this is that time of the year when I feel excited by default. sure, diwali is coming and it's slowly getting colder (I like winters) but it's no big deal. I stay locked inside my home on diwali because I'm asthmatic and people burn firecrackers outside, but there's something in the air. i dont think its an India thing because I can tell the other north hemisphere people feel stuff too. All these posts about lore shit going down in sept-feb period. why is it that way? regardless im a kind of anxious that is happy but at the same time wistful. weird ass feeling.
it feels like scaring me by cleopatrick and shy away by twenty one pilots at the same time. were these songs released during this period of time? im not sure.
anyway, im permanently excited with no end to it or place to apply it to. this period of time feels like youre meant to fall in love with someone, have the best hang of your life, have a massive fight with your parents that ends with all of you having a deeper understanding of each other. all that drama you can think of but WARMTH at the end of the day..... do you get it
i will use this place more i promise. theres also the realisation that the reason i cant write like i used to when i was in school, is because there are no clear limitations. school articles and essays used to have set topics that you had to work on and you had to show it to others, possibly even read it out aloud. that was missing in journalling and scribbling in notes app. i hope i can get good, guiding limitations back. here.
