#cj talks

i lied i guess i do have one for this week kjhashfkjbg

so we all love eddie seeing steve in the crowd at a CC concert and falling ass over tits in love right then and there, right? and we also love eddie stopping a show if he sees someone bothering steve.

how about we flip that on its head.

eddie's on stage and he sees two guys (steve and dustin) arguing in the crowd and it looks like (to him) it's gonna get ugly fast.

meanwhile, steve and dustin are in the crowd, completely distracted from the concert they paid a lot of money for:

"you can't fuck him, steve! i forbade it!"

"you forbade it?! you and whose army, henderson?! i will fuck that man, so help me god!"

"it goes against the code, steve! i'm not letting you fuck eddie munson and that's final!"

eddie motions for the guys to stop playing and yells into his mic at them (they don't even know they're being yelled at, steve is this close to putting dustin in a headlock and giving him a noogie until he gives)

the crowd is silent but dustin is screeching so loud nobody can make out what they're even arguing about and eventually security pushes through to them and they're so confused when they're suddenly being pulled apart.

eddie gives them a wave from the stage. "hi. yeah. if you want to fight, you're more than welcome to duke it out outside of the venue. otherwise, you can play nice until the show's over, 'kay?"

steve and dustin just stare up at him, completely in shock that he's even speaking directly to them.

then dustin open's his big, filter-less mouth and points at steve, "he wants to fuck you!"

the crowd's silence is broken and some cheer in solidarity. eddie is shocked for all of 3 seconds before he lets a cheshire cat grin bloom on his face and locks eyes with a sputtering steve.

"well i'm flattered, sweetheart," he purrs into the mic and batting his eyelashes. his bandmates groan loudly and gareth even throws a drumstick at him. "but i hope you don't mind if it's the other way around."

Aight so I felt like it was a good idea to layout the basic concept of my personal AU! The basis of it is a kind of "what if" scenario mixed with my own experiences of trial and error of the self. What if the Mind and Heart weren't the ones causing dissonance between each other and the Whole. What if it was the Souls lack of self understanding and awareness that threw the Whole into its state of undoing and unraveling.

It would start with the dissonance and instead of Soul introducing themselves (as they are unable to) we would find ourselves seeing a freshly formed Heart and Mind. Neither of them knows how to speak to the other but understands that they have each other and that one is as important as the other. This is where I also pull in the idea that neither has a further understanding like in the original canon that only one is right, or in another term. Neither has been pushed to the point of that belief. I also like the idea that it's almost like there's an invisible wall between them which can represent my issues with my Heart and Mind almost feeling alienated from each other and the outside world giving an intensely isolating experience.

Once they're able to talk to each other, they do have arguments and spats, but they try and lead the Whole while doing their best to observe and take in the world.

Eventually they find Soul, wrapped up in layers upon layers of false ideas of themselves that they cut and pasted onto their own image to try and make up for what themselves and the Whole severely lacks. A sense of self and belonging when it comes to a person.

Heart and Mind would then have to try and understand who this was while also trying to approach what that means for the three of them. (in between this and the next part is when my version of the Juno incident happened. Where Soul impulsively lashes out against Heart and Mind, blaming their grievances on the two of them. Avoidance is their problem and they're too blind to see it.)

The next big milestone would be Soul understanding that the Whole can't run if only 2/3 parts are working towards growth, and with Mind and Hearts help, they start to peel back the layers, and attempt to break out of their shell.

Eventually they all get to a realization. "it doesn't matter what others want us(me) to be, if they don't like me for me then I don't need their acceptance." From there Soul is now starting to take the reigns and while hesitantly, Mind and Heart are their at their side trying to help lead with them. Eventually getting into a rhythm where the three have realized that being a Whole is easiest when the three can talk to each other face to face to take on the issues together.

It wouldn't end on the note of pessimism with the future, but just that the future is full of twists and turns and that they can figure it out!

Also Peewee is there throughout. Peewee is a vital reference for Mind and Heart (and eventually Soul) from start to finish about the Wholes physical health. Anywho! I want to work on as well showing the different stages that the mind went through? As this kind of co-aligns with the story idea I had that involves stepping through your mind into anothers, how their habits, emotions, and even trauma can show up in their minds.

If you made it to the end I appreciate it! Lmao I'm just genuinelly happy I can finally ramble about my ideas and if people like them, cool! But now the idea is situated and documented :3

In the unlikely scenario that there's still people on here who remember the giant fanfic I wrote nearly three years ago now, it's happening. Candlelight is being wrangled into an OG story.