#bye 2015

I don’t really know a lot of people... but I know for a fact that for me and some people, 2015 was a bummer. For regular people like me, it went by so fast, not because it was filled with fun and laughter, but with multiple challenges and struggles that brought me/us down. Since it’s 2016, I don’t want to be as disappointed and hopeless as I had been in 2015. I won’t make a new year’s resolution, since a good friend of mine did tell me that you actually don’t need a whole year to reinvent yourself. Besides, I might not be able to fulfill much of the goals in that list. Anyways, I wish us beings a good 2016. Hopefully, it’ll be better than last year. PEACE!

I might be a little late to the party on this one but I think I need to review my year and my progress through life. At the end of 2014 I had my heart broken completely and by the time 2015 rolled around I rebuilt myself completely as a person becoming my favorite version of myself. I had just began my actual nursing classes in school as I was closing out my sophomore year. I broke out my shell and partied with my friends and kicked ass in school. By the time the summer rolled around I was applying for jobs in hospitals and by some stroke of fate I landed a nursing internship at a local hospital, my dream workplace. I loved my job there working 12 hour shifts, getting experience in the nursing field and making excellent money. It was extremely stressful but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I exercised every day during the summer sometimes biking 10 miles 3 times a week, did yoga religiously and ate excellent food. I was the best version of myself I could have and will ever be. In June I guess I felt like there was still something missing though I had so much already and I joined a few online dating sites/ apps and really found nothing of any worth. I talked to one guy from tinder for a while who I convinced myself that I liked except he was an utter douchebag in the end and conveniently blocked me on all forms of social media after he was done using me. I promised myself I wouldn't date anyone for a while after that. Then In the middle of July I had a party at my house while my parents were away (they knew about the whole thing) for my friend's 20th birthday. It was an amazing and hilarious night and I have never felt closer to my friends in my entire life. Soon after this at the very end of July, I went on Tinder late one night on a whim and ended up meeting the man who has now been my boyfriend for almost 6 months. He's the sweetest, most genuine, inspiring, hard-working guy ever. I am very blessed to have him in my life. We've been through a lot in our relationship already, things that most couples have not had to deal with and never will but life is a learning process and him and I are both learning. Things happen that are out of your control and it fucking hurts to face the pain of it but you have to move on and not keep dwelling on the past. School was beyond stressful this semester and almost drove me to my breaking point as I suffered from 3 different infection in the span of 1.5 months. I picked myself up and kept doing what I had to do not letting anyone know how broken I was and kicked ass once again in all my classes and received a 3.7 GPA and A's and B's in all my class, this is no easy feat in nursing school. Once Christmas break rolled around I couldn't have been happier to be home and was happy enjoying my time with my parents, boyfriend and friends. On New Year's Eve I attended the Dark Star Orchestra concert with my boyfriend and it was beyond amazing. Since dating him he has really gotten me into the grateful dead so that was a perfect way to celebrate the New Year. We danced and held each other extra close at the very end of the concert and I've never felt closer to or loved anyone more in my entire life. They played from 9pm-2am and I loved every second of it. I never actually had a New Years kiss but this year I did and it was worth the wait. So as I glance back on the year I've grow more this year than ever before and wouldn't change a thing about it.