#clicques

If you have any sort of anxiety, especially social one and if you suffer rejection sensitive dysphoria please think if you want to post your writing on tumblr. 

See - you may get lucky, and if you know the risks and decide to do so much power to you.

I only want to warn you. Because no one warned me, and it was too horrible, for something that should have been “fun”.

That was my experience in that fandom on tumblr. ._. That post in the screen how ever is not made by me. I wish I had found it before I posted. But I didn’t.

I’ve got a year long depression, and as I was told also a PTSD, because of all that. I have rejection sensitive dysphoria due to past events like this one long ago. I also have social anxiety because similar reasons.

I’m always mindful of what I do, but sometimes like this one there was no way to know.

And people -- could not care less.

And I wish I knew before I got into that. If I knew I would not.

Also note: I didn’t want to be popular or famous or ass-kissed and etc..

All I wanted was some feedback on my hard work, even constructive criticism. A couple of people to comment on my fic.

After all, with all those people, there should be 2 to 4 who would care right?

Wrong.

No one ever did.

Meanwhile, I was watching other authors raised  to cult like status mentioned, treated like celebrities, being worshiped, all the time,every day, every minute.

No one is THAT good.And that’s toxic as fuck.

Try not to compare yourself and your writing when a person that writes like you or worse gets 800 notes and you get 10 likes.

Try it.

Pulled- the Addam’s Family. Trust in me- Jungle book.