#chiris

He told me he may be moving out. Not only from his home but most likely from Texas. I am happy that he's found the one. But I can be a little selfish too can't I. I was the one whose been with him for 6 years straight. I was there on all his lows, I tried to make sure he wouldn't go through another low like he did with his last ex. I would find time to spend together with him. Even when my life got hectic and my schedule was packed. I shifted plans and canceled many just so that I can spend time with him. He's my best friend and I'm scared to lose him. I felt weak when he told me we only had 3 more months together. I am so close to him, I was so scared to admit it because everybody thought I was just following him. But I depend on him and rely on him to help guide me. He says I can go live with them. But my life isn't meant to be with him as a third wheel. I thought we would be with one another through all our stepping stones. But he's ready to move on. I really am not ready to let go of my best friend. I insist on pushing him to spend as much time with her. But recently I've been getting jealous. I've been getting jealous of all the time he spends with her. Of the times he chooses her over me. I don't want to let go of our friendship. But I feel like I need to start moving on and find someone else to spend my time with. I don't want him to leave and for me to be left with that void. I am not the type to survive on my own. I need someone I can count on. Since day one I knew we would be life long. Now all of that is breaking apart. I'm going to miss him so much.

I know he will be there for me when ever I need him but lately I am being let down it might be insignificant small details but they are still present

One week time and I'll be crossing the border. I still need to buy a few things

COUNTDOWN!!! 3 weeks from now I will be south of the border

Tonight was too crazy