#bursary

07.28.19

Today I saw my doctor. We talked a lot about how things have been over the past 2 weeks. I told her my grades were dropping and I’m struggling more in school because the voices are interfering with my concentration in class and my memory is really bad. She didn’t understand my grades dropping because she said when we met last time I was doing okay. I explained that I had some other assessments within the past 2 weeks and they show that my grades are definitely dropping.

She said my therapist left her a note. Apparently my therapist said in the note that I want to hear voices and didn’t want meds because I want to hear them. I honestly don’t remember saying that. I’m pretty sure I said that it would be weird not hearing the voices and it would be weird if I had more meds to try to control them. At no point did I say I want to hear the voices. That’s f*cking stupid. They ruin my life. They make me confused and destroy my concentration and everything else.

We talked about me meeting with the psychologist about testing. My doctor said she will talk to the psychologist to see what testing can be done with the amount of benefits that I have available. So I should hear about what the psychologist says in 2 weeks.

I found out today that I got granted the bursary for students with disabilities to help with tutoring for my PSYC*1010 class. I will have to talk to my SAS advisor about my next steps with it and how I access the money and pay the tutor. I still have to email the tutor to see if she’s available still.

My psychiatrist showed me her medication book and said my 300mg dose of Seroquel XR was technically a starting dose and 400mg is a maintenance dose. She also said that 800mg of it is the maximum dose. So she said we can increase it more if we wanted to. She looked at my bloodwork and said it was fine and that I wasn’t having any metabolic side effects (yet) from it. So she proposed going up to 350mg or 400mg. We decided on 400mg and so I went to the pharmacy to get it. The Walmart pharmacy I go to didn’t have the 400mg tablets but said they could order them in for tomorrow. But I said my doctor wanted me to start it tonight. So they decided to give me 200mg strength and I have to take 2 of them. Which is fine. 

So yeah. I don’t know if the 400mg is going to help, but we’re going to try. 

At the end of the appointment we somehow started talking about dogs and how some dogs around campus wear boots. I don’t remember how the conversation started.

I have therapy on Monday at 9am. 

Meds:

Fetzima 120mg

Seroquel 25-50mg

My school: We offer a bursary of one hundred pound each term to pupils who apply.

Me: *Runs to office to get a form.*