Jul 8
Can my joints just fuck off? Iām trying to sleep
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Can my joints just fuck off? Iām trying to sleep
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Waking up to the pain from last night still being there. This is new pain. New area.
I can't do this right now. I have plans Saturday that I'm really looking forward to. I don't need more damned pain š«©
Can my body please stop falling apart and just behave normally for once? Because what the fuck **le sigh**
Guess I'll be making a tonic when I get to work. Fingers crossed that'll actually help š¤
Taking the day off work tomorrow. I have an upper back epidural. They're going higher with the injection site because the pain is higher this go round. I'm sort of 50/50 on being hopeful for this injection and also knowing it's probably going to hurt. The higher up in your spine the less space there is between your discs. A big needle getting stuck in your spine just isn't fun. I'm really hoping for some type of relief. I'm two weeks behind on sending out photos I took because I haven't been able to edit them. I can't sit at my desk and do it because of my back. The only upside is I realized driving home that Monday is the 25th and I don't work. So I get three days to recoup vs two before going back to work.
Send some good energy my way y'all and cross your fingers this epidural helps. Because I can't handle this pain much longer. I'm tired. So fucking tired š«©š¤š»āØ
i will literally be enjoying life so much n then suddenly get hit the worst pain possible n people expect me to not have fucking mood swings
i hate being young and disabled, i hate how i have to spend any extra cash on medical shit instead of travelling and i hate how ive lost so much independence and most of all i hate everyone who turned their back on me once i became "difficult" to be around on my worst days simply bc ppl cannot handle seeing someone in pain n being unable to fix it
Panic attack before my epidural this morning? Sure. Let's do it.
Spending 30+ minutes face down on a table with a needle in my back, no. Fuck that. This was the most miserable epidural I've ever had. At having over 30 at this point....hearing the doctor say something is obstructing the path of the needle was not fun.
He finally got the needle in the right spot and got the medication in, but damn. Never ever have I had an epidural take that long. Ever.
I just really hope it works....
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It would be just my luck to have my epidural wear off at the exact time that I'm beyond broke and don't have enough weed to get through the weekend.
I have no pain meds.
No muscle relaxers.
Nothing.
I don't get paid until Tuesday.
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Why does my body hate me so much?
i may be suffering from chronic pain and fatigue these days, but i did just manage to make two gallons of delicious white peach cinnamon freezer jam and jelly with my dad
I'm so tired of everything. Being here. Being this fucked up mess of a person. My life feels like it's falling apart. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. Trying to live like a normal person. Trying to be a normal person. For over nearly 13 years I have fought my body every single fucking day to just get through the days and live. Every year it gets harder and harder to do simple things.
Why can't I just fucking go to sleep and not wake up?
Fuck all of this