#chlo talks

so I’m still very sick, and it hasn’t gotten any better unfortunately, and have been undergoing a bunch of tests still and may possibly be getting a feeding tube put in as they are now considering that it may be a motility issue. although I have some creativity and a little energy back so I will be posting some fics again soon!

Because I want to write, and have been doing little itty bits here and there, however my motivation has increased for it again. I have taken all of your lovelies advise and prioritised my health above everything else, so I cannot say for how long I will be spewing fics out, but I will be trying, as both a thank you to all of you guys and because I want to as I love this community and sharing my ideas with you all

It is taking sometime with the health care system where I live however so I am not sure what is happening nor when. I still feel terrible, as this has been going on for like 10 months now, but I am somehow pushing through despite how physically weak this has made me

gavi is very reputation coded (esp. in games) BUT he’s also Very lover . and i stand by it .

I have finally returned to the platform, after months. I’d never intended to take such a break but I just found myself unable to write, my life has been insane once again

My two cats had kittens which we are keeping and then I found myself purchasing another that was in need of a home due to the circumstances that she was living in (it was not the owners fault)

As well as that my almost 3 year relationship with someone that was ultimately not good for me or my mental health ended, which took quite a toll, and said person was still messing me around after we parted ways, but I have cut them off for good this time, which was a difficult thing to do, but the best thing to do so I could protect myself and what remains of my mental health

My grandad died ontop of all of that, which affected our family deeply, though the funeral was lovely. And my mother is now seriously ill as well as I, so we have been helping each other as much as we can given the circumstances

It has been months since I have been to work as I have been signed off, as even the doctors have stated that I am not fit to work and have warned me that whenever they diagnose me, I may not be able to return and this will highly affect my lifestyle

So it’s been rough, extremely. But I have now started writing again as I am home literally 24/7 and need an escape. I wanted to give all of you lovelies an update and assure you this blog has not been abandoned. I have missed you all and cannot wait to share the pieces that I have been working on

As always, the support that y’all give my work is cherished and does not go unnoticed, I appreciate each one of you, new and old followings that have been a crutch for me in the darkest times for me in my life. I will be back to posting shortly, I have a piece coming out later today btw, and I would love it if any of those interested would show it some love, but as always no pressure

it really really makes me nervous to post any fics if people are more lenient to be mean and condescending on my pieces than supportive and teaching me how to improve

there’s always room for improvement but there’s no reason why that has to be in a way that makes someone feel bad about themselves and the work that they post for free for the consumption of others

as someone with over 8k following this blog, i have experienced a lot of hate, whether that be from dms (which is why ive changed it so only mutuals can message me), ive had awful messages in regards to my work flooding my inbox through the years, and then there’s always some comments too

let’s grow together and realise just because we’re behind a screen, that we can still be kinder to each other. we’re still people and i am not going to stop posting regardless to what people say, so let’s please hold off on the demeaning words and realise that if we feel like there’s room for improvement, say nothing at all if you’re going to be unkind, or use constructive criticism

I feel like i had to post this so others can share and i know that i’m not alone; if there’s something that i can do better i will, and i always take the information that the lovely people on this app give me if it’s in regards to improving my work 🖤

p.s. thank you if you read this, this isn’t aimed at a one person in particular, it’s just through the years it has built up and to this day i still get mean messages in my inbox and it gives me really bad writers block. so if you’re on my page please respect that we do not spread hate on here or support mockery, it’s a peaceful place where we can support one another