#chubby oc

First things first, we need to establish that NM is my alter ego and not in a way most definitions simplify it as just me in a different font. No no no. NM is my polar opposite, he gave up on anything better, he wastes his days high out of his mind, blissfully happy and working in a small local grociery store. While I'm still pushing, I'm fighting for my better future, greedy in comparison and constantly yearning for more. (I'll make a table compering those 2, but for right now you have this).

Yes we have similarities such as relatevly good childhoods, both percived as very happy people, same intelligence level and visual similarities (aka horn motif). Yet the diffrance is that NM after 'working so hard' (in his mind) had enough and settled for a simple life while my sona doesn't stop, they keep pushing foreward. I haven't yet fully decided what made NM make that sudden decision but at this point in life I'm thinking of combination of his grandma dying and him being overwhelmed by needing to decide which college to attend that lead him into addiction and not wanting to go foreward.

Secondly, NM to me sometimes is what ATMA is to Melkior. For those umeducated that haven't read the peak 'Cyclops' ATMA as a character is a culmination of Melkior's paranoia and fear of the war that is comming and he keeps provoking our protagonist. Like that NM is my own culmination of desires and fears. I yearn for a simpler life, where it doesn't feel like I'm fighting day through day for a future that may never be possible, yet I know I fear that if I stop fighting shit will get worse. So NM isn't supposed to be the most realistic pertrayal of addiction, he is supposed to be grossly exadurated.

Also, I see my sona as literally myself and a bit of a character. I haven't fully settled there on any lore, but I know some things are concrete. He is a demon, specifically an imp. He doesn't live in hell (even though he has access) and is settled on Earth. He used to be human, then became an imp (haven't decided yet if it was due to a deal or death).

I had honestly a lot of trouble pickig out the species of my persona. I knew I wanted a hybrid but I didn't know which one fully, I drew a couple of doodles of me as a warden but it didn't seem right. I was too loud and loved the sun too much to be a warden. Then I just remembered imps from the stories I read as a child (iykyk) and how I'm constantly joked to be the antichrist/demon with my 2 friends because I'm not religious and I truly don't know much. And it just seemed perfect.

Okay.. that was a lot, here are some fun facts so that yall don't take my fat chud oc too seriously:

• he started out as my lmk sona so that I could selfship with Syntax (soon became his own thing because he became too iconic and a joke between me and my 2 close friends)

• his worst enemy is a spider named after a football player. When he's high to him the spider becomes massive and speaks to him in a deep voice which freaks him out

• supprisingly most of the elder people that visit the grocery store he works at like him. They all can tell he is on something, but the guy is genually too sweet to them for them to dislike him

• there are few graffities of my boy out in the world

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