Vent TW
Being a teenage girl who has been curvy since the age of 10 fucking sucks. I’ve hated myself for so long, not to mentioned been sexualized and abused because of it. It’s not my fault though, I can’t help how my body looks, the people that hurt me are the ones in the wrong. Hypersexuality is so fucking hard to deal with. I either feel disgusted by being looked at or I’m sexualizing the idea of being seen as an object. I’m still a young girl. I just want to be normal. I’ve had sexual assault dreams since I was a little kid and I hate myself for it. I love makeup and fashion, but I feel afraid to express myself, lest I’m seen as the petite pinup of everyone’s dreams. At the same time, I’ll dress how ever the fuck I want. But it still scares me. I know how men look at me and it frightens me.
