#cancelled

okok serious, this is definitely one of the most embarrassing things to admit, and I’m not sure how exactly to say it so I better just come right out with it.

basically, I saw a message today about one of my fanfics on my ao3 being ai, and while I’m sure I could get away with just ignoring it I don’t want to leave it unaddressed even if it was just one person.

I really want to sit here and tell you all that the statement has no truth, but for the people who enjoy my writing—I know they deserve better than me just trying to sweep it under the rug so here we go.

I have to admit I did use ai to assist me on one particular writing, the one called “the price of three”, and I’m not proud of it in anyway shape or form. not only was it dishonest to those who read it but also it was dishonest to myself—as I really did work hard on the parts that were all my own and now the whole piece has to suffer for my mistakes. I was having a very hard time getting through some of the scenes that I just wasn’t as interested in so, I decided to be lazy and let an ai fill in some of the more boring parts—which was wrong, I knew that then but I just let myself get carried away in all the support and nice feedback I was getting on it. I knew ai was bad, and as an artist myself I should know better than to use it. I’m not super familiar with writing as much as I am art, but I do know that when I see ai art it’s really frustrating and I’m sure it’s the same way for people who work hard on their own writings.

And let me make this clear, I’m not at all trying to make excuses like “oh it’s okay cause I wrote a lot of it myself,” or “well it’s only ai assisted so it’s fine.” cause at the end of the day I still used ai for something that could have 100% been done by me if I wasn’t being lazy. I hope you all don’t think I’m some sort of ai slop worshiper now—as I promise you I don’t normally use ai in any of my other works. I’ve been writing since 2021 (I’m sure you can go back and find my cringy fanfics) 😭 I’m a writer through and through, I love it and I’ll continue to write my own original stories to hopefully make up for the one I messed up on.

still, I know I can spout “I’m sorry” all day long, but at the end of the day I still used ai..an apology isn’t worth much when you already broke someone’s trust. so I’ll just let my actions speak for me, I can promise you right now—you will not be seeing any further ai associated with me at all. I don’t support it, and I never will, I just let myself get stuck and took an easy out instead of taking a break and coming back with a clear mind. I’m very sorry to those of you who liked that fanfic, I liked it too, the parts I wrote myself anyway. but I think it’s only right I take it down, even if it’s a little painful 😓 to hopefully prove I’m committed to being completely ai free from this point onwards.

again, I’m so so sorry. it was never my intention to create an ai slop story for a few cheap clicks—I just got burnt out and lazy towards the end of my work so I hope if anything, some of you who also write can relate to that and at least understand where I’m coming from.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE, those of you who are enjoying my labyrinth au, no sweat, that is completely my original work and I’m excited to write more. I’m sure you could probably tell by chapter one having a billion writing errors but I’ve vowed to not use anymore ai whenever I’m feeling stuck on a scene I’m bored with—so, you can expect the updates to be slower but definitely all me. 🥳 and I hope you all can forgive me for stooping to such lows—it was never my intention to be dishonest about my work as I just wanted to give you all something you’d be impressed with.

okay last time, I’m sure your all getting bored reading this now, but just know I’m very sorry for this mistake, and it won’t happen again. I completely understand if any of you no longer want to associate with me for this, I wouldn’t blame a single one. but I hope that you’ll give me a chance to make it up to you all! <3

anyway this is me, this is launchpad. we are one, I’m going to crawl in a hole somewhere and die of embarrassment. whenever I return I hope I don’t have fire and pitchforks at my neck 😰 this is going to be one of those moments I think about at 3 am 🫶