#caddison

ty for the tag @nostradamus0!! i have finally started writing again so i finally have something to share

from caddison wip:

Callie kind of wants to give her a nickname. Ads, she thinks. It’s perfect for her. Perfect, unlike the Addie that she’s heard from Derek, heard giggled from Meredith’s breathless lips. Addie is too sweet, too girlish for the sharp-eyed, hard woman that emerged from the wreckage of her heartbreak and resulting divorce. She watches Addison’s mouth twist into a smirk, thinks about the way she burns with Addison around. Thinks about the way Addison’s eyes turned wide and vacant, just for a moment, after Callie kissed her. Callie does not give her a nickname.

from chapter 9 of revenge:

“Dance with me?” She asks softly before she can talk herself out of it, gazing directly into Addison’s now-shining eyes, unwinding an arm to offer her hand between them. Addison places her hand in Meredith’s hesitantly, eyes darting around them at the grass collecting dew. “Here?” Pulling her in, Meredith whispers, “Where else?” Dancing turns into little more than swaying against each other, Addison’s cheek warm where it’s pressed against hers and cold hands on waists under coats, but it’s nice. It’s calming in a way that it wasn’t when she danced with Finn only hours earlier. Addison’s presence is calming, here in the dewy grass among the bugs. “This is nice,” Addison murmurs. “I needed, I—” she takes a breath that only wavers a little, “it’s nice, isn’t it? Here in the quiet?” Meredith hums her agreement. “Quieter. It’s easier to breathe away from all of—” she waves a hand ambiguously, “everything.” They don’t talk much after that. Addison is warm, and solid, and holding her. Most importantly, she’s not pulling away. Her hands move aimlessly, trailing from her waist and up her back underneath George’s jacket and back down, and her heart thumps rhythmically against Meredith’s shoulder. It’s soothing. 

(although i am *relatively* new to the greys fandom, once i finished season three i immediately obsessively scoured the internet for any addison montgomery centric fanfiction i could get my hands on. here are just a few of my favorite ones for each of my addison ships (of which there are many). this is by no means an exhaustive list. my qualifications for this are that i’m cool and have good taste and spend way too much time thinking about fictional people)

ADDEK:

-“The Climbing Way” by winter machine (this is actually probably one of my favorite fanfictions of all time, period. this author is just absolutely brilliant at capturing their dynamic and all of its complexities. the entire thing is actually from derek’s POV which i was surprised how much i enjoyed considering i can sometimes be a derek hater lol but it provides some really good insight into his character without being as forgiving as canon or as bash-y as some fics (if that makes any sort of sense?). it also combines two of my favorite addek tropes: “sad baby backstory” and “traumatic event forces them to actually confront their issues”. it is also a very captivating portrait of derek and mark’s realtionship and has lots and lots of flashbacks. big angst warning especially for the early chapters.)

-“Some Bright Morning” by winter machine (i just can’t get enough of this author. i love any addek fic that heavily features savvy and weiss bc i think they should have made more appearances in canon. or savvy should’ve at least lmao. weiss was kind of a dick. but i like him in this fic! this is a very very interesting AU because it takes place largely outiside of canon settings and features a lot of OCs. it also takes place around early season one so the mark wound is still very fresh. its set entirely on a small island in georgia during savvy’s mother’s funeral so there’s plenty of forced proximity and bed sharing. the original setting and cast of characters are really fleshed out and completely captivating. like, i would read a whole separate story just about this island and its inhabitants. also features lots of background on savvy and addison’s friendship. and plenty of angst of course. you may be sending a pattern with these recommendations)

-“do you think i have forgotten (about you)” by crime_wives (this one legitimately made me sob. like, my body produced actual tears. angsty one shot. not happy-addek. a perfect snapshot of their tragic ending)

- “Unhinged (AddisonandDerekandMark)” by RulerOfAllThatIsEvilChiFlowers (very dark. very twisty. somewhat non linear.)

- “This Hurt Can Teach Us Both” by darlingwrecks (oh my lord this one is so so addek- bittersweet, sexy, nostalgic, painful and delightful all at once. my favorite thing about this writer is the way they write backstory, especially for the Med School Trio. this is also kind of fun because we never got to see how these two dealt with their post divorce logistics. derek was just kind of like “take all the property and fuck off” which is not at all how these things work lol)

MEDDISON:

- “lately she’s undressing for revenge” by emilyprentits (only read this if you want to be driven to tear your own hair out by the emotions this will make you feel. this is one of the fics that fully convinced me to ship meddison. so so so good and it’s like it was written from inside of meredith’s actual brain)

-“i’ll show you every version of yourself tonight” by withpeopleinperson (two words: stripper addison. read it. be forewarned it’s only one chapter and has not been updated in a few years but it’s a GREAT chapter regardless)

-“the seven stages of intoxication” by theprincessdiarist (meredith grey doling out meredith grey levels of emotional dysfunction. featuring loads and loads of delightfully frustrating mutual pining)

-“Sex and Caring in Seattle” by Bluefall (meredith once again having totally normal and regular feeling about her ex boyfriend’s wife. i love this one because they are both just kind of bisexual disasters and derek is just Also There. i love the way this author perfectly captures meredith’s perpetual inability to navigate her own emotions)

*EDIT: i also realized i forgot to add that these last two were recommended to me by @crime-wives !!!

-“open the floodgates up” by SugarsweetRomantic (this has EVERYTHING you could want in a meddison fic: mutual hurt/comfort, bed sharing, friends to lovers, these two being absolute dumbasses about each other. had me crying and also kicking my feet. genuinely)

MADDISON:

-“Make This Go On Forever” by darlingwrecks (i am so in love with this universe. i usually don’t gravitate toward kid/family centric fics but this one is so so much more than that. it’s maddison, if those two had made a real go of things, stayed in new york, and kept the pregnancy. there’s even some background merder eventually (which is not usually my jam but i like in this context). very very fluffy at times, a bit angsty at others, super in character but iirc i think this was written pretty early on in the show so addison and mark’s backgrounds may be a smidge different than in canon. this is the link to the rewritten version (i think?) on ao3. the author had the original up on live journal back in the day and i could have SWORN i read a sequel that i found a link to in the depths of their LJ but i cannot find it anywhere rn)

-“When I Grow Up” by winter machine (another maddison-if-they’d-stayed-in-new-york-and-addison-kept-the-pregnancy, but with a twist that brings them to seattle to see derek, who they haven’t spoken to in seven years. a fantastic plot but also sort of just a brilliant exploration of how mark and addison would be as parents given their own childhoods and how they have pretty much been cut off from the one healthy(ish) family dynamic that either of them have experienced. there’s also background merder in this one and it actually kind of made me like merder which is a major feat)

-“Celery” by winter machine (a fun little one shot featuring Derek Being An Idiot, Drunk Addison, and Mark Crossing Boundaries. a little bit sad and a little bit funny. again, everything by this author is just great)

JADDISON:

- “A Certain Slant of Light” by darlingwrecks (this is for those of us that were weirded out by addison’s convo with amelia in season 18. a more fleshed out exploration of addison’s mental health during the pandemic. it’s a very raw and honest portrayal of depression and anxiety and how someone like addison would navigate it while being a doctor in a global pandemic and raising an 8 year old. it’s not nearly as bleak as it sounds though. lots of fluff, a little smut. also touches on how addison might’ve grieved mark and derek. and archer makes some appearances which i loved (i know he’s an asshole but i really like addison’s brother lol))

-“Diamonds in the Sky” by Ziaaaaa_sdc (there’s so few jaddison fics out there, probably because of how compressed their relationship timeline was as they tried to wrap up the show, but this writer has several and they’re all so good. there definitely aren’t enough fun AUs for them so i was really excited when i first found this. its Ballet School Jaddison and there’s actually only three chapters atm. no idea if it will be updated ever again but it’s still more than worth a read. a smidge angsty so far. also seems to be setting up a little enemies to lovers arc)

CADDISON:

Sky's Still Blue || Addison and Callie

Oh, I could call you names now. List a hundred reasons for why you were awful. But what would that do? Where would it leave me? I still loved you. I still have to live with that. In which Addison is hurt, Callie is her rebound, and nothing is fair.

Addison Montgomery/Callie Torres. M. 2.4k. 1/2.

tagged by the lovely @nostradamus0 !

i write so much about hair because its such a Thing with all the women i write. so even though i haven't written in hundreds of years there's a lot.

from my wip Helpless:

Callie looks up and is momentarily stunned speechless. Addison has her hair curled in that way she likes, the way that curls perfectly around her index finger. She’s stopped in front of Callie’s chair, lips curled in a way that cannot possibly be seductive. 

from chapter 9 of revenge:

Addison presses her eyes shut, little wrinkles showing stark against her pale skin; her exhale pitches upward like a laugh. She pulls Meredith back into her warmth only to press a kiss to her temple, to the crown of her hair. Her hands brush palms gently over wet cheeks, brushing the ebbing flow of tears from the corners of her eyes. She’s so soft. In the moment, Meredith wants her more than anything.

from a misc document when i was really convinced i was going to write general danvers:

Alex—Alex, all rumpled hair and tired eyes barely slits peeking open, gruffly saying Go look and waving a vague hand toward the bookshelf in the corner of her room. Astra doesn’t want to wake her, to bother her at night more than she already does. She needs her sleep. Astra turns toward the bookshelf.

and finally from the grey spider au:

“I brought you some ice,” Addison calls to the figure seated on the edge of the rooftop, her feet dangling over the city. The door slams shut behind her. Grey turns. Her mask is already down around her neck; a lopsided smile curves pink lips. Addison slows to a stop next to her; pulls her coat closer around her body with a shiver. The air is colder up here, the wind whipping her hair into knots. “Thank you,” Grey says, pressing the ice to her ribs with a grimace.

ty for the tag @nostradamus0!

(original post linked here) i had a very little amount of wips with this word in it?? maybe i need to have people promise things more often.

from what's it gonna be (a love affair?) - a fic i will never finish:

Tammy doesn’t think about much else but enjoying the time when she’s with Sheena. Making promises of a next time — especially in their line of work — is dangerous. “Wanna be my Valentine, kitty?” Tammy purrs. Not really a valentine, just in name. Other than the sex that they’ll have later, but with the way Sheena is looking at her right now, that’s a given. “You want to be my Valentine.” The statement, paired with the growing smirk on Sheena’s lips is infuriating.

from a kinky pwp that unintentionally ended up with so many feelings:

“Pretty, pretty girl,” Addison murmurs, finger tracing a line down her neck and into the dip in her blouse. Meredith shivers when her eyes meet hers. “Do we remember our colors?” “Yes,” she says, breathless and waiting. The way Addison’s eyes glint in the light is dangerous like a promise; the way she brings a hand up to fist in blonde curls makes Meredith’s blood sing. “Yes, who?”

from a silkcat secret agent au i will never finish:

Bobbi looks down on the broken form of Felicia Hardy and to her surprise, she feels a flash of sympathy for the woman. Despite the fact that they had tried to keep their… relationship a secret from the team, Bobbi knew. Bobbi always knew. She knew best of all what it felt like to lose a partner, to lose someone so close to you. She had promised Cindy not to tell her what had happened, where she was going, but standing there, next to Felicia, she almost broke that promise. What was a promise made to a dead person worth, anyway?

from an unnamed caddison wip:

“Callie, honey,” Addison purrs into the phone, and Callie shivers despite herself, “Why don’t you come down here and visit for a weekend?” Callie’s hand tightens on her phone. When she doesn’t speak, Addison continues. “Take a couple days, I know you have some saved up.” She pauses, voice dipping to seduction, “I’ll make it worth your while, Cal.” Her face heats, and just like that she knows she’d do anything for Addison, anything, if only she asked. “Promise?” She rasps.

tagged by @nostradamus0!

Somehow, against all odds and the protests of Callie’s logical mind, they become friends. The unlikely friendship stems from Addison, sobbing in a bathroom stall; a divorce; an exhausted moment after surgery. These events are connected, whether Callie’s mind registers the progression of events for what it is or not. Months, years later, she looks back and mourns the sequence of events. Sometimes she wishes they never happened. More often, she curses Derek Shepherd for unknowingly bringing his ex-wife into her orbit in the first place.