I came to see the damage that was done and the treasures that prevail wiiith yusuke and/or vil? :0c
gonna do vil 4 this one bc hee hoo cutie pie!! iāll put this under a read more bc this is a longass post i talk too much
I came to see the damage that was done and the treasures that prevail: How do you comfort each other when youāre upset?
Iāll be frank, Vil is new to mutually loving relationships and just positive socialization in general. His sense of superiority has always led him to never even really consider anyone ever being his equal, much less a romantic partner. The very first time Iām upset about something, he can really only do what he knows; hold me gently and let me do the talking about whatever it is that makes me upset, whatever trivial thing I may be worried about. But when I begin to apologize profusely for being such a burden to complain to him, the words suddenly come to him, and he grabs both of my hands as he speaks to me firmly.
āYou doubt my judgement now, and how I choose to spend my time? It would be nothing less of an insult to not only yourself, but me to ever assume that I am wrong in caring for you as you do. Iāve never been wrong about anything, and I would sure hate to start now, wouldnāt you think?ā
Itās not exactly the most comforting set of words, but I smile, knowing that itās his own special way of trying to comfort me. Heās very new to this, I donāt expect him to be perfect - but the fact that he cares enough to step out of his comfort zone and try to be sympathetic, even at the risk of his oh so beloved pride, means more to me than anything else in the world, and the sentiment alone is enough to make me smile.
SO ANYWAY. On my end, Iām a little more well adjusted to comforting, because I always wanna make people happy blah blah blah. Vil isnāt as much of a sad upset type, he tends to get peeved or angry about whatever the stresser is, since his egoism typically leads him to believe whatever inconvenience heās facing is an injustice against him. But when he does cry, oh boy. I personally have a headcanon that Vil is anĀ āuglyā crier so to speak, so he tries to avoid crying, at least in front of me or anyone else. And when I find him upset, heās begging me to leave him alone, I canāt see him like this.
āNoel, donāt look! Iāll be fine, go away....! You shouldnāt have to see me like this.ā Of course, his makeup is ruined and smeared, mascara running, hair a mess. Heās kind of curled up in a ball, his face buried either in his hands or his knees to hide how distraught and unkempt he looks.
But obviously, Iām having none of this because heās always beautiful and thatās facts I said so. Gently, Iād take his hands in mine, remove them from his face. He avoids my gaze the second he sees me, but I donāt look away from his eyes. Even in his current state, Iām smiling fondly. Because,,,,, gosh heās so perfect. Heās always been, always will be. And with smeared makeup and all, I kiss him. Lean into him fully, letting tears and makeup stain my cheeks. And before I even get the chance to pull away fully, my arms are already around his shoulders, pulling him close. Heād bury his face in the crook of my neck and hug my waist.
āI donāt understand you at all.ā He lets out a halfhearted laugh. He was always perplexed at how kind I was to him, even when he was callous and arrogant, even when he had his ugly moments......he didnāt have to be the fairest of them all with me, he just had to be mine. And that.....that was all he wanted.
āI love you too.ā I murmur back, and my hold doesnāt falter. He stays there for as long as he pleases, which is probably a while, just letting himself be with me, in silence. No more words are needed, because my presence and unfaltering love for him is all he needs to see. Whenever heās upset....he isnāt afraid to come to me anymore, to ugly cry and complain and cry right into my shirt as I pat his back. Itās become comforting for him, really. He finally has someone he can talk to like a human being and not just some prettyboy.
OKAY THAT WAS TOO LONG IM SORRYYYYYY