus, you guys already have enough work to do.ā You reply casually, unable to shake the nervous feeling.Ā
Seungmin takes some flowers to the table as well, humming. āI meant because you two arenāt dating.ā The older clarifies, and you blink, turning to him as a shaky breath escapes your lips.Ā
āWhat are you talking about?ā You laugh anxiously, turning to look at him.Ā
āYou guys might fool his mom, but I think you forget we see each other every single day.ā The keyboardist answers coldly. āLook, I donāt know why you did this, but I do know I donāt want to see him have a breakdown because of you.āĀ
āI-ā You frown, getting closer to him. āThis was his idea, but I told him we should keep up the act with everyone because it made him really anxious to lie to you guys. So weāre together. Kinda. Not really but-āĀ
āAnd what do you plan on doing after tomorrow? Drop him?ā The taller asks, crossing his arms, and you tilt your head hurt.
āI donāt want to hurt Jiseok, Seungmin.ā You gulp, looking into his eyes. āI like him.āĀ
āI know that.ā The older admits, making you blink quickly, taken aback. āYouāre not that good at hiding it. The only thing Iām asking of you is to not mess with his head. I think we both know him well enough by now to know heās well in over his head with this.ā
You lick your lips letting out a sigh. āHe doesnāt like me like that. Heāll be fine.ā
āAre you trying to convince me or yourself of that?ā The taller wonders, pursing his lips. āLook, I like you, but Jiseok doesnāt deserve to go through this type of thing again. He doesnāt fall often but when he does, he falls hard.ā You were about to ask what he meant by that, but the man was already walking away.
āSeungmin, wait.ā You call out, grabbing his arm gently, getting in front of him. āPlease donāt-āĀ
āI wonāt tell on you two, Iām not an ass, and I know it would make Jiseok hyperventilate if he knew others know.ā Seungmin reassures you, earning a small relieved sigh from you before he leaves.Ā
Great. You were fucked. Now his best friend hates you.Ā
Jiseok comes into the room after a while, groaning and dropping his head on your shoulder in exhaustion as you caress his hair. āEverything okay?āĀ
āLee Jooyeon, you will pay for this!!ā He whines, making you let out a small laugh, trying to push down the unsettling feelings you have from the conversation with Seungmin.Ā
The rest of the day was pretty calm for you, except the reception rehearsal where Jiseokās mom wouldnāt stop dropping indirects about how beautiful this is and how special two people uniting in marriage is and whatnot, and Jiseok was getting more and more nervous as hours passed.
āSorry my aunt is making you work so much, I think sheās trying to pretend this is Your wedding instead of mine.ā Jooyeon smiles, giving you a glass of water as you two were waiting for the rehearsal to start.Ā
āYou think?ā You chuckle tiredly, sipping on your drink. āItās alright, Itās not her Iām worried about.ā You finish, looking towards where Jiseok was sitting, close to dozing off.
āWhy didnāt you guys come a day earlier? You couldāve gotten some rest before this-ā Jooyeon asks, throwing an almond at the guitarist to make him wake up.Ā
You smile at the exchange, turning your head to the groom. āIt was his call. If I knew heād be so tired I wouldāve forced him to come earlier.āĀ
The younger man hums, tilting his head with a smile when Jiseok sends you a flying kiss, silently pleading you to save him. āYou two are cute together. Itās been a while since Iāve seen him like this.āĀ
āLike what?ā You ask after sending Jiseok a flying kiss back, giggling at the way he grabs his heart excitedly.Ā
Jooyeon brushes his hair back, thinking. āRelaxed? I think thatās the word. Heās always been fun and all, but heās normally like a big ball of anxiety when heās not putting on a show.ā The boy smiles. āBut I can tell he has less worries now, and I donāt know what you did to him but I hope you keep it up.ā
āJooyeon can I ask you something?ā You frown, unsure if it was a good time to search for answers but you couldnāt stop thinking about it. The man nods and you sigh. āWhat happened in Jiseokās last relationship?āĀ
āHe never told you?ā The bassist tilts his head and you shake your head.
āVaguely, some details here and there but not the whole thing. I just talked to Seungmin and it got me wondering, itās okay if you donāt want to tell me-ā You widen your eyes, not wanting to overstep.Ā
āNah itās okay, Jiseok wouldāve told you if you asked directly, itās not a secret.ā The groom explains, sipping on his glass. āHis last relationship ended really abruptly. It was justā¦out of nowhere. Everything was going fine, and one morning he wakes up with a text from the other saying how things arenāt working and that theyāre done because he hasnāt been a good boyfriend or whatever. The text also said: Moved cities, delete my number.āĀ
You blink, letting out a shaky breath. āWhat the fuck??Thatās /it/?? No explanation whatsoever??ā You cover your mouth, feeling anger pile up in your chest.
Jooyeon shakes his head, sighing. āHe was devastated. We tried to talk to him, let him know itās not his fault and that his ex was shitty for that, but you know how heartbreak is.āĀ
āDid he ever find out what actually happened?ā You ask in a small voice, close to tears. If thereās one person that didnāt deserve that, itās Kwak Jiseok.Ā
āYeah, the cheater got a boyfriend in another city for a while then, so the breakup wasnāt all that abrupt. But it didnāt matter, you know? The damage was done.ā Jooyeon purses his lips but then takes a breath, letting out a small laugh. āAh, but thatās in the past. Iām glad he has you.ā He chimes, before getting up for the ceremony rehearsal.Ā
Your heart broke. You figured his last relationship mustāve been bad since he was so avoidant to get into a real relationship, no matter how many times he repeated that he didnāt give it much thought. You glance over at him as the bride and groom go over their vows, and wonder if he truly did fall for you the way Seungmin suggested or if it was just all in your head.Ā
On the actual wedding night, everything went smoothly but you were suddenly overly aware of just how much of Jiseokās family was present, so you made sure to not leave his side at any moment. You hug his arm while sitting at the table as he talks to his family, caressing his hand with your thumb reassuringly.
However, for some reason, talking lovingly about you came very easy to Jiseok. Thatās one thing you came to find out. You were still nervous about everything, especially when Jiseok pulled you in front of him while playing guitar, letting you strum as he moved his fingers on the fretboard, kissing your cheek happily.Ā
He wasnāt drunk but he was definitely tipsy after the first two hours. You thought the night would be pretty calm, talking and dancing a bit with everyone, but right after the meal, the lights go off and Jiseok grabs your hand in the dark, rushing with you out of the room with a laugh.
When you get outside, you see that thereās limousines waiting for you, Seungmin hurrying everyone inside. āGO GO GO THE PARTYāS NOT GONNA WAIT FOR YOU! JUNSGU MOVE YOUR ASS BEFORE I SMASH THIS CHAMPAIGN BOTTLE ON YOUR HEAD!āĀ
You giggle hurriedly getting into the limousine with Jiseok and his bandmates, along with Seungminās girlfriend and Hyeongjunās apparently new boyfriend. āWhat is going on??āĀ
āWhat do you mean??? Did you really think we were going to sit around listening to aunt Lee cry about Jooyeonās baby pics?? Weāre going to the real party!ā Jiseok grins, pecking you once cutely.Ā
Apparently, the bride and groom agreed to have a short reception and then spend most of the night at the after party with their closest friends. A genius idea if someone asks you, because not only you could try to actually have some fun now, but you also knew it would be less nerve wracking for both you and Jiseok.
The guys already started singing since getting into the limousine, and somehow Seungmin was now giving Jooyeon a lap dance as Low was playing, champagne spilling on the floor as Jungsu and Hyeongjun were flashing their phone lights and Jiseok was hyping it up. You and Gunil made sure to film everything from different angles while the other two were singing.Ā
When the limousine stops, everyone gets out and the guys waste no time in carrying Jooyeon around while the brideās friends do the same, as you laugh while recording. Suddenly you gasp when Jiseok turns around and picks up bridal style as well, making you slap his chest with a laugh.Ā
āWhat are you doing?? Iām not the one getting married!ā You giggle, holding onto him before he puts you down after getting inside the rented place. He simply mocks you before pecking you. Jissok walks to the table snickering when he sees Hyeongjun pouring shots while telling Jooyeon to watch and learn before licking some salt off his hand, taking his shot and putting a slice of lime between his lips, eating it.
You shake your head, smiling at your best friend. He truly was the life of the party. Jooyeon challenges Jiseok to a shot competition to see who can drink six shots the fastest but before they get to it, one of the brideās friends shouts āLOVERāS WAR!!ā, and the others push you and the bride next to the guys. You two share an amused look, as Hyeongjun pours your shots.Ā
Jooyeon and his wife give each other a short kiss and you smile at them, suddenly feeling sad. However, itās not like you have a lot of time to think about it because Gunilās voice says āstartā and you all start drinking. You and Jiseok were losing. Badly so. Mostly, it was because during the third shot, the liquid went down the wrong pipe and you started coughing, unable to keep up with the pace.
Jiseok sees it and quickly grabs your shit glasses, making you widen your eyes as he chugs them down, flipping Jooyeon off as the others cheer on you for winning. Jooyeon asks for a redo with only him and Jiseok and of course he agrees. You are now drinking a glass of water, widening your eyes when your āboyfriendā wins once again. Damn.
Jooyeon laughs at Jiseokās absolutely gone face, cheeks already rosy with liquid pouring down his chin as he celebrates, pulling you into a kiss. You let out a small noise but smile, cupping his face as the older walks you further away from the guys, hands on your waist without pulling away from the kiss.Ā
āThat was kinda hot, but youāre insane.ā You grin, looking over his face when he pulls away slightly, the others dancing. āIām gonna focus on the hot part.ā The pink haired man mumbles, kissing you hungrier. Somehow, your back ended up pressed against one of the columns with your chest pressed on Jiseokās.Ā
You let out a small noise, hands going into his hair as his thumbs press on your waist, quickly pulling away when one of his favorite songs comes on, dragging you to the dance floor. You regulate your breathing and then laugh, going dancing with him.Ā
Your mouth falls open with wide eyes as Jiseok and Gunil start a routine to Hollaback Girl. You start laughing as the two get down, silently thanking Hyeongjun for filming everything regardless of his very concerned expression. Thatās when Seungmin drags Jungsu to the dance floor and joins them. Everyone cheers for them as Jiseok pushes you on the chair and starts dancing on you, making you throw your head back with a laugh.Ā
āMORE ATTITUDE! I TAUGHT YOU BETTER THAN THAT!ā Seungmin yells to the younger, whose hips are currently swaying from side to side. It doesnāt take long for you to get pulled up and the bride to be put on the chair instead, everyone making space for Jooyeon to do his routine when Crazy in Love starts playing.Ā
One thing you learned about Jiseok today was that he was, in fact, even more entertaining with alcohol in his system. Youāve been to parties with Gunil before, but all the guys together, was just a whole different thing. It was a mess in the best way possible.Ā
After a while, you found yourself dancing with Jiseok, who wouldnāt stop complaining about how hot it was so you helped him take off his black blazer and loosen up his tie while opening the first two buttons, the older one looking at you amazed. āOh youāre so smart, I love you so much!ā He sighs, cupping your face and kissing you once cutely.Ā
Your hands freeze on his tie, gulping as the other keeps dancing, and thatās when it sank into you that heās just drunk and still playing a part. Your stomach dropped. Jiseok seems to see your mood change, because he takes his tie off and puts it on you, pulling you closer with a smile. āWhatās wrongggg??? HAVE FUNNN!!! I CANāT DATE BORING PEOPLEEE!!ā He yells over the music, getting interrupted by one of the brideās friends pouring some alcohol for him before he chugs it down.Ā
You shake your head, deciding that he's right. If this is the last night you can be around Jiseok this way, then you might as well take advantage of it. So you dance with him, turning around with a grin as he raps whatever stupid song is playing.
His hand rests on your stomach, lips finding their way to your jaw and ear lobe. You turn around and sing with him, giggling at the slurred lyrics escaping his lips as he pecks you all over again. āYou stink of alcohol!āĀ
āAnd you donāt stink enought!ā He pokes his tongue out, as you raise your eyebrow at him.Ā
āIs that a challenge?ā You ask and when the pink haired man nods, you grab his hand and go to the bar, opening a bottle of vodka, tilting your head. āHow much?āĀ
āA quarter. At least.ā Jiseok tilts his head up with a smirk, not actually believing youāll do it. And because you like to prove him wrong, you do just that, the guitarist covering his mouth in shock as the others cheer you on. You wipe your mouth, swallowing down the alcohol that was about to come out and your so-called boyfriend stares at you amazed. āDo you wanna marry me?āĀ
You give him a chuckle, before he comes closer to you, holding your hands and pulling you to the dance floor again. He wraps your arms around his neck, hands going on your waist as he mumbles the lyrics, the VERY romantic lyrics to you. You look into his eyes and suddenly feel yourself getting emotional, pout forming as tears stain your cheeks.Ā
Kwak Jiseok how dare you sing about love to me when you donāt feel it?Ā
Except Jiseok felt it. He meant every word, because heās sure of his feelings for you no matter what state heās in. And because he was stupid enough to reject you before you even tried to ask him out by complaining about relationships, he has to settle for singing stupid love songs to you while drunk to have an excuse.Ā
When he sees your tears he smiles, thinking youāre probably drunk and emotional. His heart, once again aches with love. Jiseok leans down and rests his forehead on yours while dancing, hugging your waist as you sniffle. And because thereās only one way he knows how to make you feel better, he pulls you in a soft kiss.Ā
A kiss that felt like the last for the both of you, for some reason. Maybe it was you being too emotional and stupid because of the alcohol or maybe it was because you both knew tomorrow you wonāt be able to do this anymore.Ā
You kiss back, cupping his face and pecking him multiple times, burying your head in his neck as you hug him tightly, the taller caressing your lower back gently while kissing your head. The guys complain about you two being too mushy and you and Jiseok share a look as you giggle, pecking each other a couple more times before walking to the others.Ā
After a while, you all decide to take a break by playing a card game Jungsu bought a few days ago for the party, making everyone take an oath that no one will get pissy or sad and that it will all be light hearted.Ā
Two rounds in, the bride and the groom switched outfits, Jooyeon looking very much ethereal and very much like he wanted to kill himself as his wife was imitating him while wearing his suit for one round before they changed back.
You take your card and groan when you see the writing. āTouch tongues with the player on your left or take two shots.ā You share a look with Gunil, Jiseokās eyes burning with jealousy. You could do the challenge, you know that. Partially, because you want to already start forgetting him and partially because youāre not even actually together.Ā
The others ask Jiseok if itās okay and he shrugs saying it's whatever because itās a stupid game, but you could tell by his voice that he was bothered by it. So, you let Jungsu hand you the two shots and chug them down as the others complain about you two being boring. It was worth it though, because Jiseok lets out a relieved breath, his already rosy cheeks becoming even rosier when you give him a quick wink with a small smile.Ā
Everyone was holding onto their stomachs laughing as Hyeongjun and Jiseok got into a freestyle rap competition, the older doing an encore by perfectly rapping the Nicki verse he claimed to be his party trick.
You blink at your card and read it out loud. āShare your most hidden thoughts about the person in front of you.ā You look at Jiseok, he was too busy drinking some more alcohol.Ā
You consider saying something stupid or funny but, instead, you decide to be truthful to the challenge. āHeās really easy to love.ā At that, Jiseok stops from dancing in his seat, the others sharing a look with each other.Ā
Everyone knew what that meant and why you said that, and you see Seungmin give you an approving smile, arms crossed. Jiseok starts crying. You widen your eyes and rush to him when he opens his arms, the others making fun of him for being a crybaby. Seeing the guitarist be emotional with the fun song blasting through the speakers, shirt wrinkled and hair a mess was amusing to say the least.Ā
You yelp when he pulls you on his lap, hugging you from behind as his chin rests on your shoulder after kissing it once. A few more rounds go like that and although you were pretty drunk too, Jiseok was absolutely /hammered/.Ā
So, when his card says āGet on your knees, open your mouth and have someone pour you a drink from a 10 inch distanceā, you get up to and let out a shaky breath when you see the older looking up at you on his knees, eyes hazy, cheeks rosy and lips parted.
You walk to Seungmin and whisper in his ear to pour water instead of alcohol and although he calls you boring he does as you say, because he knows his friend needs a break. You walk back to Jiseok, whose eyes had a glint in them.
You really had to stop yourself from grabbing his hair and making out with him, so you settle for a quick peck before grabbing his jaw to make him look at you as he opens his mouth looking up at you with a lazy smile. You pour the water, and when he gets a taste of it, he starts complaining but you simply smile back, kissing his cheek.Ā
Jiseok blinks a couple times after you tell him softly that he needs a break, before tears start to pour down his cheeks. āWhat type of person are you??ā He cries, hands gripping onto your legs. You widen your eyes, looking around nervously.
āWhat are you talking about-ā You exhale, laughing anxiously.Ā
āWhat do you mean what I mean?ā He slurs with a whine. āDo you think itās funny? To-to be so perfect and take care of me and kiss me and and- and you donāt even love me!ā He cries harder, head resting on your thigh.Ā
āJiseok, thereās people-ā You whisper yell, trying to stop him but it was too late because everyone was staring at the little scene in front of them.Ā
āSo what?? Huh?? Let them know!! I love you so much! I really love you!ā He sobs, looking up at you desperately. Your breaths get shorter and quicker.
āI love you too.ā You say, and although you wish it was just to do damage control, itās because it was true. You loved Jiseok. So much it hurt.Ā
āI donāt mean as a stupid plan! ām not acting! I wanna be with you so fucking bad, since week one and I keep trying to get over it and not care and I CANāT!ā He says desperately, sobbing as he lets tears fall down his cheeks. You start tearing up too, sniffling.Ā
āI love you too.ā You cry, hand going to his cheek.Ā
āNo you donāt! Not in the way I-ā The pink haired man starts but you cup his face and kiss him lovingly while sobbing. āYes I do, stupid!ā You whine, sniffling when he puts you on his lap bridal style, hugging you as he kisses back, crying even harder.Ā
You pull away after a while, making fun of each other for your crying faces. You wipe your noses before you hug Jiseokās neck as he hugs your waist, and now you are all tiredly talking to each other in a circle as yourā¦fake?boyfriend keeps leaving small kisses on your shoulder and temple and head and hand and really anywhere and everywhere.Ā
You play with his hands while listening to the others, the guitarist wrapping his arms around you tighter. You felt happy and for a split second, you forgot he only did all this because he was drunk.Ā
However, happiness didnāt last long because although you two walked inside your room giggling and kissing each other, taking a quick shower before cuddling to sleep, the next morning was worse than you couldāve expected.Ā
You wake up with a frown, stretching as you snuggle closer to Jiseok, when suddenly you get this unsettling feeling. The older one wakes up with a groan, holding onto his head. He looks down, widening his eyes.Ā
āShitā¦hi-ā He grunts, pinching his nose, as you look at him with caution. He blinks down at you, tilting his head. āWhyāre you looking weird at me- do I have drool on my face again?ā He cringes, wiping his face, and you close to tear up.Ā
āYou donāt remember?ā You ask in a small voice, feeling your heart breaking.Ā
āReme-Fuckā¦did I do something weird last night?ā He whines, hands running his face as you get up from the bed, feeling your heart beat faster.Ā
āYou donāt remember what you said?ā You repeat, voice cracking. Jiseok widens his eyes, thinking about all the possible weird or dumb things he mustāve done amongst them, wondering if he confessed. Oh no. What if he confessed and you think heās weird? What if he did something really stupid??Ā
āIāno, listen, whatever I said, donāt mind it! Scratch it, please, forget about it. I was so drunk and stupid I donāt know what I did but I promise Iāll make it up I-ā He starts in a panic, and your heart sinks.Ā
āSo you were just drunk?ā You ask once more, the older nodding quickly as you feel your vision get blurry with tears. āYeah, well maybe next time, donāt drink like a fucking pig, if you know you canāt handle your alcohol. So you donāt say stupid shit again.ā You say, tears staining your cheeks as you take the pick necklace off and throw it at him. You put on shoes and grab a hoodie you donāt notice is his before walking out of the room.Ā
Jiseok looks at the closed door in confusion, holding onto the necklace after he picks it up from the floor, wondering just how badly he fucked up last night and whether killing himself is still an option.Ā
Of fucking course it was because he was drunk. You were stupid for even lying to yourself. Drunk words are sober thoughts my ass. You decide to leave the resort and take a walk around the city to clear your head, when you get a call from Gunil.Ā
āHey, weāre about to go grab food in the city, Hyeongjunās boyfriend said he knows a really good spot, you coming?ā His voice chimes from the phone.Ā
āYou can go without me.ā You say, trying to keep your voice stable as you wipe your cheeks with the hoodieās sleeves.Ā
āWhat happened?ā Gunil asks worriedly, and you can only sob.Ā
āHe said he was just drunk.ā You sniffle, gripping on the phone. āAnd I was stupid enough to believe he-ā You hear Jiseokās voice asking if heās talking to you and you simply hang up, hugging yourself as you walk.Ā
Gunil gives Jiseok a death stare, shaking his head before walking out with the others. Jiseok is confused. Was what he said really that bad?? He kept thinking about it: while he walked to the place, while sitting down and eating, he was /out/ of it.Ā
Thankfully, only the ones at the after party went, so he didnāt have to worry about his mother or anyone else being on his ass. Well, thatās what he thought, at least. That was until Hyeongjun looked at him judgingly from beside him, eating his ramen.Ā
āWhat.ā Jiseok says annoyed, turning to your friend.Ā
āYouāre an asshole.ā Is all Hyeongjun says, before turning his attention back to his food, leaving a very confused and bothered Jiseok.
āAlright, you know what? Iām fucking tired. Look- Iām sorry for whatever I did or said when I was drunk yesterday. I figured we were all in the same boat, but obviously I fucked up somehow.ā He says after wiping his mouth.
āYou seriously donāt remember?ā Hyeongjun frowns his eyebrows at his flatmate, and the older simply whines desperately.
āNo, I donāt and I would really appreciate it if someone could tell me because the last thing I remember was-ā He started, eyes widening as the memories of last night came rushing into his head. He confessed. Of course he did.Ā
Hyeongjun takes a picture of his terrified expression, as a faint memory of you reciprocating his feelings comes back to him, his head quickly turning to your friend. āDid sheāā He starts and the other guitarist nods with a serious expression, before Seungmin slaps the back of Jiseokās head.
āGo.ā Is all the older says after Gunil lets them know youāre back at the resort.Ā
You pout while sniffling, having kind of calmed down after the walk. You pack your clothes slowly, lips pursed as you wonder what made you deserve this type of heartbreak. Thatās when you hear the door burst open in a very Jiseok manner.Ā
The pink haired man looks at you with wide eyes and messy hair, breathing heavily as tears fall down his cheeks. āYou love me.ā He breathes out. You blink at him a couple times and open your mouth to deny the accusations, but you figure itās useless and this point and simply go back to pursing your lips, attention adverting to your clothes.Ā
He knows you werenāt that drunk, because you didnāt drink anywhere near as much as him so it was stupid to even try to deny it. You expected a very angry talk about how you knew what you were getting into. Instead, Jiseok repeats the words as he hurriedly walks close to you, grabbing the shirt you were currently folding and throwing it on the bed, cupping your face.Ā
You look into his eyes, lips trembling as you start tearing up. Is this some type of torture punishment?? You think to yourself, before Jiseok chuckles, breaking into a huge grin as he pulls you in a loving kiss.Ā
Your breath hitches, taken aback, and you kiss for a few seconds before pulling away confused. āAre you messing with me?ā You sniffle, wiping your nose quickly.Ā
āAm I messing with-ā He breathes out, laughing. āDo I look like I am?ā He asks in a whine, pointing to his crying face.Ā
You look down with a pout, hands fidgeting with his shirt. āYou said you were just drunk.āĀ
āYeah, because I thought you got weirded out and thought I was some creep or something!ā He complains, hands caressing your cheeks.Ā
āWell, itās not my fault you never confessedā¦ā You smack your lips. āWha-ME??? You were the one who said Uhhh Iām such a good actor uhh!ā He mocks you, smiling when you smack his arm.Ā
āYeah- well-well-YOU were the one to be all like uuhhh I donāt want a relationship uhhhh!ā You mock him, crossing your arms after poking your tongue out. Jiseokās lips form a downsided smile, looking over your face. āWhat.ā You bite, glaring at him.
āI love you so much.ā He breathes out, caressing your cheek and kissing you lovingly, and you, being the stupid you, smile and kiss back. You swear your heart is going to beat out of your chest when the taller one brings you closer by the waist, before pulling away with a raised eyebrow. āYour turn.āĀ
āMy turn to what?ā You tilt your head innocently, looking at him with doe eyes.Ā
āI said I love you!ā He whines, head tilting back for a bit as you shrug.
āSo??ā You tilt your head up to him. āWhat If I donāt wanna say it?āĀ
āI kill myself. Publicly.ā He deadpans, and you canāt help but let out a laugh, before cupping his jaw and kissing him again, pecking him multiple times.Ā
āI love you too.ā You whisper in his ear, and Jiseok is close to losing it. That might just be the best thing heās ever heard in his life, actually. The older one picks you up excitedly, kissing all over your face, before dragging you on the bed with him. He gets on top of you with his legs on each side and he kisses all over your face and you giggle, complaining about how he left the door open.
He rushes to close it and then sits in the same position as before, hugging your neck like a koala, head buried in it. You laugh but hug back, kissing his cheek a couple times. āI was going through hellā¦ā He mumbles and you want to die because Kwak Jiseok is the cutest person on earth and you love him and he loves you.Ā
After you two calm down, you ask the older one if he's okay, only to get silence as a reply. You frown, but when you look down at him you let out a laugh while shaking your head. āI canāt believe you fell asleep.ā You whisper, hugging his waist and snuggling closer as you close your eyes as well.Ā
You wake up after two hours now on top of Jiseok, who was hugging you whileĀ caressing your hair, looking over your face. You frown, opening your eyes, only to be greeted with the guitarist attacking you with kisses, barely allowing you to breathe. You groan, pushing him away with a yawn, only to be pulled closer to him.
āHi girlfriend.ā He chimes, kissing your cheek, making you blink quickly with a raised eyebrow.
āWoah woah woah, since when? Did I miss something?ā You wipe your eyes, disoriented.
āYouāve always been my girlfriend.ā Jiseok shrugs, and you point your finger at him.
āWrong. I was your āgirlfriendā, not your /girlfriend/.ā You specify, using air quotes as the guitarist scoffs, rolling his eyes.Ā
āYouāre so- You said that day it was official!ā He tries, but when you give him an unimpressed stare, he moves to a sitting position on the bed with you, grabbing the necklace from his pocket. āDo you want to be my actual real non-acting girlfriend, please?ā He asks, offering you the necklace.Ā
āMmā¦something is missing.ā You hum, and the other might just die. Like, actually. He looks at you with a tired questioning look, but smiles when you tap your lips. Jiseok pecks you once cutely, making a kissing sound as you giggle. āOkay, yes.ā You nod, letting the other clip the necklace on your neck again.Ā
It takes two seconds for the pink haired man to pull you close to him again, laying on the bed while kissing you multiple times. You smile, burying your head in his neck and hugging him closer. Turns out, you werenāt insane after all.Ā
Jiseokās heart feels like itās about to burst and things only get worse and you look up at him with sparkly eyes, saying something he is too out of it to hear. You giggle again, kissing him a few times, calling him stupid, to which JIseok simply mocks you playfully, kissing your cheek.
āWe still have to pack, we need to catch an early bus.ā You groan, about to get up, yelping when your now /actual/ boyfriend pulls you back into bed.Ā
āNo we donāt.ā He smiles proudly, and you quirk your eyebrows up. āCancelled the bus tickets, weāre staying three more days.ā
You widen your eyes, pushing him lightly. āWhat are you talking about?? Here?? Why?? I donāt even have enough clothes-ā You whine, but the other simply shrugs, pulling you closer.Ā
āBecause, I want to spend a romantic weekend with my girlfriend.ā He explains in a low voice, making you blush. āI changed the hotel though, I donāt wanna be around another wedding. And Iāll buy you some clothes if I have to.āĀ
You blink a few times, lips parted. Heās so annoyingly perfect. āWas this your plan all along?ā You squint.Ā
āNo, my plan was to cry myself to death if you didnāt like me back but since you doā¦ā He hums, tucking your hair behind your ear. āIām tired of wondering what if and pretending I donāt want to be your real boyfriend and trying to find excuses to kiss you and now I can finally do all thatā¦plus, we deserve a break from the wedding stress and all.āĀ
You pout, cupping his face and pulling him into a loving kiss, the older complaining about how clingy and annoying you are with a smile, arms wrapping tighter around your lower waist.Ā
āAh- I have something to confessā¦ā You wince, index tracing his cheek as the guitarist hums. āI told Gunilā¦that day in the carā¦because I really needed to tell someone and I-ā You explain nervously, but get cut off by a peck on your lips.
āI know.ā He smiles understandingly. āItās fineā¦I was planning on telling Hyeongjun the night he sexiled me.ā Jiseok scoffs, earning a laugh from you.Ā
āWhat?? Donāt laugh at me!! I NEEDED SUPPORT! If he didnāt sexile me I wouldnāt have pink hair right now!! Itās not funny!!ā He laughs as he raises his voice, pushing you away when you break into a loud laugh, covering your mouth.
āItās kinda funnyā¦ā You mumble, the other widening his eyes.
āOh weāre back at it again?? What happened to being nice to your boyfriend?? ESPECIALLY NOW THAT IāM YOUR REAL BOYFRIEND!!ā He protests, getting on top of you and tickling you while blowing raspberries on your neck as you try to get away.
āNOT THAT PLEASE!!ā You laugh, trying to get away when he gets close to your eye, poking his side hard so he winces and gets off you. You get on top and tickle him instead with a laugh. āYouāre still easy to beat.ā You poke your tongue out, the other mocking you as he also puts his tongue out.
You mock him back but yelp when he stops your arm from hitting his, yanking you closer to him so you fall on his chest as he kisses you slowly. You kiss back, mumbling something about him being mean as he smiles in the kiss, pulling you closer to him as he lets out a small āmhmā.Ā
āI love you a lot.ā You admit, thumb caressing his cheek, eyes opening to look at him.
Your boyfriend smiles fondly, eyes sparkling as he brushes his nose with yours. āI love you more.ā He whispers, mocking you when you complain about how thatās not true, pulling you in yet another kiss.
Jiseok was a better liar now, but he was still a terrible and horrible liar when it came to his feelings, especially his feelings for you.
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