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MASTERLIST -`âźÂŽ- Rafe Cameron x Kook!Reader x JJ Maybank
Summary: Kook!Readerâs world is upended by betrayal, and her only way forward might lie with the most unlikely personâJJ Maybank. But as they build a new life together, old flames and past mistakes refuse to stay buried.
Warnings: time jumps, slut shaming(kind of?), daddy issues, pregnancy and everything about that, breakdown.
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5 Months and 1 Week Pregnant
It was one of those rare times when everything felt like it was going well. There was no need to lie; you were happier than usual. In the past, youâd wake up late and force yourself to cook, but now, it was like you had an internal alarm clock. You were up on time every day, and you even found some joy in cooking.
You preferred waking up to some noise in the house rather than silence. Having someone else there, hearing the sounds of cookingâit felt like loneliness had disappeared completely. And even though you knew it wouldnât last forever, you were starting to get used to it. Instead of dreading the day it would end, you chose to focus on the moment.
Living with JJ wasnât hard. If anything, it made life easier.
You hadnât thought of him as so helpful before. The way heâd try to do anything you asked, the way he made you laugh effortlesslyâit all deepened your bond with him.
He never asked for anything in return. Not a single thing. Yet, he was always there for you, without expecting a thing. That made you feel awful. You wanted to do something for him, to not leave his kindness unanswered. But deep down, you knew JJ didnât expect anything from you; heâd help you regardless.
Despite growing up with a lousy father in terrible circumstances, JJ had developed a sense of compassion that made you question so much about yourself.
Not just yourself but the world around you. It was absurd how people raised in luxury and privilege often saw helping others as a sign of weakness.
If someone lacked the capacity for kindness, what kind of success could they truly achieve in life?
To you, the answer was nothing. They could own yachts, mansions, and carsâbut without a pure and kind heart, what was the point?
These thoughts stayed with you, especially during Sarah and John Bâs wedding.
It wasnât anything overly extravagant, not that you expected it to be. Just a few close friends were there, and most of the faces were familiar. Seeing Cleo and Kiara as Sarahâs bridesmaids in their blue dresses was adorable. On John Bâs side, JJ and Pope stood as groomsmen, both in suits with matching blue ties.
You never thought youâd see JJ in a suit in your lifetime. It justâwasnât his style, and imagining it had always seemed impossible.
You followed every update on Instagram, curious. Everything looked sweet, perfect even. But what really surprised you was seeing the entire Cameron family at the weddingâeven Rafe.
You had no idea theyâd reconciled. You couldnât have known; you hadnât been close to Rafe for months. Still, you always had a sense that he regretted the distance heâd put between himself and his sisters when he was younger.
Even so, you never thought Sarah would be brave enough to reach out. Especially when you saw him sitting almost front and center.
Butâit wasnât your problem. You were glad theyâd worked things out, and that was it. You didnât want Rafe occupying even a corner of your mind, despite the fact that you carried a piece of him inside you.
The two days without JJ felt long. You couldnât believe how quickly youâd gotten used to his presence, but apparently, you had. When he returned, you couldnât help but feel relieved. Youâd gained a housemateâit was just how things had turned out. The guest room youâd prepared for visitors had become JJâs room.
When you saw him standing there with a suitcase in hand, you realized this was really happeningâheâd moved in.
As the days passed, you got even more used to each other. It was...endearing. Until the day you woke up to the smell of something burnt.
You had no idea what was going on downstairs, but the house reeked. When you went to the kitchen, you found JJ trying to make breakfast.
He mustâve heard your footsteps because he turned to you with a half-smile, looking unsure of himself. Holding out a plate of slightly burnt pancakes with an open hand, he grinned proudly. âTa-da!â
Your eyes darted to the table, where fresh orange juice and a few other things were set out, but you quickly looked back at JJ. âDonât get the wrong ideaâitâs not for you. Itâs for the baby.â He set down the spatula and gestured to your belly before turning back to the stove.
You rolled your eyes but couldnât suppress the smile tugging at your lips. Walking over to check the pancakes, you saw they were, in fact, burnt. âYou know⊠I have a masterâs degree in culinary arts. My specialty is actually being a chef, but... if you want to keep going, Iâd never say no. My pancakes are perfect, of course, so you wonât top them, butââ
Your eyes fell on the charred pancakes again. You grabbed the spatula from his hand. âStep aside.â
He smiled as he moved without protest, leaning against the table to watch. There was no way you were letting either of you eat those burnt pancakes. Still, it was a sweet gesture. He didnât have to do anything at all.
âBy the way.â You glanced over from the stove to see him holding out a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice. Smiling, you took it. âSince you hate tea now, I thought maybe youâd like some orange juice. I squeezed it myself.â
You turned down the heat on the stove and smiled as you took the glass from him. âThank you. Thatâs so thoughtful.â
JJ shrugged, his eyes wandering around the kitchen as you took a sip. You loved orangesâhonestly, you couldnât imagine life without fruit.
âOf course.â He leaned against the counter, watching as you flipped the pancakes.
âYou seem a little off.â You glanced at him. He wasnât his usual energetic self. It felt like something was weighing on him.
âI talked to John B.â His eyes were still fixed on the pancakes. You always forgot how good he was at hiding his emotionsâexcept now. He looked too upset to mask it. âHe kept saying he hadnât seen me on the island. So, I told him Iâd moved here.â
You waited, hoping for some kind of positive reaction, but his face gave away nothing. He didnât look at you; his eyes stayed fixed on the frying pan. You couldnât help but wonder what was going through his head, what kind of conversation he had just had.Â
And more than that, this was the first you were hearing about it. Youâd been with JJ for days now, yet not once had John Bâor any of his other friendsâcalled him, as far as you knew. Or maybe they had, and you just hadnât noticed. âWhat did he say?â
You set the perfectly cooked pancake on top of JJâs charred pile, then turned to face him. One hand ran through his hair, ruffling it in that way he always did when he was feeling off. âHe wasnât exactly thrilled.â
When his gaze finally lifted to meet yours, you felt like you could finally read the expression on his face. He looked hurtâgenuinely hurt. You wished you could read his mind; it would make things so much easier.
âDid you tell him why youâre here?â you asked, your voice softened intentionally. You didnât want to sound harsh, not even by accident. JJ straightened up quickly, shaking his head with conviction.
âThis is about you. Iâd never do that.â His eyes stayed locked on yours, like he was silently making a vow.
The last thing you wanted was for JJ to deal with this because of you. When youâd asked him to stay, you hadnât thought too far ahead, hadnât considered what it might mean. But you didnât want things to turn out like this. These were people JJ trusted, and you trusted JJ. You didnât want them to fight because of you.
Eventually, everyone was going to know. One way or another, the truth would come out. There was no reason to keep it a secret, not at least for JJâs sake. And honestly, seeing how upset he looked put a dull ache in your chest.
âYou can tell them,â you said softly. âIf you trust them, then I trust them too.â
JJâs eyebrows shot up, his surprise plain as day. He clearly hadnât expected you to say that. But if they could be understanding, and if it would help JJ feel better, then it was worth it. After all, this wasnât the end of the world. It was just five more people knowing.
6 Months Pregnant
Everything had escalated so quickly. Even you hadnât seen it coming. The day you told JJ that he could share it with his friends, he refused. But, of course, you pressed him until he gave in.Â
He couldnât hold out and ended up telling them. No one could deny the initial shock; it was written all over their faces. Still, you were relieved when you noticed how it seemed to smooth things over between JJ and his friends afterward.Â
âYou got her pregnant?!â John Bâs voice boomed through JJâs phone, loud enough to reach you in the kitchen where you were washing dishes.Â
âHave you never heard of a condom in your life?!â Pope chimed in, equally loud. You couldnât help but overhear their chaotic exchange. JJ was trying to explain himself, but each time he opened his mouth, someone else interrupted. You pressed your lips tightly together, suppressing a laugh as you loaded the dishwasher.Â
âCan you guys just stop for a second? Of course not! Sheâs just a friendâIâm helping her out!â JJ finally managed to get a word in, and the corners of your lips twitched into a smile. Peeking through the window, you saw him sprawled on the porch sofa, legs stretched out, his backward cap completing the look of pure exasperation.Â
âHelping her out as the baby daddy?!â Cleo shouted in disbelief.Â
âOh my God, Cleo! I literally just said no!âÂ
From that day on, JJâs interactions with his friends seemed to pick up again. Sometimes, yours did too. JJ often FaceTimed Sarah and John B, and while Sarahâs cheerful greetings to you felt a bit awkward, you appreciated the effort. After all, she was technically your daughterâs aunt.Â
The real awkwardness came when JJ mentioned his friends wanted to visitânow that they knew he wasnât on the island anymore and wouldnât be for a while. At the house.Â
When JJ first brought it up, you hesitatedânot because you didnât want them over, but because theyâd see you. Pregnant. And at six months along, there was no hiding it.Â
But saying no wasnât really an option, especially since youâd been the one to suggest JJ stay with you in the first place. You were living together now. How could you tell him his friends couldnât come to see him?Â
Neither of you was particularly skilled in the kitchen, so you settled on ordering pizza and turning it into a casual pizza night. Simple, easy, and quick cleanup.Â
âHey there!â JJ greeted them at the door while you hung back a little, watching the scene unfold with a soft smile. John B pulled JJ into a bear hug, followed quickly by Pope, who practically launched himself at him. It was sweet.Â
After everyone had taken their turns hugging JJ, they turned toward you. Cleo was the first to approach, arms wide open like sheâd known you forever.Â
âOh my God, hi! You look amazing!â she gushed, pulling you into a warm embrace.Â
When she stepped back, you couldnât help but beam. Compliments like that hit differently when you were pregnantâand when you secretly felt the same way about yourself.Â
âSo do you! I hope the drive wasnât too hard to find us,â you replied. Cleo nodded with a grin, stepping aside as Kiara came into view. She wasnât as exuberant as Cleo, but you didnât hold it against her.Â
âHi,â Kiara greeted you, offering a brief but friendly hug.Â
âHey,â you responded with a small smile, chuckling as Pope called out from behind, âNow this is what I call a houseâŠâÂ
As Kiara moved aside, Sarah came up, her bright smile almost startling you. The tension youâd been holding onto crept back in. Of course, there wasnât a person here who didnât know who the father of your baby was. After all, after years of dating, there was no way it wasnât Rafe. And you were certain Sarah knew that too.Â
âThat pregnancy glow thing? Itâs really working for you!â Sarah said with enthusiasm, extending the greeting dramatically before pulling you into an unexpected hug. âLook at you! Hi!âÂ
You hadnât expected it to go this smoothly, let alone for everyone to be this sweet. It was either because they genuinely were nice or⊠JJ. Just like you were being nice to them because of JJ.Â
Fair enough.Â
If you were still living on the island and werenât pregnant, this wouldâve been a completely different vibe. But here you all were, playing nice for someone elseâs sake. And honestly? You didnât hate it.Â
In fact, you kind of loved it.Â
The house filled with laughter as everyone settled around the table. You watched them reconnect over slices of pizza, their camaraderie so genuine it almost warmed your heart.Â
You loved how their laughter filled the space, how JJ kept drawing you into conversations even when you felt like a bit of an outsider.Â
Youâd always hated curious stares, but their looks didnât feel like that. They felt like they were listeningâlike they actually cared about what you had to say. It did wonders for your confidence.Â
âIâll clear the pizza boxes; you guys can move to the couch if you want,â you offered with a smile, gripping the edge of the table for support as you got up.Â
âNo way!â Cleo was already on her feet, grabbing the box in front of her. Kiara and the others followed suit, practically springing into action.Â
âYouâre pregnant! No way weâre letting you do anything,â Kiara added firmly, cutting off your protest before it could start.Â
A warm hand rested on your back, and you turned to see JJ smiling down at you.Â
âIâve got it,â he said.Â
For a moment, you considered pushing back but gave in with a small nod. Something about the way he looked at you made it impossible to argue. Reassuring.Â
As they cleaned up, you couldnât help but feel a twinge of guilt. You were the host, and having guests do the work felt⊠wrong.Â
The feeling lingered even as you made your way to the bathroom. Pregnancy had turned every trip to pee into a race against time, and youâd grown to hate how often you felt like you might not make it.Â
After finishing up, you washed your hands and glanced in the mirror, checking your makeup. When you opened the door, you nearly bumped into Sarah, standing just a little down the hall.Â
âSarahâŠâ you said, eyebrows lifting in surprise. She smiled nervously, brushing her blonde hair back with one hand while the other fiddled with her nose.Â
âHey,â she started hesitantly, eyes flickering between you and the floor. âI just wanted to check⊠Are you okay?âÂ
Her concern was sweet, and you shrugged lightly, feeling oddly touched. âIâm fine.âÂ
âNot like that. I mean⊠after everything. JJ didnât give us much detailâneither did Rafe. So,â she looked a bit uneasy. You could tell the concern in her voice was genuine. She wasnât trying to pry or make you feel bad.Â
âI still donât trust Rafe, and I donât know what went down between you two, but I was worried about you. And after finding out about you and the baby, I swear I didnât tell him a thing.â She placed her hand on Sarahâs arm in reassurance, and the tension in Sarahâs face softened.
For reasons you couldnât fully grasp, Sarah looked panicked. It was like⊠she was acting as if Rafe didnât know. Because she didnât know he knew. Maybe she thought sheâd kept this from him, even ran away from him.
âHe knows, Sarah.â Her brows relaxed, but the shock on her face was undeniable. Her lips parted as though to speak, but no sound came for a moment.Â
Sarah was grappling with how Rafe could know and still let you leave. Everyone knew you two were in loveâso much so it was nauseating at times. Youâd been the girl who stuck around the longest in his life, especially on the island. So how did he let it go? How did he accept it? She couldnât wrap her head around it.Â
She couldnât hide the growing frustration toward her brother. It was almost incomprehensible.
âButââ Her lips moved again, but nothing came out. She was lost for words, ready to storm back to the island and give Rafe a piece of her mindâor more than that. She could practically picture herself shouting at him.
How could he leave a pregnant womanâespecially the mother of his childâon her own? And not just anyone. It was you. Not just the mother of his baby, but the girl he claimed to love.
âHe found out right after I did. He⊠didnât want to do this together. We agreed to separateâkind of. I thought moving to the mainland was the best thing to do.â Sarah pushed the loose strands of hair from her face. She looked genuinely upset, enough to make you want to comfort her. But it was in the past, and there was no use in dwelling on it. You were looking ahead now, and you were happy with that.
âHow? That bastardâugh, I hate him.â Her words were filled with anger, and you couldnât help the small chuckle that escaped your lips. Seeing you smile seemed to brighten her mood too. She felt better knowing you werenât as upset about it anymore.
Still, Sarah felt an odd shame, almost like she was the one whoâd wronged you. The fact that it was Rafe, her own blood, who had left you to fend for yourselfâand with a babyâmade her cringe.
âPlease donât.â You looked at her, your voice soft but firm. There was no need for her to hate him, especially now that youâd begun mending bridges. âHe wasnât ready, and I was. Thatâs all there is to it.âÂ
Her brows shot up in disbelief. You couldnât believe how quickly her emotions shiftedâshe looked ready to murder Rafe on the spot.
She was furious, even livid. She couldnât fathom how he could shirk such a responsibility. Sheâd be angry with anyone who did that, but knowing it was her brother made her blood boil. âSo, let me get this straightâhe was ready enough to finish inside you but not to deal with the consequences? Is that it?â
You didnât reply. There was no point. These were the thoughts youâd worked so hard to bury. Of course, youâd had them too, but if you were going to move forward, you couldnât dwell on them.
Holding onto the past wouldnât let you live your future. What was done was done. There was no undoing it.
Sarah noticed your change in mood and quickly reached out, placing a hand on your arm. She looked worried, as though sheâd said the wrong thing. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean it like that.â
âNo, donât apologize. Youâre right. But I just want to move onâI donât want to waste any more time feeling sad about it.â You gave her a small smile, trying to reassure her. No matter what, you were determined to hold onto your happiness. You wouldnât let any fight or rejection overshadow the joy waiting for you.
âOf course. Whatever you do, Iâve got your back. You know you can always call me. I mean, Iâm going to be an aunt, after all.â Sarahâs giggle was contagious, and you found yourself laughing along with her. It was comforting, even grounding, to know she was there for you.
âOf course you are. Just⊠can we keep this from your family for now?â You still couldnât help yourselfâyou were protecting him. If Ward found out, heâd strip Rafe of everything, and even knowing that, you were shielding him. Stupid.
âIf it were up to me, Iâd tell my dad just to watch him beat Rafe into the groundâbut I wonât. For you and the baby.â Sarah wrapped her arm around your waist, and you slung yours over her shoulder. As you both walked toward the living room, a quiet âthank youâ escaped your lips.
âThere you are!â A voice rang out as you entered the room. Your eyes followed it to see JJ standing up from the couch and walking toward you. âWe were starting to worry.â
You watched as Sarah slipped away and joined John B. A moment later, you turned back to find JJ standing close, his hand resting on your waist as he leaned in. His presence was a little unnerving, though this wasnât unusual for him. This was just how things had always been.
âYouâre okay, right?â His voice was quieter now, meant for you alone. His eyes searched yours as if he were ready to whisk you off to the hospital at the slightest sign of trouble.
Your hand found its way to his arm, squeezing gently as if to reassure him. When you nodded, your other hand instinctively rested on your belly. âIâm fine.â
JJ smiled, glancing over at the others. His hand lingered at your waist. âSo, whoâs up for a game?â
7 Months and 1 Week Pregnant
Sleeping had become a challenge. You missed the quality rest you used to get, the kind that actually left you feeling refreshed. You longed for the days when you could sleep on your stomach, or even just roll over in bed without feeling like a beached whale.Â
Now, falling asleep required effortâserious effort, like you were training for some sleep Olympics.Â
Waking up drenched in sweat had become your new least favorite thing. The nights felt as hot as mid-summer, and every single one included at least one trip to the bathroom or the kitchen for water.Â
Even getting out of bed was an ordeal, just as tough as getting back in. Your back was always aching, and it felt like life itself had become one giant workout session. Exhausting in every possible way.Â
It was one of those nights again. You woke up, groaning internally at how much you hated this pattern. You wanted nothing more than a good nightâs sleep, but of course, that was out of the question. Everything felt like it was conspiring against you.Â
Pushing your hair out of your face, you sat up, gasping for breath like youâd just finished running a marathon. The sheer size of your belly still caught you off guard sometimes.Â
When you noticed your bedside glass of water was empty, you groaned. Of course. The universe wasnât cutting you any slack. With a resigned sigh, you got up and shuffled toward the door, making your way downstairs.Â
In the kitchen, as you poured yourself a glass of water, a faint buzzing sound caught your attention. You paused, straining to listen. Was the TV still on? You had gone to bed early, and now you were wondering if JJ had forgotten to turn it off.Â
With the glass in hand, you wandered into the living room. The only light came from the flickering TV screen. The scene before you wasnât one you expected: JJ was sitting on the couch, his elbows on his knees, his hands cradling his head.Â
Your eyes flicked to the clock on the wallâ3 a.m.Â
As you walked closer, it seemed like he either hadnât heard you or was pretending not to. He stayed frozen in place. âJJ?â you called softly, placing a hand on his shoulder.Â
He looked up, finally noticing you, and turned his body to face you fully. For a moment, your eyes locked. Normally, JJ was impossible to read. He was a master at keeping his emotions hidden. But now? His face betrayed a heaviness that made your chest tighten.Â
âHey,â he said softly, straightening up. His eyes dropped to your belly, and he rested a hand on it gently. You perched on the edge of the couch, facing him. âAre you okay?âÂ
His voice was low, almost hollow. Concerned, you ran a hand through his messy hair, and his eyes fluttered shut at the touch. He leaned back slightly, allowing you to continue.Â
âWeâre fine. Are you okay?âÂ
He didnât respond immediately. He stayed still, eyes closed, seemingly trying to ground himself. You wanted to beg him to tell you what was wrong, the tension gnawed at you.Â
When he didnât answer, you leaned forward awkwardly to set your glass on the coffee table. Noticing your struggle, JJ opened his eyes and silently took the glass from you, placing it down himself.Â
You settled beside him, watching as he intertwined his fingers and stared at his hands. âWhatâs going on?â you pressed gently.Â
JJ hesitated, his mouth opening and closing like he was testing words that didnât feel right. His hands fidgeted, a clear sign of his unease.Â
Just as you were about to ask again, he finally spoke. âThey called me from police station.âÂ
Your eyes widened, alarm flashing through you. Why? What could he have possibly done? Heâd been staying with you for the past two months, barely leaving your side. If someone had falsely accused him of something, youâd have your familyâs lawyers on it in seconds.Â
âThey arrested my dad,â he said, his voice flat. âAnd he decided to call me.âÂ
A humorless chuckle escaped his lips, and it made your heart ache for him. He looked awfulâhis eyes red and tired, his hair a mess, and his clothes disheveled. This wasnât JJ, not the one who always found a way to laugh, even in the worst situations.Â
âNow he remembers I exist,â he muttered, the laugh leaving his voice entirely. It was eerie, almost unsettling. Anger and hurt swirled in his expression, clear as day.Â
You opened your mouth to speak, but his hand shot up. He dragged it through his hair harshly, and you grabbed his wrist to stop him. âHey, JJâdonât.âÂ
He stilled, letting his hand fall into yours. You could feel him trying to steady his breathing, his shoulders rising and falling deeply.Â
âItâs been almost four months. Four whole months, and he didnât notice I was gone. And now he calls? I donât even care about him anymore, I swear. He hasnât mattered to me for years. But if I hadnât seen my kid in months? Iâd feel like I was dead inside.â His voice cracked, and you squeezed his hand tighter. âIâd cross an ocean to find them.âÂ
When he looked at you, his eyes were bloodshot, the veins painfully visible. âJJâŠâ you whispered, his name barely audible. He dropped his gaze back to his lap.Â
âI hate that I still care. I hate that heâs the only family I have,â he admitted, shaking his head as he closed his eyes again.Â
Unable to stop yourself, you wrapped your arms around his neck. He didnât hesitate to pull you close, clinging to you like a lifeline.Â
Right now, JJ didnât need words. He just needed youâyour comfort, your warmth.Â
You felt his body tense in your embrace, so you ran a soothing hand up and down his back. âDo you want me to get him out?â you whispered softly.Â
Even though you despised the man for how much heâd hurt JJ, youâd do it if it meant bringing him a fraction of peace.Â
âNo,â JJâs voice was firm. He shook his head sharply and buried his face in the crook of your neck.Â
âWhat do you want me to do? Just say the word, and Iâll do it.â In that moment, it felt like every wall between you had crumbled. There was no pretense, no filtersâjust raw, unguarded honesty.Â
âJust stay like this,â he murmured against your neck.Â
So you did. You leaned back into the couch, holding him close, your hands rubbing slow circles on his back. The faint hum of the TV filled the silence as the two of you stayed there, tangled together in the stillness of the night.Â
8 Months Pregnant
"JJ, put it down." You tried to sound firm, but your voice cracked slightly. JJ looked at you, confused, holding the offending object in his hand. You couldnât bear to look at it for more than a second without feeling nauseous. Standing there in the middle of the grocery store, you were dangerously close to losing your lunch.
"What? This?" He held up the banana, inspecting it like it might hold the secrets of the universe. You quickly averted your eyes. Once upon a time, you had been all about bananasâteam banana all the way. Now? Now they made you gag. The smell, the texture, even the thought of eating one was enough to make your stomach churn.
Pregnancy had turned your entire palate upside down. Foods you used to love? Hard no. Foods you couldnât stand? Suddenly your favorites. It was fascinating in a completely horrifying way. You hadnât even known this was a thing until it started happening to you.
"Okay, okay, relax." JJ put the banana back like it was a ticking time bomb and stepped closer to you. You deliberately avoided looking in its direction, shifting your focus to the other aisles as you tried to erase its image from your mind.
"Please donât puke here," JJ teased, his tone light and playful. You shot him a glare, but it only seemed to amuse him further. His lips twitched, and before you could come up with a witty retort, he turned away, a muffled laugh escaping him.
You knew he was trying not to laugh outright, but you decided to let it go. Heâd been in this mood all dayâoverly playful, overly JJ.
Your face scrunched up as a sharp movement in your belly caught your attention. Your baby was unusually active today. A small groan escaped your lips as you felt another jab, and almost immediately, JJâs hand found its way to your back.
"Whatâs going on? Is it happening? Are you giving birth?" His voice was so over-the-top, you couldnât even muster the energy to respond. You turned to him instead, searching his face to see if he was actually serious.
It was one of those days. Your baby girl was unusually hyper, and JJ seemed determined to match her energy with his relentless joking.Â
"No," you finally managed. "We still have a month to go. You know that."
JJ smirked, clearly unfazed. "Youâre super tense today," he remarked.
"Itâs just... sheâs moving so much." You rubbed your belly in small circles, hoping it would calm her down. She felt like she was trying to punch her way out. JJâs joking demeanor melted as concern crossed his face.
"Should we go home?" he asked, his voice softer now.
You shook your head. "No, itâs fine. Sheâs settling down." And thankfully, she was. The movements were starting to ease.
Convincing JJ that you were fine was always a bit of an uphill battle. When it came to you and the baby, he was constantly on high alert, acting like every little thing could be the moment. But your doctor had reassured you just last weekâyour due date was still a month away.
March 29th.
That was the big day, circled in bright red on your calendar. Time had been speeding by for the past eight months, but now that you were in the final stretch, the days felt like years. Every tick of the clock seemed slower than the last.
Youâd started counting down the days since your doctor gave you the date. It didnât help that waiting made you restless. The anticipation was almost unbearable.
Shopping trips with JJ had evolved too. It wasnât just groceries anymore. You were now stocking up on diapers, baby wipes, and tiny clothes that made your heart melt. It felt early, but preparing in advance made you feel calmerâand, if you were honest, even more excited.
You were counting down to the moment sheâd finally arrive. Your little girl. A happiness unlike anything youâd ever known was just around the corner. You could feel it.Â
"An important question: Which one do we pick?" JJ held up a tangerine in one hand and an orange in the other, his face comically serious. You couldnât help but roll your eyes.
âBoth,â you replied, shaking your head. A victorious grin spread across JJâs face as he nodded like heâd just solved the world's most difficult puzzle.Â
âTeam Vitamin C,â he announced proudly, tossing both bags into the cart.Â
You were about to respond when a familiar face caught your eye. Instinctively, you turned your back and stepped closer to JJ, hoping to blend into his shadow. But your hopes were dashed as soon as you heard your name, loud and cheerful, coming from behind.Â
âSweetheart! What a surprise! Look at youâyouâve grown so much! Youâre glowing!âÂ
Viola.Â
She practically bounced over, her smile so wide it couldâve been painted on. Behind her, a shopping cart waited, along with the little girl youâd seen with her at the park a few months ago. The child was quietly playing with a toy, blissfully unaware of the impending awkwardness.Â
âHi, Viola,â you greeted her, your voice betraying none of your inner cringe. You could feel JJâs presence close behind you, his chest lightly pressed against your back. Oh, he was doing this on purpose.Â
Violaâs gaze flickered briefly to JJ, but her focus quickly returned to you. âHow are you, darling? I havenât seen you at the park lately.âÂ
It was almost funny how sweet she sounded, especially considering how your last interaction had gone. The thought of voluntarily seeking her out again had never even crossed your mind, especially knowing she was always there with her daughter.Â
âHavenât been going out much,â you lied effortlessly, giving her a polite smile. Violaâs grin widened, but it was so fake you almost felt secondhand embarrassment.Â
The silence that followed was unbearably awkward. Violaâs eyes kept darting back to JJ, sizing him up like he was some new exhibit at the zoo. You couldnât quite place the urge to drag him away, but it was growing stronger by the second.Â
Viola, who looked like she was pushing forty, seemed to be giving your âfriendâ the once-over, and it made your skin crawl. âI thought you said the babyâs father didnât want to be involved? Did I remember that wrong?âÂ
You briefly considered staying silent in the hopes that sheâd get bored and leave, but her expectant gaze made it clear she wasnât going anywhere.Â
âHeâs a friend, helping me out,â you finally said, glancing over your shoulder at JJ. His expression was unreadable, but the slight furrow of his brow hinted at annoyance.Â
Violaâs smirk widened, and she nodded like she was completely on your side. âOf course. Youâre only twenty, after all. It makes sense youâd need support. Though, Iâll admit, youâd feel much more secure with a ring on your finger and the father around, donât you think?âÂ
Her tone was all sugar, but her eyes darted back and forth between you and JJ, waiting for a reaction.Â
âIf she wants a ring, sheâll have one. If she doesnât, she wonât,â JJ cut in, his tone calm but firm. âAnd honestly, itâs better for a child to grow up with one stable parent than two miserable ones.âÂ
You nearly bit your lip trying to hide your grin as JJ stepped closer. His hand brushed your arm, a subtle yet protective gesture.Â
Violaâs smile faltered as she took in his words. Her face twisted briefly in irritation before she smoothed it over with forced politeness. Giving you both one last look, she muttered something under her breath and turned to leave, her daughter trailing obediently behind.Â
âWho is that woman?â JJ asked, his tone dripping with disdain as he stared after her.Â
âDonât ask,â you muttered, rolling your eyes.
8 Months and 4 Week Pregnant
The thoughts wouldnât leave your mind. You had assumed youâd feel calmer as your due date approached, but instead, all you felt was a growing knot of anxiety.Â
You wanted to be a mom more than anything. You couldnât wait to hold your daughter in your arms, to breathe in her scent, to feel the weight of her tiny body against you. But as much as you wanted it, you couldnât shake the nagging doubt: Would I be a good mom?
When you confided in your own mother, sheâd assured you that this was part of being a mom. Sheâd said that motherhood was about being consumed with worry while loving them with everything you have. It was about constantly questioning if you were doing things right.Â
And that was exactly what you were doing.Â
On top of that, your mind couldnât stop racing about the future. JJ was going to leave. You knew it. Whether heâd head back to the island or stay nearby, you werenât sure, but the five months youâd spent living together were almost over.Â
âWhatâs got you all worked up?â JJ asked as he joined you on the porch, draping a blanket over your shoulders. His usual energy was intact, his carefree vibe so familiar it made your chest ache.Â
You didnât know how you were going to say goodbye. For months now, heâd been there, in your space, filling the silence. You could barely remember what it was like to live in this house alone. It felt like heâd always been there, like heâd been a part of your life since the beginning.Â
âWhatâs going to happen after the babyâs born?âÂ
You were tired of tiptoeing around the subject. No more guessing games or dancing around what you really wanted to say. You werenât going to hide behind vague questions anymore. This was normal. It was okay to ask.
You needed to knowânot just for yourself, but for your daughterâs future.Â
When JJ gave you a soft smile, your eyebrows shot up. He sipped his coffee, his gaze wandering off to the backyard like he was gathering his thoughts.Â
âI was actually going to talk to you about that,â he said, sitting up a little straighter.Â
You took a deep breath, bracing yourself for the inevitable conversation about him leaving.Â
âIâve put in a few job applications,â he continued. âIâll stay here as long as you need me, but after that, I think itâd be better if I found my own place nearby. You know, give you your space.âÂ
His voice was seriousâno teasing, no jokes.Â
When his eyes met yours, you knew he wasnât kidding. It was written all over his face: he meant every word.Â
You stared at him, stunned. Was this the same JJ youâd met months ago? The wild, reckless boy who didnât seem to take anything seriously?Â
Back then, you didnât even need to know him well to guess the kind of guy he was: someone who loved parties, getting drunk, maybe even picking a fight or two. After all, his reputation had preceded him. But since heâd come into your life, he hadnât been drunk, he hadnât fought anyone. It was like someone had waved a magic wand and transformed him.Â
âReally?â you asked, still skeptical.Â
JJ grinned, his signature playful smirk lighting up his face. âReally,â he said, nodding.Â
You couldnât believe it. Without thinking, you pushed off the blanket and made a clumsy attempt to get up, forgetting about the massive baby bump that had been your constant companion for months.Â
As you threw your arms around him, you heard him laugh softly. âWhoa, easy there,â he said, but he hugged you back tightly.Â
âThank you,â you whispered, your voice thick with emotion. And you meant it. More than he could ever know.Â
April 3rdÂ
âJJ!â His name escaped your lips as you stared at the floor. Finallyâit was happening. You couldnât believe it. It was a bit past the due date, but it didnât matter. The day you had been counting down to, with so much anticipation, was here.Â
âWhat? Whatâs going on?â JJâs voice echoed through the house, and within seconds, the rapid thuds of his footsteps on the stairs filled the air.Â
This was it. The moment had finally arrived.Â
âMy water just broke.âÂ
When you looked up at JJ standing frozen in the doorway, a huge smile spread across your face. His eyes darted from the floor to you, growing comically wide as the realization hit him.Â