#chronicdisease

I've been lucky enough to have the past few months, even year, not suck for me. But, due to an inability to see my physical therapist for about two months, sadly I am back to a state of debilitating pain.

And even though I have experienced it before, even though I have first hand knowledge of how it feels to be living with it, even I forgot how tiring and lonely it feels to be in such pain.

So if you have never experienced chronic illness or pain please give grace to those around you that might be dealing with something similar. I know you don't understand. I know it can be annoying. But please reach out and ask how they are, how they are really. Push for how you can help. We don't want to be a bother but it's so nice to have people care and send a kind word. Even if you've been through it it's easy to forget how it feels in the moment(our brains are funny things, darn survival mechanism!)

my chronically ill ass:

I finally found a new wêëd guy, and I’m getting stuff today, and I could cr y y’all, cause, like

I have three (3) chronic illnesses, that each attack different parts of my body, and some days the pain and fatigue has me entirely bedridden, while others I have the energy to go for longer walks or do like, one «big» thing (going out of my apartment for other things than walking Zelder around here counts as big) and then I’m stuck on the couch with brainfog the rest of the day

This obviously affects my ability to be creative, both with writing, art and even gaming simple Games and ACNH or Sims, which is a huge grief for me tbh

The only thing doctors can do is give me pain meds, and strong ones. Opiods. I’ll take them when I have to, but side effects usually have me drowsy or sluggish for the day, and I hate that feeling. I’m also terribly afraid of addiction, which is very common with these meds.

Wéėd on the other hand? Works wonders. Stops the pain, but doesn’t render me compleatly useless.

But here medicinal wèëd is pretty much not a thing, so that’s out of the question. Before covid I still had the opportunity to get some now and then, but the last year has been dry as hell.

But I’ve finally found a new legit guy closer to where I live, and I could like, sob about relived I am??