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churchsam 

pianistdean

It was really weird for me, because i watched girl interrupted before spn and didnt notice misha and then i rewatched it later and i was like... stop wait a minute (hold my glass...) and it took me a while to figure it out bc he looks quite different

Yeah! It was pointed to me a few months ago by a friend and i had to look for a video because i didn’t believe it!!!!

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MISHA MADE OUT/ TOUCHED/ KISSED SAW/ SPOKE TO ANGELINA JOLIE OH MY GOD WHAT?!?!?!?!?! i don't know who i'd rather be right now!!!! (although, if i was Angelina, i'd have brad pitt right now.......;))

Dean’s at least fifty kinds of broken, that’s for sure. He fucks up constantly, everybody he becomes attached to leaves him, and even his own body wants nothing more to do with him.

He coughs into his hand, the one with the IV taped on the back, and the adhesive yanks on his skin.

Sam is immediately on him, hovering and fluttering his hands as if he can do anything to ease the constant suffering plaguing Dean’s body.

"I’m fine, Sam," he croaks. Big fat fucking lie, that one. Sam can see straight through him, and he hands Dean a paper cup of room temperature water. Dean downs it as fast as he can manage, then suppresses the coughs threatening to throw everything back up again.

"Yeah, I can see that," Sam glares. Dean glares right back at him. Hopefully the effect of it isn’t diminished by the bags beneath his eyes or his sunken cheeks. Sam takes the cup back from him. Their fingers graze, and Dean tries not to grab Sam’s hand and never let go.

It’s stupid. It’s fucking stupid. But if he’s dying - and it looks like he will be at this rate - then he wants his brother. He wants to hold his hand, cry against his shoulder, all that sappy crap he shouldn’t be thinking about. This is his brother, for fuck’s sake.

But there’s no one else Dean wants around. His doctors suggested having all of his loved ones around, but that’s just Sam. Sam, only Sam. Dean doesn’t have anyone the way Sam has Jess, or Cas has Hannah. And yeah, Dean loves Jess and Cas and even Hannah, but not like Sam. No one is ever like Sam.

It’s wrong. He should have someone, like Cassie or Lisa. But when they wanted more than he could offer them, they split. Dean just isn’t built for that kind of love or relationship.

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there is a good scene while sam is in purgatory, i think :)

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2. if you could request more of a certain type of fic, which would it be?

femslash. female-centric fics. fics with bad sex, awkward sex, sex that accidentally lands someone in the hospital, weird maybe unconventional (for fic at least) bdsm, kink exploration fics where the kink is not enjoyable to at least one person. fics with aro characters, trans characters, aroace.dean with drug allergies, diabetes, severe food allergies (i’ve read all of the ones that exist it seems ): )

10. what’s the most hardcore smut or kinky fic you’ve read?

hmm. kind of hard to say. most of the smut fic i seek out to read is tentacle fic and that’s pretty hardcore i guess.... god. um.twenty four hours is probably the most hardcore that i’ve liked w/o tentacles (altho the actual smut in this fic is forgettable imo. but the rest? oh lord)oh. i don’t have the link for these, but i’ve read a few bestiality fics where a bunch of dogs fuck dean and make him their bitch? i know rowan wrote one that i read. and there was one where dean was in hell and he becomes the bitch in a hellhound pack for protection, and i think he had their babies, or at least he took care of their existing pups. and there was one where sam and dean were hunting in the woods, get separated (i think on purpose, idr), and a wolf pack finds dean and like fucks him nonstop even after sam finds him hours later, and then sam is really turned on. god.

21. do you read crack fic?

occasionally, but it’s not usually something i seek out, like i do h/c or fluff.

36. has a fic ever left you unable to fall asleep or think about anything else?

Not again. 

That was the his first thought when she told him. Not again, this can't happen again. 

"Isn't it great?" 

Another young woman, sweet, beautiful (oh so very beautiful), and pregnant with his child. 

His eyes had been drawn down to her belly, a pregnant belly on a blonde woman, and for a moment she hadn't been Jo. The person in front of him had been Mary - his wife, as she once were, young and with a big, genuine smile on her face, eyes soft, vibrant with colour. Alive (so very alive) again.

He had felt tears swell in his eyes, and the part of him that was still aware that Jo was watching him, prayed that she wouldn't see his tears for what they were. 

Then it was Jo in front of her again

He had opened his mouth, then realised that he didn't know what to say. Smiled instead. His eyes were fixed on her belly, still flat. 

Wouldn't stay that way for long. 

Thoughts of baby Dean, of baby Sammy flooded his mind. Sammy in his crib. Sammy in his crib, blood dropping from the ceiling, Mary...

Not again.

Never again.

"We're gonna have a child together."

Terror crept up his spine, paralysing him while Mary stared at him with Jo's eyes. Or was it the other way around? He couldn't tell, could only look at the hand carefully rubbing the belly of a woman, pregnant with his child. A drop of blood, more, staining the fabric, dripping onto the ground, more, more. 

"A little baby, John, our baby."