#career.

we met about a year and a half ago at some party in new york, and we hit it off instantly. he invited me back to his house that night, and we hooked up. but i knew he was different, he made me feel something i’d never felt before. like i was loved, like he could actually like me for more than my body. we kept in touch, and i thought we were both genuinely falling for each other. he told me time and time again that ‘i was the good kind of different’, and he claimed he was falling in love with me. it was the best feeling, until it all came crashing down. 

he invited me over to his house one night. i didn’t think anything of it, because it happened pretty frequently. i couldn’t help but think that this was going to be the night we finally said those three stupid words i’d been dying to tell him for so long. i was confident he already knew that i loved him though, and i was confident he felt the same. but what he told me that night was completely different. he told me that i was never anything more to him than a hookup, and that i meant nothing. now imagine being told by the person you love that you are worthless. it fucking hurts. i tried to tell him how i felt, but he wouldn’t listen. he kept repeating ‘it’s for the best’, but i know it wasn’t. he used me for whatever cruel intentions he had. he lied to me for months, and let me believe that maybe love can actually happen to me. he let me believe that i could finally get my own happy ending that i’ve dreamt about since i was a little girl. 

after that night, i made it my mission to never talk to him again. no one deserves to be treated like that, and i know i’m no exception. i haven’t been in contact with him since that night, until yesterday. he texted me, claiming that i’m still trying to use him for fame, and that without him i’m nothing. 

track list:

1: born to die                       11: summertime sadness 2: off to the races                12: this is what makes us girls  3: blue jeans                       13: without you 4: video games                   14: lolita 5: diet mountain dew          15: lucky ones  6: national anthem              16: ride   7: dark paradise                  17: american   8: radio                                18: cola    9: carmen                            19: body electric    10: million dollar man          20: blue velvet   

deluxe edition bonus tracks:

21: gods & monsters          23: bel air 22: yayo                             24: burning desire

track list:

01: born to die – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝can you make it feel like home, if I tell you you're mine? it's like I told you, honey. don't make me sad, don't make me cry. sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, i don't know why. keep making me laugh – let's go get high. the road is long, we carry on. try to have fun in the meantime. come and take a walk on the wild side. let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain. you like your girls insane. choose your last words, this is the last time 'cause you and I, we were born to die.❞ 

02: off to the races – ( about her ex-boyfriend from highschool )  ❝but he’s got a soul as sweet as blood red jam. and he shows me, he knows me, every inch of my tar black soul. he doesn't mind i have a flat broke-down life, in fact, he says he thinks it's what he might like about me. admires me, the way i roll like a rolling stone. likes to watch me in the glass room, bathroom. Chateau Marmont, slipping on my red dress, putting on my makeup. glass room, perfume, cognac, lilac fumes. says it feels like heaven to him.❞ 

03: blue jeans – ( @theocannon​ ) @norightwcy ❝blue jeans, white shirt, walked into the room, you know you make my eyes burn, it was like James Dean for sure. you're so fresh to death and sick as cancer. you were sorta punk rock, i grew up on pop. you fit me better than my favorite sweater, and I know that love is mean, and love hurts, but i still remember that day we met in December, oh baby. i will love you 'til the end of time, i would wait a million years, promise you'll remember that you're mine. baby, can you see through the tears? love you more than those bitches before. say you'll remember, say you'll remember. oh baby, ooh, I will love you 'til the end of time ❞ 

04: video games – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝it's you, it's you, it's all for you, everything i do. i tell you all the time, Heaven is a place on earth with you. tell me all the things you wanna do, i heard that you like the bad girls. honey, is that true? it's better than i ever even knew, they say that the world was built for two. only worth living if somebody is loving you, and baby, now you do.❞ 

05: diet mountain dew – ( @ofcdean ) ❝diet mountain dew, baby, new york city, never was there ever a girl so pretty. do you think we’ll be in love forever? do you think we’ll be in love? diet mountain dew, baby, new york city. can we get it now, low down and gritty? do you think we’ll be in love forever? do you think we’ll be in love? baby, put on heart-shaped sunglasses. 'cause we gonna take a ride, i’m not gonna listen to what the past says. i’ve been waiting up all night.❞ 

06: national anthem – ( @theocannon ) ❝i'm your national anthem, god, you're so handsome. take me to the Hamptons, Bugatti Veyron. he loves to romance 'em, reckless abandon, holding me for ransom, upper echelon. he says to be cool, but I don't know how yet. wind in my hair, hand on the back of my neck i said, "can we party later on?", he said, "yes, yes, yes...".❞ 

07: dark paradise – ( a song about carley ) ❝and there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody, it won't leave my head. your soul is haunting me, and telling me that everything is fine. but i wish i was dead ( dead, like you ) every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise. no one compares to you, i'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side.❞ 

08: radio – ( for everyone who only likes her because she’s famous ) ❝now my life is sweet like cinnamon like a fucking dream i'm living in. baby, love me 'cause i'm playing on the radio. ( how do you like me now? ) lick me up and take me like a vitamin 'cause my body's sweet like sugar venom, oh, yeah. baby, love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio ( how do you like me now? ) american dreams came true somehow, i swore I'd chase 'em 'til I was dead. i heard the streets were paved with gold, that's what my father said.❞ 

09: carmen – ( a song about her addiction ) ❝darling, darling, doesn't have a problem lying to herself, 'cause her liquor's top shelf. it's alarming, honestly, how charming she can be. fooling everyone, telling them she's having fun, she says, "you don't want to be like me, don't wanna see all the things I've seen." i'm dying, i'm dying, she says, "you don't want to get this way, famous and dumb at an early age" lying, I'm lying. the boys, the girls, they all like carmen she gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes. she laughs like God. her mind's like a diamond, audiotune lies, she's still shining like lightning, woah, white lightning.❞ 

10: million dollar man – ( another song about her ex from high school ) ❝you said I was the most exotic flower, holding me tight in our final hour. i don't know how you convince them and get them, boy, i don't know what you do, it's unbelievable. and i don't know how you get over, get over. someone as dangerous, tainted, and flawed as you. one for the money, two for the show. i love you, honey; i'm ready, i'm ready to go. how did you get that way? i don't know. you're screwed up and brilliant. you look like a million dollar man, so why is my heart broke?❞ 

11: summertime sadness – ( @ofcdean & @theocannon​ ) ❝kiss me hard before you go. summertime sadness, i just wanted you to know, that baby, you're the best. i got that summertime, summertime sadness. s-s-summertime, summertime sadness. got that summertime, summertime sadness.❞ 

12: this is what makes us girls – ( @ofcimani & their degrassi days ) ❝remember how we used to party up all night? sneaking out and looking for a taste of real life, drinking in the big city firelight ( Pabst Blue Ribbon on ice. ) sweet sixteen, and we had arrived, walking down the streets as they whistle, "hi, hi!" stealin' police cars with the senior guys, teachers said we'd never make it out alive. there she was, my new best friend. high heels in her hand, swayin' in the wind. while she starts to cry, mascara running down her little Bambi eyes, "nova, how I hate those guys".❞ 

13: without you –  ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝everything i want, i have. money, notoriety, and rivieras. i even think i found love in the flashbulbs of the pretty cameras. pretty cameras, pretty cameras. am I glamorous? tell me, am I glamorous? hello? hello? ca-can you hear me? i can be your china doll if you want to see me fall. boy, you're so dope, your love is deadly. tell me life is beautiful, they all think I have it all. but i've nothing without you. all my dreams and all the lights mean nothing without you. we were two kids just tryin' to get out, lived on the dark side of the American dream. we would dance all night, play our music loud, but when we grew up, nothing was what it seemed.❞ 

14: lolita – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝would you be mine? would you be my baby tonight? could be kissing my fruit punch lips in the bright sunshine. 'cause I like you quite a lot, everything you got, don't you know it's you that I adore?❞ 

15: lucky ones – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝let's get out of this city, baby, we're on fire. everyone around here seems to be going down, down, down. if you stick with me, i can take you higher, and higher. it feels like all of our friends are lost, nobody's found, found, found. i got so scared, i thought no one could save me, you came along, scooped me up like a baby. every now and then, the stars align, boy and girl meet by the great design. could it be that you and me are the lucky ones? everybody told me love was blind, then i saw your face, and you blew my mind. finally, you and me are the lucky ones this time.❞ 

16: ride  – ( about her partying habits ) ❝i hear the birds on the summer breeze, i drive fast, I am alone at midnight. been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I, I've got a war in my mind so, i just ride, just ride, i just ride, i just ride. dying young and playing hard, that's the way my father made his life an art. drink all day and we talk 'til dark. that’s the way the road dogs do it, light ‘til dark.❞ 

17: american – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝you make me crazy, you make me wild. just like a baby, spin me 'round like a child. your skin so golden brown. be young, be dope, be proud, like an American. ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh.❞ 

18: cola – ( @ofcdean & @theocannon​ ) ❝ah, he's in the sky with diamonds and he’s making me crazy ( i come alive, alive. ) all he wants to do is party with his pretty baby. come on baby, let’s ride we can escape to the great sunshine.❞

19: body electric – ( @theocannon & carley ) ❝my clothes still smell like you, all the photographs say you're still young. i pretend i'm not hurt and go about the world like I'm having fun.❞

20: blue velvet – ( carley ) ❝blue velvet, but in my heart there'll always be. precious and warm a memory, through the years...and I still can see blue velvet through my tears.❞

bonus tracks:

21: gods & monsters – ( yet another song about her partying habits ) ❝you got that medicine i need. fame, liquor, love, give it to me slowly, put your hands on my waist, do it softly. me and him, we don’t get along, so now I sing. no one’s gonna take my soul away, i’m living like Jim Morrison. headed towards a fucked up holiday. motel sprees, sprees and I’m singing, "fuck yeah, give it to me, this is Heaven, what I truly want." it's innocence lost, innocence lost. in the land of gods and monsters, i was an angel, looking to get fucked hard like a groupie incognito, posing as a real singer. life imitates art.❞

22: yayo – ( a song about her ex from highschool...again ) ❝hello, heaven, you are a tunnel lined with yellow lights, on a dark night ( dark night ) yayo, yeah you, yayo.❞

23: bel air – ( @theocannon ) @norightwcy ❝roses, Bel Air, take me there. i've been waiting to meet you. palm trees in the light, i can see late at night, darling, i’m waiting to greet you. come to me, baby. spotlight, bad baby, you've got a flair. for the violentest kind of love anywhere out there. mon amour, sweet child of mine, you're divine. didn't anyone ever tell you it's okay to shine?❞

[ a recording of imani’s voice when talking to kenzie begins playing ] there’s nothing in this world that i wouldn’t do for my little baby, because i love you

[ footage of jupiter and imani with hudson, kenzie, and bree all begin playing ]

[ intro ] hush little baby don't you cry, daddy’s gonna love you all your life and if you ever need a friend, daddy’s right there till the very end and if you're feeling down or weak, daddy’s gonna give you all the strength you need there's nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for my little babies 'cause I love you 

[ verse 1 ] it all can get so out of control sometimes  you can lose your faith, you can lose your mind, lose your grip, get stripped of your pride ‘till you don't know how you're gonna stay alive and this world can throw you over the track sometimes, your friends can stab you in the back sometimes you just break down when this life tries to wreck you, i’ll protect you yeah 

[ chorus ] i got your back, i got you i take your side, i lay my life down for you i'll crawl over broken glass, i will stand in the flame take the bullet, take the blows, i would take all the pain anything, anything that you gotta get through hey, hey, i got you hey, hey, I got you

[ verse 2 ] it all can push you over the edge sometimes, make you wanna jump off the ledge sometimes make you wanna stand up and scream, make you feel like there is no one listening this world can put a hole in your soul sometimes, put you at the end of your road sometimes you just break down when this world tries to end you, i’ll defend you yeah

[ chorus ] i got your back, i got you i take your side, i lay my life down for you i'll crawl over broken glass, i will stand in the flame take the bullet, take the blows, i would take all the pain anything, anything that you gotta get through hey, hey, i got you hey, hey, i got you hey, hey, i got you

[ verse 3 ] i’ll be there to stop the bleeding i’ll be there to start the healing i will give you what you're needing i'll be right there