#celotehotak

Aku sedih, kecewa, dan sakit hati pada manusia. Nggak ridho atas apa yang manusia ini lakukan padaku. Apa yang bisa kulakukan hanya mencegah hal lebih buruk.

Kalau manusia ini gak berubah, hak ku untuk tidak mendapat perlakuan seenaknya juga tidak membaik, aku percaya Allah punya rencana yang lebih baik untukku dan manusia ini. Allah punya caranya sendiri untuk menegur hamba-hamba Nya

Untukku agar bergantung hanya pada Allah, lebih menyayangi diriku

I know his life doesn’t easy lately. It seems so. Yet, somehow he make it worse with his ego.

I really wish he and his family are fine, healthy, and living with abundance.

Hope his sister won’t make any drama and being selfish like she used always did without she even realize it.

Dear Happy,

I'm sorry if there's important moment in your life that you expect me out of it, I accidentally end up involved. Hope you can wisely see what actually happened. I know I was wrong, my intention is good, but the impact might not good.

Thank you for finally speak up! Happy, I'm waiting for you to finally say something when you usually did a silent treatment or being unclear about your want. Thank you for saying sorry for being emotional to me.

Happy, the burden in your shoulder is way heavier than everybody know. Happy kuat!! I know you are!

My father asked me to drive him to Bogor/Sentul for his college reunion. We don’t really talk too much, somehow he asked about my work, somehow he talked about Iran, about our government. But there’s something interesting, he complain somehow on how I drive, and later on he talked about his experience to get driving training from his past company heheheheh.

papi I les nyetir sama Tinton Suprapto katanya di provide kantornya.. dapet Safety Driver Lisence

But I know at the end it’s your call and decision.

My prayers after solat always goes for you.

Today, Happy suddenly asked to hang out. After a long debate, he refused to go near my place and wanted somewhere closer to his. His attitude felt a bit off, maybe he was just too tired to travel far. In the end, somehow everything worked out and the plan still happened, ending nya near his house.. yang penting nongkrong.

Py, Hope everything in your life going ease and smooth yaaa!!!! Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin

BTW

Yesterday I had dinner with Aney. We planned for Gandarichi but ended up at Roku Roku because Gandarichi was closed during Eid.

Aney said that Happy could have a place like which has service that probably even better

I said it actually his dream, and somehow he said he wants to do it (that’s what he said long time ago)

and honestly, deep down in my heart and my prayers, I hope it comes true soon. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin

but during this time I was thinking about Happy after re-read a news about someone suicide in PIM.

Happy is good caregiver for his parents, he’s favorite uncle and replacing father figure for his nephew, Oru.. and now he has his sister got mental health issue.

I remember how Kak Unaa send me pictures on how she prepare to do suicide, thankfully it can be prevented. Even now I heard that Kak Unaa go to psikolog and psychiatrist suggested by Happy. I’m amazed on how mature he is now.

Jadi Happy pasti cape 🥺

Apologize if there was moment that I accidentally give an additional burden to you. Happy maaf… even now I still feel guilty to send you banner from airport, only if you tell me what was happened that you’re in hospital, I’m okay to lifting that heavy object, especially during that time there’s problem with my gopay and suddenly my passport missing and found by stranger.. shit happened.. Happy maaf. Since you don’t really talk on your problem, I don’t know how to apologize either. Py, I wish I know how to ease your burden. Next time, I will just say “Okeeehhh” to your request. Happy maaf yaa

My pray that Happy, Ibu Sismijati, Kak Una, and Oru always get healthy and be happy. Hopefully Allah give healing to Ibu Sismijati, so she become way more healthy can be enthusiastic about going through the days, being active again and being happy in old age. Hopefully Kak Unaa can be more ikhlas, mentally healthy, mature, accept her situation, and able to move on from her past. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin