I cursed inwardly, "Could you be any more heartless? Xiaoge's dead, and you're complaining about the smell?" Thinking it over, I walked over and pulled aside the clothes. I immediately saw the Xiaoge's face huddled in the pile of clothes.
I froze, instantly stiffening. For a moment, my mind went completely blank.
I can't describe the blankness in my heart. Suddenly, I didn't know what to do.
Dead?
Are you kidding me?
Really dead? Hey, what kind of international joke is this?
"Wake up, let's go home." I patted his face. Suddenly, I found it hilarious. I turned to Pangzi and smiled, "Look at Xiaoge."
"I know," Pangzi said from the side, his voice low.
Then, my hands began to tremble uncontrollably. I looked at my hands and found no sadness in my heart. My mind hadn't processed it, but my body had instinctively felt despair.
Thinking to myself, "Damn it, it's confirmed. He's really dead, 闷油瓶 (Xiaoge) is really dead!"
"How could such a thing exist in this world? Even 闷油瓶 (Xiaoge) could die."
闷油瓶 (Xiaoge) was a miracle; his death suddenly made the world feel incredibly real and cruel. Can't all miracles in this world be eternal? Or is it that miracles never existed, and everything was just a coincidence, which has now finally ceased to exist?
A long time passed before I began to feel a faint sadness. I could feel my instincts suppressing a collapsing emotion, but various uncomfortable sensations still leaked out from the "pressure cooker" of my emotions. I felt I couldn't let my emotions run wild; if I became sad, I might die here too.
The feeling in my heart was particularly strange, not just sadness. I wondered if others could understand this complex emotion.
First, there was despair, followed by a deep distrust of what I saw before me. My mind went blank for a long time before all the emotions within me surfaced.
I had always wondered what I would feel if 闷油瓶 (Xiaoge) died. I thought perhaps I would be incredibly sad, or perhaps I would become numb from thinking about it so much and preparing myself mentally, thinking I could completely bear it. Now that it had actually happened, it had become a strange feeling that I myself couldn't handle.
After that, I was torn, unsure whether to be sad or pretend to be calm and suppress my pain. In the end, the former slowly won out. I did nothing beside his body, just stared blankly.
Wu Xie processing Xiaoge's death broke my heart! It's one thing where you are prepared to find him dead, but when you actually see him dead it's a whole different experience. I knew Xiaoge can't be dying here but I couldn't help but feel sad while reading this.