#bsd kin

Armed Detective Agency shiny buttons

Part one of our BSD shiny buttons series. Please credit if using. Font used can be found here.

Magical girl themed Yosano x Fyodor layouts

Assets used: PSD by mischiefesse, Heart icon frame, Madoka and Homura dolls, Shiny button font, Stamp frame used

I am emotionally numb. I didn't know of this until now.

realized i should probably make a proper introductory post

my name is vikter, any myriad of relevant nicknames or simply my user will suffice

masc-nonbinary, it/its pronouns, mistrum/mont/mrt. as replacement for mr./ms./mrs.

i am a dazai(bungo stray dogs) and AM(i have no mouth and i must scream) fictionkin

also, a vampyrekin and mimickin

i typically shift between kins as opposed to existing in a constant state of being my kintypes (example: i won't be closely identifying with dazai and vampyre at the same time)

first time i watched bsd i was 13 (seven years ago, yes) and of course i started reading more books (blah blah blah) and of course i got interested in psychology.. so my main goal back then was to find out what character traits of bsd characters i matched. that exact moment when you try to figure out who you kin, and then you're like "omg that's literally me!!!" doesn't feel right, so you have to dig into every single character in the show...

and everything was fine, but between 2020 and 2023 i "changed my mind" way too many times. people even made fun of me like, "is there anyone you DON'T kin in bsd?", to which i replied, "i kin the entire concept of bsd," which, btw, is true.

but honestly, between the ages of 13 and 17, it’s way harder to understand yourself than a fictional character. only after i turned 18 did things finally start to click...

and then i turned 19, and in the ooc offtopic chat, i met a new member who roleplayed as naomi. in our dms, i started pouring my heart out to her about how much i hate the world around me, because it feels like there is no place for me here. despite having this kind of genius in me (which she recognized immediately), it feels like everyone else got the instruction manual on how this world works, but i was left without one... it’s like i know everything and nothing all at once. i’m constantly suspended between "i am special and incomparable, i'm so good at understanding how the world works, connecting the dots, predicting events, understanding people's minds – basically everything available to me that i can easily use. plus, my thoughts, texts, and poems are brilliant, i have tons of skills, and it feels like i can do absolutely EVERYTHING" and "they never gave me the manual for life, and without this genius of mine, i am nothing in this world. i can't even function like a normal human being..."

at the end of that talk, she texted me, "what if you're just a ranpo-kinnie??" that message hit me like a bullet to the chest. and i replied that i’d actually thought about it before. for a few fleeting seconds, it felt like i could say it out loud, but comparing myself to RANPO felt like something illegal... yet all this time, i saw myself in him.

when the episode dropped where he first meets fukuzawa and is just a lost child, i wanted to sob because i saw so much of myself in him. it felt physically painful. and even though so much time has passed since that story came out, i still feel that sharp, aching pain inside. i see myself in him, and during my time talking to "naomi", i finally allowed myself to accept it...

and you know what? literally every single friend of mine who has at least watched the anime was like, "bruh, did you just figure this out? that's literally you." even my own dad said he sees me in ranpo! you can only imagine the shock when i realized that people had been seeing me this way the whole time... while i was just terrified to say it out loud, thinking i'd get judged or people would think i'm just trying to flex this kin, instead of accepting the truth. i don't need to say i'm 100% like this character, because that's physically impossible, but i really do kin him...

i didn't write out a ton of details about my personality here, but rather the journey of accepting this kin, which took a long time... i'm just glad i don't have to keep quiet about it anymore!!

btw i'm turning 20 in exactly a month.

the format will be [name] ~ [source]. colored text means kinshift, okay? :)

furuta nimura ~ tokyo ghoul :re (permashift)

karren/kanae von rosewald ~ tokyo ghoul :re

muu kusunoki ~ milgram

chiaki nanami ~ danganronpa 2

shuichi saihara ~ danganronpa v3

gangle ~ the amazing digital circus

ribbit ~ the amazing digital circus

rui kamishiro ~ project sekai

light yagami ~ death note

anakin skywalker ~ star wars

venti/barbatos ~ genshin impact

vee ~ dandys world

yosano akiko ~ bungou stray dogs

n/natural harmonia gropius ~ pokemon black

jessie ~ (pokemon series)

elizabeth afton ~ fnaf

flambae ~ dispatch

angel dust ~ hazbin hotel*

*we dont support vivziepop. i havent watched hazbin hotel, just the pilot when it came out

jules' otherkinlist!

im okay with being called a person, but please dont call me a human being! youre a lying liar if you do. again, blue means kinshift!

ghoul (tokyo ghoul)

calico cat

the wind

red rose

ball jointed doll

white swan

robot

puppet

fairy

angie's otherkinlist!

dove

angel

white bunny

luna's fictionkinlist!

l lawliet ~ death note

ineffa ~ genshin impact

lizzie's fictionkinlist!

souta furuta ~ tokyo ghoul :re (permashift)

tsumugi shirogane ~ danganronpa v3

nikolai gogol ~ bungou stray dogs