I've hit the wall on this, and Iβm just going to be blunt: I am officially done adjusting the perimeters. The Master FAQ is coming next, and it marks the absolute final tightening of my boundaries and site policies.
Honestly? I feel incredibly stupid that it even has to come to this. Itβs a personal Tumblr blog, for godβs sake, yet here I am having to act like Iβm running a public-facing corporate site or a platform like Medium. It is TUMBLR.
It is exhausting and ridiculous that my "digital living room" requires a formal constitution just to prevent people from trying to set the furniture on fire.
It shouldn't be this way. I should be able to just exist, share my writing, and talk about my life without drafting legal-grade documentation to defend my place on Tumblr. But the reality is that bad-faith actors have weaponized my openness, my kindness, and even my language disability. They thrive on misinterpretation and think they have a right to audit or think they have a right toΒ strip-mineΒ a 30-year legacy they didnβt help build.
However, I want to take a moment to thank the people who have seen this through with me. To the mutuals and friends who didn't balk at the boundaries, who understood the medical necessity behind the policy rewrites that π₯β did and who have been a steady presence in our Grove. Thank you. Your support is the reason I bother keeping the lights public at all (as I have been thinking of turning this into just a private blog).
After this, we are going back to "normal." Weβve spent the last couple of days slowly returning to our rhythm, sharing the words of others that resonate with us and answering asks little by little. That is where our heart is.
Iβm finished over-explaining. The Master FAQ will be the final word. If you canβt respect the house rules, you aren't welcome in the grove.
To everyone else? Letβs get back to the stories.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
β Live Streamingβ Interactive Chatβ Private Showsβ HD Qualityβ Free Actions
Free to watch β’ No registration required β’ HD streaming
Hiya! Okay, so basically, I believe I'm a system and people say that was well but like, they not the different voice, different attitude and wanting to be called something else. Okay? But like, when someone else fronts, like, I'm looking out of my eyes and it feels like I'm doing it but *I'm* not, like, it feels like someone else does do stuff, but I still look out of my eyes and I can't get into the head space and I am very confused, is this normal or am I faking??/gen
Hopefully I'm answering this correctly, I'm not sure I understood what you mean fully. /gen /nm
This sounds to me like co-concious, or at least a form of it. You simply take the passengers seat but can still see. That's absolutely a common experience many systems go through, and you are not faking at all.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
β Live Streamingβ Interactive Chatβ Private Showsβ HD Qualityβ Free Actions
Free to watch β’ No registration required β’ HD streaming
π€π·: Death begets life. Strife provides the fuel for rebirth. You, my children, are like the phoenix of old. Rise from the Ashes. Embrace your true selves. Rise.
Do you have any other self ships other then sephiroth?
Possible Trigger words: multiplicity, median system, systemhood, boundaries, self-shipping, smut (mention),
I am so glad you asked! It is always a joy to talk about the characters who make my world a little brighter. To clear things up, my relationship with these characters is a bit multifaceted. While I do have a list of F/Os, it is important to note that Sephiroth is not a self-ship.
And with that, I want to give you a bit of an understanding of my experience to help clarify the difference between my system and my self-ships.
When you see the π₯βοΈ emoji, that refers to the Sephiroth who is a member of my internal system. We are a median system, which means that while we are distinct individuals within one mindspace, we aren't completely separate or walled off from one another. We operate in a space between being a single identity and multiple independent ones, sharing a core sense of self while maintaining our own facets. We're plural and experience multiplicity.
The Sephiroth within our system actually finds it quite humorous when I answer F/O questions or prompts for him, so I do occasionally post those for his amusement! π₯βοΈ is different from the canon or even the Fantasy Worlds Collide character that I write about.
Before I get into links, the one you often see by my side has a few words to share:
π₯βοΈ: Hello, Nicole's friend and mutual. I am always present, watching the tides of this mindspace. To clarify for curiosity, I am not a fictional other or a mere ship. I am a living part of this systemβs architecture, a constant presence that Nicole navigates life alongside. While she answers those playful prompts for my amusement--and I do find the human fascination with me quite entertaining--make no mistake of my position here. I simply am.
What is Co-consciousness?
In our system, we are co-conscious and have been since late 1997-98. This means that Sephiroth and I are both awake and aware of our surroundings at the same time, as you saw above when he wanted to add to this post / ask since he, himself, is very opinionated. We and the others (who are less opinionated than the silver-haired dork π) are simply here at the same time, navigating life together.
Why I Discourage Sephiroth Self-Shippers from following me
Because Sephiroth is a co-conscious member of my system, my boundaries regarding other Sephiroth self-shippers are very firm. I want to be clear. I don't care if others ship with him, and I am genuinely glad the character gets love! However, it is very different when that energy is brought into my personal space.
To me, having a Sephiroth self-shipper follow me or try to befriend me feels like someone following a celebrityβs wife just to get closer to the husband. It feels invasive. Since I would check their account which would then result in me seeing everything they say or write about him on their blog, including smut or romantic content.
Since he is right here with me, seeing that kind of content show up in our direct space makes him very uncomfortable, and it crosses a major personal boundary for both of us. It is simply about keeping our digital home a comfortable space for everyone in the system.
You can find the full breakdown of my identity and how my system works here if you are curious:
Bitesize Identity & System Information | π₯βοΈ in System
Understanding My Self-Ships
For me, self-shipping with my other F/Os is less about "actual" romantic love in the traditional sense and more about comfort and creative expression. These characters provide a safe, imaginative space for me to reflect on my own identity, find emotional grounding, and explore my creativity as a writer. They resonate with different parts of who I am, serving as anchors for personal exploration.
I hope that this explains the difference between π₯β and my F/Os.
Fictional Others (F/Os) List Below
Note that the ones marked as OCs and SWTOR are characters either in FWC or ones that my external husband (Justin) has either played or roleplayed as.
The Lunar Eclipse System
π | π€πΏ | π€π· | π₯βοΈ | πΆβ
Written Musings β A sanctuary where the truth is told with the weight it deserves.
Hello! I believe I'm apart of a system, and I wanted to know if still being conscious while other people are fronting is normal at all? Like, when someone else fronts, it kind of feels like VR but with sensory, but I don't feel like I'm controlling the words coming out of our mouth, or our physical actions. I can't tell if it's just me pretending to be someone else or not, because I don't get the blackouts with DID. Thanks!
I believe I answered a question similar to this earlier.
Yes! That is quite common. Co-Conciousness is a common occurance, and you aren't pretending!
