#cheating cw

cheating cw, 18+. minors and antis dni

you know, when sylus realizes you're taken by a man so much lesser than him, his first reaction is a disbelieving kind of anger. he can tell you don't want to leave the man who so obviously mistreats you, and he can understand it because he adores you. he adores your bleeding heart, really.

but he doesn't care that you're guilty, at least not enough to not push you into starting the affair. he operates best in that careful way. and you're so unloved there that it doesn't really take him any meaningful effort to coax you closer to him.

he just figures he'll break you in for it first. make you feel good. be sweet on you, swipe his card for you, cup your throat while you get fucked on your back until your eyes roll up into the ceiling and your legs are half trembling on his shoulders and then talk you through it. see how good you can feel. see how good i can make you feel? over and over until you're too far gone to do anything but agree

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Wouldn’t happen fr cause I’ll keep waiting for him and won’t mess with someone else

he hates your boyfriend.

nikto doesn't know him. not really. but he thinks that he wouldn't mind seeing the guy dead on the ground, no longer able to move. no longer able to put his hands on you. but, nikto knows that he has no right to feel such a way. his own hands are far dirtier than that man's could ever be. he's a man that will take care of you in a way that nikto isn't sure that he ever can and he envies that.

though even nikto believes himself to be wrong for you, he can't help but seek you out every time that he is back in town, wanting you in his arms again, even if only temporarily.

he'll drink you in, embrace your warmth, and then send you back to another man at the end of the night.

For my people who like monogamous toxicity over poly fix-its, consider: open marriage Price who's fine with bringing in thirds or seeing other people and confident it won't rock the boat, because neither he or the spouse experiences jealousy or possessiveness.

Until he starts fucking Gaz, who triggers intense enough feelings of ownership and control that suddenly he does not want to share. Suddenly he's thinking about what Gaz does when he's not around. Does he see other people? Will he meet someone else who gives him something Price can't? What if Gaz starts exclusively dating some other guy and becomes unavailable to Price? How can Price keep that from happening? What rules does he need to enforce to ensure Gaz is always at his heel?

And now it bothers him when his spouse asks about Gaz, wanting to know when/if he'll bring Gaz over. It's just that Price put so much work into getting Gaz exactly where he needed him. Instilling grown men with blind devotion isn't easy. It takes time and sacrifice. Not to mention, he risked his job and reputation to have his sergeant... why should he have to share him with someone who doesn't understand that toll? His spouse could have nearly anyone else in the world... can't Price just keep this one thing for himself?

So now he's hinding things. Now he's jealous and possessive. He can't talk about this with his spouse... So he does what he's the most comfortable with: he gets what he wants and lies about it. He tells his spouse he ended things with Gaz just so he can keep seeing him without scrutiny. He's so prideful and possessive about what he does to Gaz that he doesn't want anyone keeping tabs on that affair. It's thrilling to keep Gaz all to himself, to keep such an huge secret so well. It's probably the closest to cheating one can get in a non-monogamous marriage.

Nik can't understand why John doesn't just leave him. Why doesn't he just ... go? Like everyone else? Why does he look at Nik like that? Demanding he be a better man? Why does he love Nik so much? How can he have the audacity to love something so broken and disgusting? How dare he, how dare he, how--

I remember when John Mulaney was caught cheating on his wife that there was a huge outrage about it, with people going as far to boycott him and, at least from what I've heard, literally wishing he was dead. Like yeah, cheating's a shitty thing to do and he really should've just talked to his wife about what problems he had in the relationship, but I've always felt like the reactions it was getting from people was incredibly extreme.

as an autistic aro who used to feel this way, the main thing is the trust and communication of boundaries. it's not about the monogamy - it's about the major, explicit/implicit boundary being broken, which begs the question of how many boundaries they are actually following. you don't know if they are telling you the truth about any boundaries they agreed to if they break a major one.

think of it as someone befriending you, being fairly aware of an nice to you about being autistic, and then learning that they send their autistic child to ABA therapy. you thought they were nice and trustworthy, but that's a hugely awful thing to learn about them. you'd be reevaluating a lot of your interactions. you'd wonder what makes you different, you'd have questions, you'd probably be pretty damn upset.

in the case of John Mulaney - iirc the intensity of the response was significantly more about the whole can of worms that came out with the news of his cheating. it seemed that he maybe had been making jokes about his wife being Jewish that she didn't like or appreciate, it seemed that he'd lied about having that consent to cultivate a public personality. it turned out he also struggled with addiction, and while I think it's inappropriate to act like that's a personality flaw, a huge amount of people do, and the public outcry was a combo of all of those coming out at once. also, he was a celebrity - people with huge amounts of fans are likely to have more extreme opinions expressed about them than the everyday person.

until you finally move on. he doesn't think it will last—you're in love with him after all—but then you get engaged. he realizes his chance (when did he start wanting a chance, he wonders) is gone.

except you come to him not long before the wedding and ask him to kiss you. just this once. you've always wanted to know. he does—of course he does. it's a chance and he takes it.

he kisses you perfectly. kisses you like you're his.

you smile softly when the two of you part.

"thanks," you say. "now i know for sure i'm making the right choice, getting married."

oliver smiles. cracks a joke.