i was supposed to go rock climbing today but my friend cancelled on Monday for financial reasons. I was a bit disappointed at the time but i’m actually kind of glad now because my legs have decided it’s time to pain and i’m not sure i would have made it there never mind managed to climb
it gets me down sometimes and feel i don’t handle it well. some days i can do (almost) anything. granted there is an increased chance i get hurt but i can do it. and other days i am in bed taking pain meds as soon as I am able to wishing for the day to be over and to try again tomorrow.
but then i wonder what is handling it well? it shouldn’t be viewed as an achievement to express pain gracefully. bury it in “i’m fine” or “im just tired”. but track record shows if i constantly complain i’m in pain i will not have friends because for some reason they take it personally?? like it is a personal failure on their part that i am in pain?? and then they feel bad every time they are around me so eventually they slowly move away.















