#cmo's log

Or not to stim

That is the question

Whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous meltdowns

Worst man uses final job promotion to avoid reconnecting with estranged daughter

Man runs very late to family vacation

Woman uses ex husband's phone to get involved in local pharmacology business

Computer engineer seeks to become god

Local businessman invests in local safety initiative

They are a cult. Whose like messiah would be the perfect worker like the weren’t finding scary numbers they literally say they’re sorting her tempers like the baby goat was not a necessary part of the science lol like i think partly people see there’s a budget for a marching band and paintings everywhere and animatronics and a model house and are like oh wow quirky

But irl extreme groups doing science-ish things (governments like with mkultra or the nazis or the syphilis study or groups like scientology or whatnot) can do very bad science but really believe in it still like think about a doomsday cult. It’s supposed to be the greatest day in kier history but how many times have they said that? Like there are other severed floors and O&D were printing more diagrams like Gemma got like

The person i saw’s point was also that the writers don’t have a plan and maybe they do that but maybe don’t assume the cult is actually doing something productive and not insane? Especially bc the person who came up with the technology wasn’t leading it bc they stole her credit and decided to sacrifice the actual expertise in order to keep their spiritual reputation/power and jame(s) goes around saying shit like “fetid moppet”

Like burt wanting a version of him innocent of guilt and mark wanting a version innocent of pain and dylan wanting to be innocent of failure and like all the Kobels and Ms Huangs having that painful and crucial knowledge weaponized against them by the cult and weaponizing it against others

And honestly I’d be surprised if Cobel didn’t run right back to them with mark (don’t spoil me) bc she’s been so overfed the labor and that she has no worth without lumon and eustace doing the same thing and of course this cult capitalism throughline fits so well with their anachronistic aesthetic

And irving saying he’d never really been loved and irving being talked back from leaving by dylan after burt but then Dylan also feels loved romantically once and leaves after it fails and both of them being loved by each other and their team and irving dying anyway for helly and Irving at the end in the train leaving too

Mark probably going to choose helly over gemma and finishing the file bc if it’s the only love left and he already “sacrificed” three people for his team

Helena never feeling love either i’m sure that factored into what she did to mark

The scenes with gemma going into all the torture rooms as we get memories of her life. Ms. Casey emerging from the cave for a moment and being asked politely back