#cala rambles

Having a crush on someone when you have fucked up kinks is so embarrassing bc you’re just like “wow they’re so cute I want them to get off on the way I cry while they fuck me”

SELKIE REI. SELKIE TODOROKI KIDS. IM. HOKY SHIT.

Maybe I’m just being a slut, but I love the way that different people give you different kink experiences. I love learning the way that people react. I love that some Doms like you sweet and submissive, even when they’re doing the worst shit to you. I love that others want you to kick and scream and fight them. I love finding out what makes people tick and doubling down on it to turn them feral. Kinky people are so delightful 🥰

Nothing activates my prey brain like someone grabbing the back of my neck. It doesn’t matter the context, I just immediately go a little limp and braindead, which is very embarrassing to have happen in a public place. Very embarrassing to get all weak and helpless and need to be led to wherever we’re going because I just forgot where we were for a second. Very embarrassing how easy it is to make my prey-coded ass docile.

As if kinky dating was not enough of a pain in the ass, now we have not only fake Doms, but fake Doms using fucking ChatGPT to answer basic ass questions 🤦‍♀️

The doctor said I need all of your attention 24/7. Yeah, that’s what they said, that I don’t get enough attention. They said I have “attention deficit”.

Anyways he’s sleeping beside me right now and I just wanna say that the sex is fun, but my favourite thing we’ve done while he visited has been have a LOT of deep talks related to our own patterns of conflict, and that’s even better than sex. Genuinely, there is nothing hotter or more connecting to me than watching someone work through their own shit in real time.