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I'll be liying if i told you guys that i was a fan since the beginning, because i was not, i had my first job at 9 years old,and never worked less than eleven hours a day to support a familly that never stopped being poor against all odds, i never had time or energy to be a fan of nothing or no one, and the only art that i've ever known was on the books of the public library of my town,where i fall asleep for three hours, in that space between my shifts and school, that's how i learn english,and other 4 lenguages,where i become kind of a prodigy reading astronomy and philosophy and where at my thirteen's, my favourite book "the little prince" came into my life and give me hope that my life may be different some day. But it wasn't, fiction is fiction and reality hits you hard every single time it has the chance. i'm turning 23 on february 28th of 2021, if i'm lucky. And in the middle of a global pandemic i had to stop working at all because my doctor said to me, in a very shitty and unempatethic way, that i'm diying. it is in my brain, it is untouchable and they gave me 6 months two months ago. I'm not in pain,  but because i can't work, i had time for the first time in my life to grab my computer for other than studiying and make mathematics of my own economy that always lead to zero no matter how much hours i gave away,hours that are not coming back, and i can't remeber how or when, i stopped on one of your videos. I was amazed. truly, the talent and the personalities of each of you, but that wasn't it. i't was your humble, that make my heart tender and fall for you in a platonic,almost brotherish way. I never gonna get to go to one of ur concerts, not only because of the obvious reason that i will not be here to the next one, but because i could never afford a ticket , not in my best days, that i could even afford lunch AND dinner. The reason that i become a fan,was because,against all odds, you prove to me something that i believe it was impossible: that good people,real good and humble people are still out there,sending messages of love and resilience, and even when i'm scared shitless of what is coming , i'm leaving with a tender feling, that the world is changing for people like you, and that,just that makes me happy, that makes it better. i had an awful life, an IQ of 136 that it work for nothing and i never been nothing but lonely, if that is not bad enough, i'm 22 and diying of brain cancer,smoking 2 packs of cigarretes by day because WHY THE HELL NOT, and it takes away the apetite when u have no food. i'm scared, and hopeless and my only wish is that you guys, that have the time,that still can, never change. please never change, because no matter how much the world is changing, there is always a nine years old girl,working 11 hours a day and no eating in some place in this shitty world, and someone would turn on the radio, or keep the tv in the back on, and she/her/they would see you. And she's gonna felt like she is not alone anymore. Thanks you endlessly. And even when you don't know me, and in a couple of months my mind wouldn't recognize you either .i truly love you,you give me hope. and that's something not many people can do, real hope,from humble hearts. Much love and grattitude, F.

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