Well it’s your lucky day. “How do I get portfolio reviews?” is the #1 question we get here on DearAD. Art Order was pioneering the online review system, but they have decided to focus on helping artists manufacture and publish, and have less time for development. And that’s great, you should check out all the projects they’re doing!

Meanwhile, the need for artists to get a set of professional eyes on their portfolios and their WIPs is still great. ADs run themselves ragged at conventions trying to give as many reviews as we can, but we can’t talk to everyone, and what about in-between cons? And what about the artists who can’t travel to cons?

So we’ve set up one of the founding Art Directors of Drawn + Drafted (and a secret agent here on DearAD) to roll out online access to professional help online. Zoë Robinson has over a decade as a professional Art Director and she’s available (at certain times) to talk to you about your work. Although her specialty is in Fantasy Art and the Gaming Industry, she is qualified to help artists of all types evaluate their work. Zoë is famous amongst us other art directors as a “finishing school” — she polishes up and recommends artists to other ADs constantly.

She’s set up a cool online booking tool and some test rates for a few tiers of contact for artists. I would take advantage now, because at those prices I think she’s going to be swarmed and need to charge more. 

Now, before you say “waitasec, why do we have to pay, portfolio reviews are free at cons!” think about this: Art Directors are not required to do portfolio reviews as part of our jobs. We do it as a service to the artist community. And those times we are at conventions we set aside the time as a time to give back and develop the next generation of artists. However, the rest of the time we have very busy jobs and are totally swarmed with the meat and potatoes work of Art Direction. For an AD to make themselves available to artists at their convenience is a rare opportunity. Take advantage while you can, before she gets overwhelmed! 

If this service works (aka artists use it and Zoë doesn’t get completely burnt out) then we’ll try to add more Art Directors to the system.

Get booking!

—Agent KillFee

by Neha Sampat, Esq.

July 4, 2018

I recently had a conversation with my mom in which we discussed our identities as Americans. She was born and grew up in Tanzania, returned to her ancestral land of India at age 14, and immigrated to the US as a young woman. I was born and raised here in the US. She reminded me that when I was young, I staunchly held onto my identity as an American when I felt pressured to identify myself as Indian.

I realize now that, as a kid who often was “othered” by racial bullying, I wanted to disengage from this otherness by embracing my “Americanness”. But how I defined “American” was different from how I define it now.

At that time, “American” was defined commonly among immigrant families like mine as requiring adaptive integration. I often felt I had to try to be something I was not, to change something about myself to fit in. We had to be more American by making formal plans to see people, rather than organically dropping in on someone as was accepted in Indian culture. The message was that becoming more American meant becoming less Indian.

These parts of my identity, my Indianness and my Americanness, became oppositional, sometimes to the point of being threats to one another. I think this is part of what freaked my parents out. They rightfully didn’t want me to lose my Indianness in my quest for Americanness.

These dueling identities were reinforced both outside my home and within it. Both in how others viewed us and how we viewed ourselves. If I was Indian, then I couldn’t be American. And if I was American, then I couldn’t be Indian. When I was in India, I was labeled “American.” When I was in the US, I was labeled “Indian.” In the US, I often was asked, “Where are you from?” I would respond, “Here.” They couldn’t accept that: “No, where are you really from?” No matter where I went, I was the “other.” So by virtue of being both, I was often treated as none.

My mom and I discussed the role we played in perpetuating this false dichotomy. When we were referring to European-descended, white Americans, we didn’t call them out that way. We just called them “Americans,” and by doing so, we were defining American to mean “not like us.” It was the way we talked, and it was the way we thought. “Americans wear shoes in their homes. We don’t.” “The American way to set your table is with the forks to the left of the plate.” In my head, my white friends were my “American friends,” and my brown friends were my “Indian friends.”

And it was perpetuated for us. To those European-descended, white Americans, we were the “Indian family that lives down the street.” My friends’ families described me to their extended families as their daughter’s “Indian friend.”

When I was in third grade, I remember being in the car with my babysitter and her kids (her daughter was my close friend), when a Simon and Garfunkel song came on the radio. They all started singing together as we pulled into the garage: “When evening faaaalls so haaard, I will comfort you-OOOO!” My babysitter stopped singing, turned to me, and said, “This is our song, Neha. You can go inside.” Which I heard as, “This song is not for you.” I got out of the car, closed the car door, and walked into the house by myself, feeling so left out of, well, I didn’t even know what! Was she saying it was her family’s song, so I couldn’t listen to it with them? Or that it was an American song, so I couldn’t listen to it with them? I had no idea. As evening fell so hard that day, I was anything but comforted.

What I’ve learned since then is that I don’t need to try to be something I am not in order to be American. I don’t have to fit some mold of what “American” meant a century ago, or what it means to someone else who thinks they belong here more than I do. I am American, and “American” is me.

Americans wear their shoes in their homes, and Americans do not wear their shoes in their homes. Americans wear jeans, and they wear saris. One American way to set your table is a plate with a spoon set on top of it, as my family does. One of the richest pieces of American history is a brave, young Indian woman born and raised in East Africa practicing audiology in Iowa schools. Americans whistle to the tune of Simon and Garfunkel, and Americans dance their hearts out to Maahi Ve. And sometimes, if you’re lucky, Americans show up at your door unannounced to casually hang out over chai or wine and cheese.

We are American. This is our country. We belong in it, and it belongs to us. By claiming our American identity, we are redefining what American means to include our unique experiences, cultures, and norms. So yes, we also are Indian-American, but our Indianness does not take away from our Americanness. It adds to it.