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Tattoo ideas: womb tattoo design with antlers

I don't know if it really was him or a memory. But it was comforting to see Father last night.

Fucking on the astral plane is wild. I don't remember too much. I also chatted with a lot of the guests before hand. Our friend's friend knows how to host parties.

Feeling rather emotional about Father today. For a long time it was just the two of us.

...we're high, yet somehow Kai seems more drunk than high. Not sure how. Btw we're at 2 years alcohol free next month. Anyway, I'm starting to get used to and be okay with the name Rei again. At first it felt odd. But when he used it the first time it felt right. Then Kai and Vani started using it. Sometimes I disconnect and dissociate from myself I suppose.

Feeling like I'm getting closer to being comfortable enough to talk about something from my past. I hold a lot of guilt, even though he would tell me not to and he never regretted his decision. I'm glad that it was only him that requested I chip a few pieces of his gem off. I don't think I would have been able to do that again.

I remember green, blue, grey, and purple roses. I had purple and green ones around the cabin. They came in a variety of shades. Pastel, bright, jewel tone, near black but with a sheen. I made some potions with them a few times. I preserved some as well. Edmond had blue and grey rose bushes outside his parent's manor. I always enjoyed watching them bloom. I loved the butterflies as well. I oftened journaled outside. Sometimes I sketched. I suppose I'm feeling rather nostalgic.